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2023.06.03 20:28 RafflesiaArnoldii Reactivity III: Seeing it coming
Reactivity III: Seeing it coming
Welcome to this episode of ‘I read Enneagram Literature so you don’t have to’.
So one of the first things they tell you about deescalating conflict situations is that the number 1 thing to do is to make youre that you don’t get triggered & escalated yourself.
According to the so-called Law of Requisite Variety, the person who is the most flexible has the greatest chance to influence the outcome of a situation, and firing off your habitual pattern is the opposite of flexibility – its the best way to end up in the exact same argument with your spouse that you’re always in and that kind of feels like its the same one you had with all your exes and maybe even your parents because it’s hitting all those olf familiar pain points and fault lines.
So, how do we avoid this? The more set off you get the harder it becomes, after all these darn patterns are quite entrenched for many years with the punch of many past hurts behind them.
So one thing that’s been suggested is to try to spot your reactivity in its early stages, when it’s just starting to get going.
For this, it helps to try to note & then learn to recognize the specific emotional state and physical sensations that precede things going sideways, so that when you start feeling it you can take a deep belly breath, pause, Mindfully Observe (TM), interrupt/distract yourself with something random or whatever works for you to stop going into the usual loop.
Thus I want to note that to effectively do this you’d have to get a feel for what it feels like for you specifically, and probably on the first attempts you will only notice sort of in hindsight after you’ve already fired off – you’ve got to connect the words to the actual sensations that is meant by it & it’s more important to hone in on what ticks off you specifically than to be a perfect example specimen of your type, this is more helpful if its more individual.
That said, the book author has recorded some general tendencies based on what his clients report, so here are some general pointers of what to look for at least to start with, before you get a grasp on your individual ‘answer’ & can let that take precedence.
Maybe before you keep reading, try to stop & come up with an answer yourself first. What are you usually feeling before you get in a situation where you just react? What particularsituational cues set you off? Can you pinpoint what physical sensations this is usually accompanied by?
Maybe your being setoff or triggered looks like on of the following:
1
Chances are it concerned something that is flagrantly wrong that needs mentioning and correcting, or it might have something to do with unfairness, a lack of accountability or irresponsibility.
At some point, you might have launched into some kind of unrelenting, unforgiving condemnation of it. The judgement seems absolute; You feel rife with conviction. You can viscerally feel how wrong or disgusting it is.
Physically, you might have taken on a constricted, rigid stance, you might notice a tension in your face, body and jaw. Underneath it, that tension might be a long time’s worth of pent-up anger and resentment straining against its binds.
But your feelings, or anyone else’s, for that matter, are probably not on your radar, just the automatic, unshakeable judgement you have passed.
At some point, you’ve slipped into relating to the other person from a superior position, delivering the obvious, inarguable truth to them like the voice of the metatron.
2
It probably started as situation where you were expecting to get that good feeling of being able to help others or receive a positive reaction from them, but then it didn’t happen.
You might have been holding your breath, bracing for the others’ reaction, waiting to exhale when you would finally get the satisfaction of a job well done, but something’s in your way.
One moment youre relishing in that good feeling you get when you know just what the best thing to do is and will get to show your care & affection, and then you’re just left with this sense of tightness and anxiety in your heart.
Maybe there is what you perceive to be some frustrating impediment that kept you from helping, or, you feel that your goodwill has gone unappreciated.
It hurts. Its distressing.
Maybe to escape an underlying feeling that you’ve been rejected, humiliated or found dispensible, you slip into a kind of superior position of someone who did everything right but was unfairly slighted: You bring all this goodwill, nice intentions & dedication, and in return, you get hurt like this??
And when you feel that pain, and sense of being faced with ingratitude, you feel very much justified and rightfully entitled to react, to call out the other on all you did for them whiley they didn’t return it. At some point the attention shifted from whater intentions you had regarding the other person’s emotions to your own: Your hurt, your distress, your wounded feelings.
For once you feel justified in your ispleasure and in expressising it openly for everyone to see, because after all its the other person who wronged you, and after all you did for them...
3
The straw that broke the camels back was probably a situation where you saw the path to accomplishing your tasks and goals clearly before you, as a satisfying straight line from A to B… and then something got in the way. Or, you have done the thing and no one’s noticed. The approval or admiration that you’ve been expected just didn’t materialize. Or perhaps it’s a smaller obstacle, you are trying to work your charme on someone but you’re not suceeding at making the impression you were going on.
Whatever it was, at that point you probably launched yourself into some sort of impatience, agitation or frustration.
There might be a blinders-like effect when you’re focussed on the desired result. You’ve got to keep pushing, with the ellbows if necessary, and you have to come out looking good and having it under control.
Feelings and heartfelt receptivity that you might otherwise have featured in take the backseat for now in the name of competitive experience.
But underneath it all, this sweep of reactivity may be fueled by an anxious, distressed sense of impatience that is felt in your chest, and perhaps a bit of feeling unseen, ignored, not approved of.
But you don’t got time for this, or anybody else’s feelings, you gotta keep pushing, faster, harder, relentlessly, until the deed is done.
4
You’ve probably just been dissapointed. Again.
You don’t know how you allowed yourself to believe that this time, you might finally have been getting close to what you were looking for, but now you’ve fallen from the clouds and whatever moud you were in has abruptly and suddenly taken a plunge to miseryland.
You can’t help but notice everything that should be here but isn’t, everything that’s missing, that’s not enough, all the ways that you or others have fallen short.
Everything is terrible, it has always been terrible and always will be terrible, everything is just made of revolting terribleness.
What sparked this off was maybe a sharply felt realization of how your woes were going unheard, how you were going unseen once again, overlooked, dismissed or offensively disregarded.
Maybe you lash out and let them all hear about it and lambast them mercilessly in your spite and disgust, or you’ve stormed out, slamming the door behind you – or perhaps you’re just sitting there & sulking, marinating in your lamentations and your picking apart of yourself, the other people involved, and everything else in sight that just repulses and offends you, but in the end, when the fire has burned itself out and you’re left with the ashes, you’re left with the mournful yearning for your crushed, impossible dream that has once again slipped out of reach, longing for, and feeling yourself far from that which really matters, cut off from the ignorant bliss that everyone else seems to get to wade in.
5
Most likely, you are feeling hounded, pressured or put-upon.
It’s beginning to look like you may not be able to hold onto to all of your time, privacy or independence.
Or, someone’s come bargin into your personal space with jarring suddenness, is pelting you with invasive questions and/or and unloaded a bunch of demands on you that you feel inadequate to anticipate, let alone live up to.
Another common trigger is having your attempt to contribute some information blown off, (“no one wants to hear that nerd stuff!”) which on some level might register as a personal rejection.
The response is tendentially to pull away or disengage. You don’t care about all of this crap anyway and want nothing more to do with it. You need out, now. You can’t seem to get far away enough from any other living being, you can’t stand it if there’s so much as someone looking at you.
It might be felt as a sort of contracting sensation in your chest, a desire to hide, to shrink away to some corner, or into yourself if there’s nowhere else to go.
Under that there might be a lowkey panic of what you’re going to have to lose or give up, which is of course going to put you into a counterproductive defensive stance, some assumed script where you’re some tiny flimsy thing incapable of resisting and they’re going to devour you.
Others might then interpret this as you pushing them away or playing hard to get.
6
A common sign here that you’re going off is concern with an over-focussed magnification of something: A perceived discrepancy or incongruity, a possible danger, a nagging little doubt… whatever it is, you probably can’t stop thinking about it, thinking up pessimistic scenarios or fixating on your lack of preparedness.
Either way your thoughts are dominated by this preoccupation and the longer this goes on the more you work yourself into a frenzied state of being on-edge.
On the physical side this comes with all the symptoms of an adrenaline rush, emotionally it might be experienced as caution, anxiety, hostililty, suspicion, frustation or an explosive cocktail of all of these just waiting to ignite.
Sometimes you might touch the kindling off yourself by provoking or testing the other, confronting them with accusation or trying to take control of the situation.
(Note: Interestingly, this type 6 blogger wrote a whole article on the phenomenon of overfixating on details when worked up & her journey of trying to get from that to what she labels ‘productive thinking’ – usingStabile’s terminology here)
7
For 7 the characteristic reactivity is quintessentially a flight response, and as such set off by a sense of constriction, limitation, being trapped.
In an animal you might see this when there’s a concrete something to run away from but in us humans with our newfangled abstract thinking it can be caused by anything we see as trapping, caging or restraining us – such as unwanted feelings, unwelcome facts, infringements on our freedom, and what we consider part of living an unrestrained, unburdened live such as our sense of bouyancy, being able to stay positive, flexible, upbeat, stimulated, farseeing, having all the options & possibilities etc.
This includes when another person comes to you as a bearer of bad news and expresses or brings up feelings that you don’t want to engage with.
Underlying is often some anxiety about missing out & getting stuck in deprivation, sadness, boredom, helplessness, inferiority etc.
Experientially this might register as sense of anxious frustration, some constriction around the solar plexus and an influx of jittery, restless energy and heat as your body lowkey prepares to run for the hills. You might actually feel some urge to move, go do something else, change the topic, get out of the conversation etc. back to the ‘safety’ of what’s okay and positive. At this point your focus is mostly going to be on yourself and how you will avoid being caught by the figurative tiger and there is going to be far less mental bandwith to worry about the needs of anybody else.
8
What set you off was probably some kind of perceived violation: Someone has overstepped your boundaries and needs to be put back in line, or they are trying to overpower you and make you dance to their tune.
Another trigger might be things going against your will on your ‘turf’ – eg. someone doing the overpowering or violating to someone you care about, doing something on your watch that they’re not supposed to be doing, or otherwise going against your personal sense of justice, truth or fairness, right in from of your salad.
Physically this might feel like an intense rush of energy and heat. Sometimes there can be an outright exuberant or thrilling quality to it, a sense of relishing in the fight. Other times it’s pure survival and the response happens without thinking at all.
Either way the reaction is very fast and the resulting action almost immediate: Ready, aim, fire.
Once fired up, the effect is a bit like that of blinkers on a racehorse:
Your going to get your way and shut down what you don’t want, making use of whatever leverage you have in this situation or the weak points you might notice about your adversary (and there’s definitely a shift to an adversarial mindset) – often people don’t expect pushback and buckle right away, though this can be seen by others as steamrolling, intimidating or even domineering.
9
As a 9, your reactivity probably rather takes the form of inertia, of digging in your heels to stay in place rather than an activating force that gets you marching off to tear someone a new one, as many of the other types might. You’ve probably launched yourself into some kind of stubborn resistance because you feel you’re being pushed into action or forced into conflict when you don’t want it. Maybe you feel like you’re being pushed around, or that something that is really important to you personally is not being considered, that you’te being overlooked while no one seems to notice or care & just letting you & your interests be trampled underfoot.
It’s not rare for such a moment to have been preceded by situations where you had previously decided that it wasn’t worth stating your needs, asking to be included & considered & didn’t take any steps to ensure you’re on people’s priority list. You figured that it wasn’t worth it or you didn’t mind, but then something happened that really rubbed the salt in, or touched near some priority that you really don’t want to give up.
On the physical level this might be felt as a sense of leaden heavyness in your body; feelings wise you might experience despair, resignation, apathy and defeat. In any case it’s probably going to extinguish whatever motivation, vibrancy or vitality you might otherwise have had going on.
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Welcome to this episode of ‘I read Enneagram Literature so you don’t have to’.
So one of the first things they tell you about deescalating conflict situations is that the number 1 thing to do is to make youre that you don’t get triggered & escalated yourself.
According to the so-called Law of Requisite Variety, the person who is the most flexible has the greatest chance to influence the outcome of a situation, and firing off your habitual pattern is the opposite of flexibility – its the best way to end up in the exact same argument with your spouse that you’re always in and that kind of feels like its the same one you had with all your exes and maybe even your parents because it’s hitting all those olf familiar pain points and fault lines.
So, how do we avoid this? The more set off you get the harder it becomes, after all these darn patterns are quite entrenched for many years with the punch of many past hurts behind them.
So one thing that’s been suggested is to try to spot your reactivity in its early stages, when it’s just starting to get going.
For this, it helps to try to note & then learn to recognize the specific emotional state and physical sensations that precede things going sideways, so that when you start feeling it you can take a deep belly breath, pause, Mindfully Observe (TM), interrupt/distract yourself with something random or whatever works for you to stop going into the usual loop.
Thus I want to note that to effectively do this you’d have to get a feel for what it feels like for you specifically, and probably on the first attempts you will only notice sort of in hindsight after you’ve already fired off – you’ve got to connect the words to the actual sensations that is meant by it & it’s more important to hone in on what ticks off you specifically than to be a perfect example specimen of your type, this is more helpful if its more individual.
That said, the book author has recorded some general tendencies based on what his clients report, so here are some general pointers of what to look for at least to start with, before you get a grasp on your individual ‘answer’ & can let that take precedence.
Maybe before you keep reading, try to stop & come up with an answer yourself first. What are you usually feeling before you get in a situation where you just react? What particularsituational cues set you off? Can you pinpoint what physical sensations this is usually accompanied by?
Maybe your being setoff or triggered looks like on of the following:
1
Chances are it concerned something that is flagrantly wrong that needs mentioning and correcting, or it might have something to do with unfairness, a lack of accountability or irresponsibility.
At some point, you might have launched into some kind of unrelenting, unforgiving condemnation of it. The judgement seems absolute; You feel rife with conviction. You can viscerally feel how wrong or disgusting it is.
Physically, you might have taken on a constricted, rigid stance, you might notice a tension in your face, body and jaw. Underneath it, that tension might be a long time’s worth of pent-up anger and resentment straining against its binds.
But your feelings, or anyone else’s, for that matter, are probably not on your radar, just the automatic, unshakeable judgement you have passed.
At some point, you’ve slipped into relating to the other person from a superior position, delivering the obvious, inarguable truth to them like the voice of the metatron.
2
It probably started as situation where you were expecting to get that good feeling of being able to help others or receive a positive reaction from them, but then it didn’t happen.
You might have been holding your breath, bracing for the others’ reaction, waiting to exhale when you would finally get the satisfaction of a job well done, but something’s in your way.
One moment youre relishing in that good feeling you get when you know just what the best thing to do is and will get to show your care & affection, and then you’re just left with this sense of tightness and anxiety in your heart.
Maybe there is what you perceive to be some frustrating impediment that kept you from helping, or, you feel that your goodwill has gone unappreciated.
It hurts. Its distressing.
Maybe to escape an underlying feeling that you’ve been rejected, humiliated or found dispensible, you slip into a kind of superior position of someone who did everything right but was unfairly slighted: You bring all this goodwill, nice intentions & dedication, and in return, you get hurt like this??
And when you feel that pain, and sense of being faced with ingratitude, you feel very much justified and rightfully entitled to react, to call out the other on all you did for them whiley they didn’t return it. At some point the attention shifted from whater intentions you had regarding the other person’s emotions to your own: Your hurt, your distress, your wounded feelings.
For once you feel justified in your ispleasure and in expressising it openly for everyone to see, because after all its the other person who wronged you, and after all you did for them...
3
The straw that broke the camels back was probably a situation where you saw the path to accomplishing your tasks and goals clearly before you, as a satisfying straight line from A to B… and then something got in the way. Or, you have done the thing and no one’s noticed. The approval or admiration that you’ve been expected just didn’t materialize. Or perhaps it’s a smaller obstacle, you are trying to work your charme on someone but you’re not suceeding at making the impression you were going on.
Whatever it was, at that point you probably launched yourself into some sort of impatience, agitation or frustration.
There might be a blinders-like effect when you’re focussed on the desired result. You’ve got to keep pushing, with the ellbows if necessary, and you have to come out looking good and having it under control.
Feelings and heartfelt receptivity that you might otherwise have featured in take the backseat for now in the name of competitive experience.
But underneath it all, this sweep of reactivity may be fueled by an anxious, distressed sense of impatience that is felt in your chest, and perhaps a bit of feeling unseen, ignored, not approved of.
But you don’t got time for this, or anybody else’s feelings, you gotta keep pushing, faster, harder, relentlessly, until the deed is done.
4
You’ve probably just been dissapointed. Again.
You don’t know how you allowed yourself to believe that this time, you might finally have been getting close to what you were looking for, but now you’ve fallen from the clouds and whatever moud you were in has abruptly and suddenly taken a plunge to miseryland.
You can’t help but notice everything that should be here but isn’t, everything that’s missing, that’s not enough, all the ways that you or others have fallen short.
Everything is terrible, it has always been terrible and always will be terrible, everything is just made of revolting terribleness.
What sparked this off was maybe a sharply felt realization of how your woes were going unheard, how you were going unseen once again, overlooked, dismissed or offensively disregarded.
Maybe you lash out and let them all hear about it and lambast them mercilessly in your spite and disgust, or you’ve stormed out, slamming the door behind you – or perhaps you’re just sitting there & sulking, marinating in your lamentations and your picking apart of yourself, the other people involved, and everything else in sight that just repulses and offends you, but in the end, when the fire has burned itself out and you’re left with the ashes, you’re left with the mournful yearning for your crushed, impossible dream that has once again slipped out of reach, longing for, and feeling yourself far from that which really matters, cut off from the ignorant bliss that everyone else seems to get to wade in.
5
Most likely, you are feeling hounded, pressured or put-upon.
It’s beginning to look like you may not be able to hold onto to all of your time, privacy or independence.
Or, someone’s come bargin into your personal space with jarring suddenness, is pelting you with invasive questions and/or and unloaded a bunch of demands on you that you feel inadequate to anticipate, let alone live up to.
Another common trigger is having your attempt to contribute some information blown off, (“no one wants to hear that nerd stuff!”) which on some level might register as a personal rejection.
The response is tendentially to pull away or disengage. You don’t care about all of this crap anyway and want nothing more to do with it. You need out, now. You can’t seem to get far away enough from any other living being, you can’t stand it if there’s so much as someone looking at you.
It might be felt as a sort of contracting sensation in your chest, a desire to hide, to shrink away to some corner, or into yourself if there’s nowhere else to go.
Under that there might be a lowkey panic of what you’re going to have to lose or give up, which is of course going to put you into a counterproductive defensive stance, some assumed script where you’re some tiny flimsy thing incapable of resisting and they’re going to devour you.
Others might then interpret this as you pushing them away or playing hard to get.
6
A common sign here that you’re going off is concern with an over-focussed magnification of something: A perceived discrepancy or incongruity, a possible danger, a nagging little doubt… whatever it is, you probably can’t stop thinking about it, thinking up pessimistic scenarios or fixating on your lack of preparedness.
Either way your thoughts are dominated by this preoccupation and the longer this goes on the more you work yourself into a frenzied state of being on-edge.
On the physical side this comes with all the symptoms of an adrenaline rush, emotionally it might be experienced as caution, anxiety, hostililty, suspicion, frustation or an explosive cocktail of all of these just waiting to ignite.
Sometimes you might touch the kindling off yourself by provoking or testing the other, confronting them with accusation or trying to take control of the situation.
(Note: Interestingly, this type 6 blogger wrote a whole article on the phenomenon of overfixating on details when worked up & her journey of trying to get from that to what she labels ‘productive thinking’ – usingStabile’s terminology here)
7
For 7 the characteristic reactivity is quintessentially a flight response, and as such set off by a sense of constriction, limitation, being trapped.
In an animal you might see this when there’s a concrete something to run away from but in us humans with our newfangled abstract thinking it can be caused by anything we see as trapping, caging or restraining us – such as unwanted feelings, unwelcome facts, infringements on our freedom, and what we consider part of living an unrestrained, unburdened live such as our sense of bouyancy, being able to stay positive, flexible, upbeat, stimulated, farseeing, having all the options & possibilities etc.
This includes when another person comes to you as a bearer of bad news and expresses or brings up feelings that you don’t want to engage with.
Underlying is often some anxiety about missing out & getting stuck in deprivation, sadness, boredom, helplessness, inferiority etc.
Experientially this might register as sense of anxious frustration, some constriction around the solar plexus and an influx of jittery, restless energy and heat as your body lowkey prepares to run for the hills. You might actually feel some urge to move, go do something else, change the topic, get out of the conversation etc. back to the ‘safety’ of what’s okay and positive. At this point your focus is mostly going to be on yourself and how you will avoid being caught by the figurative tiger and there is going to be far less mental bandwith to worry about the needs of anybody else.
8
What set you off was probably some kind of perceived violation: Someone has overstepped your boundaries and needs to be put back in line, or they are trying to overpower you and make you dance to their tune.
Another trigger might be things going against your will on your ‘turf’ – eg. someone doing the overpowering or violating to someone you care about, doing something on your watch that they’re not supposed to be doing, or otherwise going against your personal sense of justice, truth or fairness, right in from of your salad.
Physically this might feel like an intense rush of energy and heat. Sometimes there can be an outright exuberant or thrilling quality to it, a sense of relishing in the fight. Other times it’s pure survival and the response happens without thinking at all.
Either way the reaction is very fast and the resulting action almost immediate: Ready, aim, fire.
Once fired up, the effect is a bit like that of blinkers on a racehorse:
Your going to get your way and shut down what you don’t want, making use of whatever leverage you have in this situation or the weak points you might notice about your adversary (and there’s definitely a shift to an adversarial mindset) – often people don’t expect pushback and buckle right away, though this can be seen by others as steamrolling, intimidating or even domineering.
9
As a 9, your reactivity probably rather takes the form of inertia, of digging in your heels to stay in place rather than an activating force that gets you marching off to tear someone a new one, as many of the other types might. You’ve probably launched yourself into some kind of stubborn resistance because you feel you’re being pushed into action or forced into conflict when you don’t want it. Maybe you feel like you’re being pushed around, or that something that is really important to you personally is not being considered, that you’te being overlooked while no one seems to notice or care & just letting you & your interests be trampled underfoot.
It’s not rare for such a moment to have been preceded by situations where you had previously decided that it wasn’t worth stating your needs, asking to be included & considered & didn’t take any steps to ensure you’re on people’s priority list. You figured that it wasn’t worth it or you didn’t mind, but then something happened that really rubbed the salt in, or touched near some priority that you really don’t want to give up.
On the physical level this might be felt as a sense of leaden heavyness in your body; feelings wise you might experience despair, resignation, apathy and defeat. In any case it’s probably going to extinguish whatever motivation, vibrancy or vitality you might otherwise have had going on.
2023.06.03 20:27 lactosedoesntlie Canon F1 (old) Won’t Shoot
Hi there! I hope all is well.
I recently bought a Canon F1 (Old) secondhand. It was working very well and had no major issues (light meter included). However, after about a month of shooting, I noticed that the light meter was no longer working. I replaced the 6V battery, and it not only didn’t fix it, but it also stopped releasing the shuttetaking photos at all. The issue appeared to be that the battery was not fully connecting to each side of the circuit (like it literally didn’t reach). I was unsure if my camera was missing a piece.
I took it to a camera repair shop and the shop owner put a piece of aluminum foil between the negative side of the battery and the camera’s circuit and it seemed to have fixed it. The meter was again working and the camera was able to take photos. Two weeks later to today, I seem to be having the same issue again. The meter only goes to an aperture recommendation of 2.0 and does not change for different lighting and using aluminum foil does not change anything. Moreover, the shutter release is again not working.
Any thoughts? Thank you so much!!!
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I recently bought a Canon F1 (Old) secondhand. It was working very well and had no major issues (light meter included). However, after about a month of shooting, I noticed that the light meter was no longer working. I replaced the 6V battery, and it not only didn’t fix it, but it also stopped releasing the shuttetaking photos at all. The issue appeared to be that the battery was not fully connecting to each side of the circuit (like it literally didn’t reach). I was unsure if my camera was missing a piece.
I took it to a camera repair shop and the shop owner put a piece of aluminum foil between the negative side of the battery and the camera’s circuit and it seemed to have fixed it. The meter was again working and the camera was able to take photos. Two weeks later to today, I seem to be having the same issue again. The meter only goes to an aperture recommendation of 2.0 and does not change for different lighting and using aluminum foil does not change anything. Moreover, the shutter release is again not working.
Any thoughts? Thank you so much!!!
2023.06.03 20:19 souphead420 Midi thru questions
I’m sure these sorts of questions are repetitive on here, but I’m new to the sub and could use some help with a signal chain confusion.
Currently I have a microkorg connected to a digitakt, using the digitakt as a sequencer for the microkorg on midi channel 1. I would like to utilize the midi thru option on the microkorg to also connect a critter and guitari organelle to the digitakt, so I can sequence both of these synths on the digitakt on 2 separate midi channels. I have tried connecting the organelle to the midi thru on the microkorg and then setting the channel to 2 for the organelle and digitakt on midi channel B on the digitakt.
What am I missing to do this? Any help is appreciated as this has become a little confusing for me; I’m sort of new to midi.
Thanks!
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Currently I have a microkorg connected to a digitakt, using the digitakt as a sequencer for the microkorg on midi channel 1. I would like to utilize the midi thru option on the microkorg to also connect a critter and guitari organelle to the digitakt, so I can sequence both of these synths on the digitakt on 2 separate midi channels. I have tried connecting the organelle to the midi thru on the microkorg and then setting the channel to 2 for the organelle and digitakt on midi channel B on the digitakt.
What am I missing to do this? Any help is appreciated as this has become a little confusing for me; I’m sort of new to midi.
Thanks!
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The great thing about the internet is that there are a ton of different ways to watch your favorite movies and TV shows for free. If you’re a fan of Book Club The Next Chapter, then you’re in luck, because there are a number of ways that you can watch the show online for free. One of the easiest ways to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to sign up for a free trial of a streaming service like Netflix, Hulu, or Amazon Prime. These trials usually last for a week or a month, and they give you access to all of the content that the service has to offer. If you time it right, you can sign up for a free trial just before Book Club The Next Chapter comes out, and then cancel it after you’ve watched the show. Another option for watching Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to find a friend who has a subscription to a streaming service and see if they’ll let you borrow their login information. This is a great option if you only want to watch the show once, but it’s not a good idea to do this on a regular basis. Finally, there are a number of websites that offer free, streaming, and ad-supported TV shows. These websites are totally legal, and they’re a great way to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free. Just be aware that the quality of these websites can vary, so it’s always a good idea to do a bit of research before you start watching.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On HBO MAX?
Book Club The Next Chapter is the sequel to the widely popular Book Club film that was released in 2018. The film follows the respectively widowed and divorced Diane Keaton, Jane Fonda, Candice Bergen, and Mary Steenburgen as they get back together to continue their book club after the death of one of their members. The film was a commercial and critical success, grossing over $100 million at the worldwide box office. Now, with the announcement of HBO Max, many are wondering if the next chapter in the book club will be coming to the new streaming service. Unfortunately, there is no news on whether or not the film will be coming to HBO Max. However, considering the popularity of the first film, it is highly likely that the sequel will eventually find its way to the new streaming service.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On Netflix?
It’s no secret that Netflix has been killing it lately when it comes to producing and acquiring new content. So it’s no surprise that people are wondering if the company will snap up the rights to “Book Club The Next Chapter”, the highly anticipated sequel to the 2018 hit film “Book Club”. Unfortunately, as of right now, there is no confirmation that Netflix has acquired the rights to the film. That said, it’s not impossible that the company could still acquire the rights, especially given their recent track record. So for now, fans of the “Book Club” franchise will just have to wait and see if Netflix decides to add the sequel to its ever-growing library of films.
Is “Book Club The Next Chapter” Available On Hulu?
Book clubs are a great way to get together with friends and discuss books, but what if you don’t have time to meet up in person? The next best thing is to join an online book club! But which one should you choose? There are many different online book clubs out there, but one that stands out is “Book Club The Next Chapter”. This book club is available for free on Hulu, and it offers a great selection of books to choose from. You can also find book club discussion questions and other resources on the website. If you’re looking for an online book club that is both convenient and educational, “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a great option.
When Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be on Disney+?
There is no set release date for when “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be available on Disney+. However, based on the release schedule of other Disney+ original series, it is likely that the series will be added to the platform within a few months of its premiere on the Disney Channel. Given that the series is set to premiere in the fall of 2020, it is possible that “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be added to Disney+ in early 2021. It is also worth noting that Disney+ has not yet announced whether or not the series will be available to stream in all regions. So far, Disney+ has only announced that the series will be available to stream in the United States. However, given that the series is produced by Disney, it is likely that the series will eventually be added to Disney+ in other regions as well.
The Book Club The Next Chapter online free is a great way to keep your love for reading alive and well. With so many different books to choose from, you’re sure to find one that you’ll enjoy. Plus, the convenience of being able to read from anywhere is a major perk. So what are you waiting for? Start reading today!
A book club can be a great way to connect with other book lovers in your area. But what if you can’t find the time to make it to a meeting? Or what if you’re an introvert who doesn’t feel comfortable in large groups? Book Club The Next Chapter is an online book club that might be the perfect solution for you. With Book Club The Next Chapter, you can participate in discussion forums, vote on book selections, and more, all from the comfort of your own home. You can log in at any time to read and post comments, and you don’t have to worry about small talk or socializing. If you’re looking for an online book club that’s a little different, check out Book Club The Next Chapter.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Streaming or in Theaters?
There’s something special about gathering around with friends to discuss a good book. Whether it’s dissecting the characters or debating the plot, it’s a great way to spend an evening. But what if your book club decided to take the next step and discuss a book that’s currently streaming or in theaters? There are a few things to consider before taking this dive. First, is the book still relevant? If it’s a classic novel that’s been adapted to the big screen, then there’s a good chance that the film is still relevant. However, if the book is a more contemporary release, the film may not be as widely-
seen. Second, how well do the film and book compare? In some cases, the film can be a completely different experience from the book. This is often the case with adaptations of best-selling novels, where the film may leave out important plot points or characters in order to condense the story. If this is the case, it may be difficult to have a meaningful discussion about the film. Finally, is there a way to watch the film together? If not, is everyone willing to watch it on their own time? If you’re planning to discuss a film that’s still in theaters, you’ll need to make sure that everyone is able to see it. And if you’re planning to discuss a film that’s streaming, you’ll need to make sure that everyone has access to the streaming service. Taking all of these things into consideration, there’s no right or wrong answer as to whether your book club should discuss a book that’s streaming or in theaters. It’s entirely up to you and your group to decide what you want to do.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Be Available For Streaming?
Book Club The Next Chapter was one of the first book clubs to be available for streaming. The concept was simple – members would meet online to discuss a book, and then share their thoughts and opinions. It was a great way to connect with other book lovers, and to keep up with the latest releases. Now, with the popularity of streaming services like Netflix and Hulu, it seems like everything is available for streaming. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant? There are a few things to consider when evaluating whether or not streaming book clubs are a good idea. First, there is the issue of time commitment. It can be difficult to commit to watching a show or movie when you have other obligations, like work or family. With a book club, you can usually read at your own pace and then meet up with the group when it’s convenient for you.
Another factor to consider is cost. Most streaming services require a monthly subscription fee. While some book clubs may have a membership fee, it is usually much lower than the cost of a streaming service. Additionally, many book clubs have options to borrow books from the library, which can save you even more money. Finally, it’s important to think about the quality of the content. When you watch a show or movie on a streaming service, you generally know what you’re going to get. But with a book club, the book selection can be more hit or miss. Sometimes, the book will be great and you’ll have a lot to discuss. Other times, you might not be as impressed and you might not have much to say. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant in the age of streaming? It depends on your personal preferences. If you’re looking for an easy way to connect with other book lovers and to stay up-to-date on the latest releases, then a book club might be a good option for you. But if you’re looking for a service that offers a more reliable quality of content, then you might want to stick with a streaming service.
How to Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” Online?
If you’re looking for a way to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” online, you’ve come to the right place. In this article, we’ll show you how to do just that. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a new online book club that’s been taking the internet by storm. The club is based around the concept of reading one book a month and then discussing it online with other members. The online discussion is led by a different member each month, and everyone gets to vote on which book to read next. So how do you join in on the fun? It’s actually pretty simple. Just head over to the “Book Club The Next Chapter” website and sign up for an account. Once you’ve done that, you’ll be able to log in and participate in the discussion for each book. If you’re not interested in reading the book of the month, don’t worry. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is still a great way to connect with other book lovers and discuss your favorite reads. And who knows, maybe you’ll be inspired to pick up a new book or two along the way.
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Where To Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter”
There are a few places you can watch Book Club The Next Chapter online for free. Depending on where you live, you may be able to find it on your local public library website. Another option is to visit websites like Crackle or Popcornflix, which offer free movies and TV shows. You can also search forBook Club The Next Chapter on YouTube, but be aware that not all results will be free. Finally, if you have a subscription to a streaming service like Netflix or Hulu, you may be able to find Book Club The Next Chapter in their catalogs.
How to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” for free
The great thing about the internet is that there are a ton of different ways to watch your favorite movies and TV shows for free. If you’re a fan of Book Club The Next Chapter, then you’re in luck, because there are a number of ways that you can watch the show online for free. One of the easiest ways to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to sign up for a free trial of a streaming service like Netflix, Hulu, or Amazon Prime. These trials usually last for a week or a month, and they give you access to all of the content that the service has to offer. If you time it right, you can sign up for a free trial just before Book Club The Next Chapter comes out, and then cancel it after you’ve watched the show. Another option for watching Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to find a friend who has a subscription to a streaming service and see if they’ll let you borrow their login information. This is a great option if you only want to watch the show once, but it’s not a good idea to do this on a regular basis. Finally, there are a number of websites that offer free, streaming, and ad-supported TV shows. These websites are totally legal, and they’re a great way to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free. Just be aware that the quality of these websites can vary, so it’s always a good idea to do a bit of research before you start watching.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On HBO MAX?
Book Club The Next Chapter is the sequel to the widely popular Book Club film that was released in 2018. The film follows the respectively widowed and divorced Diane Keaton, Jane Fonda, Candice Bergen, and Mary Steenburgen as they get back together to continue their book club after the death of one of their members. The film was a commercial and critical success, grossing over $100 million at the worldwide box office. Now, with the announcement of HBO Max, many are wondering if the next chapter in the book club will be coming to the new streaming service. Unfortunately, there is no news on whether or not the film will be coming to HBO Max. However, considering the popularity of the first film, it is highly likely that the sequel will eventually find its way to the new streaming service.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On Netflix?
It’s no secret that Netflix has been killing it lately when it comes to producing and acquiring new content. So it’s no surprise that people are wondering if the company will snap up the rights to “Book Club The Next Chapter”, the highly anticipated sequel to the 2018 hit film “Book Club”. Unfortunately, as of right now, there is no confirmation that Netflix has acquired the rights to the film. That said, it’s not impossible that the company could still acquire the rights, especially given their recent track record. So for now, fans of the “Book Club” franchise will just have to wait and see if Netflix decides to add the sequel to its ever-growing library of films.
Is “Book Club The Next Chapter” Available On Hulu?
Book clubs are a great way to get together with friends and discuss books, but what if you don’t have time to meet up in person? The next best thing is to join an online book club! But which one should you choose? There are many different online book clubs out there, but one that stands out is “Book Club The Next Chapter”. This book club is available for free on Hulu, and it offers a great selection of books to choose from. You can also find book club discussion questions and other resources on the website. If you’re looking for an online book club that is both convenient and educational, “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a great option.
When Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be on Disney+?
There is no set release date for when “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be available on Disney+. However, based on the release schedule of other Disney+ original series, it is likely that the series will be added to the platform within a few months of its premiere on the Disney Channel. Given that the series is set to premiere in the fall of 2020, it is possible that “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be added to Disney+ in early 2021. It is also worth noting that Disney+ has not yet announced whether or not the series will be available to stream in all regions. So far, Disney+ has only announced that the series will be available to stream in the United States. However, given that the series is produced by Disney, it is likely that the series will eventually be added to Disney+ in other regions as well.
The Book Club The Next Chapter online free is a great way to keep your love for reading alive and well. With so many different books to choose from, you’re sure to find one that you’ll enjoy. Plus, the convenience of being able to read from anywhere is a major perk. So what are you waiting for? Start reading today!
A book club can be a great way to connect with other book lovers in your area. But what if you can’t find the time to make it to a meeting? Or what if you’re an introvert who doesn’t feel comfortable in large groups? Book Club The Next Chapter is an online book club that might be the perfect solution for you. With Book Club The Next Chapter, you can participate in discussion forums, vote on book selections, and more, all from the comfort of your own home. You can log in at any time to read and post comments, and you don’t have to worry about small talk or socializing. If you’re looking for an online book club that’s a little different, check out Book Club The Next Chapter.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Streaming or in Theaters?
There’s something special about gathering around with friends to discuss a good book. Whether it’s dissecting the characters or debating the plot, it’s a great way to spend an evening. But what if your book club decided to take the next step and discuss a book that’s currently streaming or in theaters? There are a few things to consider before taking this dive. First, is the book still relevant? If it’s a classic novel that’s been adapted to the big screen, then there’s a good chance that the film is still relevant. However, if the book is a more contemporary release, the film may not be as widely-
seen. Second, how well do the film and book compare? In some cases, the film can be a completely different experience from the book. This is often the case with adaptations of best-selling novels, where the film may leave out important plot points or characters in order to condense the story. If this is the case, it may be difficult to have a meaningful discussion about the film. Finally, is there a way to watch the film together? If not, is everyone willing to watch it on their own time? If you’re planning to discuss a film that’s still in theaters, you’ll need to make sure that everyone is able to see it. And if you’re planning to discuss a film that’s streaming, you’ll need to make sure that everyone has access to the streaming service. Taking all of these things into consideration, there’s no right or wrong answer as to whether your book club should discuss a book that’s streaming or in theaters. It’s entirely up to you and your group to decide what you want to do.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Be Available For Streaming?
Book Club The Next Chapter was one of the first book clubs to be available for streaming. The concept was simple – members would meet online to discuss a book, and then share their thoughts and opinions. It was a great way to connect with other book lovers, and to keep up with the latest releases. Now, with the popularity of streaming services like Netflix and Hulu, it seems like everything is available for streaming. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant? There are a few things to consider when evaluating whether or not streaming book clubs are a good idea. First, there is the issue of time commitment. It can be difficult to commit to watching a show or movie when you have other obligations, like work or family. With a book club, you can usually read at your own pace and then meet up with the group when it’s convenient for you.
Another factor to consider is cost. Most streaming services require a monthly subscription fee. While some book clubs may have a membership fee, it is usually much lower than the cost of a streaming service. Additionally, many book clubs have options to borrow books from the library, which can save you even more money. Finally, it’s important to think about the quality of the content. When you watch a show or movie on a streaming service, you generally know what you’re going to get. But with a book club, the book selection can be more hit or miss. Sometimes, the book will be great and you’ll have a lot to discuss. Other times, you might not be as impressed and you might not have much to say. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant in the age of streaming? It depends on your personal preferences. If you’re looking for an easy way to connect with other book lovers and to stay up-to-date on the latest releases, then a book club might be a good option for you. But if you’re looking for a service that offers a more reliable quality of content, then you might want to stick with a streaming service.
How to Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” Online?
If you’re looking for a way to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” online, you’ve come to the right place. In this article, we’ll show you how to do just that. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a new online book club that’s been taking the internet by storm. The club is based around the concept of reading one book a month and then discussing it online with other members. The online discussion is led by a different member each month, and everyone gets to vote on which book to read next. So how do you join in on the fun? It’s actually pretty simple. Just head over to the “Book Club The Next Chapter” website and sign up for an account. Once you’ve done that, you’ll be able to log in and participate in the discussion for each book. If you’re not interested in reading the book of the month, don’t worry. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is still a great way to connect with other book lovers and discuss your favorite reads. And who knows, maybe you’ll be inspired to pick up a new book or two along the way.
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Where To Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter”
There are a few places you can watch Book Club The Next Chapter online for free. Depending on where you live, you may be able to find it on your local public library website. Another option is to visit websites like Crackle or Popcornflix, which offer free movies and TV shows. You can also search forBook Club The Next Chapter on YouTube, but be aware that not all results will be free. Finally, if you have a subscription to a streaming service like Netflix or Hulu, you may be able to find Book Club The Next Chapter in their catalogs.
How to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” for free
The great thing about the internet is that there are a ton of different ways to watch your favorite movies and TV shows for free. If you’re a fan of Book Club The Next Chapter, then you’re in luck, because there are a number of ways that you can watch the show online for free. One of the easiest ways to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to sign up for a free trial of a streaming service like Netflix, Hulu, or Amazon Prime. These trials usually last for a week or a month, and they give you access to all of the content that the service has to offer. If you time it right, you can sign up for a free trial just before Book Club The Next Chapter comes out, and then cancel it after you’ve watched the show. Another option for watching Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to find a friend who has a subscription to a streaming service and see if they’ll let you borrow their login information. This is a great option if you only want to watch the show once, but it’s not a good idea to do this on a regular basis. Finally, there are a number of websites that offer free, streaming, and ad-supported TV shows. These websites are totally legal, and they’re a great way to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free. Just be aware that the quality of these websites can vary, so it’s always a good idea to do a bit of research before you start watching.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On HBO MAX?
Book Club The Next Chapter is the sequel to the widely popular Book Club film that was released in 2018. The film follows the respectively widowed and divorced Diane Keaton, Jane Fonda, Candice Bergen, and Mary Steenburgen as they get back together to continue their book club after the death of one of their members. The film was a commercial and critical success, grossing over $100 million at the worldwide box office. Now, with the announcement of HBO Max, many are wondering if the next chapter in the book club will be coming to the new streaming service. Unfortunately, there is no news on whether or not the film will be coming to HBO Max. However, considering the popularity of the first film, it is highly likely that the sequel will eventually find its way to the new streaming service.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On Netflix?
It’s no secret that Netflix has been killing it lately when it comes to producing and acquiring new content. So it’s no surprise that people are wondering if the company will snap up the rights to “Book Club The Next Chapter”, the highly anticipated sequel to the 2018 hit film “Book Club”. Unfortunately, as of right now, there is no confirmation that Netflix has acquired the rights to the film. That said, it’s not impossible that the company could still acquire the rights, especially given their recent track record. So for now, fans of the “Book Club” franchise will just have to wait and see if Netflix decides to add the sequel to its ever-growing library of films.
Is “Book Club The Next Chapter” Available On Hulu?
Book clubs are a great way to get together with friends and discuss books, but what if you don’t have time to meet up in person? The next best thing is to join an online book club! But which one should you choose? There are many different online book clubs out there, but one that stands out is “Book Club The Next Chapter”. This book club is available for free on Hulu, and it offers a great selection of books to choose from. You can also find book club discussion questions and other resources on the website. If you’re looking for an online book club that is both convenient and educational, “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a great option.
When Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be on Disney+?
There is no set release date for when “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be available on Disney+. However, based on the release schedule of other Disney+ original series, it is likely that the series will be added to the platform within a few months of its premiere on the Disney Channel. Given that the series is set to premiere in the fall of 2020, it is possible that “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be added to Disney+ in early 2021. It is also worth noting that Disney+ has not yet announced whether or not the series will be available to stream in all regions. So far, Disney+ has only announced that the series will be available to stream in the United States. However, given that the series is produced by Disney, it is likely that the series will eventually be added to Disney+ in other regions as well.
The Book Club The Next Chapter online free is a great way to keep your love for reading alive and well. With so many different books to choose from, you’re sure to find one that you’ll enjoy. Plus, the convenience of being able to read from anywhere is a major perk. So what are you waiting for? Start reading today!
A book club can be a great way to connect with other book lovers in your area. But what if you can’t find the time to make it to a meeting? Or what if you’re an introvert who doesn’t feel comfortable in large groups? Book Club The Next Chapter is an online book club that might be the perfect solution for you. With Book Club The Next Chapter, you can participate in discussion forums, vote on book selections, and more, all from the comfort of your own home. You can log in at any time to read and post comments, and you don’t have to worry about small talk or socializing. If you’re looking for an online book club that’s a little different, check out Book Club The Next Chapter.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Streaming or in Theaters?
There’s something special about gathering around with friends to discuss a good book. Whether it’s dissecting the characters or debating the plot, it’s a great way to spend an evening. But what if your book club decided to take the next step and discuss a book that’s currently streaming or in theaters? There are a few things to consider before taking this dive. First, is the book still relevant? If it’s a classic novel that’s been adapted to the big screen, then there’s a good chance that the film is still relevant. However, if the book is a more contemporary release, the film may not be as widely-
seen. Second, how well do the film and book compare? In some cases, the film can be a completely different experience from the book. This is often the case with adaptations of best-selling novels, where the film may leave out important plot points or characters in order to condense the story. If this is the case, it may be difficult to have a meaningful discussion about the film. Finally, is there a way to watch the film together? If not, is everyone willing to watch it on their own time? If you’re planning to discuss a film that’s still in theaters, you’ll need to make sure that everyone is able to see it. And if you’re planning to discuss a film that’s streaming, you’ll need to make sure that everyone has access to the streaming service. Taking all of these things into consideration, there’s no right or wrong answer as to whether your book club should discuss a book that’s streaming or in theaters. It’s entirely up to you and your group to decide what you want to do.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Be Available For Streaming?
Book Club The Next Chapter was one of the first book clubs to be available for streaming. The concept was simple – members would meet online to discuss a book, and then share their thoughts and opinions. It was a great way to connect with other book lovers, and to keep up with the latest releases. Now, with the popularity of streaming services like Netflix and Hulu, it seems like everything is available for streaming. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant? There are a few things to consider when evaluating whether or not streaming book clubs are a good idea. First, there is the issue of time commitment. It can be difficult to commit to watching a show or movie when you have other obligations, like work or family. With a book club, you can usually read at your own pace and then meet up with the group when it’s convenient for you.
Another factor to consider is cost. Most streaming services require a monthly subscription fee. While some book clubs may have a membership fee, it is usually much lower than the cost of a streaming service. Additionally, many book clubs have options to borrow books from the library, which can save you even more money. Finally, it’s important to think about the quality of the content. When you watch a show or movie on a streaming service, you generally know what you’re going to get. But with a book club, the book selection can be more hit or miss. Sometimes, the book will be great and you’ll have a lot to discuss. Other times, you might not be as impressed and you might not have much to say. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant in the age of streaming? It depends on your personal preferences. If you’re looking for an easy way to connect with other book lovers and to stay up-to-date on the latest releases, then a book club might be a good option for you. But if you’re looking for a service that offers a more reliable quality of content, then you might want to stick with a streaming service.
How to Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” Online?
If you’re looking for a way to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” online, you’ve come to the right place. In this article, we’ll show you how to do just that. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a new online book club that’s been taking the internet by storm. The club is based around the concept of reading one book a month and then discussing it online with other members. The online discussion is led by a different member each month, and everyone gets to vote on which book to read next. So how do you join in on the fun? It’s actually pretty simple. Just head over to the “Book Club The Next Chapter” website and sign up for an account. Once you’ve done that, you’ll be able to log in and participate in the discussion for each book. If you’re not interested in reading the book of the month, don’t worry. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is still a great way to connect with other book lovers and discuss your favorite reads. And who knows, maybe you’ll be inspired to pick up a new book or two along the way.
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Where To Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter”
There are a few places you can watch Book Club The Next Chapter online for free. Depending on where you live, you may be able to find it on your local public library website. Another option is to visit websites like Crackle or Popcornflix, which offer free movies and TV shows. You can also search forBook Club The Next Chapter on YouTube, but be aware that not all results will be free. Finally, if you have a subscription to a streaming service like Netflix or Hulu, you may be able to find Book Club The Next Chapter in their catalogs.
How to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” for free
The great thing about the internet is that there are a ton of different ways to watch your favorite movies and TV shows for free. If you’re a fan of Book Club The Next Chapter, then you’re in luck, because there are a number of ways that you can watch the show online for free. One of the easiest ways to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to sign up for a free trial of a streaming service like Netflix, Hulu, or Amazon Prime. These trials usually last for a week or a month, and they give you access to all of the content that the service has to offer. If you time it right, you can sign up for a free trial just before Book Club The Next Chapter comes out, and then cancel it after you’ve watched the show. Another option for watching Book Club The Next Chapter for free is to find a friend who has a subscription to a streaming service and see if they’ll let you borrow their login information. This is a great option if you only want to watch the show once, but it’s not a good idea to do this on a regular basis. Finally, there are a number of websites that offer free, streaming, and ad-supported TV shows. These websites are totally legal, and they’re a great way to watch Book Club The Next Chapter for free. Just be aware that the quality of these websites can vary, so it’s always a good idea to do a bit of research before you start watching.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On HBO MAX?
Book Club The Next Chapter is the sequel to the widely popular Book Club film that was released in 2018. The film follows the respectively widowed and divorced Diane Keaton, Jane Fonda, Candice Bergen, and Mary Steenburgen as they get back together to continue their book club after the death of one of their members. The film was a commercial and critical success, grossing over $100 million at the worldwide box office. Now, with the announcement of HBO Max, many are wondering if the next chapter in the book club will be coming to the new streaming service. Unfortunately, there is no news on whether or not the film will be coming to HBO Max. However, considering the popularity of the first film, it is highly likely that the sequel will eventually find its way to the new streaming service.
Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be On Netflix?
It’s no secret that Netflix has been killing it lately when it comes to producing and acquiring new content. So it’s no surprise that people are wondering if the company will snap up the rights to “Book Club The Next Chapter”, the highly anticipated sequel to the 2018 hit film “Book Club”. Unfortunately, as of right now, there is no confirmation that Netflix has acquired the rights to the film. That said, it’s not impossible that the company could still acquire the rights, especially given their recent track record. So for now, fans of the “Book Club” franchise will just have to wait and see if Netflix decides to add the sequel to its ever-growing library of films.
Is “Book Club The Next Chapter” Available On Hulu?
Book clubs are a great way to get together with friends and discuss books, but what if you don’t have time to meet up in person? The next best thing is to join an online book club! But which one should you choose? There are many different online book clubs out there, but one that stands out is “Book Club The Next Chapter”. This book club is available for free on Hulu, and it offers a great selection of books to choose from. You can also find book club discussion questions and other resources on the website. If you’re looking for an online book club that is both convenient and educational, “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a great option.
When Will “Book Club The Next Chapter” Be on Disney+?
There is no set release date for when “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be available on Disney+. However, based on the release schedule of other Disney+ original series, it is likely that the series will be added to the platform within a few months of its premiere on the Disney Channel. Given that the series is set to premiere in the fall of 2020, it is possible that “Book Club The Next Chapter” will be added to Disney+ in early 2021. It is also worth noting that Disney+ has not yet announced whether or not the series will be available to stream in all regions. So far, Disney+ has only announced that the series will be available to stream in the United States. However, given that the series is produced by Disney, it is likely that the series will eventually be added to Disney+ in other regions as well.
The Book Club The Next Chapter online free is a great way to keep your love for reading alive and well. With so many different books to choose from, you’re sure to find one that you’ll enjoy. Plus, the convenience of being able to read from anywhere is a major perk. So what are you waiting for? Start reading today!
A book club can be a great way to connect with other book lovers in your area. But what if you can’t find the time to make it to a meeting? Or what if you’re an introvert who doesn’t feel comfortable in large groups? Book Club The Next Chapter is an online book club that might be the perfect solution for you. With Book Club The Next Chapter, you can participate in discussion forums, vote on book selections, and more, all from the comfort of your own home. You can log in at any time to read and post comments, and you don’t have to worry about small talk or socializing. If you’re looking for an online book club that’s a little different, check out Book Club The Next Chapter.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Streaming or in Theaters?
There’s something special about gathering around with friends to discuss a good book. Whether it’s dissecting the characters or debating the plot, it’s a great way to spend an evening. But what if your book club decided to take the next step and discuss a book that’s currently streaming or in theaters? There are a few things to consider before taking this dive. First, is the book still relevant? If it’s a classic novel that’s been adapted to the big screen, then there’s a good chance that the film is still relevant. However, if the book is a more contemporary release, the film may not be as widely-
seen. Second, how well do the film and book compare? In some cases, the film can be a completely different experience from the book. This is often the case with adaptations of best-selling novels, where the film may leave out important plot points or characters in order to condense the story. If this is the case, it may be difficult to have a meaningful discussion about the film. Finally, is there a way to watch the film together? If not, is everyone willing to watch it on their own time? If you’re planning to discuss a film that’s still in theaters, you’ll need to make sure that everyone is able to see it. And if you’re planning to discuss a film that’s streaming, you’ll need to make sure that everyone has access to the streaming service. Taking all of these things into consideration, there’s no right or wrong answer as to whether your book club should discuss a book that’s streaming or in theaters. It’s entirely up to you and your group to decide what you want to do.
“Book Club The Next Chapter” Be Available For Streaming?
Book Club The Next Chapter was one of the first book clubs to be available for streaming. The concept was simple – members would meet online to discuss a book, and then share their thoughts and opinions. It was a great way to connect with other book lovers, and to keep up with the latest releases. Now, with the popularity of streaming services like Netflix and Hulu, it seems like everything is available for streaming. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant? There are a few things to consider when evaluating whether or not streaming book clubs are a good idea. First, there is the issue of time commitment. It can be difficult to commit to watching a show or movie when you have other obligations, like work or family. With a book club, you can usually read at your own pace and then meet up with the group when it’s convenient for you.
Another factor to consider is cost. Most streaming services require a monthly subscription fee. While some book clubs may have a membership fee, it is usually much lower than the cost of a streaming service. Additionally, many book clubs have options to borrow books from the library, which can save you even more money. Finally, it’s important to think about the quality of the content. When you watch a show or movie on a streaming service, you generally know what you’re going to get. But with a book club, the book selection can be more hit or miss. Sometimes, the book will be great and you’ll have a lot to discuss. Other times, you might not be as impressed and you might not have much to say. So, is Book Club The Next Chapter still relevant in the age of streaming? It depends on your personal preferences. If you’re looking for an easy way to connect with other book lovers and to stay up-to-date on the latest releases, then a book club might be a good option for you. But if you’re looking for a service that offers a more reliable quality of content, then you might want to stick with a streaming service.
How to Watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” Online?
If you’re looking for a way to watch “Book Club The Next Chapter” online, you’ve come to the right place. In this article, we’ll show you how to do just that. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is a new online book club that’s been taking the internet by storm. The club is based around the concept of reading one book a month and then discussing it online with other members. The online discussion is led by a different member each month, and everyone gets to vote on which book to read next. So how do you join in on the fun? It’s actually pretty simple. Just head over to the “Book Club The Next Chapter” website and sign up for an account. Once you’ve done that, you’ll be able to log in and participate in the discussion for each book. If you’re not interested in reading the book of the month, don’t worry. “Book Club The Next Chapter” is still a great way to connect with other book lovers and discuss your favorite reads. And who knows, maybe you’ll be inspired to pick up a new book or two along the way.
2023.06.03 20:13 drl614 I live in a constant state of worry
I recently started my first internship and my negative self talk is at an all time high. I know I am an intern and therefore am not going to be nearly as proficient in tools and processes as the other people at my work are, but I've been feeling super slow and incompetent. I've been staying late after work, not because anyone told me to, but because I physically can't leave work when I feel like I "should" have gotten more done. I feel like I am in a constant state of worry when I am working because I feel like an imposter, and have this feeling like they'll "discover who I am really am" or unmask me. The best way I can describe how I am feeling is like a nightmare when you are trying to run from something but you aren't moving... that's what I feel here except instead of running from something, I am trying to catch up and stay at a good pace, but I am not getting anywhere. I feel like I "should" be able to perform at a certain level, but I am not able to, and I genuinely get frustrated with myself because of it.
I've always had this issue where I feel like I "should" be able to do things. Like, there is no reason why I shouldn't be able to do things. It's not that I am prideful and a cocky know-it-all, I think it just stems from years of a perfectionist mindset. I have this constant feeling that I am less than everyone around me. I walk into situations assuming people hate me, literally people I've had a 5-second interaction with, and think of myself as the worst. I think it only hit me recently how dangerous that is. When I don't know what people around me think of me, my brain immediately makes up its own narrative (typically a negative one) and I am almost fully convinced that that's the truth. For this reason, I am reaching out about this because I worry I am going to miss opportunities in life because of my mindset. Earlier this week, I was ready to quit my internship, I felt like it was a shitty environment, and was so stressed. But I realized that all that stress and impressions of my workplace... all came from my head. it was actually crazy when I realized it because it completely changed my point of view, like a full 180.
I think I take life too seriously, and honestly, if anyone could see into my head, they would tell me to CALM DOWN. I have this impression that everyone is "out to get me" and that I have to defend myself. I think for that reason I tend to keep to myself more, and tend to hesitate to share things about myself, I had an interesting interaction with one of my fellow classmates one day when we were talking and he said: "you know, we've been in this program for a year now and I feel like I know nothing about you". That stuck and made me realize that my assumptions that people don't want me to exist, cause me to never initiate conversation in the first place, therefore I never make a human connection. I am afraid to take up space. I always keep my expectations as low as possible, even when I put forth a tremendous amount of effort. My worry feels like I am being held at gunpoint, even though there's nothing to fear, and I know no one cares.
I think I spend so much time living in my head, that outside my head doesn't feel real. Almost like what happened in my head is real life, and the people I interact with aren't. I think I struggle to connect because of that, and assume the worst.
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I've always had this issue where I feel like I "should" be able to do things. Like, there is no reason why I shouldn't be able to do things. It's not that I am prideful and a cocky know-it-all, I think it just stems from years of a perfectionist mindset. I have this constant feeling that I am less than everyone around me. I walk into situations assuming people hate me, literally people I've had a 5-second interaction with, and think of myself as the worst. I think it only hit me recently how dangerous that is. When I don't know what people around me think of me, my brain immediately makes up its own narrative (typically a negative one) and I am almost fully convinced that that's the truth. For this reason, I am reaching out about this because I worry I am going to miss opportunities in life because of my mindset. Earlier this week, I was ready to quit my internship, I felt like it was a shitty environment, and was so stressed. But I realized that all that stress and impressions of my workplace... all came from my head. it was actually crazy when I realized it because it completely changed my point of view, like a full 180.
I think I take life too seriously, and honestly, if anyone could see into my head, they would tell me to CALM DOWN. I have this impression that everyone is "out to get me" and that I have to defend myself. I think for that reason I tend to keep to myself more, and tend to hesitate to share things about myself, I had an interesting interaction with one of my fellow classmates one day when we were talking and he said: "you know, we've been in this program for a year now and I feel like I know nothing about you". That stuck and made me realize that my assumptions that people don't want me to exist, cause me to never initiate conversation in the first place, therefore I never make a human connection. I am afraid to take up space. I always keep my expectations as low as possible, even when I put forth a tremendous amount of effort. My worry feels like I am being held at gunpoint, even though there's nothing to fear, and I know no one cares.
I think I spend so much time living in my head, that outside my head doesn't feel real. Almost like what happened in my head is real life, and the people I interact with aren't. I think I struggle to connect because of that, and assume the worst.
2023.06.03 20:12 Stand__judge 「Oh The Sunn!」
Stand Type: Integrated
Reference: https://youtu.be/tihqDy-avVA
Localized name: Big Beautiful Light
Growing up, Blanche always desired one thing: to be wanted. She found the easiest way to please someone is through gifts. The easiest way to get gifts/money for gifts?
Thievery
Her life of crime was extensive, from petty thievery to grand heists all die to her stand ability. However, it was cut short by a job gone wrong. She was thus swiftly jailed with several others. Including her old partner in crime. A man by the name of Tobuscus Tabacco. There, she trained her stand to new and greater heights. She learned how to use the bones in her hand like rats, skittering around and gathering loose items. Even spying on others by carrying around her ear canal on her hand bones.
Speed: B
Range: B (60 meters)
Durability: B
Precision: A
Potential: C
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Reference: https://youtu.be/tihqDy-avVA
Localized name: Big Beautiful Light
Description
OTS is integrated inside the user's own skeleton. When the power is used, a small chorus is heard. Faint enough to easily miss even in a quiet room.Ability
OTS gives the user the ability to repel their own skeleton or pieces of their skeletal structure from their body at any reasonable given speed (from a snail's pace to the speed of a bullet). When this happens, the torn skin, flesh, muscle and blood are all healed from their bones projecting themselves away from the body. After the bones are outside of the body, the user can still control them as if they were still connected.User
Blanche Visco is a gorgeous middle aged woman with long white hair and bloodshot eyes. She typically wears a body suit with several zippers on the shoulders and waist as to better use her ability.Growing up, Blanche always desired one thing: to be wanted. She found the easiest way to please someone is through gifts. The easiest way to get gifts/money for gifts?
Thievery
Her life of crime was extensive, from petty thievery to grand heists all die to her stand ability. However, it was cut short by a job gone wrong. She was thus swiftly jailed with several others. Including her old partner in crime. A man by the name of Tobuscus Tabacco. There, she trained her stand to new and greater heights. She learned how to use the bones in her hand like rats, skittering around and gathering loose items. Even spying on others by carrying around her ear canal on her hand bones.
Stats
Power: DSpeed: B
Range: B (60 meters)
Durability: B
Precision: A
Potential: C
2023.06.03 20:04 dgilpin Steam boot missing - Deck Controls not working inside boot manager
Title says it all, I hadn't been on an internet connection for a while, went to update the system to latest version, and after it said boot was missing. Found a reddit post explaining how to access boot from file, but the controls don't work to navigate the steam boot menu ... any work around?
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2023.06.03 19:25 weluvmusic Beatport Top 100 Melodic House & Techno June 2023
Artist: VA Title: Beatport Top 100 Melodic House & Techno May 2023 Genre: Melodic House & Techno Release Date: 2023-06-02 Quality: FLAC
Tracklist: 1. Samantha Loveridge, Treetalk – Losing My Religion (Extended Mix) (7:21) 2. Meduza – Friends (Extended Mix) (6:24) 3. Anyma (ofc) – Explore Your Future (Extended Version) (5:09) 4. Delerium, Sarah McLachlan – Silence feat. Sarah McLachlan (Stereo Express Remix) (7:16) 5. Future, Swedish House Mafia, Fred again.. – Turn On The Lights again.. (feat. Future) [Anyma Remix] (Extended) (5:01) 6. Jimi Jules – My City’s On Fire (Anyma & Cassian Extended Remix) (Original Mix) (5:12) 7. Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Eternity (Extended Mix) (5:20) 8. Meduza, Poppy Baskcomb – Upside Down (feat. Poppy Baskcomb) (Extended Mix) (6:24) 9. Depeche Mode – Ghosts Again (Massano Remix) (6:42) 10. Delerium, Sarah McLachlan – Silence (Kryder Extended Remix) (6:31) 11. Monolink, Stephan Jolk – The Silence (Extended) (6:57) 12. Adriatique, Eynka – Beyond Us (Hatshepsut Extended Version) (5:23) 13. Supermode – Tell Me Why (MEDUZA Extended Remix) (8:28) 14. Adriatique, Marino Canal – Desire (Original Mix) (4:54) 15. HunteGame, Hollt – Closure (Original Mix) (5:58) 16. Khainz – The Drift (Original Mix) (5:44) 17. Kölsch, Troels Abrahamsen – All That Matters (ARTBAT Remix) (8:49) 18. Airsand, TuraniQa – 7 Days (Original Mix) (7:00) 19. biskuwi, Fatum – Descending (Original Mix) (5:10) 20. Sevenn, Silver Panda – Deep Space (Extended Mix) (5:47) 21. Argy, Goom Gum – Pantheon (Extended Mix) (6:22) 22. Agents of Time – Zodiac (Original Mix) (5:42) 23. Jerome Isma-Ae, Weekend Heroes – In The Dark (Extended Mix) (6:05) 24. Victor Garde – Aylyak (Extended Mix) (6:20) 25. Stereo Express – Rise Of The 2nd Sun (Original Mix) (7:05) 26. Elderbrook – I Need You (Adriatique Extended Remix) (5:52) 27. Rebuke – Glow (Original Mix) (5:31) 28. CamelPhat, Josh Gigante – Your Mind (Original Mix) (5:54) 29. Nora En Pure – Prophets of Hope (Extended Mix) (6:10) 30. Tinlicker – All That I Lost (Extended Version) (6:13) 31. CamelPhat, Anyma (ofc) – The Sign (Extended Mix) (6:27) 32. Adam Port, Monolink – Point Of No Return (Extended Mix) (6:34) 33. Awen, Caiiro – Your Voice (Adam Port Remix) (7:14) 34. Lunar Plane – Waiting (Original Mix) (6:55) 35. Azzecca – Mantra (Extended Mix) (7:19) 36. Miss Monique – Rebirth (Extended Mix) (6:54) 37. Fideles, CamelPhat, Be No Rain – Night After Night (CamelPhat Remix) (6:58) 38. Vintage Culture, Franky Wah – Alive (Extended Mix) (6:45) 39. Kevin de Vries – Dance With Me (Original Mix) (6:31) 40. Emanuel Satie, Maga, Sean Doron, Tim Engelhardt – All The Time (Original Mix) (6:13) 41. &ME, Rampa, Adam Port, Keinemusik, Cubicolor – Before The Flood (feat. Cubicolor) (Ankhoï Remix) (7:25) 42. Woo York – Samum (8Kays Remix) (6:27) 43. Azzecca – Other Side (Extended) (6:46) 44. MEDUZA, Eli & Fur – Pegasus (Extended Mix) (6:06) 45. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Original Mix) (7:07) 46. Eelke Kleijn – Transmission (Joris Voorn Extended Remix) (6:09) 47. Joplyn – Speak To Me (Original Mix) (6:42) 48. Tiesto – Lay Low (Argy Remix) (Extended Mix) (5:18) 49. Korolova, Jonas Saalbach, Sbstn – Traces (Original Mix) (5:52) 50. Dosem, My Friend – Blue Marble (Extended Mix) (5:41) 51. Aether – Merlino (Original Mix) (6:49) 52. Bondi, Charlotte Colace – Stay Runaway (Ivory Rework) (6:20) 53. Anyma (ofc) – The Answer (Extended Version) (6:27) 54. Goom Gum – Chant (Original Mix) (7:20) 55. Vintage Culture, Coach Harrison – Hear You Calling (Extended Mix) (6:05) 56. Artbat, Argy, Zafrir – Tibet (Original Mix) (6:43) 57. Adam Ten, Yamagucci – The Girl Next Door (Original Mix) (5:48) 58. Grigoré – Strange World (Original Mix) (6:42) 59. RÜFÜS DU SOL – On My Knees (Cassian Remix) (5:48) 60. Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Consciousness (Extended) (5:48) 61. Eric Prydz, Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Consciousness (Eric Prydz Extended Remix) (7:58) 62. th;en – Shine (Extended Mix) (7:01) 63. Miss Monique – Concorde (Original Version) (6:52) 64. Fur Coat, Lexer – Far Away (Original Mix) (6:08) 65. Peer Kusiv, Rauschhaus – King Kong (Original Mix) (6:58) 66. Skatman – Oldskool (Original Mix) (5:31) 67. Einmusik, Solee – Mariposa (Original Mix) (7:17) 68. Solee – Our Lives (Original Mix) (6:35) 69. Massano – The Feeling (2022 Remaster) (6:08) 70. Skatman – I Used To (Hiphop Rewarp) (5:30) 71. Guy Gerber – What To Do (&ME Remix) (8:24) 72. Royksopp, Alison Goldfrapp – Impossible (feat. Alison Goldfrapp) (&ME Remix) (9:15) 73. Dosem, My Friend – Door To Door (Extended Mix) (5:13) 74. Olivier Giacomotto – The Unknown (Original Mix) (6:51) 75. Buraki – C4 (Original Mix) (6:12) 76. CamelPhat, Josh Gigante – Lost in a Moment (Original Mix) (5:47) 77. Monolink – Return to Oz (ARTBAT Remix) (8:00) 78. Carlita, Andhim – Nation (Extended Mix) (6:07) 79. Township Rebellion, Victor Pilava – Bohemia (Original Mix) (6:37) 80. Guy Gerber – Leave It On (Original Mix) (6:21) 81. Nora En Pure – Wholehearted (Extended Mix) (5:42) 82. Magnus, Angel Sanchez, Space Motion – Moonlight feat. MAGNUS (Original Mix) (6:46) 83. Silver Panda – Soul Connection (Original Mix) (5:30) 84. RÜFÜS DU SOL – Make It Happen (Dom Dolla Remix) (6:04) 85. Marsh – Little Darling (Joris Voorn Remix) (6:13) 86. M.A.N.D.Y., Booka Shade – Body Language (Patrice Bäumel Remix) (8:23) 87. Lehár – Let People Know (Original Mix) (6:38) 88. Stereo Express – Reboot (Original Mix) (6:58) 89. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Black Coffee Remix) (9:25) 90. Red Axes – Relax Shiva (Instrumental) (6:13) 91. Fur Coat, Lexer – Celestial Realm (Original Mix) (7:14) 92. Maxi Vega, Emiliano Demarco – Sombras (Original Mix) (6:30) 93. Blake Light, Tube & Berger – Data Compromised (Extended Mix) (4:28) 94. Adam Ten, Yamagucci – The K Dance (Original Mix) (5:34) 95. Quivver – The Dark Side of Pleasure (Original Mix) (7:12) 96. Maceo Plex, Faithless – Insomnia 2021 (Epic Mix) (7:45) 97. RÜFÜS DU SOL – On My Knees (Adriatique Remix) (7:32) 98. Lunar Plane, Sezer Uysal – Je Danse (Original Mix) (6:37) 99. Bedouin – Tijuana (Original Mix) (4:32) 100. Thodoris Triantafillou – The Sun the Stars (Original Mix) (6:38)
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Tracklist: 1. Samantha Loveridge, Treetalk – Losing My Religion (Extended Mix) (7:21) 2. Meduza – Friends (Extended Mix) (6:24) 3. Anyma (ofc) – Explore Your Future (Extended Version) (5:09) 4. Delerium, Sarah McLachlan – Silence feat. Sarah McLachlan (Stereo Express Remix) (7:16) 5. Future, Swedish House Mafia, Fred again.. – Turn On The Lights again.. (feat. Future) [Anyma Remix] (Extended) (5:01) 6. Jimi Jules – My City’s On Fire (Anyma & Cassian Extended Remix) (Original Mix) (5:12) 7. Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Eternity (Extended Mix) (5:20) 8. Meduza, Poppy Baskcomb – Upside Down (feat. Poppy Baskcomb) (Extended Mix) (6:24) 9. Depeche Mode – Ghosts Again (Massano Remix) (6:42) 10. Delerium, Sarah McLachlan – Silence (Kryder Extended Remix) (6:31) 11. Monolink, Stephan Jolk – The Silence (Extended) (6:57) 12. Adriatique, Eynka – Beyond Us (Hatshepsut Extended Version) (5:23) 13. Supermode – Tell Me Why (MEDUZA Extended Remix) (8:28) 14. Adriatique, Marino Canal – Desire (Original Mix) (4:54) 15. HunteGame, Hollt – Closure (Original Mix) (5:58) 16. Khainz – The Drift (Original Mix) (5:44) 17. Kölsch, Troels Abrahamsen – All That Matters (ARTBAT Remix) (8:49) 18. Airsand, TuraniQa – 7 Days (Original Mix) (7:00) 19. biskuwi, Fatum – Descending (Original Mix) (5:10) 20. Sevenn, Silver Panda – Deep Space (Extended Mix) (5:47) 21. Argy, Goom Gum – Pantheon (Extended Mix) (6:22) 22. Agents of Time – Zodiac (Original Mix) (5:42) 23. Jerome Isma-Ae, Weekend Heroes – In The Dark (Extended Mix) (6:05) 24. Victor Garde – Aylyak (Extended Mix) (6:20) 25. Stereo Express – Rise Of The 2nd Sun (Original Mix) (7:05) 26. Elderbrook – I Need You (Adriatique Extended Remix) (5:52) 27. Rebuke – Glow (Original Mix) (5:31) 28. CamelPhat, Josh Gigante – Your Mind (Original Mix) (5:54) 29. Nora En Pure – Prophets of Hope (Extended Mix) (6:10) 30. Tinlicker – All That I Lost (Extended Version) (6:13) 31. CamelPhat, Anyma (ofc) – The Sign (Extended Mix) (6:27) 32. Adam Port, Monolink – Point Of No Return (Extended Mix) (6:34) 33. Awen, Caiiro – Your Voice (Adam Port Remix) (7:14) 34. Lunar Plane – Waiting (Original Mix) (6:55) 35. Azzecca – Mantra (Extended Mix) (7:19) 36. Miss Monique – Rebirth (Extended Mix) (6:54) 37. Fideles, CamelPhat, Be No Rain – Night After Night (CamelPhat Remix) (6:58) 38. Vintage Culture, Franky Wah – Alive (Extended Mix) (6:45) 39. Kevin de Vries – Dance With Me (Original Mix) (6:31) 40. Emanuel Satie, Maga, Sean Doron, Tim Engelhardt – All The Time (Original Mix) (6:13) 41. &ME, Rampa, Adam Port, Keinemusik, Cubicolor – Before The Flood (feat. Cubicolor) (Ankhoï Remix) (7:25) 42. Woo York – Samum (8Kays Remix) (6:27) 43. Azzecca – Other Side (Extended) (6:46) 44. MEDUZA, Eli & Fur – Pegasus (Extended Mix) (6:06) 45. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Original Mix) (7:07) 46. Eelke Kleijn – Transmission (Joris Voorn Extended Remix) (6:09) 47. Joplyn – Speak To Me (Original Mix) (6:42) 48. Tiesto – Lay Low (Argy Remix) (Extended Mix) (5:18) 49. Korolova, Jonas Saalbach, Sbstn – Traces (Original Mix) (5:52) 50. Dosem, My Friend – Blue Marble (Extended Mix) (5:41) 51. Aether – Merlino (Original Mix) (6:49) 52. Bondi, Charlotte Colace – Stay Runaway (Ivory Rework) (6:20) 53. Anyma (ofc) – The Answer (Extended Version) (6:27) 54. Goom Gum – Chant (Original Mix) (7:20) 55. Vintage Culture, Coach Harrison – Hear You Calling (Extended Mix) (6:05) 56. Artbat, Argy, Zafrir – Tibet (Original Mix) (6:43) 57. Adam Ten, Yamagucci – The Girl Next Door (Original Mix) (5:48) 58. Grigoré – Strange World (Original Mix) (6:42) 59. RÜFÜS DU SOL – On My Knees (Cassian Remix) (5:48) 60. Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Consciousness (Extended) (5:48) 61. Eric Prydz, Chris Avantgarde, Anyma (ofc) – Consciousness (Eric Prydz Extended Remix) (7:58) 62. th;en – Shine (Extended Mix) (7:01) 63. Miss Monique – Concorde (Original Version) (6:52) 64. Fur Coat, Lexer – Far Away (Original Mix) (6:08) 65. Peer Kusiv, Rauschhaus – King Kong (Original Mix) (6:58) 66. Skatman – Oldskool (Original Mix) (5:31) 67. Einmusik, Solee – Mariposa (Original Mix) (7:17) 68. Solee – Our Lives (Original Mix) (6:35) 69. Massano – The Feeling (2022 Remaster) (6:08) 70. Skatman – I Used To (Hiphop Rewarp) (5:30) 71. Guy Gerber – What To Do (&ME Remix) (8:24) 72. Royksopp, Alison Goldfrapp – Impossible (feat. Alison Goldfrapp) (&ME Remix) (9:15) 73. Dosem, My Friend – Door To Door (Extended Mix) (5:13) 74. Olivier Giacomotto – The Unknown (Original Mix) (6:51) 75. Buraki – C4 (Original Mix) (6:12) 76. CamelPhat, Josh Gigante – Lost in a Moment (Original Mix) (5:47) 77. Monolink – Return to Oz (ARTBAT Remix) (8:00) 78. Carlita, Andhim – Nation (Extended Mix) (6:07) 79. Township Rebellion, Victor Pilava – Bohemia (Original Mix) (6:37) 80. Guy Gerber – Leave It On (Original Mix) (6:21) 81. Nora En Pure – Wholehearted (Extended Mix) (5:42) 82. Magnus, Angel Sanchez, Space Motion – Moonlight feat. MAGNUS (Original Mix) (6:46) 83. Silver Panda – Soul Connection (Original Mix) (5:30) 84. RÜFÜS DU SOL – Make It Happen (Dom Dolla Remix) (6:04) 85. Marsh – Little Darling (Joris Voorn Remix) (6:13) 86. M.A.N.D.Y., Booka Shade – Body Language (Patrice Bäumel Remix) (8:23) 87. Lehár – Let People Know (Original Mix) (6:38) 88. Stereo Express – Reboot (Original Mix) (6:58) 89. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Black Coffee Remix) (9:25) 90. Red Axes – Relax Shiva (Instrumental) (6:13) 91. Fur Coat, Lexer – Celestial Realm (Original Mix) (7:14) 92. Maxi Vega, Emiliano Demarco – Sombras (Original Mix) (6:30) 93. Blake Light, Tube & Berger – Data Compromised (Extended Mix) (4:28) 94. Adam Ten, Yamagucci – The K Dance (Original Mix) (5:34) 95. Quivver – The Dark Side of Pleasure (Original Mix) (7:12) 96. Maceo Plex, Faithless – Insomnia 2021 (Epic Mix) (7:45) 97. RÜFÜS DU SOL – On My Knees (Adriatique Remix) (7:32) 98. Lunar Plane, Sezer Uysal – Je Danse (Original Mix) (6:37) 99. Bedouin – Tijuana (Original Mix) (4:32) 100. Thodoris Triantafillou – The Sun the Stars (Original Mix) (6:38)
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2023.06.03 19:23 Winter-Literature-69 Postgres, AWS, and Kerberos Auth
Hey all,
Scrub admin here. I'm having issues with getting kerberos auth to work with a Postgres RDS instance. Followed official AWS guides on how to enable it. Enabled Password and Kerb auth on the instance, linked it to a managed AWS DC, created users on the db ([[email protected]](mailto:[email protected])), and added them to the rds_ad group (user I'm trying to log in as exists on the DC as well). I then threw in the krb5.ini file under C:\Windows that points to the domain/realm. Issue is when I try to connect with domain creds via pgadmin with kerby enabled, I get a SSPI context error. Using dBeaver, it's KDC_Err_Client_Revoked.
Using Windows to accomplish this not Linux if that's important to know.
Anyone have experience with this before and know what I'm missing?
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Scrub admin here. I'm having issues with getting kerberos auth to work with a Postgres RDS instance. Followed official AWS guides on how to enable it. Enabled Password and Kerb auth on the instance, linked it to a managed AWS DC, created users on the db ([[email protected]](mailto:[email protected])), and added them to the rds_ad group (user I'm trying to log in as exists on the DC as well). I then threw in the krb5.ini file under C:\Windows that points to the domain/realm. Issue is when I try to connect with domain creds via pgadmin with kerby enabled, I get a SSPI context error. Using dBeaver, it's KDC_Err_Client_Revoked.
Using Windows to accomplish this not Linux if that's important to know.
Anyone have experience with this before and know what I'm missing?
2023.06.03 19:21 MasVazz 40 [M4F] Queens/LongIsland - Seeking an unexpected connection 😮
Super kind, smart, fun, funny, cute, and sexy - basically awesome to be around!
Grad degree and speak another language. Born and raised in NYC, I was in a long-ish relationship recently, and have lived in like 10 different cities
Not really looking for anything serious just missing the closeness, intimacy, and connection with someone. If it's even just chatting for the night, that works
I'm 5'8", slim/athletic, and open to taller. Race isn't a dealbreaker - I'm just looking for a physical attraction.
Got pics to exchange 🙃
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Grad degree and speak another language. Born and raised in NYC, I was in a long-ish relationship recently, and have lived in like 10 different cities
Not really looking for anything serious just missing the closeness, intimacy, and connection with someone. If it's even just chatting for the night, that works
I'm 5'8", slim/athletic, and open to taller. Race isn't a dealbreaker - I'm just looking for a physical attraction.
Got pics to exchange 🙃
2023.06.03 19:21 MasVazz 40 [M4F] Queens/LongIsland - Seeking an unexpected connection 😮
Super kind, smart, fun, funny, cute, and sexy - basically awesome to be around!
Grad degree and speak another language. Born and raised in NYC, I was in a long-ish relationship recently, and have lived in like 10 different cities
Not really looking for anything serious just missing the closeness, intimacy, and connection with someone. If it's even just chatting for the night, that works
I'm 5'8", slim/athletic, and open to taller. Race isn't a dealbreaker - I'm just looking for a physical attraction.
Got pics to exchange 🙃
submitted by MasVazz to R4R30Plus [link] [comments]
Grad degree and speak another language. Born and raised in NYC, I was in a long-ish relationship recently, and have lived in like 10 different cities
Not really looking for anything serious just missing the closeness, intimacy, and connection with someone. If it's even just chatting for the night, that works
I'm 5'8", slim/athletic, and open to taller. Race isn't a dealbreaker - I'm just looking for a physical attraction.
Got pics to exchange 🙃
2023.06.03 19:18 ZionHodges Give me literally any advice (related to the post preferably)
Typing this without a planned outline, check out my tests
I have no clue how in depth or not in depth I’m gonna go yet. It’s 12:33 PM, we’ll see how long this takes.
Around thanksgiving, I met my little cousin who has autism. (I think he’s either 3 or 6, not really sure). Respectfully, he’s extremely annoying. He was fighting my aunts dog, and the dog was fighting back. The dog was really tiny though. I’m just gonna assume that all things considered he’s deeper into the spectrum than me (or however you would scientifically and conversationally classify that, forgive my ignorance). But finding out about his existence was the first sign that I could specifically have some like autistic genes somewhere or something. Obviously not closely connected, but I mean my Dad’s Sister’s son is bound to have some similarities to me right? And even prior to that, in 2019 I learned that mental health issues in general are very abundant in my Dad’s family. My uncle went missing one time and was having like a mental breakdown because he had a lot of debt or something. A few of my aunts have like horrible anxiety. I’m pretty sure my grandma there has anxiety also, she’s just old and old people don’t give a shit about anything so that probably was never looked into on her part.
I’ve thought I was autistic for a long time, but it was always just a random hunch (is that the right word???). Like a guesstimate based on absolutely zero facts. I took some tests a while back and they were saying like “borderline autism” but nothing solid. Granted, those were just randomly googled tests. (But I have a theory that my current tests are more alarming because I’m subconsciously making myself more autistic seeming so that I will pass the tests?) That was all until I met my cousin though. November 2022, now I know autism is in the gene pool. Now. May 20th, I find out my other aunt is on the spectrum. {For the record, my grandma had 10 kids: 2 uncles, 1 dad, the rest aunts} My aunt told me she didn’t handle that news very well. I wouldn’t have ever imagined SHE was on the spectrum though. Obviously you never really know what people are going through.
But now this means I have 2 relatives with specific autism related diagnoses. Which has of course influenced me to delve deeper into myself.
I haven’t been diagnosed with anything. I previously took Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and Hydroxozine simultaneously for like ADHD and Depression, but stopped being able to pay the $80/month for my Cerebral App subscription
First off here are my tests I guess
“AQ” (32) “RAADS-R” (160) “Aspie?” (158 / 200) “Non-Autistic?” (55 / 200)
So I’ve obviously just made an assumption that people here know what all these tests are, I’ve seen lots talk about them. But it’s from https://embrace-autism.com/autism-tests/
My mind is blank right now. I guess I’ll say I have a psychologist appointment on Tuesday. I’m not entirely sure what I should do or say there. I’ve had an online therapist before, (shoutout to Steve. I wish I could contact him again but I have no idea how I would even go about doing that without subscribing to Cerebral again), but I’ve never done it in person. Furthermore, though I have lots of mental things to talk about, I’ve been very intrigued by this autism thing. Autism. I show a lot of symptoms and took a lot of tests. There’s a bit of imposter syndrome at play because dumb free online tests couldn’t mean much probably without a real science person studying me or something. I’m pretty sure I read once that there’s like an autism brain scan or something. But I think it’s mostly like behavioral studying. Not sure.
I do wonder though, in my however short amount of time 1 session, I guess I should bring up my autism suspicions, but I doubt I’d be officially diagnosed then? Probably like some more costly tests or something? What’s your experience?
I’ve seen lots here say “I don’t need to be diagnosed, I know what I am” and though I sort of understand that, Nobody (parents, girlfriend, friends) would ever believe or accept the idea that I could be on the spectrum unless I had at least a professional opinion. And for certain people I’d need a specific diagnosis.
Let’s say though that I was diagnosed. How do I say “hey mom guess what I learned” I’m kinda scared that she would either - cry and feel like ‘how did I miss it’ - secretly have known my whole life - Not agree actual science (denial) - Treat me even more like a child than she already does
I’m not really sure how I would handle any of those things.
I’m not even sure I’m autistic lol. Imagine I did all this research and typed this long ass post just to find out like I need to sleep more or something dumb like that. I figured the people here would be the only people who’d have similar confusions and thoughts though.
I’m sorry about how rambly this is
I didn’t type any of this in order.
I kept going up lines and down paragraphs and back to the beginning I’m very unorganized. But also I thrive in organized chaos.
I also like to hide in closets and under blankets. That’s not relevant but I think it could be.
I don’t love reading but I love writing so I’m sorry if this is too long lol
If you have any thoughts or advice, let me know
It is now 1:13. This took more time than I thought it would.
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I have no clue how in depth or not in depth I’m gonna go yet. It’s 12:33 PM, we’ll see how long this takes.
Around thanksgiving, I met my little cousin who has autism. (I think he’s either 3 or 6, not really sure). Respectfully, he’s extremely annoying. He was fighting my aunts dog, and the dog was fighting back. The dog was really tiny though. I’m just gonna assume that all things considered he’s deeper into the spectrum than me (or however you would scientifically and conversationally classify that, forgive my ignorance). But finding out about his existence was the first sign that I could specifically have some like autistic genes somewhere or something. Obviously not closely connected, but I mean my Dad’s Sister’s son is bound to have some similarities to me right? And even prior to that, in 2019 I learned that mental health issues in general are very abundant in my Dad’s family. My uncle went missing one time and was having like a mental breakdown because he had a lot of debt or something. A few of my aunts have like horrible anxiety. I’m pretty sure my grandma there has anxiety also, she’s just old and old people don’t give a shit about anything so that probably was never looked into on her part.
I’ve thought I was autistic for a long time, but it was always just a random hunch (is that the right word???). Like a guesstimate based on absolutely zero facts. I took some tests a while back and they were saying like “borderline autism” but nothing solid. Granted, those were just randomly googled tests. (But I have a theory that my current tests are more alarming because I’m subconsciously making myself more autistic seeming so that I will pass the tests?) That was all until I met my cousin though. November 2022, now I know autism is in the gene pool. Now. May 20th, I find out my other aunt is on the spectrum. {For the record, my grandma had 10 kids: 2 uncles, 1 dad, the rest aunts} My aunt told me she didn’t handle that news very well. I wouldn’t have ever imagined SHE was on the spectrum though. Obviously you never really know what people are going through.
But now this means I have 2 relatives with specific autism related diagnoses. Which has of course influenced me to delve deeper into myself.
I haven’t been diagnosed with anything. I previously took Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and Hydroxozine simultaneously for like ADHD and Depression, but stopped being able to pay the $80/month for my Cerebral App subscription
First off here are my tests I guess
“AQ” (32) “RAADS-R” (160) “Aspie?” (158 / 200) “Non-Autistic?” (55 / 200)
So I’ve obviously just made an assumption that people here know what all these tests are, I’ve seen lots talk about them. But it’s from https://embrace-autism.com/autism-tests/
My mind is blank right now. I guess I’ll say I have a psychologist appointment on Tuesday. I’m not entirely sure what I should do or say there. I’ve had an online therapist before, (shoutout to Steve. I wish I could contact him again but I have no idea how I would even go about doing that without subscribing to Cerebral again), but I’ve never done it in person. Furthermore, though I have lots of mental things to talk about, I’ve been very intrigued by this autism thing. Autism. I show a lot of symptoms and took a lot of tests. There’s a bit of imposter syndrome at play because dumb free online tests couldn’t mean much probably without a real science person studying me or something. I’m pretty sure I read once that there’s like an autism brain scan or something. But I think it’s mostly like behavioral studying. Not sure.
I do wonder though, in my however short amount of time 1 session, I guess I should bring up my autism suspicions, but I doubt I’d be officially diagnosed then? Probably like some more costly tests or something? What’s your experience?
I’ve seen lots here say “I don’t need to be diagnosed, I know what I am” and though I sort of understand that, Nobody (parents, girlfriend, friends) would ever believe or accept the idea that I could be on the spectrum unless I had at least a professional opinion. And for certain people I’d need a specific diagnosis.
Let’s say though that I was diagnosed. How do I say “hey mom guess what I learned” I’m kinda scared that she would either - cry and feel like ‘how did I miss it’ - secretly have known my whole life - Not agree actual science (denial) - Treat me even more like a child than she already does
I’m not really sure how I would handle any of those things.
I’m not even sure I’m autistic lol. Imagine I did all this research and typed this long ass post just to find out like I need to sleep more or something dumb like that. I figured the people here would be the only people who’d have similar confusions and thoughts though.
I’m sorry about how rambly this is
I didn’t type any of this in order.
I kept going up lines and down paragraphs and back to the beginning I’m very unorganized. But also I thrive in organized chaos.
I also like to hide in closets and under blankets. That’s not relevant but I think it could be.
I don’t love reading but I love writing so I’m sorry if this is too long lol
If you have any thoughts or advice, let me know
It is now 1:13. This took more time than I thought it would.
2023.06.03 19:15 King-Azar Desync despite multiple changes!
Hey everyone, I have an intriguing story to share. I've been an avid Valorant player since the beta, I have a background in old-school CS (1.0-1.6) where my reaction time played a significant advantage. After a break from gaming, I got into MOBA games before Valorant was released, and I immediately liked it. The movement reminds me that old game + abilities and climbed till AS3.
During the past three years, however, I've been experiencing an issue that I initially thought was related to my PC. To address it, I went through multiple upgrades, investing in two new computers (2019: 5950x/3090 and 2023: 13900k/4090) and a high refresh rate 360Hz monitor. I also switched my internet connection twice, going from ADSL 30Mbps to Cable 300Mbps and finally to Fibre FTTH 1Gbps with different Internet Service Providers. As a result, my ping improved significantly, going from 80ms to 20ms on the closest server.
Despite these hardware and network upgrades, my gameplay experience hasn't improved. It feels like opponents spot me before I even see them, which I could attribute to peeker's advantage. However, even when I'm the one initiating a peek, enemies react instantly and shoot me without giving me a chance to react or evade their shots.
Another strange occurrence is when I try to pick up a gun on the ground, if a teammate is slightly behind me, they manage to grab it before I do, even if they are several feet away. This inability to hold angles effectively and successfully peek has become frustrating.
At some point, I accepted that the issue might be with me, I’m too old and I resigned myself to thinking, "It is what it is!" I moved on, but then something unexpected happened. I received an invitation to play CS2 a couple of days ago. Initially, I wasn't enthusiastic because it seemed like CSGO with better visuals and a more vibrant atmosphere, but I wasn't particularly into CSGO. However, I eventually decided to give it a try.
Late at night, despite being exhausted, my friends, who had access to CS2, were eager to play, so I reluctantly joined them. To my surprise, throughout the five games we played, even with my drowsiness, I was able to hold angles effectively and react swiftly to in-game situations. The following day, when I was well-rested and fueled by caffeine, holding angles and peeking felt effortless.
Excited by this newfound responsiveness, I immediately switched back to Valorant, hoping for a similar experience. However, to my disappointment, I found it impossible to react swiftly once again. After losing a game, I returned to CS2 for further testing, and unsurprisingly, I was able to hold angles again!
Now, I'm completely puzzled. Is Valorant simply not the right game for me? I'm hesitant to switch entirely, as I'm still drawn to Valorant. I can't help but wonder if I'm missing something or doing something wrong. Any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated
Update: I’ve tried all the shenanigans of best esport windows 10-11 settings, drivers clean install, tried windows custom gaming iso, network special gaming settings, regedit gaming tips and tricks and followed millions of youtube advise but none made a difference.
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During the past three years, however, I've been experiencing an issue that I initially thought was related to my PC. To address it, I went through multiple upgrades, investing in two new computers (2019: 5950x/3090 and 2023: 13900k/4090) and a high refresh rate 360Hz monitor. I also switched my internet connection twice, going from ADSL 30Mbps to Cable 300Mbps and finally to Fibre FTTH 1Gbps with different Internet Service Providers. As a result, my ping improved significantly, going from 80ms to 20ms on the closest server.
Despite these hardware and network upgrades, my gameplay experience hasn't improved. It feels like opponents spot me before I even see them, which I could attribute to peeker's advantage. However, even when I'm the one initiating a peek, enemies react instantly and shoot me without giving me a chance to react or evade their shots.
Another strange occurrence is when I try to pick up a gun on the ground, if a teammate is slightly behind me, they manage to grab it before I do, even if they are several feet away. This inability to hold angles effectively and successfully peek has become frustrating.
At some point, I accepted that the issue might be with me, I’m too old and I resigned myself to thinking, "It is what it is!" I moved on, but then something unexpected happened. I received an invitation to play CS2 a couple of days ago. Initially, I wasn't enthusiastic because it seemed like CSGO with better visuals and a more vibrant atmosphere, but I wasn't particularly into CSGO. However, I eventually decided to give it a try.
Late at night, despite being exhausted, my friends, who had access to CS2, were eager to play, so I reluctantly joined them. To my surprise, throughout the five games we played, even with my drowsiness, I was able to hold angles effectively and react swiftly to in-game situations. The following day, when I was well-rested and fueled by caffeine, holding angles and peeking felt effortless.
Excited by this newfound responsiveness, I immediately switched back to Valorant, hoping for a similar experience. However, to my disappointment, I found it impossible to react swiftly once again. After losing a game, I returned to CS2 for further testing, and unsurprisingly, I was able to hold angles again!
Now, I'm completely puzzled. Is Valorant simply not the right game for me? I'm hesitant to switch entirely, as I'm still drawn to Valorant. I can't help but wonder if I'm missing something or doing something wrong. Any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated
Update: I’ve tried all the shenanigans of best esport windows 10-11 settings, drivers clean install, tried windows custom gaming iso, network special gaming settings, regedit gaming tips and tricks and followed millions of youtube advise but none made a difference.
2023.06.03 19:14 ZionHodges Typing this without a planned outline, check out my tests
I have no clue how in depth or not in depth I’m gonna go yet. It’s 12:33 PM, we’ll see how long this takes.
Around thanksgiving, I met my little cousin who has autism. (I think he’s either 3 or 6, not really sure). Respectfully, he’s extremely annoying. He was fighting my aunts dog, and the dog was fighting back. The dog was really tiny though. I’m just gonna assume that all things considered he’s deeper into the spectrum than me (or however you would scientifically and conversationally classify that, forgive my ignorance). But finding out about his existence was the first sign that I could specifically have some like autistic genes somewhere or something. Obviously not closely connected, but I mean my Dad’s Sister’s son is bound to have some similarities to me right? And even prior to that, in 2019 I learned that mental health issues in general are very abundant in my Dad’s family. My uncle went missing one time and was having like a mental breakdown because he had a lot of debt or something. A few of my aunts have like horrible anxiety. I’m pretty sure my grandma there has anxiety also, she’s just old and old people don’t give a shit about anything so that probably was never looked into on her part.
I’ve thought I was autistic for a long time, but it was always just a random hunch (is that the right word???). Like a guesstimate based on absolutely zero facts. I took some tests a while back and they were saying like “borderline autism” but nothing solid. Granted, those were just randomly googled tests. (But I have a theory that my current tests are more alarming because I’m subconsciously making myself more autistic seeming so that I will pass the tests?) That was all until I met my cousin though. November 2022, now I know autism is in the gene pool. Now. May 20th, I find out my other aunt is on the spectrum. {For the record, my grandma had 10 kids: 2 uncles, 1 dad, the rest aunts} My aunt told me she didn’t handle that news very well. I wouldn’t have ever imagined SHE was on the spectrum though. Obviously you never really know what people are going through.
But now this means I have 2 relatives with specific autism related diagnoses. Which has of course influenced me to delve deeper into myself.
I haven’t been diagnosed with anything. I previously took Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and Hydroxozine simultaneously for like ADHD and Depression, but stopped being able to pay the $80/month for my Cerebral App subscription
First off here are my tests I guess
“AQ” (32) “RAADS-R” (160) “Aspie?” (158 / 200) “Non-Autistic?” (55 / 200)
So I’ve obviously just made an assumption that people here know what all these tests are, I’ve seen lots talk about them. But it’s from https://embrace-autism.com/autism-tests/
My mind is blank right now. I guess I’ll say I have a psychologist appointment on Tuesday. I’m not entirely sure what I should do or say there. I’ve had an online therapist before, (shoutout to Steve. I wish I could contact him again but I have no idea how I would even go about doing that without subscribing to Cerebral again), but I’ve never done it in person. Furthermore, though I have lots of mental things to talk about, I’ve been very intrigued by this autism thing. Autism. I show a lot of symptoms and took a lot of tests. There’s a bit of imposter syndrome at play because dumb free online tests couldn’t mean much probably without a real science person studying me or something. I’m pretty sure I read once that there’s like an autism brain scan or something. But I think it’s mostly like behavioral studying. Not sure.
I do wonder though, in my however short amount of time 1 session, I guess I should bring up my autism suspicions, but I doubt I’d be officially diagnosed then? Probably like some more costly tests or something? What’s your experience?
I’ve seen lots here say “I don’t need to be diagnosed, I know what I am” and though I sort of understand that, Nobody (parents, girlfriend, friends) would ever believe or accept the idea that I could be on the spectrum unless I had at least a professional opinion. And for certain people I’d need a specific diagnosis.
Let’s say though that I was diagnosed. How do I say “hey mom guess what I learned” I’m kinda scared that she would either - cry and feel like ‘how did I miss it’ - secretly have known my whole life - Not agree actual science (denial) - Treat me even more like a child than she already does
I’m not really sure how I would handle any of those things.
I’m not even sure I’m autistic lol. Imagine I did all this research and typed this long ass post just to find out like I need to sleep more or something dumb like that. I figured the people here would be the only people who’d have similar confusions and thoughts though.
I’m sorry about how rambly this is
I didn’t type any of this in order.
I kept going up lines and down paragraphs and back to the beginning I’m very unorganized. But also I thrive in organized chaos.
I also like to hide in closets and under blankets. That’s not relevant but I think it could be.
I don’t love reading but I love writing so I’m sorry if this is too long lol
If you have any thoughts or advice, let me know
It is now 1:13. This took more time than I thought it would.
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Around thanksgiving, I met my little cousin who has autism. (I think he’s either 3 or 6, not really sure). Respectfully, he’s extremely annoying. He was fighting my aunts dog, and the dog was fighting back. The dog was really tiny though. I’m just gonna assume that all things considered he’s deeper into the spectrum than me (or however you would scientifically and conversationally classify that, forgive my ignorance). But finding out about his existence was the first sign that I could specifically have some like autistic genes somewhere or something. Obviously not closely connected, but I mean my Dad’s Sister’s son is bound to have some similarities to me right? And even prior to that, in 2019 I learned that mental health issues in general are very abundant in my Dad’s family. My uncle went missing one time and was having like a mental breakdown because he had a lot of debt or something. A few of my aunts have like horrible anxiety. I’m pretty sure my grandma there has anxiety also, she’s just old and old people don’t give a shit about anything so that probably was never looked into on her part.
I’ve thought I was autistic for a long time, but it was always just a random hunch (is that the right word???). Like a guesstimate based on absolutely zero facts. I took some tests a while back and they were saying like “borderline autism” but nothing solid. Granted, those were just randomly googled tests. (But I have a theory that my current tests are more alarming because I’m subconsciously making myself more autistic seeming so that I will pass the tests?) That was all until I met my cousin though. November 2022, now I know autism is in the gene pool. Now. May 20th, I find out my other aunt is on the spectrum. {For the record, my grandma had 10 kids: 2 uncles, 1 dad, the rest aunts} My aunt told me she didn’t handle that news very well. I wouldn’t have ever imagined SHE was on the spectrum though. Obviously you never really know what people are going through.
But now this means I have 2 relatives with specific autism related diagnoses. Which has of course influenced me to delve deeper into myself.
I haven’t been diagnosed with anything. I previously took Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and Hydroxozine simultaneously for like ADHD and Depression, but stopped being able to pay the $80/month for my Cerebral App subscription
First off here are my tests I guess
“AQ” (32) “RAADS-R” (160) “Aspie?” (158 / 200) “Non-Autistic?” (55 / 200)
So I’ve obviously just made an assumption that people here know what all these tests are, I’ve seen lots talk about them. But it’s from https://embrace-autism.com/autism-tests/
My mind is blank right now. I guess I’ll say I have a psychologist appointment on Tuesday. I’m not entirely sure what I should do or say there. I’ve had an online therapist before, (shoutout to Steve. I wish I could contact him again but I have no idea how I would even go about doing that without subscribing to Cerebral again), but I’ve never done it in person. Furthermore, though I have lots of mental things to talk about, I’ve been very intrigued by this autism thing. Autism. I show a lot of symptoms and took a lot of tests. There’s a bit of imposter syndrome at play because dumb free online tests couldn’t mean much probably without a real science person studying me or something. I’m pretty sure I read once that there’s like an autism brain scan or something. But I think it’s mostly like behavioral studying. Not sure.
I do wonder though, in my however short amount of time 1 session, I guess I should bring up my autism suspicions, but I doubt I’d be officially diagnosed then? Probably like some more costly tests or something? What’s your experience?
I’ve seen lots here say “I don’t need to be diagnosed, I know what I am” and though I sort of understand that, Nobody (parents, girlfriend, friends) would ever believe or accept the idea that I could be on the spectrum unless I had at least a professional opinion. And for certain people I’d need a specific diagnosis.
Let’s say though that I was diagnosed. How do I say “hey mom guess what I learned” I’m kinda scared that she would either - cry and feel like ‘how did I miss it’ - secretly have known my whole life - Not agree actual science (denial) - Treat me even more like a child than she already does
I’m not really sure how I would handle any of those things.
I’m not even sure I’m autistic lol. Imagine I did all this research and typed this long ass post just to find out like I need to sleep more or something dumb like that. I figured the people here would be the only people who’d have similar confusions and thoughts though.
I’m sorry about how rambly this is
I didn’t type any of this in order.
I kept going up lines and down paragraphs and back to the beginning I’m very unorganized. But also I thrive in organized chaos.
I also like to hide in closets and under blankets. That’s not relevant but I think it could be.
I don’t love reading but I love writing so I’m sorry if this is too long lol
If you have any thoughts or advice, let me know
It is now 1:13. This took more time than I thought it would.
2023.06.03 19:10 2pacismyda Car broken into - no forced entry
Title says it all, was wondering if I could get some input from the community as to what to do next.
This afternoon a neighbour told me the passenger side door of my car was slightly ajar. Thought maybe my son didn’t close it when he got out last night
Went to inspect but I noticed the rear seat (that lets you into the boot) had been pulled down and the car and items were missing
Thankfully nothing of great value, prescription ray bans, a mag light torch, the usb cable that connects to the CarPlay unit, they emptied the glove compartment of air fresheners, spare bulbs, and my insurance cover note, they even took chamois cloths and leather wipes from the driver side door sill and emptied the wee compartment where I keep coins for toll booths etc probably a couple of quid, they even took a used vape lol.
The car was definitely locked, and it has a function where it locks automatically after 5 minutes if parked up. It’s a Golf GTI.
Here’s the clinker: I have cctv (google nest) but my subscription ran out on Thursday and I didn’t get around to renewing it -you can imagine my anger and regret. I have obviously renewed it and I reached out to google to see if they could pull any footage from the cloud via what’s called their “takeout” service. But they said it’s unlikely there will be anything recorded as my subscription was not active
The perpetrators must have used an electronic drive to gain entry, i assume this as the boot was still locked hence why they tried to gain entry to the boot via the back seat. I know about devices like the flipper zero that thieves have been using to gain entry to cars and buildings.
What should I do? Do I tell my insurer? Call the cops? I fear they may feel the incident too benign.
Absolutely disgusted.
Most of all I would like my prescription sunglasses back 😢
Thanks folks
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This afternoon a neighbour told me the passenger side door of my car was slightly ajar. Thought maybe my son didn’t close it when he got out last night
Went to inspect but I noticed the rear seat (that lets you into the boot) had been pulled down and the car and items were missing
Thankfully nothing of great value, prescription ray bans, a mag light torch, the usb cable that connects to the CarPlay unit, they emptied the glove compartment of air fresheners, spare bulbs, and my insurance cover note, they even took chamois cloths and leather wipes from the driver side door sill and emptied the wee compartment where I keep coins for toll booths etc probably a couple of quid, they even took a used vape lol.
The car was definitely locked, and it has a function where it locks automatically after 5 minutes if parked up. It’s a Golf GTI.
Here’s the clinker: I have cctv (google nest) but my subscription ran out on Thursday and I didn’t get around to renewing it -you can imagine my anger and regret. I have obviously renewed it and I reached out to google to see if they could pull any footage from the cloud via what’s called their “takeout” service. But they said it’s unlikely there will be anything recorded as my subscription was not active
The perpetrators must have used an electronic drive to gain entry, i assume this as the boot was still locked hence why they tried to gain entry to the boot via the back seat. I know about devices like the flipper zero that thieves have been using to gain entry to cars and buildings.
What should I do? Do I tell my insurer? Call the cops? I fear they may feel the incident too benign.
Absolutely disgusted.
Most of all I would like my prescription sunglasses back 😢
Thanks folks
2023.06.03 19:09 emptylostandconfused Should I leave my full-ride to medical school? I have felt empty and lost at every step of the journey here.
Hello everyone,
I’m not sure if this is the right audience to address my concerns but I assume this would be the only group that may understand my ‘dilemma’. I’m currently an M1 at a well-regarded program attending school on pretty much a full ride. Despite a few things I hate about my school and the city I live in I have pretty much all the necessities I need as a student to succeed. I’ve got a nice apartment, fairly good friends, and I’ve been doing research in a competitive field with some success so far. That said, all joy I once had for attending medical school and being a physician has left me slowly by slowly throughout the year and I find myself constantly depressed, traumatized by the path it took to get here, and frequently having suicidal ideations or thoughts of a very much welcomed untimely death at my young age (e.g. getting mugged, car crash, terminal illness). I know there are a combination of factors that are contributing to how I feel right now but mainly I can sum them up to hating the person I had to create to bring me to this point of perceived “success”. I say this not to brag by any means – but I was fortunate to be accepted to multiple medical schools and have multiple enticing scholarship options before choosing this school. I should be happy about that – but even before I matriculated to medical school, I had frequent thoughts of wishing I would die before I matriculated because at least I could let go of the expectations from friends, family, and the world that keeps telling me to “push on” through things that I feel like are taking more away from me than are contributing to me. I miss the days before I started my pre-med journey when the simplest things in life would satisfy me. I didn’t care about the weather - I liked clouds, I liked rain, I liked sun, I liked warmth, I liked cold. Now where I live the climate is so awfully different from my home, I’m convinced I cannot take it anymore and need to get away. I used to not think much of where live, if I have a quiet place to study and read books/play video games. Now my family cannot keep commenting on how shitty the city I live in is (compared to others I could have lived in), and frankly I’ve started to agree with them (which is unfortunate considering I’m supposedly stuck here for another 3 years). The path to medical school has taken so much of who I am away all to build this persona of a perfect medical student and future physician who I’m not even sure I want to be anymore. Everything is "high expectations" (whatever the fuck that means), everything is comparison. It seems like the payout for all of my suffering is a nice home, a car, and a steady job with trips to the country club every now and then. Maybe nice toys like watches and vacations in between an awful work schedule, working in a soul-crushing environment of meaningless paperwork and illness. I’ve sold my soul to replace everything I’ve lost with material things being my only solace in the future because my spirit is dead and the journey has never brought me any joy since undergrad. I have lost the false sense of fulfillment for taking care of patients because I feel like they can be taken care of by someone else who enjoys this field more and doesn’t feel like they died inside to achieve their goal of being a physician. Frankly speaking – I feel like whether I become a doctor or not will not really do anything for the world, it certainly is not doing anything for me except making me a worse person by the day. Sometimes in life, less is so much more and I often wake up wishing I never succeeded so much to get here in the first place. I don't want to be on this pedestal anymore because it was all a lie and I am not better off because of any of this.
I can barely focus on my studies anymore as I feel like I am on a speeding train headed for wall with me in the conductor’s booth. I don’t feel connected to my friends or family. I used to love writing but have given that up all together, because it resurfaces feelings I am not sure I can handle about my past and the decisions I've made. I am constantly thinking about death because I don’t want to mindlessly jump through hoops anymore to achieve goals that only leave me feeling like a shell. I don’t care about research (which I used to love). I hate to say it, but I find my empathy for others lacking when I care barely get out of bed or even get out of my own head to stop thinking about this horrific person I’ve become. Perhaps I am ungrateful, but the funny thing is being ungrateful is the only way I made it this far. One year out from STEP 1, I’m not even sure if I can muster the concentration to study and perform well on it because I can barely get out of bed in the morning. I am just constantly exhausted by the weight of the world. I feel like if I fail then I’m going to kill myself if not physically than spiritually even though I already feel dead inside. I spend every day looking at educational paths in life I wish I pursued rather than medicine. However, I come from an immigrant family that will essentially never let me live down the fact that I left a massive medical scholarship to make less than 80k a year in graduate school or as a professor. At this point I feel like I have two options:
- Accept that the old me is dead and is never coming back and continue pursuing forward as a shell of my former self. This would satisfy those around me and society, but I am almost certain I won’t be the same.
- Take a chance to find meaning in life once again and potentially finding joy in less. Switch to graduate school and be content.
With the way I feel right now I don’t think a person like me belongs in medical school or really should be here in the first place. Weakness gets eaten alive here and I’m so broken down I don’t care enough to fight back anymore. My ambitions now are completely fake. Hiding from the fact that I don’t want to be here and I am frankly tired with life and unexcited for the future. Should I stop before it gets worse? Or is that not even an option at this point?
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I’m not sure if this is the right audience to address my concerns but I assume this would be the only group that may understand my ‘dilemma’. I’m currently an M1 at a well-regarded program attending school on pretty much a full ride. Despite a few things I hate about my school and the city I live in I have pretty much all the necessities I need as a student to succeed. I’ve got a nice apartment, fairly good friends, and I’ve been doing research in a competitive field with some success so far. That said, all joy I once had for attending medical school and being a physician has left me slowly by slowly throughout the year and I find myself constantly depressed, traumatized by the path it took to get here, and frequently having suicidal ideations or thoughts of a very much welcomed untimely death at my young age (e.g. getting mugged, car crash, terminal illness). I know there are a combination of factors that are contributing to how I feel right now but mainly I can sum them up to hating the person I had to create to bring me to this point of perceived “success”. I say this not to brag by any means – but I was fortunate to be accepted to multiple medical schools and have multiple enticing scholarship options before choosing this school. I should be happy about that – but even before I matriculated to medical school, I had frequent thoughts of wishing I would die before I matriculated because at least I could let go of the expectations from friends, family, and the world that keeps telling me to “push on” through things that I feel like are taking more away from me than are contributing to me. I miss the days before I started my pre-med journey when the simplest things in life would satisfy me. I didn’t care about the weather - I liked clouds, I liked rain, I liked sun, I liked warmth, I liked cold. Now where I live the climate is so awfully different from my home, I’m convinced I cannot take it anymore and need to get away. I used to not think much of where live, if I have a quiet place to study and read books/play video games. Now my family cannot keep commenting on how shitty the city I live in is (compared to others I could have lived in), and frankly I’ve started to agree with them (which is unfortunate considering I’m supposedly stuck here for another 3 years). The path to medical school has taken so much of who I am away all to build this persona of a perfect medical student and future physician who I’m not even sure I want to be anymore. Everything is "high expectations" (whatever the fuck that means), everything is comparison. It seems like the payout for all of my suffering is a nice home, a car, and a steady job with trips to the country club every now and then. Maybe nice toys like watches and vacations in between an awful work schedule, working in a soul-crushing environment of meaningless paperwork and illness. I’ve sold my soul to replace everything I’ve lost with material things being my only solace in the future because my spirit is dead and the journey has never brought me any joy since undergrad. I have lost the false sense of fulfillment for taking care of patients because I feel like they can be taken care of by someone else who enjoys this field more and doesn’t feel like they died inside to achieve their goal of being a physician. Frankly speaking – I feel like whether I become a doctor or not will not really do anything for the world, it certainly is not doing anything for me except making me a worse person by the day. Sometimes in life, less is so much more and I often wake up wishing I never succeeded so much to get here in the first place. I don't want to be on this pedestal anymore because it was all a lie and I am not better off because of any of this.
I can barely focus on my studies anymore as I feel like I am on a speeding train headed for wall with me in the conductor’s booth. I don’t feel connected to my friends or family. I used to love writing but have given that up all together, because it resurfaces feelings I am not sure I can handle about my past and the decisions I've made. I am constantly thinking about death because I don’t want to mindlessly jump through hoops anymore to achieve goals that only leave me feeling like a shell. I don’t care about research (which I used to love). I hate to say it, but I find my empathy for others lacking when I care barely get out of bed or even get out of my own head to stop thinking about this horrific person I’ve become. Perhaps I am ungrateful, but the funny thing is being ungrateful is the only way I made it this far. One year out from STEP 1, I’m not even sure if I can muster the concentration to study and perform well on it because I can barely get out of bed in the morning. I am just constantly exhausted by the weight of the world. I feel like if I fail then I’m going to kill myself if not physically than spiritually even though I already feel dead inside. I spend every day looking at educational paths in life I wish I pursued rather than medicine. However, I come from an immigrant family that will essentially never let me live down the fact that I left a massive medical scholarship to make less than 80k a year in graduate school or as a professor. At this point I feel like I have two options:
- Accept that the old me is dead and is never coming back and continue pursuing forward as a shell of my former self. This would satisfy those around me and society, but I am almost certain I won’t be the same.
- Take a chance to find meaning in life once again and potentially finding joy in less. Switch to graduate school and be content.
With the way I feel right now I don’t think a person like me belongs in medical school or really should be here in the first place. Weakness gets eaten alive here and I’m so broken down I don’t care enough to fight back anymore. My ambitions now are completely fake. Hiding from the fact that I don’t want to be here and I am frankly tired with life and unexcited for the future. Should I stop before it gets worse? Or is that not even an option at this point?
2023.06.03 19:06 Titan_Dean_Maverick I'm (M27) in an international long distance relationship with an avoidant partner (F21) I just found out she recently got molested at work and has been distancing. She wants space from me. How long should I wait?
We’ve been dating for 7 months before she left overseas on a 2 year assignment because she couldn’t find work in this country. Before she left, everything was amazing, we had a strong connection, but she was always nervous about having deep conversations and so I never initiated them very often. When she got overseas, we were communicating constantly well, we even had random video calls during the day even with the time difference. I would often tuck her into bed virtually when I came home from work.
Things turned sour in January, I noticed a change in our communication, and our connection was tacking a toll. I remained consistent throughout but she would give me reasons why she can’t talk, she’s on different work schedules, attending lots of training in between and can no longer stay on a call for hours, she’s not getting enough sleep, and has less time to do her own personal things and managing late night shifts as well. Ive always been understanding and patient with our situation and have always lowered my expectations whenever she couldn’t connect with me. There were no more good night texts or good morning texts from her side, no more check-ups during the day. Every time I asked she would get mad and we would fight, insisting that she’s overwhelmed with work and a whole lot of personal stress that she’s going through. She always avoids confrontation and accountability.
Eventually she snapped in one argument and decided to ghost me for two weeks. I kept reaching out, sending texts and voice notes that she ignored. During this period I found out that I’m an anxious partner. My attachment style was triggered and I pleaded for her to talk to me, I apologised for so many things, for being clingy and needy and wanting her attention all the time. She came back eventually and told me she still loves me, she completely ignored all those texts and we began talking as normal.
2 more months went by and the same distancing happened, this time more extensively. She would ignore my good morning texts, not pick up my calls, and whenever we had the time to do video calls at night she was always tired and would often fall asleep in between the conversation. After expressing my concerns and emphasising the importance of communication in any relationship especially in a LDR, nothing would change. I’ve tried minimising my communication and pulling back just to offer her space to miss me and initiate contact, but she used that time to distance even further from me. During this time I sought professional help and spoke to a therapist. My therapist immediately dismissed all the issues I mentioned about her and wanted me to focus on why I have relationship anxiety and where my fear of abandonment comes from. So I started working on myself and healing my own childhood wounds. I stopped calling her frequently after I realised my calls were no longer being picked up, when she saw my missed-calls she gave no other reasons for not picking up except that she was busy. She always assured me that she’s dealing with a whole lot of stuff and she doesn’t wanna involve me because it’s not about me and that we are fine and she loves me.
One time I randomly called her on a weekend and received another cold treatment. She said she was tired and battling with some stuff and she can’t really talk.I decided to let her rest. After I hung up she wrote a very long text explaining what she had been going through. She got molested more than once by another colleague from work and has been dealing with these emotions for 3 months. Depression, anxiety, trauma and feelings of low self worth. I expressed how sorry I am that she went through this. She told me since the incident she didn’t want to interact with any male person and has been distancing from me because she couldn’t stand me being so nice to her and intimate all the time.
After we spoke she told me that she only started to have the courage to talk about it now and was able to report the matter to management. The perpetrator was fired immediately and they offered her counselling which she’s currently attending. The following weekend I called her randomly because I stopped calling her during the week, I sensed how difficult it was to share that story with me and assured her that Im here for her anytime.
She apologised for not being able to show up in this relationship and always treating me bad and taking out her frustrations out on me. The following weekend I tried to call her again and she didn’t pick up. Later that day she told me via text that she can’t satisfy a relationship right now because she feels so hopeless, stressed and scared, she needs space from me and I should try and understand because she has no ability to demonstrate love to anybody at this point, also that she needs time and she can’t communicate with me because it’s so hard and that she’s only struggling by herself and hopes she regains the ability to trust and love again. I told her I can give her space and that my door will always be open if she needed my support.
But it’s been a month now of no contact, I thought my therapy would help but I still find myself stalking her on Instagram and Facebook, she always posts happy pictures everyday. She’s only texted me once, wishing me a good week and that she loves me. Which I responded “I love you too”
How long will I need to wait because there’s so many things I don’t know at this point? I wanna understand what she means by “molest” because it could mean different kinds of sexual abuse, but I’m also mindful of not bringing back that traumatic event to her mind. I still love and care for her but very often she has made me feel like I’m the one with the problem, the one who’s causing her to distance. She’s not good when it comes to sharing her feelings. Sometimes I find myself doubting if she will ever come back and want to be with me again. What do I do in the meantime to show her support and care for her. How long will the silence be?
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Things turned sour in January, I noticed a change in our communication, and our connection was tacking a toll. I remained consistent throughout but she would give me reasons why she can’t talk, she’s on different work schedules, attending lots of training in between and can no longer stay on a call for hours, she’s not getting enough sleep, and has less time to do her own personal things and managing late night shifts as well. Ive always been understanding and patient with our situation and have always lowered my expectations whenever she couldn’t connect with me. There were no more good night texts or good morning texts from her side, no more check-ups during the day. Every time I asked she would get mad and we would fight, insisting that she’s overwhelmed with work and a whole lot of personal stress that she’s going through. She always avoids confrontation and accountability.
Eventually she snapped in one argument and decided to ghost me for two weeks. I kept reaching out, sending texts and voice notes that she ignored. During this period I found out that I’m an anxious partner. My attachment style was triggered and I pleaded for her to talk to me, I apologised for so many things, for being clingy and needy and wanting her attention all the time. She came back eventually and told me she still loves me, she completely ignored all those texts and we began talking as normal.
2 more months went by and the same distancing happened, this time more extensively. She would ignore my good morning texts, not pick up my calls, and whenever we had the time to do video calls at night she was always tired and would often fall asleep in between the conversation. After expressing my concerns and emphasising the importance of communication in any relationship especially in a LDR, nothing would change. I’ve tried minimising my communication and pulling back just to offer her space to miss me and initiate contact, but she used that time to distance even further from me. During this time I sought professional help and spoke to a therapist. My therapist immediately dismissed all the issues I mentioned about her and wanted me to focus on why I have relationship anxiety and where my fear of abandonment comes from. So I started working on myself and healing my own childhood wounds. I stopped calling her frequently after I realised my calls were no longer being picked up, when she saw my missed-calls she gave no other reasons for not picking up except that she was busy. She always assured me that she’s dealing with a whole lot of stuff and she doesn’t wanna involve me because it’s not about me and that we are fine and she loves me.
One time I randomly called her on a weekend and received another cold treatment. She said she was tired and battling with some stuff and she can’t really talk.I decided to let her rest. After I hung up she wrote a very long text explaining what she had been going through. She got molested more than once by another colleague from work and has been dealing with these emotions for 3 months. Depression, anxiety, trauma and feelings of low self worth. I expressed how sorry I am that she went through this. She told me since the incident she didn’t want to interact with any male person and has been distancing from me because she couldn’t stand me being so nice to her and intimate all the time.
After we spoke she told me that she only started to have the courage to talk about it now and was able to report the matter to management. The perpetrator was fired immediately and they offered her counselling which she’s currently attending. The following weekend I called her randomly because I stopped calling her during the week, I sensed how difficult it was to share that story with me and assured her that Im here for her anytime.
She apologised for not being able to show up in this relationship and always treating me bad and taking out her frustrations out on me. The following weekend I tried to call her again and she didn’t pick up. Later that day she told me via text that she can’t satisfy a relationship right now because she feels so hopeless, stressed and scared, she needs space from me and I should try and understand because she has no ability to demonstrate love to anybody at this point, also that she needs time and she can’t communicate with me because it’s so hard and that she’s only struggling by herself and hopes she regains the ability to trust and love again. I told her I can give her space and that my door will always be open if she needed my support.
But it’s been a month now of no contact, I thought my therapy would help but I still find myself stalking her on Instagram and Facebook, she always posts happy pictures everyday. She’s only texted me once, wishing me a good week and that she loves me. Which I responded “I love you too”
How long will I need to wait because there’s so many things I don’t know at this point? I wanna understand what she means by “molest” because it could mean different kinds of sexual abuse, but I’m also mindful of not bringing back that traumatic event to her mind. I still love and care for her but very often she has made me feel like I’m the one with the problem, the one who’s causing her to distance. She’s not good when it comes to sharing her feelings. Sometimes I find myself doubting if she will ever come back and want to be with me again. What do I do in the meantime to show her support and care for her. How long will the silence be?
2023.06.03 19:00 VagrantSea Edelgard and Bernadetta: Trauma and Moving Forward.
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Introduction:The reason why I chose to analyse Edelgard and Bernadetta’s relationship is because their interactions and supports are well-developed, gives further understanding to their character, and because it is the logical follow-up to my last post (Link here: Edelgard Analysis month 1: Does Edelgard have PSTD? : Edelgard (reddit.com))Now, there are a few things I want to go over before discussing the supports as it sets the stage for both understanding Edelgard and Bernadetta’s relationship, acknowledging the flaws with both games (and by extension, the larger Fire Emblem series). I have found that supports, ultimately fit into one or more of the following categories:
This being Dimitri due to the bad writing of it, how it does nothing to develop or use Edelgard in an effective manner while also continuing his bad writing of making everything about him. The topic of Anselma, while interesting, fails because of how far removed Edelgard is from that plot point and because of inconsistent plot elements due to the amount of changes. It is a topic that would only benefit Dimitri and even then it fails because of AM and AG writing. ( Which sucks because you have a very good support with Edelgard and Claude, showcase their similarities as well as what sets them apart. While pushes the understand that these two are character that are defined by their agency. ) Bernadetta suffers heavily from both games’ writing, as well as a larger problem within FE of repeating a certain character trait and unengaging writing. Many Supports get started by focusing on a character trait, and when done poorly and repetitively, this character trait becomes the only thing the Support is about rather than any deeper meaning the writers would like to explore.. This creates an issue with repetitiveness, where a character’s supports constantly retread the same ground. This is something that both older games as well as new games like Awakening, Fates, and most recently Engage have been criticised for, in part due to their larger Support logs. In Engage's case, it actively ruined the characters as they never developed past their certain traits they initially demonstrated, making a lot of the characters one note and uninteresting. This sucks, because Engage does have interesting characters like Céline, who has depth to her character whenever the conversation is able to find its way beyond her love for tea. Houses and Hopes put effort into fixing this and succeeded with some characters. However, they brought their own issues, while still struggling with repetitiveness to an extent, The way that both games try to fix these issues is by putting a lot more effort into their secondary characters, giving them more depth, complexity, and personality. Additionally, certain secondary characters were chosen to be comic relief, who break the tension, allowing the story to flow better. Naturally, these characters tend to have more comedic support. This, on its own, isn’t a bad thing provided the writing is good. If it isn’t, a comedic support can end up unfunny and mediocre. The problem is that the quality of both games' comedic writing is inconsistent. At their worst, Houses and Hopes sometimes fall back on the reuse of certain traits that defined other games, to the point that people within the community have defined these characters by a single trait. https://preview.redd.it/x8wcdkxn2u3b1.png?width=1017&format=png&auto=webp&s=6133bea82c4c51b84bac535411dc7dce73c2f182 As you can see here by a list I have made, Bernadetta is one of the characters who suffer from this issue. Furthermore, both her and Raphael are characters who have dark and interesting backstories. Stories that ties back into the larger narrative of the both games.The impact of which is often ruined by the game choosing to have them be the tension breakers. To be the comedic characters even when it would have been more interesting to seriously dig into their issues. To make a list categorising her supports: https://preview.redd.it/inqjha0q2u3b1.png?width=512&format=png&auto=webp&s=f6a3552d6719e1bbebfed29dd79c31ebf16e28e0 In Bernadetta's case, her trait of anxiety and panic is used as a crutch in a lot of her supports to get the ball rolling toward later supports. The problem is that this one trait is heavily overused and when it is used effectively, it goes over peoples’ heads and they associate it with her comedic support. This becomes worse given how grating Berndetta’s voice acting can be at times, according to some. I would make another list of how many times the support overuses her traits of anxiety and panic attacks, but that would include nearly all of her supports. This sucks because there are supports that do use Bernadetta and her anxiety to both endear us to her character and her struggles genuinely well. 3 House Support: How one's trauma causes a person to react.The overarching theme behind Edelgard and Bernadetta’s support chain in Three Houses is similar to that of Edelgard’s support with two other Black Eagles, namely Caspar and Linhardt. All three are about the character’s coming to understand each other. Importantly, Edelgard’s responses to her interlocutors in all three supports are quite similar.In Linhardt’s support, Edelgard hounds Linhardt out of concern for him before pushing him to the point of snapping at her and comparing her to his overbearing mother. In response, she tries to find a way in which Linhardt can fully use his talents while not forgetting his personal needs and understanding how his methodology links to his talents. Which ties back into how Linhardt has also grown to care for and respect Edelgard. In Caspar’s support, both of them come to understand what each other meant in their C support. Caspar understands that Edelgard is one his biggest supporters, understands her character, and that she isn’t trying to make everything about herself. While Edelgard learns the true reason behind Caspar’s motivation and why he works as hard as he does. Edelgard and Bernadetta’s support chain is about them learning how to be around each other. Bernadetta sees Edelgard as a person to look up to and finds her inspiring. In their C support, Bernadetta sees how Edelgard presents herself as the seemingly fearless Imperial Princess and wants to follow her example, unaware that it is merely a mask Edelgard wears. However the very things Bernadetta admires about Edelgard also intimidate her, making her afraid to approach her role model. https://preview.redd.it/czug1pet2u3b1.png?width=477&format=png&auto=webp&s=b8a3220ef2110bf06ae18631dd0be7c8a9bb76dd Edelgard tries to challenge’s Bernedetta’s assessment of her, admitting that she does have things she fears like the sea. Confessing that she does not know how to swim and finds “the pitch black of the open sea at night quite frightening” . Bernadetta is comforted by the knowledge that the person she looks up to has flaws. But Edelgard is annoyed by how her shortcomings seem to please Bernadetta and responds harshly, scaring Bernadetta. Edelgard’s response to learning Bernadetta looks up to her reflects her own insecurities. Despite her confident demeanour, Edelgard has a poor self-image, in part because she understands the negative repercussions her actions have had and/or will have. She understands that war is not a good thing, that it can potentially do more damage than what the current system is doing, and that she could very easily be making things worse for the people living in Fódlan. However, Edelgard understands that myriad complex factors make affecting positive change in Fódlan impossible without bloodshed. Edelgard’s lack of self worth, as well as her dislike of people viewing her as a role model, is implied throughout both games. It even gets touched on briefly in Engage during Edelgard’s A-Bond with Panette. A constant behaviour with Edelgard throughout her support is how Edelgard handles negative comments both personal and criticism aim towards her quite badly. Edelgard gets offended by Caspar comment and misunderstanding of Edelgard trying to make everything about herself when in reality. She is trying to understand Caspar, his motivation and his own issues. Since the running narrative through Caspar more character focused support with Edelgard, Byleth, Ferdinand and Annette is how Caspar knows that the world owes him nothing, about Caspar inner turmoil on how he carries himself, how he wears his heart on his shoulder but also his positive belief of accepting mistakes. Edelgard in return to Caspar misunderstands, thinking Caspar is picking a fight with her and think’s his next comment is him bicking with her. Missing the point that Caspar wasn’t trying to be rude with his comment. In the JP version, her comment isn’t straight away which is a nice subtle detail showing she took personally. https://preview.redd.it/nzqb7kyu2u3b1.png?width=1608&format=png&auto=webp&s=6ed8e3d610c51a94600b1a05b9890e83ed788d1b Edelgard takes Linhardt criticism of Edelgard overbearing and caring nature personally and is hurt by it. Most notably within the JP version. Edelgard sounds like she is genuinely about to cry from that comment and yet again Ai Kakuma voicing acting shows through as Edelgard doesn’t respond to Linhardt straight away as well as stuttes over her words. This behaviour of Edelgard either taking things the wrong way or personally happens when Byleth doesn’t like Edelgard, name of “Black Eagle Strike Force”. as she spent a night thinking about it. Especially, in the JP version. Link:https://houses.fedatamine.com/ja/scenarios/246#event-184 But is also a continued thing within 3 Hopes and is something Hubert acknowledges in his support with Monica. Hubert: Lady Edelgard can be quite sensitive, despite how she carries herself.Edelgard being a sensitive person and that has a negative reception response is something we can tie back into her trauma and having C-PTSD. It clear Edelgard suffer from many of the symptoms but the most relevant ones is: Hyperarousal (feeling "on edge")Edelgard's response to Linhardt, Caspar, Byleth and Monica in these moments is out of trauma, her doing so unconsciously and is actually a part of Edelgard dislike being she doesn’t like losing control of her emotion and composure. ( Something that Treehouse mistranslated. ) https://preview.redd.it/zo1od2vw2u3b1.png?width=585&format=png&auto=webp&s=7d8b1b7cb1bfb28dba1b50f08170e29f4e3809d2 And the thing is that 3 Hopes implies Edelgard realises how she is acting emotionally after the conversation ends. Hubert: I thought you might be interest to know that Lady Edelgard was overcome with grief as she told me how deeply she regrets wounding you with her words. ( Hubert support with Monica. )This behaviour of Edelgard is one of the two central focuses behind both the C support, done in a subtle manner and B support, in a more overt manner. Showcasing how Edelgard negative natural response clashes with Bernadetta responses, the other central focus. Bernadetta is similar to Edelgard in a way that she also acts in a certain way due to her trauma, acting under Hyperarousal. ( It something that she acknowledges in their 3 Hopes support which we will get to later. ) Bernadetta's natural response to people is fear, due to the abuse she suffered under her father's hand, in his attempt to make a “nobles housewife” and how he treated her. Bernadetta's natural response is fear. It is a Fight or Flight response, stumbling over words and saying the wrong thing. Despite the music in the background of their B support makes you think it a light heart one. The point behind it is showcasing the flawed approach of dealing with Bernadetta. At first, she is being very sympathetic towards Bernadetta but because she has caught her off guard. It has triggered a Bernadetta response. Which in turn caused Edelgard to go “Edelgard Von Hreslvg, leader of the Black Eagles Mode” as a response of getting annoyed and trying to make Bernadetta understand her own issues. In turn Edelgard becomes very forthright with how she carries herself, losing the kindness she normally has behind her words. Which just makes the whole conversation fall apart from there because of the more restrictive way of Edelgard carrying herself. https://preview.redd.it/eus4ygjy2u3b1.png?width=1038&format=png&auto=webp&s=1e9c89b61e9efc032649b0bb590153383f94cd8a Edelgard in a sense had the wrong approach to deal with Bernadetta and her anxiety whilst suffering from her own issues of losing herself in her emotion in both their C and B. And it is something that Edelgard improves on over the course of 5 years being surrounded by her Friends as their A support starts off much more natural. Edelgard and Bernedetta are spending time together, enjoying their hobby of gardening. This alone is a lot for Edelgard as both games make it clear that she doesn’t relax enough, so for her to allow herself to relax and spend time with people. Avoidance and emotional numbingShow’s Edelgard overcoming more of her trauma, despite her previous statement of acceptance over what has happened to her and how she tries to not dwell on the past.. It also shows a progression in their relationship as Bernadetta feels more calm and natural around Edelgard. To the point of accidently hitting on Edelgard. https://preview.redd.it/n0ytu3zz2u3b1.png?width=569&format=png&auto=webp&s=619b17958cd5dbdecde658e3b89779ef506ead57 The main part of the A support is showcasing the improvement in their relationship and how they carry themselves towards each other and in general overcoming their issues. Bernadetta learns to come outside of her room thanks to Edelgard and the Beagles. Something she only does in CF and SB. She doesn’t allow her fear to control her like it used to and is happy that she came to the Monastery. While Edelgard has learned to not let anger control her, to not get sensitive comments made towards her, not letting her Hyperarousal control her. And she is grateful for meeting Bernadetta. This scene shows her growth perfectly. C and B support Edelgard would have lost their emotion after Bernadetta's short burst of anxiety attack. While Post Times skip Edelgard is chill, keeping calm with her words and showing kindness behind them, she is able to calm down Bernadetta. https://preview.redd.it/5eb8liw13u3b1.png?width=1554&format=png&auto=webp&s=c8b473cdc82eaa8e007c8ac5a6450554a8abc9c6 Afterward, they go back to playing with the garden, watching a flower bloom. Which is a really nice conclusion to their support. Both Bernadetta and Edelgard share motifs of flowers. For Bernadetta, it is a hobby she slowly tries to share with others one way or another. Taking happy in the quiet and gentle nature of the hobby. While for Edelgard, it’s her opinion on herself. As outside of character growth in CF and SB, she doesn’t have a good opinion on herself, her poison flower line in Engage is probably one of the few good lines Engage has with using Emblem to further develop the cast of previous games and how their character interacts with character within the new games. Edelgard naturally believes that while her action of war against Fódlan is the best solution to its problem, she thinks she is a net negative on those around her and their lives. Thinking about how better Hubert life could have been if she didn’t exist if she died during the experiment. How if it wasn’t for her war in 3 Hopes, Dorothea, would have gained better education then self studying, that she wouldn’t have missed out on all sorts of experiences there. That Edelgard has robbed people of their agency and opportunity for doing what she believes is right. ( Dorothea support with Edelgard in 3 Hopes is also really good. ) That all Edelgard really does is cause suffering. Which ultimately comes to form in Hegemon Husk, the form she takes when she pushes herself to the breaking point. A form that shows her lost in self-worth and self-survival. Her having the skill like ‘Desperation’ is interesting on narrative level and shows how far she is going to make Dimitri doesn’t win. ( Despite, the skill inclusion being more thought of on a Gameplay level then Narrative.) The Design of Hegemon has a motif of flower and feather design into it. Part of her looks like leaves, feathers, wings and most notably a Carnivorous plant. Her staggering Blow is called ‘Wilted Flower’. Hegemon is a representation of Edelgard's toxic belief in herself. Hegemon Edelgard is sadly never really explained and it is very much a representation of AM and AG's writing issue. Despite how easy it would have been for AM and SS to build it up by focusing on Edelgard, ( considering she the main Antagonist.) her thoughts and feel as she slowly loses the war and her chose to lose her humanity in order to win the war and through that scene we learn about the process. https://preview.redd.it/lmxh0ro33u3b1.png?width=482&format=png&auto=webp&s=98fa8c20bea0483fbe140d34fbf2d1862911e99c It is why Edelgard lines in the JP version of their support mentions Hegemon in a way of describing Edelgard before Byleth came into their life as a monster. El died during the experiment and now she “Edelgard the Hegemon ''. But through Byleth, Bernadetta and her Friends. Edelgard accepts she is not a monster, she is not a poison flower that causes everything around her to wither and die. Edelgard is still the El from long ago. She is allowed to have hobbies, have friends, have emotion and most importantly be human. Since that is CF thematic narrative. ‘Allowing oneself to be human and to fight for a future that allow people to have the agency to be Human’. https://preview.redd.it/t8jjhr053u3b1.png?width=479&format=png&auto=webp&s=73be07bc78fc031e26a752232ed8acb9591348a0 Their ending, especially the JP version shows how much Bernadetta means to Edelgard as well as how she helps Edelgard keep in tact with her emotion. A core part of Edelgard's character and her development is her friends. How Edelgard wants to keep them around after the war rather distancing herself again. And I think that last line of how Bernadetta being Bernadetta is something that becomes a sign to people that they are finally in a period of peace. Fódlan found it True Peace. Is really nice. 3 Hopes: Trauma / Curse and Moving Forward to a Better world.Now after 3157 words, we are sadly or well happily in a CF fans case not done because 3 Hopes and SB exist. We can now get into one of Fire Emblem's best supports.Now the C support within 3 Hopes is basically a continuation of their A support in that how Edelgard and Bernadetta act is nearly exactly the same. A good part of SB is that certain relationship sorta carries over from CF and in Edelgard case, it's her relationship with female Beagles as well as Lysithea and by extension Hapi. Edelgard talks to Bernadetta in a soft tone similar to her A support in 3 House which is honestly good as it continues the tempo last left of in that game. The C support is them talking as friend’s, Edelgard asks Bernadetta if the letter she is reading from her mother. The follow talks accidentally set off Bernadetta panic response which Edelgard able to calm her down letting her know that she both has friends and that they are always around her and that Bernadetta still has family that cares about her like her mother before giving us a gut punch of a reminder that Edelgard is the last of her family but wasn’t done in a spiteful manner. https://preview.redd.it/4tyb17n63u3b1.png?width=505&format=png&auto=webp&s=25253a725f79ead94116bb67a89f9fcd3254af7a Despite this being one of about 2 - 4 lines of Edelgard talking about her family, this exchanges works so well because it establish to the player that Edelgard has told the Beagles about her past, about TWSITD and that they were there for Edelgard during her Father passing and that they just as much of family unit here as they are in CF. Which is nice. The following line of Edelgard refocusing the conversation onto Bernadetta's care for her mother is sweet. A good chunk of the C support following this is talking about Grégoire Varley and his new job role. Depending on when you unlock this support, with earliest being chapter 4. If done so early, the conversation builds on SB's previous chapter with Varley being made Bishop, Bernadetta's sad reaction to this. Only for player 5 to 10 later find out that Edelgard purposely fucked over him, knowing that the Church would and did send Assassins after him even before the war. For the sole intention of putting the Central Church in a position where she wants them while also keeping Varley, a noble put under house arrest in 3 House imply he tried rebelling like Aegir or was involved in the Experiment. Both busy but also under constant stress, anxiety and fear for what he did to Bernadetta. And for the C support to go into this for the sole reason of the positive effect of Varley rightful suffering causes me to grin. Following this, they compared Bernadetta of the past to Varley trying to lock himself away in the prestation before acknowledging how far Bernadetta has come from being a reclusive, shy girl and how Bernadetta family situation change help her for the better, now being away from her abuser. The C support raps up with Edelgard saying that its like Bernadetta curse have been lifted similar to her own, which Bernadetta tries to ask Edelgard about until Edelgard tries to hide and get Bernadetta to ignore what she said. In general, their C support is all about continuing the certain plot lines of chapter 3 when it comes to Varley and Bernadetta's opinion on the matter, seeing their relationships in this game and seeing that it hasn’t changed and that they are still close friends. Before wrapping it up in an interesting topic that hints to the future being Edelgards curse. Considering Edelgard's past, we know she is talking about trauma here. That Edelgard seeing Bernadetta being away from her father and being surrounded by both her friends and having a good relationship with her mother. Massively improved her wellbeing to the point that she says it like a curse has been lifted from her before wonder if Edelgard own curse that is caused by TWSITD has been lifted as well due to their defeat at Enbarr and them going back into hiding for time being. 3 Hopes Support ASimilar to the C support. Their support chooses to use the event of the story as the establishment event behind the support whilst continuing on with the plot line of Edelgard curse set up in support prior and it done masterfully.The support only unlock when you start chapter 12: The Rising Darkness. In other words, the return of ‘Those Who Slither in the Dark’. TWSITD are used within SB narrative quite tactically as Scarlet Blaze main antagonist isn’t one entity but instead is all the opponents they face. SB story is all about the recontextualization of Edelgard ideology and desire for a world that puts commoners and giving people agency over their own lives. And how because of Edelgard action and ideology, she has made the ‘Fódlan’, the ‘World’ her enemy and through this narrative it reframes not just SB story but 3 House, CF and Edelgard role in that narrative as well. Claude and let's say Baron Dominic is just as much of an Antagonist to her then Dimitri, Rhea, Church of Seiros and TWSITD for example. Furthermore, TWSITD are used as a ticking time. From when we defeat them in Chapter 3 and then going into hiding, which in turn fails the agreement Edelgard made to Rhea about capturing Thalas alive. We know that at some point during the story, that TWSITD will return to strike back against Edelgard and the Empire. We the player during our first playthrough just don’t know when. Unfortunately, for Edelgard. When TWSITD strike it’s at the worst times as similar to Claude and Count Gloucester strategic plan of fooling Edelgard and cutting off Leopold supply route forcing Edelgard to change her plan’s. Edelgard is about to win the war, she has Dimitri on the backfoot. She just took Brennius Territory, which shares a border with Blaiddyd meaning she is marching away from Fhirdiad. If she wins that battle against Dimitri and the remaining Eastern Faerghus forces. The Kingdom is done allowing Edelgard to then go after the Central Church and Rhea. Meaning that Edelgard would then have control over Fódlan if her negotiation with the Alliance goes well allowing her to then target TWSITD freely. ( Though this depends if you chose to have Shez continue their vengeance or to go after the contractor of the Jeralt Merc band being Rodrigue. In other words, fighting for a higher cause than revenge. If Shez kills Jeralt, Byleth / Sothis persuades Claude to follow his own plans, machanation and agency causing him to betray Edelgard. ) Until news of a revolt caused by TWSITD breaks out in Hyrm and Ordelia forcing Edelgard and her Alliance Allies to deal with them, their distraction in turn free Ludwig Aegir from jail causing a co-op and taking control of Fort Merceus. TWSITD purposely struck at the worst time for Edelgard, knowing that she would go back to Hyrm to deal with them as within Chapter 5. Edelgard stated that so long as you align yourself with the Empire or look for them in support. She will never turn her back on you. Narratively this is the 3rd time she shot herself in the leg in the route. Which is caused by either her strategy in Claude case or by her ideology in Lonato early rebellion and TWSITD return, causing the prolonging of the war. Edelgard is to blame here. This is where Edelgard support with Bernadetta continues from. With the return of TWSITD. So has Edelgard trauma, her curse. Because of this, she has started to hide herself away at night in order to continue strategizing on how to deal with TWSITD. Worry about whether or not the Embarr is safe and if there is another imposter within their army. Before Bernadetta comes in to hide in her hiding spot for a while in order to be alone. https://preview.redd.it/43n5ili93u3b1.png?width=919&format=png&auto=webp&s=9e7e82329e65b960b51f2637f0868a63bb1a5fd9 After a small chinwag, Bernadetta is able to see through Edelgard mask, asking if she is ok and is willing to be there to listen to Edelgard troubles. Something that Edelgard tries to make a light joke about and how she could go on and on about her many issues to the point of trapping Bernadetta there forever whilst ‘misunderstanding’ Bernadetta intention or well Edelgard was trying to hide core issues she has been having. Afterwhich, Bernadetta straightaway notices, calls Edelgard out on her bluff and brings up the end of their C support, about how Bernadetta trauma / curse being lifted and that Edelgard thought hers was lifted too. https://preview.redd.it/zsidy35b3u3b1.png?width=785&format=png&auto=webp&s=3b7d64119ca5203bfe30955be2b6a3a3ec9afdad Until they returned after TWSITD latest action, Bernadetta was able to see that Edelgard curse and trauma has been eating away at her, that she has been hiding away at night for sole intention of trying to deal with them. Edelgard admitted to Bernadetta that she was right on the money and was surprised to see Bernie see right through her quite easily. Edelgard admits to her friend that her curse has returned, that her thoughts about her curse / trauma and how it might have finally been lifted after battle in Embarr was nothing more than wishful thinking and that now Thalas is not just alive but is not alone as he has been scheming as well. Edelgard is now letting her thoughts go to her head. Which is something Bernadetta relates to with her own struggle that she continues to still have. How if she was to stay outside too long, she gets seized by a panic that forces her to hide away. Bernadetta still has her Hyperarousal, she still suffers from fight or flight response and it is something she is still learning to deal with. Which is where a core foundation of Edelgard ideology and character comes in being her realism but also her hope and positivity. https://preview.redd.it/cp22bfic3u3b1.png?width=849&format=png&auto=webp&s=2819d09052a13ae415cb6f6313c7b4236bbd3573 https://preview.redd.it/83gehw7d3u3b1.png?width=814&format=png&auto=webp&s=2cf07bf14b14583de011240ddde8c7eb4f11e339 This being the idea that life is a bit of a bitch at times, that we all have our own scars, issues, trauma, curses but the only thing we can do is keep going forward. These two lines are not just a call back to Edelgard comments to Byleth after Jeralt but are an expansion on them and give us a further understanding as to why she said what she did. https://preview.redd.it/op6yybie3u3b1.png?width=364&format=png&auto=webp&s=19e1680542ee3f2432af16eaee46c46c2ceba498 Edelgard said what she did to Byleth, not out of malice but out of realism. She knows that cuddling up to Byleth will only do so much and understanding that the only person that can pull someone out grief, that can cause a person to stand up again and continue living and fight is themselves. Which is true in therapy, you can’t cuddle or force someone to be better, you can support them but it is their choice at the end of the day. Their choice on whether or not they want to help themselves. Edelgard has accepted what has happened to her and family as just a part of life. They died and there is nothing she can do to bring them back. All she can do is continue moving forward, continue living while they are dead. A core foundation of Edelgard character is her realism, facing reality head on. Which where the hope side of her character comes, her idealism and where Edelgard character truly shines: https://preview.redd.it/kfgd445g3u3b1.png?width=1027&format=png&auto=webp&s=7d79b6d168ed7f83626fafb00c73720f91122071 https://preview.redd.it/34hy9uug3u3b1.png?width=788&format=png&auto=webp&s=1bb03a80cc6541b516b2fb16e24026457527ec7c https://preview.redd.it/o80w18hh3u3b1.png?width=872&format=png&auto=webp&s=4f835500828f8f753df3f44bf2d8ac854acab6bd Edelgard gives us a core reason why she is fighting her war and it's also Bernadetta's reason for supporting Edelgard and her war other than being her friend. In that despite her family being dead. She wants to make a world where no one suffers like she has. Where no one has to bear the Scars, Curses and trauma like she has. Where there are no more victims who had the similar or the same story as Edelgard and Bernadetta has. Edelgard is trying to do something positive about the world in response to what has happened to her. Edelgard, the Beagles, the Empire are fighting for a world where those who want to achieve can do so while those who wish to have a quiet life can do so as well. Fighting for a world that isn’t one or the other. Where there can be both Ferdinand who strives to be the best and Bernadetta who wants to have a quiet life. This part in particular builds off Edelgard support with Constance and how Edelgard's new system works.. This dream world, this future they are building isn’t exclusive to Edelgard, but instead something they are all part of. The support wraps up in Bernadetta gaining back positivity from Edelgard words, being inspired, saying that if they can truly do it, then she will be right by Edelgard and celebrate by locking herself in her room. Something that Edelgard says is acceptable as long as she takes care of the things she needs to do. With the last sentence being Bernadetta being a true introvert. Why I love this support and sorta conclusionFor me this is one of my favourite support because it uses the game's main story to its advantages whilst building on the relationship already established in 3 House. TWSITD return would triggered Edelgard issues. It makes sense to focus on that within a support given how tight of a pacing SB and CF got and how understand the importance of each scene.Through having it be a support and having set with Bernadetta, a character who also has Trauma. It allows both characters to bounce off each other whilst developing them in a natural way because they relate off each. This is very much Bernadetta's support as it is Edelgard because we get to understand more of her Trauma. The anxiety she has. Other than it being an Edelgard support which is normally a net plus because most of the time her support tries to focus on both character’s in some form. It’s a support that really focuses on Edelgard, how she views her trauma but notably. Her optimism and hope. She is very much an optimistic character in ideology, believing in the potential of others and is probably the most optimistic despite having a realistic world view. There is so much good about this support and how it uses things to its advantage that I can’t stop thinking about it but I sadly should because I wrote a lot here. PS: WE NEED MORE EDELDATTA ( Edelgard and Bernadetta.) ART AND FICS, ESPECIALLY THOSE WITH HEGEMON. SERIOUSLY HEGIE ON IT OWN IS ALWAYS A WIN. #GiveBerniePlantEl. |
2023.06.03 18:58 Jung_Bikrant "Ethernet" option missing from Settings and Device Manager. (Ethernet not working)
Ethernet option is missing from the Newtork and Internet settings, and in device manager, under network adapters, Intel (R) Ethernet Connection (It might be also be relatek one, since it is missing I don't know which ethernet driver i had before) is also missing. I don't think there is any potential hardware issue. I turned off my laptop, and came back again, and ethernet was not working. (Cable is not damaged) Even if hardware (Ethernet port) itself is damaged, shouldn't there be Ethernet options under Network and Internet Settings? I think there is problem with driver itself. I also reset my laptop, but it still didn't work. Is there anything missing.
I had tried every small methods like network reset, some random netsh commands, but they didn't worked either. I also went to dell support website from where we can download device drivers for our particular device, searched for Ethernet, there was a Realtek one, downloaded and installed it, still not working.
Any help would be appreciated.
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I had tried every small methods like network reset, some random netsh commands, but they didn't worked either. I also went to dell support website from where we can download device drivers for our particular device, searched for Ethernet, there was a Realtek one, downloaded and installed it, still not working.
Any help would be appreciated.
2023.06.03 18:57 Iquasi Serious FPS drop in PvP
Hello reddit hivemind,
I started playing PvP again after about 1,5 years of break and for some reason I'm having major, major lag spikes in PvP battles. I'm not talking about the usual connection lag, this is just brute local FPS lag that causes me to miss fast moves, mess up switch timing and to fail charging charge moves fully.
I'm running OnePlus 8T with the latest OOS and Android 13. I've tried to turn off all possible battery saving measures and to allow PoGo to have full access to the system resources but the problem persist. Before my PvP hiatus I was running an older OnePlus and that's why it is doubly puzzling why the game is stuttering so badly now when my hardware should be much stronger.
Would anyone have any advice on how to fix this? All tips are welcome!
EDIT: forgot to specify that the massive lagspikes occur mostly if an opponent just used a charge move or switched pokemon or if I did the same.
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I started playing PvP again after about 1,5 years of break and for some reason I'm having major, major lag spikes in PvP battles. I'm not talking about the usual connection lag, this is just brute local FPS lag that causes me to miss fast moves, mess up switch timing and to fail charging charge moves fully.
I'm running OnePlus 8T with the latest OOS and Android 13. I've tried to turn off all possible battery saving measures and to allow PoGo to have full access to the system resources but the problem persist. Before my PvP hiatus I was running an older OnePlus and that's why it is doubly puzzling why the game is stuttering so badly now when my hardware should be much stronger.
Would anyone have any advice on how to fix this? All tips are welcome!
EDIT: forgot to specify that the massive lagspikes occur mostly if an opponent just used a charge move or switched pokemon or if I did the same.
2023.06.03 18:57 rune_officixl type me please
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I am 18 years old and nonbinary (agenderflux to be specific).
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
Yes, a lot of them so I'm just going to list them here. - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) - ADHD (Inattentive Type) - Social Anxiety - Moderate Depressive Episode (although I no longer agree with this diagnosis) - Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID) - suspected Tourettes Syndrome - Complex PTSD - Maladaptive Daydreaming - Mixed Personality Disorder (including Borderline, Narcissistic, Dependent, Avoidant) - suspected OSDD1 or DID
Some of these are professionally diagnosed, others have been self diagnosed based on a lot of research and self analysis, as I currently do not have access to professional help and that likely won't change within the next years.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
My upbringing was not the best. I experienced emotional abuse from my mother from a very young age on, others say that there was physical abuse as well but I don't remember any of that. My father seemed very absent during my childhood. He is chronically ill, therefore he had alot of problems to tackle besides his family. I grew up relatively poor, although my parents attempted to not let me notice, they cut short on their own needs in order to always be able to fulfill the children's physical needs. Obviously they couldn't shield me from the facts forever, around the age of 10 I would notice how other kids in my age would have way more expensive things, etc. There is no religious background in my family. I was raised agnostic-atheist, but would not have been shamed for choosing to follow a religion. As a child my day was clearly structured: set meal times, a (forced) time to rest after lunch, set bed times. I would not always agree with them but not adhering to the rules would only bring me negative consequences so I eventually went along with it. The older I got, the more I enforced my own structures, as the pre-existing ones made my life harder, and at some point my mother also couldn't justify some of her rules anymore, considering I wasn't a young child anymore.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I am currently a tax consultant assistant in training and I quite like it. Obviously there are parts of it that I would rather avoid, such as interacting with clients, but the longer I am in this job, the less this aspect makes me want to quit it (although it fluctuates, depending on my mental state every day). My favorite part of my job is accounting, I am good with numbers and like tasks that don't require me to learn new laws every year (which is why after my apprenticeship I will probably ditch the tax part and focus on becoming an accountant. Obviously there's still things that change over the years, but not as many).
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
It depends on whether I have something I'm interested in available for interaction, and on my mental state. Obviously, if I get depressed out of nowhere or suffer from an episode of anhedonia, I will not enjoy myself. Usually I will enjoy a weekend in solitude as long as I am busy with things I like. I like meeting my friends as well, but sometimes I lack the energy or motivation to meet them so I won't do it. Let's say that in 50% of the cases I would feel refreshed.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I don't like and am not good at sports. If I don't have to do them, that's good because I am everything except fit. I like taking walks, sometimes, when the weather is nice. Indoors I will usually be on my phone or at my computer, consuming media that interests me (usually video games or movies/tv shows). I also like to read, but lately I haven't had the energy to focus on reading. My favorite genres in media are Sci-Fi, fantasy, action and psychological horrothrillers.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am curious about quite a few things. My special interest is mental illness, specifically personality disorders and dissociative disorders. Not their history etc., but how exactly they affect people living with them, and their many different presentations. I am very curious about things concerning my special interest and hyperfixations (which are currently the video game Phasmophobia and the psychological horror show Generation Loss). What I am also curious about are moral and in general philosophical questions, as well as questions around consciousness (among other things connected to lucid dreaming) and what makes a person themselves.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I am unsure about this one. If everything went according to plan, maybe, but only if I wasn't the one making the plan on my own. I need people to reflect on the plan with, so I don't make fatal mistakes. My leadership style would most likely be a democracy, as I can't see myself enforcing my ideas at the cost of people's suffering. I may be self centered but with this many people's wellbeing at stake, I will not compromise my morals. I usually only compromise my morals around people I don't like.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I have dyspraxia, so not really. Especially bigger movements are hard to coordinate for me, smaller ones are easier. It sometimes feels like the connection between my brain and the rest of my body is severed, because I see others do with ease what I struggle to do.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I would call myself semi-artistic. I don't paint or draw, instead I feel very attuned to music and sound in general. I compose music, usually orchestral pieces. Added to that, I have also been into poetry for a while and I have written quite a few poems of my own. I enjoy all kinds of art, as long as I can give it a meaning (or it already has one that I agree with). Some of my friends write poetry or create digital art, I enjoy seeing these, as well as I enjoy music. The art I like the most is the one that makes me stop and think. The one that has a twisted meaning and can be interpreted in many different ways.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past just kind of happened. Positive experiences are easily forgotten, negative ones tend to stick around. There is no way to change it, and I don't know if I'm actually really dealing with it or if I'm just detaching from it. My memory is also pretty bad so I tend to forget a lot of what happens, therefore there is no time to deal with it and to process it. The present is something I don't feel all too connected to. It is happening around me and obviously I interact with it, but most of the time I feel distanced from it. Maybe 10% of the time I actually feel connected to what I am doing, saying, feeling, etc.. The future is scary. I would prefer to avoid it because things could always get worse than they already are. The future holds challenges that I don't feel equipped for. I take measures to avoid it, if possible, else I distract myself from it so I don't have to think about it. I think it's kinda noticable that I am a very avoidant and detached person.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
It depends on who the other person is and if they pissed me off, or if I'm otherwise occupied. For example I will likely refuse to help my mother or sisters, especially if they pissed me off. However as soon as I am around people I can't be an asshole towards, I will swallow my pride and help to maintain my image of being a good person. There's people I don't want to lose and they can't know how I treat people I wouldn't care about losing (not as in I wouldn't care if they died, but I wouldn't care if they hated me. Obviously I would care about how they treat me when they hate me, but that's a different issue). I will usually help people I like, and I might help old people in public with stuff sometimes but I prefer to let others help, as usually I don't consider myself capable enough to help.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
Yes, I'd say so. If people do or say things that don't make sense/add up, and expect me to go along with them, it can drive me insane and I will not be able to function properly in such an environment. I try to make sense of everything that happens (to me), I dislike things I can't explain.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
It's somewhat important to me, if the thing that is being done benefits me. If not, I myself might be lazy, inefficient and not productive. It also bothers me when other people do things inefficiently and then complain about the results. I feel better when I'm productive, but I don't like putting in the effort for it.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Probably. I mean, everyone does to an extend. Action/reaction. People react to things in certain ways and you can use that in order to get what you need/want. Obviously I will not walk around attempting to emotionally manipulate people, but I will most definitely use what I've been given to my best in order to have my needs fulfilled. I recognize patterns in people and use them to my advantage and sometimes for example lead conservations in the direction I want them to go. I also control people in other ways, such as attempts at direct control (but only within my family). I will directly voice what I want or what bothers me and argue with them about it, with the expectation of them giving in. It doesn't really work, but it's an attempt.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
My hobbies include singing, playing video games, watching movies/tv shows, composing music and talking about philosophy or psychology. I like them because, well, I like them. I can't quite explain it better. They make me happy.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
My learning style is hyperfocus, I guess. I learn things the best when I'm fully interested and focused on them. However, if that isn't the case, I usually learn best by memorizing visuals to the point where I can recall them from my brain during exams. This has saved me quite a few exams by now. Memorization, logic, that's how I learn. I am also a visual learner, despite everything I thought in middle school (I used to claim that I wasn't a visual learner just so I didn't have to add pictures to my presentations. Had no success with that). I believe that the learning style I struggle the most with is creativity. If a teacher was to introduce a new topic and told me to creatively present it, I would probably be quite overwhelmed. But it also depends on the topic and the classmates around me. I might also be good at learning with my physical senses. You can only really grasp the essence of something if you have touched it, analyzed its mechanics yourself instead of just reading about it.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I am not all too good at strategizing and used to be someone who would improvise projects as I go, but I am currently trying to learn to properly plan my projects. Especially in my job it is essential to be on top of your tasks.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Professionally I want to become an accountant, preferably for a well paying company. However, I also have the dream of being a famous musician, basically living on stage and having everyone absolutely admiring me and also feeling inspired by the music I create. Personally I aspire to be someone people look up to and say "dude. They made it. Despite all of their struggles, they made it". I don't want to be a role model, but instead an inspiration for others. I also really want to heal from my trauma and mental illness and experience true happiness. I want to feel fulfilled when I die, like there is nothing I missed out on.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I fear a lot of things. I fear the unknown because of what it could hold. I fear failure because of how other people would see me. I fear making the wrong decisions because of how my life could worsen with no way to fix it. I fear being alone with no one to watch out for me because I don't think I could take care of myself. I fear other people because of how they could attack me, verbally and physically, for making mistakes, not fitting the norm, etc.. I fear the death of my loved ones because one, I cannot imagine a life without them and two, I am scared that I will move on too quickly and that feels immoral to me. I fear confrontation with anyone except my family because I feel like asking for consideration of my own needs hurts the ones I care about and am confronting, and I fear that they might leave because of it. I am uncomfortable with tons of stuff, from being confronted with my fears down to the am smallest possible issues like kids screaming, or similar stuff. I hate it when people don't see the obvious. Doesn't matter if they are incapable of seeing it or if they are ignoring it on purpose. I also hate it when people (my family) refuse to acknowledge my personal needs but expect me to acknowledge theirs.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I don't know if it counts as a "high" if it lasts an hour at maximum. But those highs usually look like exciting days with friends, or me listening to really good music.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
During my "lows" I will usually have little to no energy, so I might lay in bed all day without eating or drinking much, unable to do something else except mindlessly scrolling on my phone to escape the dread in my mind. They tend to last longer than the "highs" do, but also tend to be ended by one of them.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I mean, I have maladaptive daydreaming. I have been daydreaming 50% of my life since I was a little child. And as I mentioned in the question about the past, present and future: I usually feel very detached or distanced from reality. Most of the time I am semi-aware of my surroundings when I daydream, I may even implement my surroundings. I will usually be able to quickly snap out of a daydream and react to reality, if needed.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
I might think about any options I have to try and get out of it. Eventually I would give up and start thinking about my life, the good and the bad things, the people who might be worrying about me and I might feel sorry for making them worry. Part of the time I would use to daydream but eventually I would run out of ideas.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
It takes me a lot of time to make important decisions. Usually I make my choice last minute, as it is very hard to determine your future without knowing 100% of the consequences. I may change my mind very often about a decision, but not always. Sometimes I just go along with them afterwards.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
I barely process my emotions. They overcome me, overwhelm me and then leave. I detach from them before I can process them. Emotions are somewhat important in my life, but they often hinder me from what I actually have to do so I don't have the best relation to them. However, I like inducing emotions on purpose by listening to certain music, etc., then I will 100% enjoy them.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes, usually around people I like and at work. These are people who I cannot disappoint or they might leave me or harm me otherwise. I do it all the time.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I don't break rules often. I used to, as a child, but that was because the rules of my mother were way too strict and didn't allow me to be the child that I was. Most of the time I didn't even break them on purpose, but instead couldn't comprehend them because they didn't make sense to me. Authority should be questioned and challenged if needed. They definitely don't know better. They're only humans, such as you and I. Just because they happen to hold a lot of power over the general population doesn't mean that they know better. Power corrupts, which is why I very much mean towards challenging authority. However I don't do it myself, as it would put me into an unsafe situation.
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I am 18 years old and nonbinary (agenderflux to be specific).
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
Yes, a lot of them so I'm just going to list them here. - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) - ADHD (Inattentive Type) - Social Anxiety - Moderate Depressive Episode (although I no longer agree with this diagnosis) - Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID) - suspected Tourettes Syndrome - Complex PTSD - Maladaptive Daydreaming - Mixed Personality Disorder (including Borderline, Narcissistic, Dependent, Avoidant) - suspected OSDD1 or DID
Some of these are professionally diagnosed, others have been self diagnosed based on a lot of research and self analysis, as I currently do not have access to professional help and that likely won't change within the next years.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
My upbringing was not the best. I experienced emotional abuse from my mother from a very young age on, others say that there was physical abuse as well but I don't remember any of that. My father seemed very absent during my childhood. He is chronically ill, therefore he had alot of problems to tackle besides his family. I grew up relatively poor, although my parents attempted to not let me notice, they cut short on their own needs in order to always be able to fulfill the children's physical needs. Obviously they couldn't shield me from the facts forever, around the age of 10 I would notice how other kids in my age would have way more expensive things, etc. There is no religious background in my family. I was raised agnostic-atheist, but would not have been shamed for choosing to follow a religion. As a child my day was clearly structured: set meal times, a (forced) time to rest after lunch, set bed times. I would not always agree with them but not adhering to the rules would only bring me negative consequences so I eventually went along with it. The older I got, the more I enforced my own structures, as the pre-existing ones made my life harder, and at some point my mother also couldn't justify some of her rules anymore, considering I wasn't a young child anymore.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I am currently a tax consultant assistant in training and I quite like it. Obviously there are parts of it that I would rather avoid, such as interacting with clients, but the longer I am in this job, the less this aspect makes me want to quit it (although it fluctuates, depending on my mental state every day). My favorite part of my job is accounting, I am good with numbers and like tasks that don't require me to learn new laws every year (which is why after my apprenticeship I will probably ditch the tax part and focus on becoming an accountant. Obviously there's still things that change over the years, but not as many).
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
It depends on whether I have something I'm interested in available for interaction, and on my mental state. Obviously, if I get depressed out of nowhere or suffer from an episode of anhedonia, I will not enjoy myself. Usually I will enjoy a weekend in solitude as long as I am busy with things I like. I like meeting my friends as well, but sometimes I lack the energy or motivation to meet them so I won't do it. Let's say that in 50% of the cases I would feel refreshed.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I don't like and am not good at sports. If I don't have to do them, that's good because I am everything except fit. I like taking walks, sometimes, when the weather is nice. Indoors I will usually be on my phone or at my computer, consuming media that interests me (usually video games or movies/tv shows). I also like to read, but lately I haven't had the energy to focus on reading. My favorite genres in media are Sci-Fi, fantasy, action and psychological horrothrillers.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am curious about quite a few things. My special interest is mental illness, specifically personality disorders and dissociative disorders. Not their history etc., but how exactly they affect people living with them, and their many different presentations. I am very curious about things concerning my special interest and hyperfixations (which are currently the video game Phasmophobia and the psychological horror show Generation Loss). What I am also curious about are moral and in general philosophical questions, as well as questions around consciousness (among other things connected to lucid dreaming) and what makes a person themselves.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I am unsure about this one. If everything went according to plan, maybe, but only if I wasn't the one making the plan on my own. I need people to reflect on the plan with, so I don't make fatal mistakes. My leadership style would most likely be a democracy, as I can't see myself enforcing my ideas at the cost of people's suffering. I may be self centered but with this many people's wellbeing at stake, I will not compromise my morals. I usually only compromise my morals around people I don't like.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I have dyspraxia, so not really. Especially bigger movements are hard to coordinate for me, smaller ones are easier. It sometimes feels like the connection between my brain and the rest of my body is severed, because I see others do with ease what I struggle to do.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I would call myself semi-artistic. I don't paint or draw, instead I feel very attuned to music and sound in general. I compose music, usually orchestral pieces. Added to that, I have also been into poetry for a while and I have written quite a few poems of my own. I enjoy all kinds of art, as long as I can give it a meaning (or it already has one that I agree with). Some of my friends write poetry or create digital art, I enjoy seeing these, as well as I enjoy music. The art I like the most is the one that makes me stop and think. The one that has a twisted meaning and can be interpreted in many different ways.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past just kind of happened. Positive experiences are easily forgotten, negative ones tend to stick around. There is no way to change it, and I don't know if I'm actually really dealing with it or if I'm just detaching from it. My memory is also pretty bad so I tend to forget a lot of what happens, therefore there is no time to deal with it and to process it. The present is something I don't feel all too connected to. It is happening around me and obviously I interact with it, but most of the time I feel distanced from it. Maybe 10% of the time I actually feel connected to what I am doing, saying, feeling, etc.. The future is scary. I would prefer to avoid it because things could always get worse than they already are. The future holds challenges that I don't feel equipped for. I take measures to avoid it, if possible, else I distract myself from it so I don't have to think about it. I think it's kinda noticable that I am a very avoidant and detached person.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
It depends on who the other person is and if they pissed me off, or if I'm otherwise occupied. For example I will likely refuse to help my mother or sisters, especially if they pissed me off. However as soon as I am around people I can't be an asshole towards, I will swallow my pride and help to maintain my image of being a good person. There's people I don't want to lose and they can't know how I treat people I wouldn't care about losing (not as in I wouldn't care if they died, but I wouldn't care if they hated me. Obviously I would care about how they treat me when they hate me, but that's a different issue). I will usually help people I like, and I might help old people in public with stuff sometimes but I prefer to let others help, as usually I don't consider myself capable enough to help.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
Yes, I'd say so. If people do or say things that don't make sense/add up, and expect me to go along with them, it can drive me insane and I will not be able to function properly in such an environment. I try to make sense of everything that happens (to me), I dislike things I can't explain.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
It's somewhat important to me, if the thing that is being done benefits me. If not, I myself might be lazy, inefficient and not productive. It also bothers me when other people do things inefficiently and then complain about the results. I feel better when I'm productive, but I don't like putting in the effort for it.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Probably. I mean, everyone does to an extend. Action/reaction. People react to things in certain ways and you can use that in order to get what you need/want. Obviously I will not walk around attempting to emotionally manipulate people, but I will most definitely use what I've been given to my best in order to have my needs fulfilled. I recognize patterns in people and use them to my advantage and sometimes for example lead conservations in the direction I want them to go. I also control people in other ways, such as attempts at direct control (but only within my family). I will directly voice what I want or what bothers me and argue with them about it, with the expectation of them giving in. It doesn't really work, but it's an attempt.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
My hobbies include singing, playing video games, watching movies/tv shows, composing music and talking about philosophy or psychology. I like them because, well, I like them. I can't quite explain it better. They make me happy.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
My learning style is hyperfocus, I guess. I learn things the best when I'm fully interested and focused on them. However, if that isn't the case, I usually learn best by memorizing visuals to the point where I can recall them from my brain during exams. This has saved me quite a few exams by now. Memorization, logic, that's how I learn. I am also a visual learner, despite everything I thought in middle school (I used to claim that I wasn't a visual learner just so I didn't have to add pictures to my presentations. Had no success with that). I believe that the learning style I struggle the most with is creativity. If a teacher was to introduce a new topic and told me to creatively present it, I would probably be quite overwhelmed. But it also depends on the topic and the classmates around me. I might also be good at learning with my physical senses. You can only really grasp the essence of something if you have touched it, analyzed its mechanics yourself instead of just reading about it.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I am not all too good at strategizing and used to be someone who would improvise projects as I go, but I am currently trying to learn to properly plan my projects. Especially in my job it is essential to be on top of your tasks.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Professionally I want to become an accountant, preferably for a well paying company. However, I also have the dream of being a famous musician, basically living on stage and having everyone absolutely admiring me and also feeling inspired by the music I create. Personally I aspire to be someone people look up to and say "dude. They made it. Despite all of their struggles, they made it". I don't want to be a role model, but instead an inspiration for others. I also really want to heal from my trauma and mental illness and experience true happiness. I want to feel fulfilled when I die, like there is nothing I missed out on.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I fear a lot of things. I fear the unknown because of what it could hold. I fear failure because of how other people would see me. I fear making the wrong decisions because of how my life could worsen with no way to fix it. I fear being alone with no one to watch out for me because I don't think I could take care of myself. I fear other people because of how they could attack me, verbally and physically, for making mistakes, not fitting the norm, etc.. I fear the death of my loved ones because one, I cannot imagine a life without them and two, I am scared that I will move on too quickly and that feels immoral to me. I fear confrontation with anyone except my family because I feel like asking for consideration of my own needs hurts the ones I care about and am confronting, and I fear that they might leave because of it. I am uncomfortable with tons of stuff, from being confronted with my fears down to the am smallest possible issues like kids screaming, or similar stuff. I hate it when people don't see the obvious. Doesn't matter if they are incapable of seeing it or if they are ignoring it on purpose. I also hate it when people (my family) refuse to acknowledge my personal needs but expect me to acknowledge theirs.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I don't know if it counts as a "high" if it lasts an hour at maximum. But those highs usually look like exciting days with friends, or me listening to really good music.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
During my "lows" I will usually have little to no energy, so I might lay in bed all day without eating or drinking much, unable to do something else except mindlessly scrolling on my phone to escape the dread in my mind. They tend to last longer than the "highs" do, but also tend to be ended by one of them.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I mean, I have maladaptive daydreaming. I have been daydreaming 50% of my life since I was a little child. And as I mentioned in the question about the past, present and future: I usually feel very detached or distanced from reality. Most of the time I am semi-aware of my surroundings when I daydream, I may even implement my surroundings. I will usually be able to quickly snap out of a daydream and react to reality, if needed.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
I might think about any options I have to try and get out of it. Eventually I would give up and start thinking about my life, the good and the bad things, the people who might be worrying about me and I might feel sorry for making them worry. Part of the time I would use to daydream but eventually I would run out of ideas.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
It takes me a lot of time to make important decisions. Usually I make my choice last minute, as it is very hard to determine your future without knowing 100% of the consequences. I may change my mind very often about a decision, but not always. Sometimes I just go along with them afterwards.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
I barely process my emotions. They overcome me, overwhelm me and then leave. I detach from them before I can process them. Emotions are somewhat important in my life, but they often hinder me from what I actually have to do so I don't have the best relation to them. However, I like inducing emotions on purpose by listening to certain music, etc., then I will 100% enjoy them.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes, usually around people I like and at work. These are people who I cannot disappoint or they might leave me or harm me otherwise. I do it all the time.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I don't break rules often. I used to, as a child, but that was because the rules of my mother were way too strict and didn't allow me to be the child that I was. Most of the time I didn't even break them on purpose, but instead couldn't comprehend them because they didn't make sense to me. Authority should be questioned and challenged if needed. They definitely don't know better. They're only humans, such as you and I. Just because they happen to hold a lot of power over the general population doesn't mean that they know better. Power corrupts, which is why I very much mean towards challenging authority. However I don't do it myself, as it would put me into an unsafe situation.