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We are about to start a new campaign and my DM is allowing us to bring in one magical/wondrous item that fits our characters backstory. My character I took inspiration from the main character of the Shadow of Mordor video game. He is a paladin Warlock that started off as a paladin but during combat he was "killed" by a cursed dagger that essentially possessed him back to life. He now is fighting an internal demon that makes all of his good decision making into more aggressiveness or if he kills someone in combat he brutalizes them. He eventually tracked down his "killer" and murdered him and as a trophy he took the cursed dagger for himself. I'm looking for some ideas as what this dagger could do ability wise, such as I roll a dice before I roll to hit and if it's good I get extra damage due to the possessed spirit in the dagger or if I roll low my character takes damage or something with a charge that I can use once a day that would be useful but at a cost due to the cursed spirit within.

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Original Story
Title: Subaru
Author: Shu XianJi
Setting: Contemporary Japan
Number of Chapters: 90
Status: Completed
Six years after having been sentenced to life imprisonment for the massacre of her entire village, Shun Shutsuki is recruited by the master of Gushiken Paranormal Organization and taken out of prison. Shun is the possessor of the Godai Shakujō, a hereditary ability of the Shutsuki Clan, which appears only once in several generations and manifests itself in the form of a powerful anti-monster weapon. According to Kagami Gushiken, the master of the Organization, Shun wasn't herself during the massacre; she was possessed by a demon. However, this does not appear to be the entire truth; only Doctor Tsunan Hitachiin and the Master seem to know exactly what happened that fatidic night.
Evidently, the other members of the Organization are not at ease- to say the least- with the idea of having a "mass murderer" amongst them, with Tsunan's fan-club being particularly averse to Shun's presence within the organization. Even if monsters are absolutely real, none of them believe in the existence of demons and much less in demonic possession. Everything becomes complicated when Naoto Higaonna, an ex-member of the organization- who is now working as a high-school teacher- kills a group of students out of the blue before committing suicide. Things become even more complicated when the members of the Organization discover that Shun is constantly being hounded and persecuted by a certain Tadashi Honjō, with whom Shun seems to share a long-time bond. Who is Tadashi Honjō? Or rather, what is he? But, above it all, who is Subaru?
What is Shun hiding so desperately? Will she be able to survive within the Organization? Will she return safely from the missions assigned to her?
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Wattpad link: https://www.wattpad.com/story/336959617-subaru

Okay, so, I'm planning for my first character that'll be really in-depth. Before I lay my idea out to the dm, I just wanna check with y'all real quick. It will be a sorcerer elf (already discussed this part with dm, so not a lot). They have been in all different types of schools and academies, and have had many different masters/teachers. Anything from wizard academy and bard college to baker, pirate and thief. He has been in prison a couple of times, but only once for longer than a year. I got a whole list of different professions and academies etc. he has tried out, but at some point he gets a private teacher in wizardry. After more than a decade of training with him, he accidentally kills is master in a training accident. He then goes on the run, not wanting to go to prison again. Believing he will be sent back, or even executed, at some point in the near future, he decides to go set right what he beliefs is wrong in the world.
Every time he meets someone he things is part of a problem, he marks their location on his maps, and tells them he will visit them later and talk about it in private. If he does not succeed in convincing them to change, he murders them afterward. The one thing he believes is most problematic, is shame, in particular if they are ashamed of something he is as well. If they are ashamed of being (half-)elven, possessing some magic, being from a well off family, he will consider them part of a problem. In short: if they are ashamed of their gifts.
The thing is: he is generally a pacifist. He believes that life is the most important gift of all, and no one has the right to take away someone's gifts. He feels shame for killing the people, even though he does not consider them innocent, so he hides his 'mission' from everyone, telling them he is simply here to hone his skills and to overcome his fears.
He has fears. He's afraid of anything that he believes is unnatural: birds, fish, lightning and thunder, aaracokra. He is afraid of dark forests and dark caves, but he is very comfortable in dark alleyways, feeling like he can find help quickly enough if trouble stirs up.
My questions to you are: Is this too evil/murderhobo-y? Are these fears gonna get annoying? Is pacifism gonna get annoying, even if I tolerate if my party members kill enemies?

Popular right wing Indian sub (won’t mention the name here because it might break the rules) had a post about how to help a Hindu woman who married a Muslim man who turned out to be physically abusive. Some gems from the comments (none had been downvoted into negatives):
“She deserves it, karma bites back”
“She deserves everything she gets”
“Deserved lol”
“Fuck around find out”
“Play stupid games, win stupid prizes”
“She kinda deserves this”
“She made a choice she faced the consequences”
“She got what she deserves”
“She deserves it no need to help her”
“That dumb girl deserves this”
“If it isn’t the consequences of your own choices”
“She had it coming”
“So she’s getting what she deserves. Happy ending for the rest of us”
And on and on and on…
Best (worst) of all? “I have no sympathy for her at all and will not even if her husband murders her in the most cruel way possible” (+10 upvotes)
I just don’t see this happening on more left leaning subs like India.
Women across the political spectrum, have you noticed a correlation between right leaning men and extra dosage of misogyny or was this just a coincidence?

I don't know where else to put this, but i hope some women here will understand what i mean and not take this in bad faith, because every time i try and talk about it, people just roll their eyes. this is pretty much a long vent about misogyny so here goes.
i am a pretty girl. not naturally, makeup + clothing choices + many years of money and effort put in to my appearance. but i am really only pretty when i make a concentrated effort. other times, im very average looking or less. and this has made me notice such a severe, disturbing difference in the way people treat pretty girls in all aspects of life.
what is it about society that feels so entitled to beauty in women? so entitled to my time, attention, and cooperation whenever im in public, simply for existing this way?
the amount of harassment i face daily is exhausting. the way i am looked at by men (like a piece of meat, a walking sex object) makes me want to throw up and go hide in my house. the way i am looked at by women (a stupid slut, a pathetic hooker) makes me want to curl up in a ball of shame. every day, men think they are entitled to my time, attention, kindness, and tolerance. i have a fake phone call line as my top contact, and constantly have to giggle and brush off blatantly predatory flirting as to not get murdered.
i wish i could be beautiful all alone in a room by myself. i like to get dressed up and stay in my house, sunbathe in my backyard. i wish i could be beautiful in this world and still be a human being. pretty girls do not get the privilege of invisibility. i feel like some sort of walking public art piece for others to look at and touch however they like, or an animal on the nature channel.
i will go out in high spirits, cheerful and comfortable in my beauty. a woman will tell me she loves my haircut, and i will smile. a man will compliment my tattoo, and continue walking, and i will glow. but then a group of men will pass by, the hungry looks on their faces making my stomach sink, and i feel their eyes still on my back even when i have passed. a pair of women will stare as i walk by, and as i stop to check my phone, i hear one whisper "how much do you think she paid for THOSE?" men act as though i am required to humor them constantly because i know what i look like, and i should be flattered by their attention. i am not even free around women, they treat me as a competitor or as someone privileged and ungrateful. i wish i could only allow my beauty to be seen by those i choose. i hate how people taint it with their preconceived notions.
and i will not pretend being a pretty girl gives you certain advantages sometimes; once in a while i will get a free drink from my local starbucks, someone will hold the door for me, or reach up to a shelf where i can't in a store. but overall these things are never as frequent as what i have to use it for. being pretty is just a protection sometimes, a way to allow me to giggle and flirt my way out of terrifying situations.
i wish i could be pretty and live my life as such without the rest of the world taking it as an invitation to make assumptions and harass me.
again please don't take any of this in bad faith please. i've just gotten really frustrated over the last couple years with how people treat me constantly and how whenever i try and talk about it i'm told that it isnt a real problem. obviously the ultimate problem here is misogyny but it's a weirdly specific facet so i wondered if anyone else knows what im talking about. sorry for the long vent, i hope someone reading this understands what i mean

Let me preface this lecture by stating that I *am* a communist and have been for over a decade and that before I can get into what I think the Claires are supposed to represent I need to address why Kurvitz & Co. chose a videogame as the preferred medium for their metafiction. The reason Disco Elysium was made the way it was wasn't simply to entertain people with the funny antics of an alcoholic, superstar, hobo cop or to strive towards critical acclaim so the game would sell better. It wasn't even a game made by communists for communists (I mean it was made by communists it's just not preaching to the choir as much as some might think). In fact it's quite the opposite. The story was injected with nihilistic humor and offered up to the general public in the form of a video game to sugar the pill so to speak. That's because Disco Elysium is, at its core, a highly controversial political treatise and social critique "disguised" as a video game. This was so as to get as many people as possible to actually engage with its core messages instead of reflexively rejecting or ignoring them the way they would've if those messages had been presented in the format of non-fiction literature. To put it bluntly the main message of the game is how self delusion reinforces the very things it seeks to escape whether those be personal problems like loneliness or societal ones like the anxiety inducing political limbo of Revachol/the real world. Included in the delusions of a political nature Kurvitz wanted people to confront were many held by the bulk of the contemporary left. Sadly, judging by what I often see in this sub, the results of this novel approach at polemics has been mixed.
I have to admit it's disheartening to see how many fans of the game only engaged with that social and political criticism to the extent that it was leveled at their political enemies, especially when the "authorial intent" was to confront players who might delude themselves about the future implications, present realities and/or history of their own real life politics, whatever they may be. In some cases this ignorance is forgivable; it's easy to miss subtext in a game that's so text based that it has a habit of spelling things out for you and tbf many of the allusions to real life figures, events and ideas are subtle and without a solid grasp of 20th century European history and theoretical Marxism most of the satirical references will go over a typical player's head. What's not forgivable is how many people in this sub are in denial of or otherwise consciously rationalize the criticisms of their own side presented by the writers of DE. I'll get around to how centrists and right-libertarians are guilty of this in future posts but for right now I want to address "my comrades" because, frankly, some of you scare me with your naiveté, hyper-partisanship and blithe hand waving of corruption and needless violence.
Now there are two kinds of leftists I often see who want to view Evrart as a crypto-communist figure and despite being polar opposites in most respects they have two things in common: they're both childishly naive and they're both in denial about the realities of how vicious social democracy can be in practice. The first leftist is a social democrat who thinks that because Evrart is a machiavellian strongman figure that he must be an expy of Stalin and/or Mao (who in their minds are genuine representatives of communism) because "never, ever would a real social democrat do such things, after all we're unassuming trade unionists who want nothing more than to work things out democratically, through the existing system!" The second leftist is a communist who thinks that because Evrart is a machiavellian strongman figure that he must be an expy of Stalin and/or Mao (who in their minds are genuine representatives of communism) because "never, ever would a real social democrat do such things, after all they're unassuming trade unionists who want nothing more than to work things out democratically, through the existing system!"
The truth of course is that prejudices aside Evrart is a social democrat AND a tyrannical strongman. As for his plan to seize the harbor, while it's certainly threatening to Wild Pines' bottom line, the RCM's authority and the union's enemies in Martinaise, it does not in any way pose a genuine revolutionary threat to the capitalist system as a whole and, as weird as it may sound, is still reliant on working within the existing system. After all the union didn't seize the means of production in an armed rebellion against the capitalist state so much as Wild Pines legally handed over some of its corporate property to the union to avoid the bad PR of the merc tribunal which in the end was only tangentially related to the strike. By the end of HBD's investigation all that has changed for the (surviving) workers of Martinaise Harbour Terminal B is their employer. They went from being the unionized employees of the Wild Pines Group under which they had to smuggle drugs in secret to get by to becoming members of a de jure workers' co-operative under the Claires' control where they can now smuggle drugs more openly. That's it. Is that better for them? Maybe, probably, but even so they're still reliant on a global system based on commodity production and exchange and the selling of their labor power (and hardcore drugs) for money, they've just cut out a few middlemen so to speak. Once the strike is officially declared over La Puta Madre's henchmen, not the soldiers of the Coalition, are going to be the union's most immediate threat. Wild Pines itself probably isn't even that hurt by Evrart's plan as the value of what was lost in revenue and real estate can be mitigated by the amount the company will save from no longer having 2,000 + employees on its payroll every quarter.
Oh and to those pragmatists who think Evrart is just a well intentioned man willing to step up and get his hands dirty for the sake of his fellow workers because no one else would or as Call Me Mañana puts it "The old man is corrupt for our benefit" this next part is for you. We know from interviews that Evrart was partially inspired by the character of Frank Sobotka from the second season of the HBO hit TV series The Wire. That said Evrart is in many ways a sort of anti-Sobotka insofar as he's not just reluctantly working with mafiosos; he *is* a mafioso. If you haven't already seen The Wire you need to stop reading this and go watch it to not only understand my next point but because it's literally the best TV show ever made. For those who have seen The Wire I'm 100% certain you'll agree with me that neither of the two hypothetical leftists from earlier could seriously claim that Sobotka was a secret communist or anything other than a reformist labor leader even though he's guilty of most of the same things that supposedly make crypto-commies of the Claires. I also don't think anyone who's seen the show would strongly hate Frank for getting involved in those criminal dealings the way they would the Claires even if some might still think both are wrong for having done so. Most importantly I don't think anyone who's seen all of season two of The Wire and played Disco Elysium to completion would ever claim that the Claires cared more about the Martinaise dockers than the Sobotka family did the stevedores of Locust Point, Baltimore. So what explains the gulf between the two unionistas (besides murder)? Why was it less bad when Frank Sobotka engaged in labor racketeering than when Evrart and Edgar did it? It's simple really, Frank Sobotka demonstrated more authentic labor solidarity, internal conflict, selflessness and above all self awareness than the Claire brothers ever did.
So to summarize: the Claires are written as a counter to those players who have what Lenin called trade union consciousness (meaning social democrats, progressives and center-left, reform minded liberals) who think that the problems of capitalism can be solved simply by increasing the number of trade unions, by legally incorporating more worker co-ops, by expanding strike funds, etc., in a word, reformism. Additionally DE's writers, who're communists, want to knock reformists off their high horses so as to get them to stop lying to themselves and recognize that there is corruption, hypocrisy, violence and even a small presence of incipient fascism in many real life unions, both past and present, and that existing reformist movements, organizations, etc. are just as susceptible to being hijacked by populist demagogues as revolutionary ones are/have been and moreover that they're not always the politically correct, morally unimpeachable, nonviolent alternatives to revolution that they present themselves as. In the end class conflict and its resulting violence goes on whether anyone wants it to or not. It can be and often is a totally subconscious process driven by need at both the individual and group levels. That said the longer class conflict goes on without being consciously directed towards the abolishment of the socioeconomic system whose inherent contradictions bring it into being in the first place, the more chaotic it will become until the point where the mutual ruin of the competing classes is all but guaranteed as a result.

This adventure sets you on a trail of cold blood leading you onto a glacier just as chilling as the supernatural murder mystery you’re about to uncover. The silent snow here covers many ancient secrets. Testing your survival and investigation skills - and not to mention your sanity as well. Will you continue to look for answers in the freezing lands or will the cold and horror of the aurora fields overwhelm you?
Doing a game of this Level 5 One Shot.
Anyone is able to join, but I do prefer to have a mix of genders male, female etc... to balance out the table. LGBTQ+ friendly. We will go over session zero, backstories, character creation, rules, foundry tutorial and table manners, and any other questions you may have before play.
Requirements:

1. Have a Clear mic for voice & video via Discord with a quiet background audio while playing. Phones are not acceptable as an audio source (Video is not required, but I like to use it as I am a very social person and I like to Roleplay with the players).
2. The game is played over Foundry VTT (Virtual Tabletop) via Molten Hosting, as such it requires a good network connection & bare minimum specs of a laptop or pc that can play a game via this generation if you're using a chrome book or very weak or old laptop it will not run good and will lag out or crash constantly. The higher specs you have of a better rig the better it will run.
3. Looking for 5 players, feedback after the game is always appreciated if you have any insight for me afterwards. Perhaps something needed more context or explaining or if you think I can somehow run it smoother let me know 🙂 always open to constructive criticism.
4. Character creation will be done on DnDBeyond, Point Buy, Standard Equipment, Sticking to traditional races and classes, No Homebrew. 650gp to spend on items. Any more questions on character creation or anything else can be discussed during the session zero.

Participants 0/5
Feel free to message me for an interview and more information on the game. Or add me on discord @ LiquidSn8ke#7350
I am currently at work so if I don’t respond just doing some side work. I usually have a lot of downtime so I’m fairly active.
About me I’m 34 years old been a dm for over 7 years and professionally dming for the past 3. I’m a big rule of cool dm and I love to do voices and get into the story of the game and love to roleplay. I’m about a 70% roleplay dm and 30% everything else. I do try to follow RAW (Rules As Written) as much as possible however if I can.
A bit about myself I'm 34 been a forever dm for the past 6 years. Professional DM for the last 3 and I’m a big rp dm love doing voices and getting into characters. Rule of Cool DM, but I still try to follow raw (rules as written) as much as possible.

As we know in the dragon age mages have 3 main ways to boost their magic. Each have their own pros and cons. And I ask which do you guys think is better.
Lyrium; needs to mined and refined before a mage can be in the same room, is addictive, has nasty long term side effects, expensive, and the chantry controls it. That said it is apparently abundant, doesn't have any moral and minimal short term physical risks (once refined)
Blood magic; half of Thadeus calls it evil and kill the users on site, increases the risk of possession and it does offer more power the more blood is used (and it doesn't have to be the mage's) so it technically encourages murder. That said the supply is everywhere, killing is not mandatory, blood of the enemy works just as good as the mages, has no upper limit on power, and the other half of Thadeus is ok with it.
Spirits; seem to only amp certain types of spells, opens mages up to possession, and is barely tolerated. That said the boost to the spells is crazy high, get some interesting friends, never requires money and might even reverse your own death.
I am kinda torn between blood magic and spirits. Been an advocate for blood magic for years but the spirits are also cool.

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i’d rather accept the very temporary pain i’ll cause my loved ones when i’m gone, than just mindlessly accept the fact that all of us are just selfish/self interested monsters; that even if you find someone with humanity left in them, we’re all egotistical pieces of shit.
none of this life makes sense. i genuinely cannot grapple with human nature. i don’t know if im just extremely traumatized but i drive myself insane trying to understand why we are so evil to each other. WHY???????? greed, rape, murder, war, genocide… why?
this is such a losing game and nobody asked me how i felt about these conditions before i came here. i sound nuts whenever i verbalise this, but, DID ANYONE ASK YOU? think of all the horrible shit you’ve been through at the hands of other human beings. even people i know with the happiest and healthiest of childhoods are incredibly fucked up. this life is TRAUMA and all we do is accept that?
people tell me i’m the kindest person they’ve ever known and that makes me so fucking sad. i am a piece of garbage that’s just slightly more self aware than the average person. i can feel my darkness too; im ANGRY. how can i possibly be considered abnormally kind? we are so doomed.
this life is truly agonizing. maybe i’m just all wrong. i think i’m just far too sensitive and emotionally volatile for this garbage.
how can i possibly encompass love when i give it to everyone but myself? i hate myself and i compensate by treating others with basic decency? thats not altruism. im just as bad as the monsters who’ve destroyed me and i genuinely cannot cope with the fact that we all just suck intrinsically. i really do not like it here.

Mostly when I hear people talk politics in EDH it's goes something along the lines of, "If you do X for me, then I will do Y for you", and this betrays not only a naivety as to how politics are handled in the real world during wartime, but a lack of imagination as to how you can leverage the social elements of EDH. So here are a few ways that you can play the political game in EDH without being so explicit:

1. Maintain the tables understanding of the current board state. EDH is a complex game and not every player will recognize the brewing threats you might. By discussing the pieces that enter the table, or spells like tutors and card draw that have been cast, as well as their potential consequences, you can ensure that people will better assess your other opponents threats. Of course, this is propaganda, and so while you will also need to maintain the tables awareness of your board in order to be successful, you can downplay your board and threats, simply stating what each piece explicitly does, but giving no further hint as to how they fit into your plan over the next turns. At minimum, this helps players not to clearly bugger their threat assessment, but the potential to influence the table in small ways here can be very effective.
   
2. Bide your time. The Rusty nail gets the hammer, or something. Basically, weigh your options before advancing your board state. Has 0 removal or interaction been played yet and people have left mana open? Maybe just play your extra ramp, leave up some interaction, and wait for someone else to be the first lamb to the slaughter. There is a certain smell in the air before shit goes down so it can help to wait for the right moment.
   
3. Ask questions. This goes along similar lines as 1, but asking your opponents questions can do a lot to direct your other opponents aggression. How many cards have you drawn? How many times have you tutored? Is that a combo piece? Do you run this combo? Your opponents can answer truthfully, or they can lie, or they can refuse to answer, and all three options carry the possibility of them drawing aggro. At best, they effectively downplay everything, which is part of the game, but having the answer come from your opponent can be huge as asking questions is a pretty neutral thing to do at the table.
   

What other non-explicit ways have you found to approach politics in EDH?

I’ve been dating my boyfriend for about 9 months now. I love him so much but ultimately life just isn’t my thing. There’s nothing to keep me going. But I know that if I kill myself, even if it’s with a method like hanging or something, and even if I left a note, instead of realising and empathising with all the struggles ie had, my parents would try and ruin my boyfriends life because they couldn’t cope with the thought that I’m suicidal. They’d be convinced that he murdered me or something. If I broke up with him before doing it that would just further their cause because they’d think he killed me in revenge. I just want him to move on from me and live a happy life but I know my parents would want to investigate him instead of just accepting that I hate life.

I never replay games. I’m more of a one and done it kind of guy, but something about ATB’s gameplay and story compelled me to play it not once, not twice, but four times at the time of writing. It certainly helps that the game is short (although I think the universal praise of The Outer Wilds demonstrates that this isn’t a bad thing).
My latest playthrough clocked in at ~35 minutes at the time of writing in order to get the Toot Sweet achievement. Ironically, this exact pursuit of achievements led me to get the Librarian achievement and, ultimately, finally read all the story notes chronologically.
Notwithstanding, ATB is a nauseatingly haunting game on harder difficulties. The monster is deadly, the resources are scarce, the tone is grim, and the darkness encompasses it all. Above all of this, the story is worth telling and I posit that the game’s genre, coupled with the Amnesia brand being notoriously terrifying if PewDewPie is to be believed, will prevent a lot of people from playing it. That’s such a shame.
Without further obfuscation, I want to encourage you to play the game; immerse yourself in its world and discover its truth for yourself. Your appreciation for the story will only compound the more time you spend stalking the halls of the unnamed bunker it takes place in.
For those of you that don’t care to play it, but appreciate a good story, read ahead. SPOILER WARNING.
ATB’s story begins before the player ever takes control of the protagonist, Henri Clemont, a Soldier in the French Army at the Battle of Pozieres during World War I.
April 1916 – Toussaint Beaufoy – What Could Be Worse than War?
On 2 April, 1916, Henri’s embattled unit receives orders to dig their bunker deeper so that their chain of command can laud it as a symbol of French patriotism and eventual victory in the war.
The calamity of World War I, having already wrought havoc on the bodies and minds of Henri’s unit, is only intensified by these foolhardy orders. This bunker is destined to become “a rancid, stinking pit. A void, a hole. Full of men, scared and confused.”
Eight days later, on 10 April, Henri’s compatriot, Toussaint Beaufoy, pens a poem We Whirl the World that reflects on the grim events of the war and foreshadows the events of the game.

We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a terrible twirl
Can’t see the sun for all the smoke
Can’t see the ground for all the dead folk
Can’t see the ocean, can’t see the trees
So I stay here down on my knees
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a binding twirl
A snarl in the dark
A sad day in the park
A stone reminder
A horse’s dirty blinder
A child’s empty hand
A friend’s stained armband
The news of the day on the stand
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a bloody twirl
What comes next around the bend?
Maybe it’ll be some kind of end
More likely another shrill, shrill whistle,
Magic that turns men into gristle.
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost and still we twirl

Henri’s unit begins digging and on 30 April, another soldier, Alex Noyer, extrapolates on why the unit has been ordered to dig: the bunker lay atop Roman ruins that extend towards the German lines. The command wants to use these prebuilt tunnels to launch a surprise attack on the enemy. However, Noyer’s interest lay more in the archaeological significance of the dig.
With the dig well underway, the other soldiers begin to experience haunting symptoms. Notably, Beaufoy, who witnesses some horror on the night of 5 May, that shatters his psyche. He refuses to discuss what he witnessed with anybody, yet he revels in it; “I want to go back to that place. I want to feel that way. I want the violence and the ecstasy and the pitch-black darkness.”
May 1916 - Alex Noyer’s Journal - Digging Up a Dark Secret
A week later (9 May), Noyer is presented with archaic texts uncovered during the digging. He begins to read them and discovers the texts are not of typical Roman writings. Rather, the texts are religiously significant repeating the phrase “to cross into darkness and beyond.”
These texts originated from a people that believed they found the key to immortality, a blessing bestowed upon them from some “other world… dominated by darkness… ruled by something…” These damned texts went on to describe this world as “full of spirits, monsters and that the air there was endlessly alive with cries of torment and the sickly rattle of souls near death.”
The tunnels that the men were digging were used by this ancient people as a portal to this “pagan hell.”
This manifested in our world as the need for the followers to commit sickening acts that appealed to the primal instincts of humanity; “blood orgies, of sadistic spirits, of the awful things these men and women would do to each other in worship of darkness” and a magical liquid that would grant the believer’s immortality in darkness.
Noyer enters the tunnels sometime on 14 May, and discovers more of the cursed history of the tunnels. “The Romans used these tunnels to hold sadistic bacchanals, great festivals of cruel combat, torture and worse... held in an arena over a great pit.” His command writes him off as paranoid, and Noyer resolves to enter the tunnels.
On 25 May, Noyer is recovered after screaming in the damp excavation sight until his vocal cords were annihilated – alive but utterly terrified.
June 1916 - Farber - Am I Out of Touch? No, It’s the Soldiers Who Are Wrong.
Noyer warns his brother-in-arms about the texts and truth of the ruins they are excavating. As the truth and panic spread, the Command begins punishing those who speak of the more sinister presence that is permeating the halls of the bunker.
Throughout the month of May, the soldiers are gripped with a waking terror that seeps into their dreams, all the while having to fight a war notorious for its brutality. Noyer writes, “we’re stuck between the Germans in front of us, high command behind us, and some other horrible force that seems to lurk in shadows all around us. I fear we are now truly beyond God’s reach.”
Rumors of the truth that Noyer uncovered begin to spread amongst the men. Despite taking the assertions of the malevolent presence seriously, the command chooses to contain the panic through force.
Incensed by Noyer’s ominous warnings, a rebellion is formed on 28 May with a soldier only known as “Farber” at its helm. The mission is simple: contain the evil of the tunnels by sabotaging the digging efforts with a cave in. Farber notes that each of the five recruits is exceptionally eager to end the waking nightmare, particularly Beaufoy.
Their efforts are successful and the soldiers experience a brief abatement from the ever-present fear, only to be discovered and subsequently tortured by their Commanding Officers, Reynard and Delpy. None are spared the persecution, save for Beaufoy, who is presumed to have been killed in the blast that undoes the dig. The last thing any other soldier saw of him was Beaufoy telling them he had “other work to do,” whilst pointing to his own eyes.
Despite the ordeal, no participant reveals Farber as the mastermind, and Farber is forever indebted to the brotherhood.
The officers of the unit do four things in the wake of this unthinkable act of insubordination: (1) abandon the tunnel, (2) punish the conspirators, (3) send the remaining men on dangerous combat patrols and (4) order more wine. No lesson learned, no warning heed.
Of minor note, on the evening of 30 June, after one such combat patrol, a German prisoner is captured. Small recompense for the men routinely thrown into the meat grinder of enemy machine guns and command tribunals.
July 1916 – Henri Clément – Buddy Fucker with a Conscious
Another such raid is ordered on 8 July, and Henri has a plan to not go. Henri and his best friend, Augustin Lambert, decide that the winner of a game of chance will not have to risk their life this evening and the other will go in their friend’s place. Henri cheats, rationalizing it as a harmless prank, condemning Lambert to endure the battlefield once more. Henri is sure Lambert will return, unscathed, and cannot wait to see the look on his face when he learns what Henri did.
Only, Lambert doesn’t return. As the dusk of 8 July turns into dawn, Henri is wrought with guilt. He resolves to recover his friend. It is here, that the player finally takes control of the protagonist.
Henri discovers Lambert at the bottom of a pit. Not a crater from artillery, a borderline incomprehensibly large depression. Henri makes his way down and renders aid to his battered, but alive, compatriot. Henri gathers water from the pit, and nurses his friend before they attempt to escape.

Patrol Report – 10 July 1916
Odd occurrences last night. Sdt. Lambert, thought dead after his patrol on the 8th, returned to the barracks in fine health. He carried with him Sdt. Clément – severely wounded from an explosion.
Lambert reports the following:
-That midway through his patrol on the 8th he fell into a deep crater and was unable to escape.
-Clément, his close friend, snuck out after him last night, located him in the crater, and carried him out.
-They were spotted and in the ensuing attack, Clément was injured by an explosion. It fell on Lambert to carry him back.
Very odd that Lambert was neither injured from the fall nor the explosion AND that he ended up saving the man who came to save him.
But battlefield luck is an odd thing. In every life, fate’s winds blow erratic.
Judging by Lambert’s description, the crater he fell into seems to have been located very close to the Roman tunnels we unearthed. It may have been a result of work down there.
Recommend a future patrol to investigate and make sure we have not opened a backdoor into our own bunker.

Henri remains comatose for ten(?) days.
July 1916 – Augustin Lambert – The Nightmare Is Only Beginning
Lambert, having dodged death, reflects on the events of his ill-fated patrol. His loss of hope at the bottom of the inescapable pit, and the angelic reprieve he received from Henri. He notes how the water Henri nursed him with “was cool and crisp, with a strange, sweet taste. Never has water felt more nourishing than that, administered by a dear friend’s hand.”
Despite surviving, Lambert’s survival is dampened by the loss of a toy he bought for his son – the toy he believes to be in the pit where he almost lost his life.
Lambert grows stronger by the day. However, with Lambert’s return, so do the haunts that plagued his fellow Soldiers. Scratching at the walls and an overt ghostly howling emanates throughout the halls at night.
July 1916 – Stéphane Joubert – Oh Yeah, The Murders.
The first to fall Reynard on 15 July. Hardly a loss after his treatment of the soldiers, but certainly a catalyst for even further distrust.
Stéphane Joubert, another officer, reflects on the evening of the murder in his journal. He had heard a commotion in the hallway, but assumed it be Reynard drunk on his secret stash of wine. No one was aware anything was wrong until they heard the screaming. He is concerned for the harshness in which his fellow officers treat the men, particularly in the wake of this death.
The remaining officers interrogate the men, after all, a murderer was so clearly amongst them.
Paranoia grips the men, who are the prime suspects due to their contempt for Reynard. But the brutality and sadistic nature of the murder was beyond the pale? The autopsy read:

Body of Sgt. Reynard.
Multiple lacerations. Chest cavity torn to shreds. Every rib cracked. Skull cracked open by repeated blunt force trauma.
Who could have done this to him?

Amid the violence, Farber, driven mad by the resurgence of the haunting presence, resolves to kill it himself to atone for being the only man left unpunished for the tunnel sabotage. When the evil presence, emboldened by the murder of Reynard, returns, Farber is there. He shoots the Beast and it retreats into the shadows.
But it did not forget. It returned ten minutes later and pulled Farber into the wall, “screaming… praying for salvation.”
The men note something familiar about the Beast as it continues to hunt them; like it knows who they are.
The officers abandon the men, escaping and blowing the entrance to the bunker behind them – condemning the soldiers to evisceration by an unkillable force. Joubert, the only bastion of morality amongst the officers, is among the escapees all the same He leaves the men one chance at salvation.

Fournier, our commanding officer!, cowers next to me now. He’s lost his mind to an abyss of fear…
He wants to run, to blow up the exit behind him.. Sealing the demon down here… The demon AND our men.
His constant refrain, it is getting to me… and that same void of terror… it is also overtaking me.
To any of my men who see this: once we’re free of this place, I will get the arsenal code from him. I will get it and I will radio it back to you.
Trapped down here with that beast, the arsenal may be your only hope. It’s all I can do. All I have courage to do…
Get to the communications room in the Soldier Quarters. Hide there. I’ll broadcast the code to you.
-Joubert

The men, responded to such hollow words:

The officers have abandoned us! They ran from the beast and blew the exit closed behind them. Even Joubert…
They called us cowards and traitors and worse… Hypocrites. Now they’ve doomed us.
Whatever hell we suffer now, it is on them. God will punish them for what they’ve done.

July 1916 – Henri Clément – The Game Begins
The game begins with Henri awakening in the hospital bed from comatose state. He doesn’t remember the past, but that’s why we have spent about 2400 words going over that. The gameplay of Amnesia is self-explanatory – gather resources, avoid the monster, escape.
In order to accomplish this goal Henri has several sub objectives that, for convenience, we’ll cover in two parts: Get the Dynamite and Get the Detonation Handle. This isn’t a walk through, every playthrough of the game is different, but you learn the fates of several characters through extrapolating on the relationship between the notes and the game itself. Play the game and get stalked by the monster for the horror experience.
Get the Dynamite (Located in the Armory):
· Located in the armory, Henri first needs to retrieve a code to unlock said armory. The code, you recall, Joubert promised to broadcast to the soldiers. After solving the daisy chain issue in the Soldier’s Quarters and finding the requisite key, Henri makes his way to the communication room. Joubert is true to his word, he is still broadcasting the code. Henri can now retrieve the dynamite.
Get the Detonator Handle (Located in the Tunnels):
· First order of business is to recover a ratchet wrench that allows access into the Prisoner Control room in the Prison section of the bunker. The wrench is in Foreman Stafford’s locker, but you’ll have to find the code. Henri discovers that Stafford made his way to the Bunker’s Pillbox as a means of escape. However, the Pillbox is locked with the only key being in the bunker’s Chapel. Henri makes his way to the chapel to uncover an unholy display of twisted bodies – an achievement pops up revealing this is the Beast’s nest. In the confessional, Henri discovers the priest (otherwise insignificant to the story) nailed to the wall. He recovers the key and returns to the Pillbox. At the top, Stafford is there, a bullet through the eye from an enemy sniper – a grim reminder that you’re still fighting a war.
· The wrench is to help gain access to the Captured German Prisoner’s cell, left abandoned; Geneva Convention be damned. What we want in the cell is a pair of bolt cutters that had been used to torture the prisoner. Opening his cell alerts the monster, whom promptly murders the poor prisoner (although there is a slightly happier disposition in which you retrieve the bolt cutters before the Beast gets to him – are you quick enough to save his life? Do you even want to?)
· The bolt cutters grant access to the chained-shut tunnels. The haunted tunnels. The Pagan Hell. Ghostly apparitions due exist down here skulking the fog teasing you with the evil you’ve read so much about. Impossible rock formations alongside Roman statues and columns, this place is truly unearthly. But then you hear a voice, the first voice you’ve heard since the prisoner you couldn’t understand died. “We whirl the world…” Its Beaufoy, whom has gouged his own eyes out and roams the fog with a shotgun and homicidal intent – still more work to do. He will kill you, so you must put your fellow soldier down. Is it better this way? At least that shotgun is yours now *finger guns*.
· If you explore a little more, after finding the detonator handle, you’ll find a small tunnel that leads to the pit. The pit the game began in, the pit with the small rabbit toy Lambert lost. Shit, what happened to Lambert?
You retreat to the beginning of the game. Hook up the dynamite and blow it. Make your way to escape. You find yourself at a grand arena above a bottomless pit. With the Beast standing between you and salvation. Is there really a boss battle in this game? Winning it reveals the final truth.
Lambert is the monster. Your best friend, corrupted by the water you nursed into him to save his life. Presenting the toy to him prior to the final battle when he tries to kill you causes him to take it, run to his fucked-up chapel nest, and place it on a pedestal. There is still humanity there, and that’s why he recognized those he killed.
But this is a grand arena over a great pit, and losers go into the pit. Use the toy to hold the monster up on the destructible bridges and, while he plays with it, blast the bridge itself – pulling the literal floor out from underneath him – eternal darkness awaits.
Now flee, make your way to salvation. You see sunlight. You breach the rocks and roll down a slope into a pit of dead comrades. At least you’re free of that beast.
As you bask in the light you hear “SCHNELL, SCHNELL” and searchlights beginning to scan where you just fell from.
Fuck, you’re still in a war.
A grotesquely unsettling story of overcoming shitty circumstances and still losing. What’s that like an 8? Probably an 8.

I'm making a homebrew magic item for my homebrew campaign and could use some thoughts on balancing etc. Look at the end of the post if you want to skip the rough story behind it.
In ancient times the dark elves cast dark magic on the forests of Entsdell, turning all the vegetation dark and twisted so they could walk the surface during daylight. Two powerful elven druids creates a scepter from heartwood and uses it to cure the forests and push back the dark elves. The scepter has since then been hidden and locked behind a barrier that repels those who wants to use it for evil.
Later on in history, one of the druid got corrupted by darkness in an attempt to save the region from a war against the Hobgoblins of the bordering badlands. He cast a curse on the land (not using the scepter) that twisted the plants into living beings that pushed the Hobgoblins out. However, these creatures has been a problem to this day.
Recent clear cuttings by the humans have now awoken the corrupted druid from his slumber. As a result, the attack by living plants has intensified.
The players will come across the hidden scepter in a cavern, now corrupted by the druid to keep heroes away from it. They will fight a manifestation of him and get the scepter.
So here's my idea for the scepter:
My thought is that it doesn't do much when first found, but it cures the plants it touches from corruption and there's an obvious slot for a gem in it. Half the gem is the 'heart' of a statue somewhere else. It is actually the petrified remains of the other druid creating the scepter, who has been petrified by the corrupted one. On touching the statue with the scepter, the statue breaks and the gem is revealed. The other half is the heart of the corrupted druid.
If they attach the first half I was thinking it could have like 3 charges a day of some fast healing in a 5ft emination of the caster.
When they get the other half it gets one or more charges of heal on top of the fast healing effect, for whatever adventure they continue on after this one.
I've no idea if that's weak, strong or fine. Also, I'm not sure what levels it would fit.
Thanks I'm advance!

The Duchess/Duke of Dunwich Bores.
The Duchess perks: Night person, Aquagirl, Rad resistance, Lone wanderer, sneak.
The Duke perks: Night person, Lady killer, Aquaboy, Rad resistance, lone wanderer, sneak.
Duchess/Duke are a melee stealth build, with their primary weapon being Khatnch' Tooth. ( Might have misspelled that, sorry folks!)
Duchess armor would be the feathered dress, (lootable off the chick in the memory den, Urma.)
Duke armor would be the featured Lorenzo's suit, ( Cabot quest line)
Inspired off creepy old cult stories, an a touch of Fallout inspiration, the Duchess/Duke is a careless, cold, unfeeling entity changed by Dunwich Bores and their ceremonial blade. They are entirely selfish and malicious, unwilling to compromise even for the greater good. They easily make enemies of their fellow companions, leading to a rather solitary life style. They have a much higher ability to sneak, and often feat sneak kills and attacks with ease. They can be quiet charming to the opposite sex, enticing even. Allowing for easy manipulative to achieve their final goal in the end. ( Killing, mugging, etc.) They might have been human once, but now they are nothing more than a murderous monster.
Duchess/Duke 'player home' would be Croup Manor.

Sorry if this it totally not align with the hive mind, I have only read/ watched a few small things. Is it possible she had a still birth? I keep saying posts saying she murdered her baby but how do we know that? Like she could have had a still birth and put in in the bin ( which is still crazy) but.. Also looking for some more links to read up on this. Idk something just seems really off with her, the mom, and the way the hospital handled it

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It is unclear whether the crown prince’s threat was conveyed directly to U.S. officials or intercepted through electronic eavesdropping, but his dramatic outburst reveals the tension at the heart of a relationship long premised on oil-for-security but rapidly evolving as China takes a growing interest in the Middle East and the United States assesses its own interests as the world’s largest oil producer. Biden, who pledged to make Saudi Arabia a “pariah” as a presidential candidate, scarcely communicates with the crown prince but the president’s top aides have gradually rebuilt ties with him hoping the two nations can work together on pressing issues, including a long-sought peace deal in Yemen, a sustained cease-fire in Sudan, counterterrorism challenges and continued disagreements over the supply of oil. Following Blinken’s meetings, differences appeared to remain over Saudi Arabia’s ambitions to generate nuclear power, seen by Washington and others as a potential proliferation risk, and the notion that the United States has a right to admonish the kingdom over its human rights record. Blinken’s visit caps a steady stream of high-level U.S. meetings in the kingdom in recent months, including trips by national security adviser Jake Sullivan, CIA Director William J. Burns, Biden’s top Middle East adviser Brett McGurk, and his senior energy security official Amos Hochstein. Days before Blinken’s arrival, Saudi Arabia announced it would deepen oil production cuts in July on top of a broader OPEC Plus agreement to limit oil supply in an effort to raise prices — a move opposed by the Biden administration. Saudi Arabia’s relationship with China, which the United States considers its top economic and security competitor, was also raised during Blinken’s news conference in Riyadh. Saudi’s foreign minister, when asked during Thursday’s news conference about his country’s relationship with China, insisted it was not a threat to Saudi Arabia’s long-standing security partnership with the United States.

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Round 11 the first murderer Cain vs the god of betrayal and chaos seth
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Im trying to predict what's gonna happen with everyone at Castle Black in TWOW. I have ideas, but one problem keeps coming up; we dont know how the brothers of the Night's Watch will respond to Jons murder.
I believe Jons murder will cause a lot of division in Castle Black; between the NW vs the Wildlings, the NW vs Mel & Selyse... but it will also cause division WITHIN the NW. Some seem to support Jon, others appear not to. For the majority of the NW, theres no indication one way or another. But I wanna know who's on which side, so heres what I've come up with so far:
JONS ALLYS
- Ghost
- Dolorous Edd
- Hareth (Horse)
- Rory
- Satin
- Iron Emmet
- Leathers
- Jax
- Arron
- Emrick
- Pyp
- Grenn
- Toad
ANTI-JON FACTION
- Bowen Marsh
- Wick Whittlestick
- Othell Yarwyck
- Septon Cellador
- Alf of Runnymud
- Left Hand Lew
- Ser Alliser Thorne
- Mully
- Fulk, the Flea
This list only includes NW brothers who are still alive by the end of ADWD. It's hard to say who supports Jon and who doesn't with certainty. So let me give a brief explanation for each of these guys and why I think they will be either pro- or anti-Jon:
PRO-JON FACTION
- Ghost - Obviously he's on Jon's side. He arguably IS Jon. And yes.. Ghost is a brother of the NW
- Samwell Tarly - No explanation needed. But Sam is far away, in Oldtown, so he's irrelevant to Castle Black in the TWOW opening
- Edd Tollett - No explanation needed. But Edd has been sent to Long Barrow along with Iron Emmett, so he isn't at Castle Black either.
- Hareth (Horse) - Horse is guarding Jon after the Shieldhall speech, right as the assassination is about to take place. If Jon trusts him enough to guard his life, this probably indicates Horse will stay loyal to Jon:
Horse and Rory fell in beside Jon as he left the Shieldhall. I should talk with Melisandre after I see the queen, he thought. If she could see a raven in a storm, she can find Ramsay Snow for me. Then he heard the shouting … and a roar so loud it seemed to shake the Wall. "That come from Hardin's Tower, m'lord," Horse reported. He might have said more, but the scream cut him off. (Jon XIII, ADWD)
- Rory - The same goes for Rory, he was with Horse guarding Jon as the assassination took place. I wouldn't be surprised if we learn in TWOW that Horse or Rory were killed in the assassination attempt. But if they survive they'll probably be Team Jon
Val, was Jon's first thought. But that was no woman's scream. That is a man in mortal agony. He broke into a run. Horse and Rory raced after him. "Is it wights?" asked Rory. Jon wondered. Could his corpses have escaped their chains? (Jon XIII, ADWD)
Jon saw the flash of naked steel a few yards away. His own bowmen nocked arrows to their strings. He turned in his saddle. "Rory. Quiet them." Rory lifted his great horn to his lips and blew. (Jon V, ADWD)
- Satin - Seems to be close with Jon. Is picked by Jon to go on missions. Jon defends Satins positions as his personal steward and squire after Edd. Satin is the only one of Jon's friends who doesn't get sent away to the Shadow Tower. Satin also adopts the old gods, indicating his closeness with Jon. Also it's clear the anti-Jon faction hates Satin. Satin probably has the most evidence of anyone to show he'll support Jon. Satin's whereabouts at the time of the assassination are not known
His friends laughed—Grenn, Toad, Satin, the whole lot of them. (Jon III, ADWD)
Septon Cellador spoke up. "This boy Satin. It's said you mean to make him your steward and squire, in Tollett's place. My lord, the boy's a whore … a … dare I say … a painted catamite from the brothels of Oldtown." And you are a drunk. "What he was in Oldtown is none of our concern. He's quick to learn and very clever. The other recruits started out despising him, but he won them over and made friends of them all. He's fearless in a fight and can even read and write after a fashion. He should be capable of fetching me my meals and saddling my horse, don't you think?" (Jon VIII, ADWD)
Whatever Satin may have done in Oldtown, he is our brother now, and he will be my squire. (Jon VIII, ADWD)
- Iron Emmett - He is picked to be the master-at-arms for Castle Black. He spars with Jon. He is selected for the mission to the weirwood in ADWD. There isnt solid proof he would support Jon, but he seems to be a prime candidate as an ally. He was sent to Long Barrow with Edd Tollett, so he isnt at Castle Black
- Leathers - Leathers almost certainly supports Jon. Leathers is a Wildling who became a brother of the NW. Jon makes him the master-at-arms after Emmett. The anti-Jon faction does not approve of Leathers appointment
"Is it true that you mean to replace Emmett with this savage Leathers as our master-at-arms? That is an office most oft reserved for knights, or rangers at the least." "Leathers is savage," Jon agreed mildly. "I can attest to that. I've tried him in the practice yard. He's as dangerous with a stone axe as most knights are with castle-forged steel. I grant you, he is not as patient as I'd like, and some of the boys are terrified of him … but that's not all for the bad. One day they'll find themselves in a real fight, and a certain familiarity with terror will serve them well." (Jon VIII, ADWD)
"How many men are enough?" he asked Leathers. "A hundred? Two hundred? Five hundred? A thousand?" (Jon XIII, ADWD)
- Jax - The same as Leathers. Jax is a Wildling who joins the NW. He isn't mentioned as often as Leathers, but given that Jon's murderers were in large part motivated by Jon's relationship with the Wildlings, I imagine any Wildling NW-brother will have to be pro-Jon
- Arron & Emrick - Two brothers from Fair Isle who are recruited by Jon. They both swear their oaths before the Weirwoods, even though they were born following the Faith of the Seven. There is little information about them, but what little we have seems to suggest they may be pro-Jon
- Pyp, Grenn & Toad - These guys are Jon's friends who he sends away to the Shadow Tower. They are certainly pro-Jon, but they aren't nearby enough to matter
ANTI-JON FACTION
- Bowen Marsh - Stabbed Jon
- Wick Whittlestick - Tried to slash Jon's throat
- Othell Yarwyck - The First Builder of the NW. He is one of the leaders who is increasingly antagonistic towards Jon leading up to the assassination. He was seen at the Shieldhall meeting, standing near Bowen Marsh. Almost persuaded to support Janos Slynt for Lord Commander in ASOS. He doesn't attend the Thenn-Karstark wedding
As for Borroq, Othell Yarwyck claimed the woods north of Stonedoor were full of wild boars. Who was to say the skinchanger would not make his own pig army? (Jon XIII, ADWD)
But others had chosen to absent themselves to show their disapproval. Othell Yarwyck and Bowen Marsh were amongst the missing (Jon X, ADWD)
"I summoned you to make plans for the relief of Hardhome," Jon Snow began. "Thousands of the free folk are gathered there, trapped and starving, and we have had reports of dead things in the wood." To his left he saw Marsh and Yarwyck. (Jon XIII, ADWD)
- Septon Cellador - A part of the council that becomes increasingly antagonistic towards Jon's command. There's not a lot of evidence to support him being anti-Jon, except he hates the Wildlings and assoiactes with the anti-Jon faction
"These are godless savages," said Septon Cellador. "Even in the south the treachery of wildlings is renowned." (Jon XI, ADWD)
- Alf, of Runnymudd - Alf appears to be heartbroken when Garth is killed by the Wildlings. Some have theorized this indicates Alf and Garth may have had a gay relationship, but there is no other evidence for this. Alf is seen hanging with Bowen Marsh during the Shieldhall meeting. He likely blames Jon for the death of Garth. He is one NW brother I feel certain hates Jon
"Who is it?" asked Owen the Oaf. "Not Dywen, is it?" "Nor Garth," said the queen's man she knew as Alf of Runnymudd, one of the first to exchange his seven false gods for the truth of R'hllor. "Garth's too clever for them wildlings." "How many?" Mully asked. "Three," Jon told them. "Black Jack, Hairy Hal, and Garth." Alf of Runnymudd let out a howl loud enough to wake sleepers in the Shadow Tower. "Put him to bed and get some mulled wine into him," Jon told Three-Finger Hobb. (Melisandre I, ADWD)
Othell was surrounded by his builders, whilst Bowen had Wick Whittlestick, Left Hand Lew, and Alf of Runnymudd beside him (Jon XIII, ADWD)
- Lefthand Lew - There is no evidence for him being anti-Jon... except he is standing with Bowen Marsh and the anti-Jon faction during the Shieldhall speech. I have no idea what his beef with Jon is, but I feel certain he is with Marsh
Othell was surrounded by his builders, whilst Bowen had Wick Whittlestick, Left Hand Lew, and Alf of Runnymudd beside him (Jon XIII, ADWD)
- Mully & Fulk, the Flea - Right before the Shieldhall meeting, Jon is told by Mully and Flea that Ghost is acting aggressively. This is obviously a warning that Jon is surrounded by enemies who will try to kill him. But it could additionally indicate that Mully and Fulk the Flea are specifically Jon's enemies. This is the only potential hint I could find that might suggest Mully & Fulk are on either side
"That'd be sweet, m'lord," said Fulk the Flea, "but your wolf's in no mood for company today." Mully agreed. "He tried to take a bite o' me, he did." "Ghost?" Jon was shocked.
- Spare Boot, Kegs, Halder, & Albett - These men are part of part of Othells builders. The builders are seen with Othell and Bowen Marsh in the Shieldhall
- Ser Alliser Thorne - Alliser hates Jon, but he isn't at Castle Black right now. Although I predict Ser Alliser will return and maybe even be elected new Lord Commander in the beginning of TWOW, some theorize he may even seek justice against Jon's conspirators
CONCLUSION
Please tell me what you think of my list! I'd like to hear arguments about why should anyone be added or removed from either list?

Long story short a couple years ago my friend was murdered because he wouldn't let the offender know where I was.
Just knowing that it's me who was wanted dead has made me feel guilty af because of his death.
I've been fighting with myself everyday since between being a functioning member of society and getting revenge for my best friend, even going to extremes of getting myself arrested in hopes I'd get locked up with them.
I don't want sympathy or to talk about this situation much as it riles me up so I guess my question is what would any normal person do In my circumstances? What do people recon God wants me to do? How am I meant to act ?
If I'm being honest I'm lost there's no other way to put it.