It's my first far cry game and I am addicted! But it's definitely a lot more fun playing with a buddy. Story missions, side missions, achievements, etc. Hmu to liberate Montana! 😎 Mic required.

1 (17F) met a guy (29M) that I really like and am super attracted to. He also really likes me and we want to... ya know. He's hesitant because he's not sure if it's legal.
l've done some research and it seems very on the fence. Some sites say it's fine since the age of consent is 16. Other sites say no, and that anyone 16+ can only consent to sexual activity with anyone 16-18.
Any insight is appreciated. Please refrain from commenting on my taste in men. I know it's not always healthy or safe to like much older men but I do.

Do you have any recommendations for good travel pillows, especially ones with chin support? I'm a side sleeper too.
Also, offline IOS game recommendations? I already have Stardew Valley, Scribblenauts, and Turnip Boy.

Although my trich hasn’t been particularly bad lately, my bald spot has gotten much more prominent for reasons I can’t figure out. I need to get some degree of haircut (at least on the 85% of my head that is unaffected) for a family obligation. The few recommendations I’ve found in/near Chicago are for women’s salons. Can anyone recommend a place where a middle-aged man could go and be treated with a decent amount to dignity?

DISCLAIMER: There was NO intentional animal abuse in the making of this TIFU.
So for some reason, we have an extremely drug resistant brand of flea around here. When my Shadow (a 7 year old black cat) was younger, he got fleas every year. This led to a lot of bites, and they got into everything. I only managed to get rid of them using a specialist spray my vet provided, and a prescription ointment. After flea bombing the entire house, covering it with the new spray and using the prescription, we finally got rid of them.
My local vet has a scheme where you pay a monthly fee, and it includes all their annual shots, flea and worm treatment. You also get a small discount on vet consultations. No-brainer for me. Between that and my vet insurance.
So the medicine is mailed to me, and is mailed in my cat's name! My cat actually gets mail and I love this, it's adorable. So I opened it, there's a little silver blister pack with his worm pill, and a tiny white squeeze tube of flea treatment with tiny writing.
I have shockingly bad eyesight.
So onto the next part of our tale. I have extremely brittle nails from years of biting, and I had one snap right down to the nail bed. My approach to this was to stick a false nail over it, which stops most of the pain. Unfortunately it drops off from time to time, so I had the glue out on my desk from having recently re-applied said false nail.
You can see where this is going.
My Shadow is skittish, and he knows when it's medicine time, despite 7 years of incentivising with treats, getting him stoned on catnip, trying to get him when he's chill... he tends to bolt and run. So I caught him on the couch, which is next to my desk. I hold him by the neck and grab the tube from my desk to put it on before he escapes.
Except I grabbed the wrong tiny white tube.
I start to feel the heat from the glue drying on my hand, and I see a clump of fur on the back of his neck, and of course he's crying, meowing his objections. Knowing it's an irritant, I immediately called the vet for advice. They book him in and have me go on over.
It was the evening. My main vet is closed. I must attend the out of hours vet, and pay something close to £400 for the privilege. At one point they were talking about sedating him so they could properly shave and apply ointment and pain relief to the area, and calling the poisons unit (I supplied the empty tube of glue). But one of the staff was able to hold him while the other worked. My poor little guy has a nasty scar on the back of his neck and a bald patch. I spent most of the night waiting in the waiting room and crying and calling myself all manner of awful names, and of course, apologising to my Shadow.
My poor cat suffered from my mistake, and I feel terrible. Not to mention it's an expensive mistake. My insurance should cover this, but I had to pay up-front, and I'll have to claim it back. Even if they do pay me, it'll be 30 days, and minus my excess (I believe it's £100).
I am of course spoiling him with his favourite food and treats. He's avoided me since but does come for the odd conversation and a cuddle. I hope he forgives me.
TL;DR- TIFU by mixing up two identically sized white vials, leading to me accidentally putting nail glue on my poor kitty's neck instead of his prescription flea ointment.
P.s., Cat Tax.

TL;DR my wife was slightly abusive years ago, and after coming out as polyamorous and finding a new partner, her abusive ways have started to resurface again. What can I do to fix our relationship?
Throwaway account for obvious reasons. This is a two-part post so bear with me. About four (4) years ago, I married the love of my life who I had known for several years in college before dating. Besides a few red flags, she was truly the perfect woman and I couldn’t be happier with her. My wife became pregnant about 2 years into our marriage, and at first we were both ecstatic.
My wife first began to change during her pregnancy, which I mostly chalked up to her hormonal imbalance and she would become irritable and sometimes hostile. There were several times where she would become argumentative over small things which I would apologize for, and a few instances where dishes were broken. Despite this, I always apologized and believed to myself that this would all go away when we had our child and that my wife would return to being the happy, cheerful person I married.
When our daughter was born, however, I could tell something was different right away. She didn’t really look a lot like me, as she appeared mixed and I’m very pale, but I signed the birth certificate anyway as I felt I could trust my wife. When we finally returned home, things were not all happy as I’d hoped they’d be. My wife become angrier and resentful, as she felt I wasn’t doing enough to provide for her and our child. There were several times where she became physical, to the point where on more than one occasion she was screaming in my ear and would slap me or throw things if I tried to walk away. I promised her that I would be better and started taking on more hours at work and sometimes took the late shifts.
It was during this time that one of my wife’s old coworkers (we’ll call him J- 36M) offered to come help my wife with the baby sometimes while I was away at work. I was very grateful for the help, as I was usually dead tired from coming home late from work every night. Sometimes I would come home and J’s car would be there, and I would usually just come in and pass out on the couch since J and my wife were usually upstairs, presumably taking care of our baby. I was grateful to have such good friends around, and I would usually make them both breakfast in the morning before heading to work again.
However, I couldn’t get past the feeling when I realized one morning that our daughter resembled J closely. At first, my wife was furious when I asked for a paternity test, which I apologized profusely for ever even questioning her loyalty, but after a few more weeks I just had to go through with it, and I was devastated to finally learn that our beautiful daughter was not mine. My world was absolutely crushed, and when I tearfully confronted my wife and J about it, she was at first apologetic before J stood behind her and she began telling me all the ways that I fell short in our marriage- that I could never satisfy her needs, that I wasn’t charismatic enough and she needed to explore and be open and free with her sexuality and she felt trapped with me, etc. She also said it was still my responsibility to care for our daughter, since my name was on the birth certificate. I agreed with her, hugged and apologized to my wife, and decided there that we were gonna stick together and make it through this for our little girl, no matter who the father was.
We went through couples counseling together, and it was during this time that my wife truly made it known how unhappy she was before in our marriage, and why she felt the need to cheat on me and how she had been sleeping with J before and after her pregnancy. I’ll admit, it was hard to listen to, but I stood by and supported my wife while she fully explained the way she was feeling. I was a bit surprised then when our counselor told me that my wife was absolutely in the right, but i understood when she explained that the way my wife was feeling was valid, that I should’ve done more for her romantically, and she suggested that I may not be enough to satisfy my wife’s needs.
At our counselors behest, I gave J full rights to see our daughter and stay over sometimes to help co parent with my wife. It was during this time that my wife approached me one day and opened up to me by coming out as polyamorous. She stated she had been exploring these feelings for quite some time, and she felt she needed more partners in her life to fully find and discover herself. While this was difficult at first for me to grasp, I remembered what our counselor said and I fully accepted and supported my wife for who she was, and agreed to open our marriage.
For the first few weeks, I would accompany my wife to the bar and to clubs with her friends while she searched for a prospective partner. My wife would point out guys she felt the need for, which admittedly would make me somewhat uncomfortable and would usually stand somewhere to the side while her friends would get her drunk enough to go talk to guys. As I was usually her DD, my wife’s friends were usually heavily intoxicated as well and would not make me feel any better about the situation. One time, one of them even poured a drink on my head while I wasn’t looking and the rest of them laughed. If my wife did find a partner she liked, she would get in their car and leave with them to go back to our house, and I would usually just go over and stay the night on a friends couch or sleep in my car. There were several nights where I’d cry myself to sleep, but I told myself to stay strong in order to fix our marriage and keep our family together.
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When I was in middle school, another guy created a meme account making fun of students and teachers at our school. I thought it was funny so I decided to copy him and create my own account which I called classified memes. I made fun of people for various things such as bad haircuts, crushes, people’s relationships, teachers no one liked, people getting in trouble, etc. I made one meme that I deeply regret where I made fun of another kid (I’ll call him Xander) getting rejected by a girl. I basically made a meme saying Xander had zero chance with the girl who had rejected him. Xander was pissed and reported classified memes for harassment and was posting on his story trying to figure out if any one knew who I was. Xander was never super nice to me but he didn’t deserve to be publicly humiliated on social media from an anonymous account which I created. At the time I just thought it was funny and didn’t think it was a big deal because other people seemed to find them funny too. I eventually ended up deleting the account about six months after I created because of guilt and fear of people finding out I was behind it. Thankfully no one ever did, but some people had their suspicions. Five years later, long after everyone completely forgot about the account, and we all graduated, I feel eaten alive with guilt. At the time I didn’t truly consider how these memes affected the people they were about and just saw it as funny. I wish I could apologize to everyone I memed, but then I would have to reveal I was behind it. Everyone forgot about the account but I still carry the guilt of bullying these people while I hided behind a screen. I don’t know that I could ever have the courage to take ownership and if anyone has advice on how I could make amends, I’d love to hear it.

We potty trained right at 2 years and I’d say we’re successful with few accidents here and there with poop. Otherwise only when she’s overly involved in something and we’re not paying as close attention as we could have been.
She self-initiates a fair amount id say. In public for sure (so that’s a relief) but not so much at home really. I’d say 50/50 which I knew was likely given she’s still on the younger side.
So I’m just curious… At what age did your child begin consistently self initiating?

There's only two ways I see this going I can create OEM+ or a full on RICE style vehicle. What are your guys thoughts and even current ideas?
OEM+ style: Go with minimal cosmetic changes maybe muting the red with either a Gloss Black or a Matte Carbon wrap to color change it. Adding either the SXTH Carbon Fiber Wing Extension. With either Matte Gray or Silver wheels (RF03RR, Hypergrams, and Heliograms all on my list)
RICE Style: Really inspired by M&S America Elantra N SEMA build . I'd go with a Satin Thundercloud by 3m and go with their lip, side skirt, and diffuser kits. I really like how they re-incorporated the N Performance red detail by incorporating it into the bumper and leaving the lip kit dark to give it the lower to ground look. With Bronze wheels.
Super long post to just ask what your guys ideas are with our wonderful Ns. Thoughts, considerations, and whatever else!

I’ve always been extremely hairy and got made fun of for it my whole life, I started shaving at a super young age to make me feel more confident but it only made me feel worse.
I have crazy reactive and sensitive skin to the point that I have to only buy certain fabrics to wear and have to be very careful with what I eat, and can barely use any skincare products.
Shaving got rid of the hair but it opened up a whole new world of insecurities. I still felt like I couldn’t show any part of my body because while there was no more body hair, in its place were cuts , sores, rashes, razor burn, itchy stubble, and ingrowns. It was so horribly painful but I continued anyway because I thought it was better than hair.
I’ve finally gotten to the point where I’ve decided fuck it to shaving, I have years of skin damage from it that I’m now going to work on healing.
I’m still covering myself completely because I’m just not comfortable enough to let anyone see my hair. But after my skin heals I’m going to work on covering up a little bit less and less, until I’m at the point where I don’t feel like I need to cover up at all. I seriously can’t wait to hopefully someday be okay with my natural self. All of you are such inspirations to me on my self love journey, thank you for posting <3

So I just finished the main story line of the game and I wanted to give my hindsite advice for those who may start it after I. Firstly I want to mention I looked at builds before but blew it off a little and in the end many gave advice I likely should have heeded but all the same building any way you like won't hurt you to much. That being said im going to get into my opinions on builds. My biases are I don't like to use consumables and I love stealth and since there is zero downside in the game for using dark magic I totally use it. First the combat spells:
The game has various mechanics that encourage you to have one of each of the thre types of spells (control, force, attack) when fighting. Most notably in enemies that put up shields whose color indicates the type of spell that will break it and alos in bosses who have mechanics where you have to hit a color ball with the spell type whose color is the same (for ref control - yellow, force - blue, attack - red). So I will go into each type in turn.
Control Spells - I find the control spells in combat to be of limited value. The take an enemy out of combat for a bit which on the surface seems great but it runs into a basic resource of the game which is it takes time to cast all spells and you can't cast them concurrently. So two attack spells can take out a typical enemy if one of them is a high damage one. Not always but I find that its pretty common. One attack spell will almost never take an enemy out. So you can hit an enemy with control and then hit them with two attack spells and permanently take them out. Or you can hit them wil two attack spells and permanently take them out. The control just caused it to take 3 actions instead of two. Spells have cooldown so that is when I tend to start using the control spells but it does depend on combat and they do have their uses. Anyway since I feel control spells are of limited use then one particular one stands out and that is glacius. Even unupgraded it increase the damage enemies take so its basically a buff to your attacks. None of the others do that and when the talent upgrade is taken it will damage enemies a bit in an area effect which is just way better than anything else control spells have to offer. That being said in second place I put levioso in second as its upgraded form will levitate 3 foes which mitigates the whol action economy issue with control spells in the game. Next is transformation just because of the cool factor, its upgraded form can do damage but it sorta adds to the action economy issue to and is not always going to be conistently used. Maybe if I was better at it I would rank it harder but I found using the exploding barrels to difficult to get off. Last on my list is arresto momentum. It does not really have much going for it and its upgraded form is it will apply a curse and what I found is that the actual dark magic curses apply curses much more than any of the normal spells and having all 3 apply curse (which yes I did do) does not really help spreading curses around. You really only need it on one and there is one that stands out with that which I will discuss in...
Force spells - Force spells are a bit like control spells but they are more of interupts and they do not last as long as control spells but in return in some cases may do damage. Im going to talk about these a bit differently in that im going to compare their stock forms and then their upgraded forms seperately. So my personal favorite is the first one you get which is accio. It has no chance of causing damage so you would think I would put it lower but I like stealth and it allows you to do the scorpion from mortal combat get over here to enemies pulling them away from the group and beating them up while their fellows do nothing about it. In addition your first combat spell, incendio, is short range and it has handy synergy with it. Next I would list depulso as it can smack opponents or objects into each other and do some damage but more importantly it can knock enemies off drops that will cause instant death which makes it one of the few and earliest obtained instant death spells in the game (this would be higher due to this except later you can get the same effect from bombarda). After that I put descendo as it can cause damage on a consistant basis but works best when paired with levioso. Lastly I put flipendo which really just acts as a worse version of levioso but with a very short cooldown which is sorta nice. Ok so the reason I am doing this twice with the upgraded version is because when these spells are upgraded their order literally reverses for me. Flipendo when upgraded applies the curse effect and since it has I think the shortest cooldown in the game for spells it makes it the best normal spell to apply the curse effect. A cursed enemy takes more damage so it basically makes it the force version of glacious. Next descendo will knock enemies around it back which basically means it can do the insta kill just like repulso as it does this effect at the point of attack. Repulso moves under descendo because it has the same effect but originating from you. So while descendo can do it far away with far away enemies and close with close enemies, repulso will only do it around you. Lastly upgraded accio is actually worse than unupgraded. Because much like levioso it now effects 3 opponents which ruins its ability to peel off a foe one at a time. If the game gave you enough talent points to get all talents I would never spend one on accio and end with one unused point.
attack spells - so the thing about combat spells is they are very situational. Unlike the control and force spells which I largely keep the same and only move around for a better spell I just picked up or do to non combat reasons. For combat though I bar and large keep my control/force spells the same and change out my attack spells. That being said I will give them an order. First I will give confingo. The reason is because its the workhorse attack spell of the game. If you only could have one attack spell you would want it to be confringo because it is a fire spell and some enemies straight out have to be damaged by fire to defeat while others take additional damage from it but also because it is long range and its upgrade causes the most consistant multitarget damage in the game being two enemy seeking missiles. Lastly fire spells are the only attack spells with non combat function. Number two is bombarda as it is the largest area effect damage spell in the game and can knock enemies for insta kill effect and does the second highest damage (sorry I upgraded this as I got it so I only have experience with the upgraded form). Three is diffindo becuase its the highest damage single target spell in the game. Its upgraded form may allow for multi hits but is of limited usefulness since they have to be in a line. Next is EXPELLIARMUS as it debuffs enemies that wield a weapon so acts a bit like a control/force spell and damage at the same time. It has a low cooldown but its damage is low and its upgrade is overshadowed by its just better to put it on flipendo. You do get it early so its not a total waste to upgrade. Lastly I put incendio mainly because of its short range which is really to bad because it does good damge with not to bad a cooldown and is minorly multitarget in its vanilla form and majorly multitarget when upgraded. Accio helps bring enemies into its range so when paired with it, it gets much better but a good amount of enemies can't be acciod so even that usage is limited compared to others. All the same I recommend upgrading it as it is the king spell for dealing with inferi.
Ok having done with spells im going to speak about talents and building. So firstly having more spell sets is huge in the game so I recommend using your first two talent points for spell knowledge 1 and 2. Next I would take basic spell mastery because reducing cooldowns is the next most useful thing to me. Next I would do swift so your roll becomes a teleport. I did it early as I thought it looked cool but dodging and protecto are huge in combat and while you can't protecto an attack that requires dodge you can often dodge attacks that protecto can stop. Next I would do the two stealth ones although this does get into if you want to use stealth a lot or not. I would then take stunning curse to add more offense to protecto. Next I would do Incendio Mastery because even though I put it last in attack spell ranking it is massive for dealing with inferi. Next I would do Confringo Mastery partly because of inferi but now just because of its workhorse top spell aspect. Then Knockback Curse followed by Blood Curse. Finally Protego Absorption and if I have done my math right that would be level 16 and I would then go Revelio Mastery as revelio is just massive in the game followed by Spell Knowledge because spell sets are so important. Then Protego Expertise and Stupefy Mastery as they are basically free hits/effects and great for action economy. then Sense of Secrecy 2 and lastly Enduring Curse. Again if my map is right this should be level 22 and I would grab Curse Sapper followed by Imperio Mastery and Crucio Mastery. I would do Avada Kedavra Mastery but I delayed playing the main quest as much as I could while not going crazy to get 100% on side stuff. I basically did as many side quests as possible. As such Avada Kedavra Mastery I think did not come for me until after level 30. So instead I would grab Stupefy Expertise then Glacius Mastery. I would get Bombarda Mastery and Avada Kedavra Mastery as soon as I got the spells but would otherwise pick up ancient magic things. At this point it does not matter much and Im not even sure how I would finish it off. Im at level 35 having ended the game and I tried to do as much as I could before the end without trying to 100% all the things like merlin trials and such. So it will take a lot of effort to be much higher level before the end. Anyway I hope this helps someone.

Having got married during Covid lockdown are marriage started off rocky with anxiety and being stuck inside often. We both weren’t the best partners at the time as our relationships with God weren’t where they needed to be and we were both battling things. In mid 2021 into early 2022 I suffered a devastating family loss and a month later developed a chronic medical condition that has put me in the hospital 5 times and over 100 doctors appts. Life has not been easy but by the Grace of God I’m doing alright.
My husband and I have had many fights in the past where he has said I’m not wifeish enough. He analyzes everything I do. Are most recent fight was because I didn’t dance with him enough at a wedding we were at. I don’t love dancing (have a heart condition too) but still mingles with everyone. Did a couple dances with him and stayed on the dance floor a bit to hangout. Horrible fight. He left the house because I didn’t understand what I was doing wrong and was “defensive” we’ve had many fights like this. Fights where I’m not wifeish enough because I don’t take enough photos, I don’t like swimming, I don’t clean enough. He says I’m always on the defense when he brings something up which sometimes I am because it seems inaccurate. He does the same but I barely fight with him. I have trouble remembering details of fights and he’ll get mad and call me crazy or brain dead or something similar because I can’t recall things said in the past well.
I do clean, we both do. I take care of him. I make him snacks. I sew us curtains and pillows. I leave notes of encouragement for him on his phone or on paper. I encourage him to have guys night. We have some sort of sexual encounter several times a week. I go all out for our holidays. I do a lot for him. We go out to eat and shop and spend time outdoors. I take care of groceries, decorate the house, work 5 days a week and make crafts on the side. I feel like given my health condition I contribute and feel like a good wife.
But that’s not the case. He has called me a b**ch, boring, a drag, dumb, brain dead. He’s thrown food and me in a fight before. Sometimes it’s really good. He’s been growing more Spiritually and in general lately but other times it’s very bad.

Hi! Offering a great selection of colonial coinage from Southeast Asia (and some from Dutch India). Take a look!
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DUTCH EAST INDIA COMPANY

Dutch Cochin VOC Bazaruks. Early (rarer) type from 1663-1724. Tin coins with the VOC logo on one side and a cowrie shell (used traditionally as money) on the other. Very nicely priced for their grade.
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BRITISH EAST INDIA COMPANY

VEIC tin doits from British-occupied Dutch Indies, 1813-14. Very neat issues from the Napoleonic Wars. I think the British were definitely ripping on the VOC trademark.
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DUTCH EAST INDIES

Bonks. Bonks were issued in the late 1700s and early 1800s in the Dutch East Indies, now Indonesia, under a few different Dutch governments (you can thank Napoleon for that). Their name translates approximately to "chunk;" they were made by chopping a chunk of copper off a bar and striking it. Quality control was poor; off-center and weakly struck coins are common. Occasionally a die was engraved backwards, a coin was double struck, or a die was so badly misaligned that its design was split between two coins. Some are a bit crusty and might be further cleanable.
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PORTUGUESE MALACCA

João III (1521-57) dinheiro or soldo, crude but nice and thick
Felipe II (1598-1621) half? bazaruco, possibly later (1641) Dutch imitation, pretty nice
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BORNEO

Contemporary counterfeit VOC duits. Likely created in Southern Borneo (perhaps Banjarmasin), which had a thriving industry of copying VOC coinage. Distinguished by poor manufacture, blundered dates, and weird metal.
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NETHERLANDS INDIES

Late silver coinage. These are all minted in the USA during WW2. Latin, Arabic, and Javanese scripts.
1/10 gulden and 1/4 gulden
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Chinese, Sogdian, and Malay cash
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I’m writing this post today because I find myself in a difficult and uncomfortable situation, and I'm hoping to gain some insight, understanding, and perhaps guidance from those who are willing to lend an ear. It's something I've been carrying with me for a while now, and it's causing a great deal of guilt and self-hatred. I apologize in advance if my topic makes anyone uncomfortable, but I believe that opening up and seeking help is an essential step towards personal growth.
To provide some context, I am a young male who, regrettably, has developed a habit of exposing myself to female webcam models on video chat apps. I understand that this behavior is both inappropriate and disrespectful, and most of society sees me as a sexual deviant and monster. It's something I never thought I would engage in, but I've found myself caught in this self-destructive cycle.
Im 20 years old, and for the past 2 years I’ve been engaging in this behavior. For as long as I could remember, growing up on the internet completely warped my brain into have any extremely unhealthy relationship with sex and women. Growing up, I of course spent a lot of time on Omegle chatting with all types of people, and even used the now notorious Kik app which for my generation and older, is known to harvest some of the weirdest people and communities online.
Since a young age, I had a decent understanding that my “manhood” was freakishly above average, and my past relationships growing up reaffirmed this more and more. It lead me to breed some sort of perverted arrogance about my size constantly and I just felt this internal desire to share it with everyone (of course I never really did, but it was something I was beginning to become aware of).
When I turned 18, I began to explore the world of online video chats, and began to expose myself to other adults online. The responses I got were overwhelmingly positive, completely in shock of my size, showering me with compliments or doubts if I were real, and constantly asking to see more or do more for them. Their initial reactions were almost addicting to me. Instinctual mouth widening, eyes popping, looking to their friends in disbelief… is was overwhelmingly exhilarating and addicting. A lot of the time I would cover myself and would ask in chat if people would like to see or possibly rate me, and if I got a response I’d proceed to show them my body. I eventually got banned from a lot of the popular sites so I took a break and began to feel some of the waves of guilt and self hatred I have now, but eventually I discovered the world of web cam apps.
I know that these webcam models are professionals and deserve to be treated with respect, not as objects to satisfy my own desires. I'm well aware of the importance of consent and the damaging effects of non-consensual behavior. However, despite this knowledge, I find myself repeating these actions. I use a lot of the apps that advertise themselves as “normal video chat apps”, but the people who use these apps clearly are aware they’re used for more perverted purposes. A lot of the people that use these apps get a % of real world commission based on the virtual gifts you can opt into sending them using in-app coins you pay for. I myself have not spend much money on these apps, as I make use of the free coins you can get by watching adds or when you create a new account.
I’ve gotten essentially the same type of reactions I always got when I reveal myself. Initial visible shock, some faces of disgust here and there, but overwhelmingly get compliments about my size and other compliments. I understand that a lot of these girls are paid to be on here, and I’m able to spot which are very clearly professional models, but every so often you come across someone who genuinely looks like they’re new to the app and just casually using it before realizing it’s true purposes of existing.
When I’ve used the app with my camera turned off, a lot of the video chats i join are just the other party asking you to send them gifts in exchange for a “show”. The emphasis on the gifts is clear that this is how they get their cut, and a lot of the girls seem to almost seem to be going off this programmed script they have in their head for everyone they come across.
However when I do decide to show myself, the shock in their faces almost turns off this script, and they never mention gifts or anything to me again. A lot either skip, or ask me to continue or ask me questions and seem to have genuine interest. I’m not an idiot, and like I said I know a good amount are just there to hook guys in, but instinctual facial expressions and laughter of shock are things that are really hard to fake when you have experience genuinely seeing what the difference is.
I’ve met several girls who I actually really enjoyed chatting with after the calls were over. I’ve met some amazing people, and some have even exchanged phone numbers or social media handles with me after, to which I never get back to because I eventually delete all traces of the app and my using of it in a last effort to do damage control from the reality that sinks in after I spend time on these apps. From the girls I’ve had genuine conversations with, a lot of them seem to come from pretty impoverished backgrounds and are just looking to get some side income wherever they can. Many have expressed to me that they don’t really enjoy doing this but it helps with managing their lives financially. They’ve expressed some of their creepy and strange encounters with me, and how they fear the very real risk of being recorded or shamed publicly if they ever get found out or posted online. I’ve had some deep conversations with a lot of these women, and I begin to develop a sense that men like me are a big reason why women’s lives are overwhelmingly harder than men’s.
I don’t discredit the validity of sex work and the sex industry. I am sure of a lot of individuals genuinely enjoy the liberations experiences these types of jobs can bring. In an ideal world I would love for none of it to exist, but that of course is a fantasy, and sexual desires are something deeply embedded in humans. I’ve asked a few of them what they genuinely think of guys like me who they come across these apps, and they tell me that in the grand scheme of things my behavior is pretty “normal” compared to what some men and even women have done on these apps to them or requested to view.
For me, I’d say the compliments and initial reactions of shock and disbelief are what’s addicting for me. The compliments are always nice, but the eyes of disbelief are what reel me in and keep me hooked. It’s those few moments of shock, the smiles after. It’s something you really cannot get to see real time in any other medium or source.
The guilt I feel is overwhelming though. I hate myself for participating in this behavior, and I understand the negative impact it has on both the webcam models and myself.
My purpose in sharing this is twofold: Firstly, I want to sincerely apologize to anyone who may have been affected by my actions. My behavior is unacceptable, and I take full responsibility for my actions. Secondly, I want to know what the rest of society thinks of individuals who engage in such behaviors and how they perceive someone like me. I am here seeking advice, guidance, and support.

Let me paint a picture for you.
Within a dark basement room, illuminated only by the pale blue of a setting sun, dusty paper and cardboard covers the floor, some of the paper has math equations and some has notes on history, some paper talks of the current economy and the government. On the floor, faint music can be heard, it blares the distinct sound of heavy metal and rock, but where is it?
In the back left corner sit two gerbils, one beige and one grey, the top of the 50 gallon tank collects dust, they may not have much in terms of human interaction, yet they have all they need inside the cage, a perfect bedding depth that is changed weekly, a big wheel, a sand bath, and all homemade cardboard toys from safe non-toxic glues.
Near the entrance to the room a love seat presses against a blue wall, yet this couch has not been sat on in weeks, instead it is home to more paper and pencils as well as half finished crochet projects that have been tossed to the side as they have never been finished.
To the far left side of the room, a fireplace can be seen, however, this fireplace has not had any fire in a long time, inside it hosts a wide variety of cobwebs, while ashes and dust scatter the bottom of it.
To the far right side of the room an old worn down altar can be seen, upon first glance the table could be mistaken for antique, yet on closer inspection you would find it is merely in awful condition. Around the table a wide variety of candles, paper, and dusty jars containing different ingredients are found. The candles come in black, blue, red, and yellow, as well as green, pink, orange, and brown. The papers are covered in chicken-scratch writing in what appears to be another language. Yet all of them list the same things, spells, the language is a mere alphabet known as Theban. The jars contain egg shells and snail shells, charcoal and ashes, colourful stones and preserved flowers, needles and rusty nails.
The centre of the room is home to a wall-mounted television, the last time the screen changed was the early morning, beneath the television is a cedar chest, on top of the chest you will find granola bar wrappers and peels of various fruits as well as pop cans and water bottles, beside the garbage is old dishes, mugs that have old half drank coffee and plates covered in maple syrup from old waffles and pancakes, this is easily the most lived in part of the room.
A few feet away from the chest, and next to the altar is a sofa, it seems to be the reason paper covers the floor as every time the cushions move a paper falls to the floor. On the far left side of the sofa, near the entrance to the room sits a 15 year old fat boy with messy blonde hair. Caked on grease covers his face as he stares down at a math sheet, a pen in his right hand and a calculator in his left.
The boy is attempting to solve math equations, yet he is so burnt out, that despite reading the question over and over the words do not seem to make sense. The boy looks down at his wrists, pink shiny scars stare back, a reminder of what happened.
His mind flashes memories, he remembers waking to police at 5, he remembers watching his brothers fights, he remembers the time people attempted breaking into his house to kill his brother, he remembers everything.
He remembers his mother saying she wishes she never had him.
The boy feels sick now, a knot in his stomach and he looks at the calendar hung across the room, he counts 18 days left of school.
The knot tightens, for the coming summer does not mean a time of relaxation and recovery, it means fighting and stress. This homework does not symbolize a chance at passing, it symbolizes a failing future.
He reads the question again, “Solve using either elimination or substitution. Be sure to write a therefore statement. Check the solution using a LS/RS chart for both equations.
4x - 3y = - 2
2x + y = 8”
He knows what to do, all he has to do is pick up the pencil and write, but he seems to be frozen, staring at the page.
A lady walks down the stairs, “Are you doing your homework?” She asks.
“Yeah… Yeah, sorry I’ll get to it.” He starts writing but stops, the steps to solving it have gone, he’s forgotten everything.
The lady walks away, angry, the boy lifts his pencil, he swiftly lowers it to his ankle, he lifts his pant leg and slices, the burning sensation of a scratch covers his leg as it begins to form a long red line, it matches all the others, scars and scabs, scratches and cuts. Fresh and dry blood.
A sense of relief fills the boy, he lifts his pencil and goes to solve the equation, but again, he forgot it.
Instead he picks up his phone and begins to type, he describes the room he is in, he describes what he just did.
The lady comes back, it’s his mother, yet he doesn’t consider her one, she screams at him, tells him to get back to work, he heard the words, but they don’t seem to make sense, as if his brain has stopped translating the language.
And he describes it as it happens.
And then he posts the story as he feels fresh blood from the new cut trickle down his leg.

How would most, including superheroes and supervillains view people who aren't superheroes, but are physically on par with guys like Batman, Captain America, The Punisher, etc. or if they're female, Black Widow, Lady Shiva, Batgirl etc?
They also have the skills to fight incredibly well and they're above pretty much above any athlete in the same manner that these superheroes are.
As to why they're as strong as they are, they're workout fanatics in the same vein as real life guys like Bruce Lee, or they ended up coming across some kind of power up that boosted them to these levels.
These people can easily perform feats on par with a street level superhero, as well as stop a lot of supervillains that try to hurt them on their own, singlehandedly.
How would societies view these men and women that could easily choose to be superheroes and save others, but intentionally choose not to?

Hi there! So like the title says, I'm 18 years old from Oregon. I have always had a thing for much older men and don't even really know why exactly. Part of it might be that I've always been very mature for my age and tend to get along much better with people who are older than me. The idea of being in a committed long-term relationship with someone older just feels right and natural to me. I am somewhat of a traditional person and do want to be properly married at some point.
Like the title says, I am willing to relocate if I find a genuine connection with the right person, but I would strongly prefer to remain on this continent, so that means please only message me if you're in the United States or Canada.
I also don't want you to message me if you're into the whole dom/sub dynamic or daddy/daughter dynamic; I'm not interested in those dynamics at all. These age-gap subs tend to be rife with that stuff, but that's not what I'm looking for; I'm just a traditional woman. I'm a very loving and affectionate person by nature and a strong believer in romantic love, and I just want to find my one-and-only who I can fall deeply in love with and devote myself to forever. I'm the type who sees human sexuality as a very deep and meaningful act of affection between two people who are in love, and I would rather make love than just have sex for the sake of sex. Looks aren't really important to me; I'm the type of person who bases romantic attraction on personality and chemistry more than anything else.
If you think that your values align with mine, free to message me in chat, and we'll see what kind of chemistry we have! 😊

On Halloween of 2022 I was drugged and raped by three men. After it happened I went straight to the hospital where I had a rape kit exam done and filed a case with the police. The detective took over my case and then I heard nothing. I had to call him many times, he would never return my calls, it would take him weeks to reach out back to me. I gave them the address, names, told them there was a bunch of camera there to check, I had bruises all over my body, DNA of three different men, etc. they dropped my case. I have a meeting with the DA soon and I need some advice. What questions do I need to ask the DA? How do I get my case to be active again? I want justice. That experience changed me forever.