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Hello!
My boyfriend has a narcissistic and bipolar mother. We have been dating for almost 3 years and when I lived with them, it was a nightmare. After living with his family for only a couple of months, it was clear that she played favourites and manipulated everybody to get her way through guilt and shame.
For context, she is divorced, and her daughter and her son (my boyfriend) live with her. She kindly opened her home to me when I was having family issues, however, that turned into a quick transaction for her. I paid rent, but there was an emotional transaction. Near the end of my stay at their house, she started to blame me for all of their family issues. She blamed me for my boyfriend and his sister not being able to get along, even though they never had a good relationship to begin with. She continues to shame, guilt and her victim complex to abuse my boyfriend.
My boyfriend is currently still living with her due to his financial situation, but he has come to terms that his mother is a narcissist, and will never have the same empathy as a normal person. He continues to defend me and respect my wishes to not have a relationship with her.
I no longer felt welcomed and returned to my home where I was able to rebuild my relationship with my family. Fast forward a lot of traumatic events, I have blocked her on all social media, and I do not want a relationship with her.
Recently, my boyfriend had heat exhaustion and drove to my house because it was the closer option. He left his car at my house under the impression that he would grab it the next day. Unknowingly, his mother took it upon herself to pick up the car at my house. My boyfriend pays for the insurance, gas and the car itself. He got this car when he was 17 years old and I don’t think he’s a principal driver on it but he is the primary driver.
She rang the doorbell four times even though she knew I wasn’t at home. It was all caught on video and it was creepy since my boyfriend said he would pick it up tomorrow but she still came anyways and took it upon herself to pick up the car.
I don’t want my boyfriend’s mother to go to these lengths to keep controlling him. It’s difficult due to his financial situation and inflation but what do you think should be the best course of action? For the most part, as long as my boyfriend is working and making money, she stays off his back. But from time to time she goes crazy and becomes unhinged. She also hates the fact that I’ve set a boundary with her and will do anything to keep a relationship with me, despite how much she shit talks me and calls me derogatory names to her friends.
His mother is 64 years old. I have tried to repair the relationship multiple times but everything that comes out of her mouth is different than her actions.
Should my boyfriend just get a new car under his name?

Hi,
Looking for anyone which lives in the Nottinghamshire area to join our Facebook group "Nottingham Outlaws". At the moment me and my friends are in the group 2 NG 9-3 2.8V6 and 1 OG 9-3 1.8t. It's just for catching up, meeting locally, sharing tips, my friend Dean is a total mechanical guru, he's car is pushing 400whp (that's all I know 😂) I'm pushing 300hp stage 1, but I have my intercooler to install and I'm removing the first CAT 🙀 and changing all water and air pipes, and my OG friend is pushing 210hp.
So the more that join, we'll all be soon called the merry men 🤣😂.

Hi! I'm 24F, currently living independently away from the province. I've been struggling with health anxiety features since 2020 but it became much worse last year after a major health issue I encountered. Apologies for the length, but I appreciate your patience. Any comments are much welcome.
TL;DR: I'm a 24-year-old woman living independently, dealing with health anxiety that has worsened after a major health issue last year. I underwent unexpected surgery and a six-month medication for a cancer scare, with physical recovery at 90% but mental struggles persisting. Anxiety triggers my GERD and vice versa, leading to sleepless nights and fear of death. I have dextroscoliosis, hyperacidity, and a recent diagnosis of hiatal hernia. Seeking help for persistent back pain, neck pressure, and nerve tingling, unsure where to start. Considering a neurologist for a brain scan or a psychiatrist for mental health support. Financial difficulties add to the challenges. Open to guidance and recommendations.
Just a background, I already struggle with a couple of conditions through the years: *have dextroscoliosis since I was 14 *have hyperacidity, recently diagnosed with hiatal hernia (Feb 2023)
Everything went down last August 2022 when I experienced chest pain at work and was rushed to the ER. While my ECG was normal, I was advised to undergo a chest MRI due to my dextroscoliosis. Surprisingly, my spine was found to be stable, but the scan revealed a 4cm mediastinal mass near my thymus gland. Initially suspected as thymoma, a type of cancer, I sought a second opinion and consulted a thoracic cardiovascular surgeon. The TCVS specialist believed it was likely a benign tumor but advised against a direct biopsy due to its delicate location. Consequently, we opted for surgery in September. During the procedure, the tumors were successfully removed, and a frozen section indicated tuberculosis (TB) as the cause. As the remaining cysts were benign, they were also excised. After two weeks of hospitalization, a second biopsy confirmed the tuberculosis diagnosis, and I was referred to the TB program for treatment.
Surprisingly, my TB was almost asymptomatic, with only occasional chest pain as the noticeable symptom. It's alarming to realize that the virus can manifest in such a manner. I have been diligently took my prescribed medication for 6 months but I have struggled with the harsh side effects. The initial two weeks were particularly challenging, as I was recovering from surgery while enduring the medication-induced vomiting, body pain, and fatigue. Additionally, the post-surgery pills caused severe acid reflux. While sputum accompanied by acid was common, I experienced blood in my sputum once, but the doctor reassured me that it was normal. I also experienced excessive hypersalivation for three weeks, likely due to stress and anxiety, but that has subsided after a recent follow-up checkup. Overall, I underwent significant physical, mental, and emotional distress.
In March 2023, I completed my TB medication, but unfortunately, it had a negative impact on my gastrointestinal health. To address my worsening condition, I underwent an endoscopy in February 2023 while still on my TB medication. The results revealed that I have a Level 3 Hiatal Hernia and Non-erosive Gastritis. Fortunately, I tested negative for H. pylori infection and received clearance from Barrett's esophagus, stomach ulcers, and other potential diagnoses. My doctor prescribed Pantoprazole 40mg for 30 days, and since then, I have noticed a significant reduction in acid reflux and heartburn.
It is worth mentioning that during the past seven months, I have been admitted to the emergency room four times due to mistaking severe heartburn for a heart attack. These experiences have heightened my health anxiety to some extent.
Currently, I am no longer taking any medication, but I am facing challenges with persistent back pain, pressure in the upper neck, and nerve tingling. I recently had an X-ray and consulted with my orthopedic specialist, who attributed my symptoms to overwork and recommended starting physical therapy within two weeks.
However, things have worsened since then. Over the past five days, my sleep pattern has been extremely disrupted. I manage to sleep, but it's far from the restful slumber I am accustomed to. On workdays, I am grateful for just three hours of sleep. Last night was particularly difficult as I couldn't sleep at all until 7 AM. I constantly feel a sensation of choking and suffocation, even without any apparent trigger. Although my blood pressure and pulse rate are normal, I can't shake the feeling that I might die the moment I fall asleep.
Sharing this here is incredibly difficult for me, and I humbly request your patience and understanding. I'm breaking down as I type this, to be honest. I am seeking guidance on where to seek help. Should I begin by consulting a neurologist for a brain scan, as I'm unsure if my discomfort and nerve tingling are related to neurological issues? Or would it be more appropriate to start with a psychiatrist? Additionally, I would appreciate any recommendations for reputable institutions or healthcare providers, as I am currently facing financial challenges due to medical expenses incurred last year.
Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I am grateful for your support, and I extend my best wishes to everyone for their well-being and recovery.

I’ve just woken up. And after the dream I just experienced I had to get it on paper.
I haven’t really posted on Reddit for a while but I remember this subreddit so I had to post this as this was intense plus I’m questioning it. So;
My father was in my bedroom complaining about his side. On about a medicine (tablets) I told him to calm down and chill out. I remember the sepsis he had at that point.
Then I was on a mountain/ hill with dad and spud …. There was a boxing ring being built to which I said ‘when are you doing this then?’ Spud replied ‘doing it bit by bit’ I replied ‘that’s the best way in it’
Dad then showed up and was really tired, almost in agonising pain, struggling. I tried to get him down the hill. He put his arm around me and I couldn’t take his weight, I fell on to the one arm I had free which then caved and I screamed ‘argh my arm’
I was then back in my house and it was early hours (3am) My dad still struggling, I could hear a grinder in the distance and thought ‘what the hell is this guy playing at?’ I looked out my bedroom window and could see someone in the distance making his way towards my house. Using a chainsaw to cut through everything. This psycho was dressed in overalls, welders helmet and equipped to destroy.
They cut through my neighbours walls and entered and then I could hear them starting to cut through my wall. My dad was passed out on the floor down stairs with cardboard wrapped around him.
I panicked and tried to pull him in to the kitchen to hide from this psycho but he was nearly through in to the living room. I ran to the kitchen to grab knives and waited on the corner of the door ready to attack.
The psycho jumps in to the room. Looks at my dad on the floor and I was about to rush him because I thought he was going to swing his axe at my father but he didn’t. He broke the front window and jumped out.
I then woke up.
My father passed away in January from sepsis and I was really close to him as he was to me.
What the hell?

Hello!
My boyfriend has a narcissistic and bipolar mother. We have been dating for almost 3 years and when I lived with them, it was a nightmare. After living with his family for only a couple of months, it was clear that she played favourites and manipulated everybody to get her way through guilt and shame.
For context, she is divorced, and her daughter and her son (my boyfriend) live with her. She kindly opened her home to me when I was having family issues, however, that turned into a quick transaction for her. I paid rent, but there was an emotional transaction. Near the end of my stay at their house, she started to blame me for all of their family issues. She blamed me for my boyfriend and his sister not being able to get along, even though they never had a good relationship to begin with. She continues to shame, guilt and her victim complex to abuse my boyfriend.
My boyfriend is currently still living with her due to his financial situation, but he has come to terms that his mother is a narcissist, and will never have the same empathy as a normal person. He continues to defend me and respect my wishes to not have a relationship with her.
I no longer felt welcomed and returned to my home where I was able to rebuild my relationship with my family. Fast forward a lot of traumatic events, I have blocked her on all social media, and I do not want a relationship with her.
Recently, my boyfriend had heat exhaustion and drove to my house because it was the closer option. He left his car at my house under the impression that he would grab it the next day. Unknowingly, his mother took it upon herself to pick up the car at my house. My boyfriend pays for the insurance, gas and the car itself. He got this car when he was 17 years old and I don’t think he’s a principal driver on it but he is the primary driver.
She rang the doorbell four times even though she knew I wasn’t at home. It was all caught on video and it was creepy since my boyfriend said he would pick it up tomorrow but she still came anyways and took it upon herself to pick up the car.
I don’t want my boyfriend’s mother to go to these lengths to keep controlling him. It’s difficult due to his financial situation and inflation but what do you think should be the best course of action? For the most part, as long as my boyfriend is working and making money, she stays off his back. But from time to time she goes crazy and becomes unhinged. She also hates the fact that I’ve set a boundary with her and will do anything to keep a relationship with me, despite how much she shit talks me and calls me derogatory names to her friends.
His mother is 64 years old. I have tried to repair the relationship multiple times but everything that comes out of her mouth is different than her actions.
Should my boyfriend just get a new car under his name?

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Hi, I’m sorry if I don’t go into many details, English is not my first language so I feel I won’t be able to convey properly what I want to say and maybe I’ll create some misunderstandings but I’ll try to explain a little.
Since I was young my family has always been very liberal, I didn’t grew up hearing homophobic stuff and my social circles fortunately lacked of it too, so, because of this I never properly questioned neither my gender nor identity, I was just me, grew up as a assigned at birth female and if I liked a girl I liked a girl, if I felt like a boy then I would just cut my hair, and change my wardrobe, it just seemed like normal to me to switch as I pleased. However, with the surge or LGBT movements I started to learn more things, about orientations and identities and it only left me feeling confused 'cause I didn’t know anymore exactly what was I, because I never minded being a girl, but it wasn’t like I loved it, it was just like, "oh, I was born like this, so, I am this" but sometimes I yearned to be a boy, to look more masc, more sharp, I see certain boys and I say, damn, I wished I looked like that. But that’s kind of all, I do not feel suffocated over being a boy, and I know everyone has diferente experiences but I never experienced something such as not even being able to shower with the lights on, or feeling like dysphoria was killing me, pardon me if this examples are way exaggerated but are some of the arguments I’ve heard from some people. However, I do admit I have a history with what I always believed was body dysmorphia, but sometimes I can’t help but think that maybe it was never dysmorphia and it was maybe dysphoria, but then again, after I experienced a situation where I lost a lot of weight I started to dress in a way that could be considered femenine stereotypically to a point I kind of over sexualized myself, so, whenever I feel masc right now, I feel like maybe I am cheating my mind to believe I’m masc, but it’s not true because I was femme at some point, but I also know men can dress and feel into what could be considered femme and still be cis or trans men, and then I’ve seen so many things about fetishizing and it makes me feel so bad because I feel like maybe I am doing that due to the dysmorphia.
I don’t have friend to ask this because everyone I know from the community are cis, and sadly I can’t afford to find an LGBT therapist, there aren’t even many in my city.
So, I know I just sort of wrote my rambling thoughts but I would like to hear if anyone is comfortable to share maybe what was y’all process on this, what made you realize you were trans, or even an insight on what I said and tell me if I am in the wrong and confusing my feelings.
Thank you! <3

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i never really had intrusive thoughts back then but all of a sudden, these unwanted thoughts started appearing recently. every time im near our kitchen, i just have this aching urge to grab the knife and stab everyone in this house. i even thought about brutally killing them and it hurts because why would i ever think of that? towards my loving family? it makes me so depress, i avoid helping in the kitchen because of it and sometimes i even avoid my family. i dont know why this happened does anyone have tips for this

Tdlr: I am tired of the huge ass competitiom on token sites, of the dictatorship the have on these algorithms only sending the clients w most money to people om the Usa, EUR or the very high standart of blondes, brunettes and asians w very fair skin. I am light skin but lbrs, I am not white. I have olive skin, I speak english pretty damn well but most gringos will always look down upon us and choose to pays us less cuz they think we are cheap and $10 USD bucks a day is enough to live like a Queen on any latin american country.
This is not an attack to any of these models btw, it is just how it is. I figured since I am inside beauty standarts of my own country and they be paying on my owm currency dudes would loosen up their pockets a lil bit more. I have no problem showing my face, asked staff to geo block my state and at this point I have no fucks given about ppl knowing what I do because it's my only job. I just want to put huge numbers (like 4k BRL which is what I did on my good old MFC days) to back up my choosen line of work and be able to provide more for myself than just food and bills.
My best days on token sites have been around $50 if I am blessed enough and that's barely enough for a supermarket haul. Leave alone nice clothes, helping my momma w bigger bills, I want so much stuff I wanna do (like paint my room walls, do a nosejob and working on intl sites for almost an year is not getting me anywhere near that).
I would very much appreciate your insight and help.

Dunno, maybe I'm just venting, I'm just finding something... off, about the barbarians.
Finally worked up to Emperor difficulty and everything feels so stacked that it's just not enjoyable at all. One difficulty down and the game is... easy? It didn't feel challenging to win at all.
So the computers move fast, meaning I need to pursue settlements/research/growth simultaneously to not fall excessively behind and get steamrolled. Meaning I need to build things that aren't just armies and defenses. But since the barbarians match the highest tech player and respawn endlessly, I'm constantly outgunned on my borders.
Since they out-tech me, I need more troops to overwhelm them and hold the line, but I can't support having that many troops at every corner of my empire (not to mention I can't produce enough because attrition is so high). Since they're not everywhere at once, a camp can spawn two or three tiles away in the fog, have the scout sight me, run back and spawn a high tech invasion before I can move any amount of force to react.
Since they're higher tech, my city defenses can't knock them out without a few shots, meaning they just step in, take a hit... pillage, take a hit... pillage... a single unit just burns half my improvements in a city and then walks off. So now my town is knocked back, and I have to devote time to repairing the damage.
I've spent my entire game so far just trying to hold on, on a Earth-Huge-True start map on marathon. I even lucked out and had no AI players near me, and as Canada therefore have had free reign to settle (nearly) all of NA without any competition. But I'm barely able to hold it together and keep any pace because barbarians are ripping me apart everywhere. I've finally just decided that I have to say f*$% any other progression and just devote the entire continent to building defenses to JUST keep them from pillaging everything. I'm hoping that the defenses can hold long enough to even build an army that can survive any length of time.
Maybe I'm just not that good at this game. Maybe the random tech shuffle screwed up the progression. I sorta feel like a better balance with the barbarian behavior would be that they maintain their invasions but match the lowest tech players instead of the highest, so that it's a constant pressure that needs to be dealt with, rather than the friggin' backwoods campsite spawning a state of the art legion every twenty turns.
I enjoy the feeling of a challenge overcome, but after my fourth or fifth attempt at this, I'm just starting to get angry and feel like it's not worth trying to overcome. Even CKIII and Humankind, as cheap as the AI sometimes felt, didn't feel like every turn was a hand-crafted "%#$^ YOU."
I guess after writing it out, I feel like the balance of the game is punishing me for devoting any production to anything other than resisting barbarians.

I’ve recently broke up with my gf, which I suspect has BPD and I feel f*cking awful.
She was really insecure and needy, she needed a lot of love and validation, but I couldn’t give it to her. I was afraid of commitment and felt like the relationship was suffocating me. I know that relationships with people with BPD are really hard, but I feel like we could have made it work if it wasn’t for my fear of commitment and my second thoughts about if I actually want to be with her or not…. She loved me like no one else did, I was the center of her world, while she wasn’t the center of mine.
I didn’t give her the love and affection that she needed. Although I was always supportive of her struggles, I cried with her when she cried and hugged her and told her that everything is going to be alright, wiped tears of her face, told her that I’m always here for her, reassured her that I’m not going to leave, encouraged her to go to therapy and promised to help with her mental struggles, but other than that I was a shit partner… I failed to make her feel loved. I wasn’t nearly as invested into the relationship as she was… I didn’t prioritise heour relationship and sometimes came across like I don’t care about her… I was also overly critical; she did hard drugs at parties and I criticised her for it too many times when it was just none of my business.
Soon after we broke up, I realised that although she was really emotionally demanding, I was the shit/toxic one. I apologised many times and wanted to make things right; told her many times that I’m terribly sorry for every time I made her feel bad and unloved and that I love her and care for her deeply… but it was too late. I never wanted to hurt her and more than anything I want her to be happy… I care deeply for her, I really do.
But her happiness is out of my control now and I’m really worried about her because I know how unstable she can be… I could have helped her, but I failed, I was a shit boyfriend.
I’m terribly sorry V., I love you and I want you to be happy more than anything… I wish you find happiness with your new boyfriend, I hope he can be a better boyfriend than me and I hope he will make you happy and not cause you pain like I did. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be loved, more than anyone else and just please stay safe, look after yourself and don’t do anything stupid… you are the most beautiful human being I have ever met, and I failed you… I’m sorry.
TL;DR: I realised I was the toxic one and I’m devastated. I should have been a better boyfriend… should have prioritised our relationship, but I didn’t.

Somebody roofied my ex gf last weekend and it nearly killed her. My ex bf found her unconscious and saved her life. I ruined any chance at preserving our friendhship because of my drinking. My cousin killed himself in January right when we got together. She reminded me so much of him I clung to that. She wasn't that attracted to me but I was crazy about her. I was so jealous of the chemistry she had with my ex bf. We went out the week she broke up with me and I remember watching him smoking, leaning on a table looking at her in a way he never looked at me. When she noticed she smiled and they just stared at each other. I drank a lot that night and yelled at her. She cried and said I was scaring her. I still don't know if she woke up but I do know he's right next to her holding her hand. I'm a piece of shit for being jealous at a time like this. I miss my cousin so much. I'm so drunk I just want to die. I ruined all my relationships. They both lost attraction to me because of how soft I am. People are attracted to people who can keep them safe and will protect them.

Well as the title says there's this new psychological condition of rise of intolerance among humans in this era , i don't know why but humans are loving to take down another human's life without any remorse nor thinking about the aftermath.
Well some might say severe punishments should be imposed but mind you these people ain't bothered by those two as once their target is achieved they would go into nihilistic mode and stop giving a fck at the end of the day it will be death , no matter how much the amount of degree of punishment would be.
Someone should start studying regarding this issue or an experiment or any sort of thing to tackle this thing.
People are getting frustrated and choosing to take down the lives which are making them miserable
( Mind you irrespective of any moral point or ideologies they love ending up the misery by taking down the lives of people)
I firmly believe in the upcoming years societies might collapse, again' it's bit exaggerated but we would see killings due to dumb issues (one of such issue is a couple was smooching or kissing you would say while he was driving (like in movies stuff bike scene kiss ) some one asked them to go do this stuff somewhere i mean while riding and the guy called his gang and threw stones and he was dead )and we would see to indifferences in wealth ( this would the first thing that would happen soon ).
People who are leading happy lives will be targeted soon just a hunch of mine , but again the people who got nothing to do or living happy lives ( i ain't talking richies or corrupt one's) but normal one's as these people won't resort to voilent methods since they can't as they find it wrong and care about aftermath and moral issues
In near future i firmly believe that things would turn into Survival of the Fittest.
I'm sure you all heard about some of the recent cases , but again i don't wanna talk about this POV regarding Men are voilent like i am sure we all heard about this talks , but this ain't just an men issue i would say ( But again you can feel free to go and say it as men issues since different POV's )
But in my POV every human need to be careful, there's a threat from every human around you , Be careful on when it comes to sharing your ideologies, POV's make sure it always be anonymous or a certain grup of circle which you can highly trust.

Just want to share my story on how I constantly try to look gay so people would know I'm into women :P
Sometimes, I dress up girly or masculine. Other times, both. Kumbaga baggy pants + "girly" top haha. I'm comfortable naman either way, pero minsan kasi inaakala ng iba na straight ako just because of how feminine I look. Kaya what I did is "level up" my fashion lol konting changes lang naman kasi I've heard how some accessories make you gay.

• What I would do is wear rings (6 mostly, minsan guso ko lahat ng daliri ko meron xD). Converse, (idk, napagkamalan pa kong tomboy kasi lagi raw ako naka-converse haha weird but maybe because it gives off the tomboy style)
• When my group of friends (who don't know about my sexuality) talk about guys, tahimik lang ako at may sariling mundo :]
• I would manspread all the time especially when I'm wearing baggy jeans
• Keeping my nails short and color them black (feeling ko isa to sa rason bat muka kong bakla)
• Caps
• Bracelets (I would wear leather ones, yung makakapal or minsan maninipis)

Not to stereotype, but nababasa ko lang din na some of these give u the gay vibe. If you're not really into these, just wear a pride pin, or anything pride related! I don't wear one, but I'm planning to kasi pride month ngayon hehe (hapi pride!) If you can be open, try it also. Ya'll can soon find someone of the same interest as yours :)
a short story that made me feel things:
Since sa univ namin is no dress code at all, I would try wearing boyish fits, but still adding that feminine side sa outfit ko. One time, may irregular student kaming nakasama sa class. I find her really cute and simple lang, kaya sabi ko " Hala sino siya? Who she" jokingly to my friends. They don't know yet that I'm gay. Bigla na lang sila naging "supportive" na para bang ine-encourage akong lapitan siya at makipag-get-to-know whahaha and they never asked anything about my sexuality. It felt like they just assumed that I'm into women and there's nothing wrong with that :>. Wala lang, usually kasi, people would be shocked af like "Omg tomboy ka?" o kaya "Gusto mo pala babae ah." But this time, inasar pa nila ko kay ate girl and even yung malakas yung loob ang lumapit sakaniya. sigaw pa niya, "Stella (not my real name), wala raw siya baon!" NAHIYA KO NUN GRABE PARANG HIGHSCHOOL LANG AMP. And it went on and on until she left the class (isang subj lang namin siya kasama), sad haha but genuinely tho, I want to get to know her. Ilang beses ko rin sya naka-eye contact (she has vv pretty eyes) haha dahil siguro na-mention na ko nung classmate ko sakaniya :}
But anyways, it was just nice that I give off that gay vibe xD, andami kong nakikitang lesbians dito who struggle to appear gay so men wouldn't hit on them. You can try leveling up your thing, but you do you if it makes u happy :)
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25M 70kgs 5'8
Straight off the bat I have to say I posted in this sub a few months back but since then there's been some developments.
In a nutshell I was recently discharged by a rheumatologist because they have no idea what is happening to me.
For the past 2.5 years or so I have developed crepitus throughout my entire body, it is incredibly loud, repeatable (so I believe it is not typical cavitation like when you crack your knuckles and have to wait before doing so again) and is often accompanied by pain. My neck, lower back and knees are the worst. However, it is also present in my ankles, wrists, hips, elbows, shoulders, thighs/coccyx (I haven't been able to fully identify where this one is coming from), sternum/ribcage, jaw etc. I'm basically a walking sound system at this point, the most minute of movements results in noise, it's maddening. What's worse is having absolutely no answer as to its cause. I have also started to experience a strange phenomena of whooshing and ringing in my ears, which I assume is tinnitus.
I have been seen by a variety of rheumatologists and specialist physiotherapists who have debated whether I'm hypermobile, or at least somewhere on the high end of that spectrum. Most of them have concluded that I am definitely not hypermobile. All of these rheumatologists have been very senior and accredited in the research hospital I've been seen in. However I'm always given contradictory information from each of them, with no diagnosis ever made.
I've so far had 4 X-rays and an MRI, with nothing of note found besides osteophytes and scleroderma in some portions of my lower spine. I was also investigated for concerns of ankylosing spondyloarthritis but that came back negative. I'm also HLA B27 positive. Since these scans my symptoms have increased in severity.
In conjunction with this I had previously, and technically continue still to this day continue to "suffer" from Henoch Schonlein Purpura. Although these days it is nowhere near as much of a problem as it was for me a few years ago.
My last interaction with the most senior rheumatologist was a plan to medicate me with steroid injection and then a DMARD if the steroids proved effective. They didn't. And so for my follow up appointment I saw a different rheumatologist who I informed that the treatment plan hadn't worked and I had not responded to the steroids. To which he essentially said, your body will stiffen up as you get older and this should resolve on its own. Not the answer I was looking for.
Due to my ongoing medical issue I have started to distance myself from activities I enjoyed such as BJJ due to fear of making my condition worse. I was also suspicious of this activity itself being either the direct cause of my condition due to its physical nature, and my joint issues only began after I started doing the activity. However, I have since stopped doing the sport and my symptoms haven't only persisted but have spread to previously unaffected areas. Still it may be a contributing factor.
Nobody I have come across has an answer, I really do want to know what is going wrong with my body, especially since each day I am experiencing its degeneration. I feel weaker, the structures in my body feel much more lax and are prone to injury. A few people on reddit have claimed very similar symptoms to mine also without a diagnosis. I don't know where to turn. I'm also currently searching for alternative treatments such as prolotherapy/prp injections etc. but have frame of reference for whether they would work or not.
Any information would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you.

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