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2023.06.03 05:50 Miserable_Memory_212 Corner Store
Hello all! I am new here and tend to keep track of my own life through a journal where I write short stories from my experiences. I have never ever shared my writing before but was uncharacteristically proud of this one and showed my sister. She told me I should post it somewhere so I figured I would give it a shot. For a little bit of context, I am 19F and in college, this is about one of my friends. So, here is one titled "corner store".
Once or twice a week we go on a walk to the gas station on main street for an Arizona iced tea, a brisk lemonade, and a hot pink monster for your roommate. We always go together and we always go alone. Sometimes we stop in the cookie shop, sometimes we go the long way so we can stay in the calm that we only really seem to get if it’s just us. I will never tell you this, but it’s my favorite part of the week.
We went last night. My roommate wanted to masturbate in the room, and I wanted green tea. So, we went. We put on our coats, and my lips were stained cherry red from a popsicle I had eaten in the elevator on the way to the lobby. We walked in silence for a while until we passed the big pond. I was high. You were not. I turned to you and said, “I really don’t know a whole lot about you.”
You laughed and said, “That’s true. I only talk about myself in relation to other people. I don’t think there's all that much to want to know.”
I said, “I want to know anything You are willing to tell me.”
You spread your arms and said, “Alright. What big fucked up secrets about me do you want to hear?”
I thought about it for a few seconds before turning and asking, “What is your biggest fear? And don’t say some bullshit about heights, or the ocean. A real one. Tell me something real.” You smiled and said, “No bullshit. Got it.” and then went silent, turning my question over. You thought about it until we were passing the fountain by the tunnel. I hadn’t realized it was warm enough for that to be running again. Your fingers brush mine once and I flinch.
Finally, you answer, and you are looking straight ahead, and I am looking at your face, softened by the streetlamps. “I guess I am scared that I am not a very likable person. A lot of people don’t like me, and I don’t like them, and I worry that I hurt too many people with my judgements. I guess I am scared of being too judgmental.”
I thought this was insane. You are the most wonderful person I have ever met. How could anyone not like you?
As soon as I turned to respond, someone flew past on their skateboard, and we both laughed. You commented on how strangely fast it went, and the moment was gone. We fell back into the comfortable silence for a second. But once we had passed through the tunnel, I said, “That was a good answer. But I don’t think that’s true at all.” You shrugged and we kept walking.
Once we got to the dining hall, the one on the big hill, you said, “So do I get to know your no bullshit fear? Or is that another one of your secrets?”
I asked if you wanted to know, and you said of course. So, I told you, “I am afraid of being unlovable. I am afraid of being too far gone to be a good person. I’m afraid I won’t ever deserve the love I am given. I guess I’m just scared I’m too hard to love.”
You touched my arm and said, “I think you’re really easy to love. Caring about you is probably the easiest thing I have done.”
I snorted at the corniness of the line, and you smiled at me. Then you said it so simply, “Just let me care about you because I want to. Not because you’ve earned it or whatever fucked up thing you have in your head. I want to know you and I don’t think you should push away the people who want to.”
I blew a raspberry with my mouth, and you punched my arm. Then we walked the rest of the way to the corner store in silence. I got an Arizona green tea and oreos. You got a Brisk lemonade and pretzels. You bought your roommate his monster and dried beef.
We won’t ever talk about last night again.
Thank you so much for reading! Let me know if you have any thoughts and I can't wait to see what y'all write too!
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2023.06.03 05:49 Eehr_Epoh Sex Does Not = Love
How many of you would agree, and for you, is love enough in a DB?
I am a HLF, and my SO is a LLM. I know he loves me, without a doubt. He cuddles and snuggles with me, we still hold hands, and he includes me in TV time. As odd as this sounds, he ensures I've had enough water to drink and brings me a glass before bed. He will caress my hair and kiss me softly. We go on dates to the movies or to dinner. We work out together, get out and play basketball, and much more. I could go on and on...
Anyway, I have begun to question my emphasis and need for sex from him when he fulfills everything else in my life that I find essential. I would tell myself, "he must not love me or find me attractive" because of his lack of desire in this area. Recently my opinion on this has begun to change. I've been reading more about trauma, and I think my need for sex from him comes from an unhealthy place and past experiences. After all, we do not have a complete DB - avg 1-2x a month. Now, I look forward to our next "session" but with more appreciation for it and without feeling sorry for myself in between each time. I also wonder if we did it more often, would the sex become lackluster? I've heard, some others here refer to sex as a chore and definitely don't want either of us to feel like this. As for me, right now, I feel very content and believe love is enough. I can't speak for those who do not have any affection or a complete DB. I'm not looking for advice; just curious about your perspective from this angle and thought it would be a good discussion point.
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2023.06.03 05:48 ThrowRAQA0000 A girl (F22) I (M25) have been romantically involved with wants to move us to being friends.
TW // Mental health, depression
We met randomly over the internet. We felt a connection to each other right from the start, and we kicked things off pretty quickly. There was one big obstacle for us, and it was long distance. It forced the nature of our relation to be online. We spent a lot of time texting, talking and spending time together in any possible way. We've seen each other, in a way we knew how we looked like. All was going great.
First couple of months were absolutely wonderful. We dedicated almost every night to each other, we flirted a lot, we were very cute. Standard honeymoon phase stuff. This all concluded with her coming out and saying she loved me, which was a feeling I reciprocated. We agreed on a date to meet in person, and I was very hopeful.
After those two months passed, she reached out saying she is struggling with her life and her mental health, and she needs more healthy distance. She said we escalated things too quickly and it's too absorbing, and that she needs space to work through her personal business. She also mentioned she has trauma from past relationships, and cannot see herself in one currently, as much as she would like to go through it with me. I agreed on giving her space, and the things didn't really take that much of a hit. We couldn't commit every night for each other, but we still found plenty of opportunities to spend time and enjoy each other.
Some time later we managed to meet in real life, and it was good. It was very reassuring in a way we still wanted each other, and we were willing to see it through. It was somewhat of a recurring promise in our conversations, especially because of long distance. After it was over, we were still going strong and it didn't seem like anything could shake it.
One more month has passed, and I started feeling like her feelings for me toned down. She was avoiding me, not talking for days, we barely flirted. I confronted her about it, and we had a fight. Not to get much into detail, but during the fight she fighting the relationship label, and for me it felt like her romantic feelings towards me ran out.
Shortly after that we had a calmer talk. She said she's struggling with her mental health and she needs space to work on herself and sort her life out, but would still want to keep me around as a friend. When I asked if she still thinks of me romantically, she thinks of me as someone she can trust, but doesn't have romantic intentions. She emphasized she has to care for herself, and focus on improving her life as she's struggling with depression and begun failing herself and things in her life. I even got hit with the "it's not you, it's me". However, she insists on keeping me as a friend.
I'm genuinely confused. My mind cannot comprehend the sudden switch of emotions and going from "you're the best thing that happened to me" into "I want us to be friends" in span of weeks. I also genuinely don't feel there was anything going wrong with our relation, or that it was burning out. What we had was short, but felt very intense and honestly better than any in-person dating I ever did. I still have strong feelings for her. I want to be around her, but at the same time I cannot imagine being casual friends with someone I harbour feelings for, and with whom I was on a romantic trajectory from the start. That being said, she doesn't seem like she still holds any romantic feelings towards me and it feels entirely hopeless.
TL;DR Girl I've been romantically involved with for months, without apparent problems, had a sudden change of heart and wants us to be friends instead
I am very lost, to the point where I decided to see what Reddit has to say. How did it reach this point? What could make her change her feelings? Is it over? Can it somehow be saved? I appreciate everyone weighing in with their perspective on that, I need to clear my head and listen to other's opinions as I do not know how to proceed.
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2023.06.03 05:48 RazzmatazzIll6705 I PROBABLY LIKE MY BF...
This is my first post, and the way I explain things is usually not clear so please bare with me🙏.
I'm (m), and one of my two friends is (f). I believe that I first fell in love with her when I was a high school student, maybe in the 10th or 11th grade, when I transferred to a new school. At that time, lockdown was still a possibility, so we took online lessons. She frequently eats in front of the camera, which I thought was quite sweet. I didn't even pay attention to the teacher during class since I kept staring at her and trying to figure out who she was.
Moving on, when we returned to school, one of my other friend (m) began to express interest in her, and they soon began dating. I was able to talk to her without feeling awkward because of him, and eventually we grew very close. My heart would constantly ache whenever I saw the two of them together because I wasn't really happy with the entire dating thing. Although I didn't understand what that meant, I was certain that I didn't like it. After a year of dating, they split up, and I'll be honest—I was relieved. However, I also thought I was an idiot for having such feelings. I was introduced to her cousin by her, and even though I liked the relative the relationship didn't last because of some things...
Even though we are attending different colleges now that we are in college, we still hang out with our other friend when we all have free time. (we are a friend group of three, the other male friend knew her since they was little so I kinda joined the friend group at 11th grade)
A friend from her school asked her out, and the date was today. The second time I felt that squeeze, and it was more excruciating than the first. I inquired about the date's progress in the group chat since I didn't want to be an asshole, but it appears that both of my pals intend to leave me out, claiming that my heart won't accept it. Now that the squeeze is worse, I'm not sure what to do...
She's one of my only true friends, so I really don't want anything to happen. I probably like her, but I can't admit it because I really, really don't want to make our friendship weird. By the way, I intend to preserve my emotions in this state till they pass. Although that's probably a horrible idea, it is what it is. I just joined this Reddit, and I needed to get something off my chest. Thanks for reading
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2023.06.03 05:48 TempesT_0021 Blood Shall Reign (M4F medieval high fantasy rp, adv. Lit)
She was the first of her kind, the first child born with both mortal and divine blood flowing through her veins. Her mother was Nyx, the goddess of the night and moon while her father had been a talented amd ambitious sorcerer. Their love was forbidden and the gods tried to force Nyx to turn her back on the mortal, Nyx adamantly refused and eventually gave birth to a daughter.
As the child grew so did her power, reluctantly the gods had little choice but to acknowledge her amd so the time came for her to be tested. They wished to see whether she was worthy of taking her place amongst them, they believed she woukd be honoured but they neglected to take into account the mortal side of her. Why should she live amongst those that considered her less? She had the power to claim the mortal world and rule it as her own kingdom.
Turning her back on her divinity, Mephala sort to take control of the mortal world and shape it in her image. Sure the mortal races would resist but she would bring them to heel. She created a new type of sorcery, a sorcery using blood. She gathered followers and taught them this vile sorcery, granting power to those not lucky enough to born with magic and creating the first blood shamans. Her acolytes weren't enough and she would need an army, one she found within a primal group of orcs. With her blood sorcery she corrupted and changed them, creating the first Urai.
Within the ranks of the Urai, she choose the strongest amd twisted them even more, these would become the blood marked. With everything in order, she brought war and started with the continent of Elythia. Divided, the mortal races were quick to be overwhelmed and driven to the brink of defeat. It was only when they banded together that they managed to resist, heroes arose and blessed by the gods themselves they were able to to eventually defeat and vanquish Mephala. They believed that defeatimg Mephala would cause her forces to collapse and they were partly right, her followers scattered and her armies fled and disbanded but she was a corruption. Whilst her physical form perished, her influence remained, at least in secret it did.
1500 years passed, history became legend and the world moved on.....
Panic gripped the city of Harwatch, citizens huddled behind its great walls while guards stood alongside adventurers, mercenaries and almost anyone capable of holding a weapon or flinging a spell. Commanders barked orders whilst those in charge struggled to understand what they were seeing, of course they knew what they were seeing but processing it was another thing entirely. They knew the enemy advancing was Urai, many adventurers had taken at least one job to drive away the red skined brutes. What was difficult to comprehend was the numbers, Urai were tribal and rarely gathered in groups more them a dozen strong and never more then two dozen. Now they were seeing around a thousand making their way towards the city. If that wasn't problem enough, the champion of the city, a high ranked and valiant knight was nowhere to be seen. Unbeknownst to all but a few, the champion was at that moment clutching what remained of his arm, the cold hands of death slwoly closed in around him as an assassin moved to finish th job....
Hey there and thanks for reading this long. Currently I'm looking to start a new Role play set in the world that I have started to create. It is a medieval high fantasy world, think dungeons and dragons style. I'm looking for a partner 21+ that enjoys world building and character development, one that is happy to throw in their own ideas to not only develop the story but the world as well. Ideally I would love to create a story that combines action, adventure, drama and romance. As for roles, well I have nothing set in mind and so an oc could be anything, open to almost ideas. Please know that I only use discord, third person and looking for a partner that writes at around the adv. Lit level. Thank you amd feel free to send a message if this interests you.
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2023.06.03 05:47 d20Nubbins [Offline][Orlando][PF2e] Looking for 2 or 3 players for our weekly home game!
Hey Reddit! I run a weekly in-person game of Pathfinder 2e at my home in the Lee Vista area of Orlando, and we've just wrapped up our current campaign as 2 of our members are sadly moving out of town. We'll be starting up a new campaign in the next few weeks, and are looking for a few new players to fill slots!
We're a friendly group of 20-somethings who met online and have become actual friends outside the game as well, and we're hoping to meet new people who'll fit in nicely. We'll usually do a board game night or something on days when someone can't make the session, just to spend time with friends. We're also always open to having someone else try their hand at GMing a one-shot or something, just to keep things fresh (and to give me a break, lol).
The campaign is likely going to be a 2e conversion of the Pathfinder 1e Giantslayer adventure path, but I'm open to hearing what the group would prefer! The group tries to strike a good balance between goofy TTRPG shenanigans and more "serious" roleplay, so if you're the kind of person who loves to draw up a backstory and get into character, we'd be thrilled to have you.
We typically play Tuesday nights from 6ish to 10:30ish, but the group is open to switching days to accommodate schedules.
As I mentioned, we'll be playing Pathfinder 2e, but don't worry if you're not yet familiar with the system, we're more than happy to get you up to speed. (The transition from 5e/3.5/Pathfinder 1st edition is super easy, and you probably won't be the only one still learning.)
If you're interested in joining, please be:
- LGBTQ+ friendly (I mean it, some of us are hella queer.)
- In your 20's - 30's (we as a group are more comfortable with others around our own ages.)
Feel free to reply here or message me on Discord at Nubbins#8603.
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2023.06.03 05:47 tomateau Need a bildungsroman in my 20s!
Hey guys, looking for a heartfelt bildungsroman novel that can apply to anyone of all ages but bonus points for a focus on early 20s. Just graduated college and even though I’m on a good path right now, I think I need a good coming of age story to get me through the transition of moving away from home.
I loved Catcher in the Rye and Perks of Being a Wallflower when I was in high school, so sad stuff is allowed lol. Recently watched Normal People as well and plan on reading the book but based on these do y’all have any good recs?
Thanks in advance!
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2023.06.03 05:45 Financial_Tonight_32 Read Higgs's Journal 1-26
To those that have just finished the game, read Higgs's Journal 1-26 (or those that never really read the interviews towards the end of the game) I feel for him.
Although he is the main antagonist of the game, his upbringing of physical and mental abuse shaped him to who he is in the game; as you encounter him each time. The trauma of the abuse he went through, the loss he suffered when he started out delivering, his own personal loss of never having a dad and his mom sending him to his uncle to live. He thought he was special too when he got those glimpses of BT and then Amelie used him, which distorted the view of himself. It's crazy how he kept on keeping on when in a vulnerable state in the face of so much loss and trauma distorted his view on life.
My love for the character we've all come to despise (for making our lives so hard in-game) with a deep background story. A victim to Amelie/EE.
I personally hope if they really do make a Death Stranding related movie/show, it focuses on Higgs. I feel like I would bawl my eyes out watching his suffering.
From one porter to another.. keep on keeping on (but seek therapy too; you are not bound to your suffering alone).
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2023.06.03 05:45 FLwifey92 35F - looking for some new chat friends
Hi! I recently moved to a new area so don’t know a ton of people… some online convos would go a long way in helping feel less lonely/anxious.
I like to joke around, enjoy dogs, talking about movies and shows. A little bit of a gamer, but not much. Really enjoy hiking and going for long walks, and camping. Kind of pale but love being out in the sun. Grew up religious but been shifting away. Sucker for home renovation shows lol. Open to any age/walk of life.
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2023.06.03 05:44 LoveMangaBuddy Read Barefoot Angel - Vol.2 Chapter 6 - MangaPuma
From Oasis Translation Group:One day, shoemaker Turner meets a mysterious young man, Benny, who calls himself an “ex-angel”. Worried about Benny going barefoot, Turner decided to make shoes for him. Moreover, because the production will take several months, Benny decides to live in Turner’s house.[ The first love of a pure angel, set in modern day England. ] + ... Read Barefoot Angel - Vol.2 Chapter 6 - MangaPuma. Read more at https://mangapuma.com/barefoot-angel/vol-2-chapter-6
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2023.06.03 05:44 vaurapung I just want my old PC to run my 3d printers.
It had no OS because of windows 10 issues with the ancient (2014 hp) hardware and having to replace the hard drive with no windows 7 backup created.
I now have zorin os on the PC. Easy to install but now I can't get any apps that I find to run on it (I'm sure if I read through hours of tutorials I could).
All I want my old PC to do is run octoprint(it's the only 3d printer control software I know of so far), a web browser (Firefox that came with zorin works fine), and cura slicer. Oh and it needs to be able to use webcams for watching the printers through the web and saving video timlapse, I think octoprint does these things.
Is it really to much to ask for a Linux that I can just download these apps to, select install, then double click the icon created on the desktop during install to run.
I love tinkering on computers when I want to but when I'm using a computer for a purpose I just want it to work. It's not like they make computers for 3d printing that I can just go to the store and buy. But my windows PC in the other room that's for gaming could do all this but it's not for this. I have a capable PC here that can do this but the software is lacking in ease of use.
PS. Extra info. I picked zorin os after being referred to it for it's windows likeness. Only known issue with the os so far is that it can not power off the mother board when it shuts down (windows 10 has the same issue with this PC)
The hp PC is a p7-1154 with the OEM Mobo aahd3-hb, 12gb of ram, an AMD 631 CPU, and rx570 8gb gpu.
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2023.06.03 05:43 SleepyAtDawn [TOMT][Short Story][90s]
I am trying to remember the name of a scifi book I read when I was little about a utopia that sent all it's ill and elderly to another planet that had all the medicine and elder care after throwing them a huge goodbye party, then blasting them into the sun.
I cannot for the life of me remember the name, but I'd love to read it again.
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2023.06.03 05:42 otiac1 The month of June is dedicated to The Sacred Heart of Jesus.
The month of June falls within the liturgical season of Ordinary Time, which is represented by the liturgical color green. This symbol of hope is the color of the sprouting seed and arouses in the faithful the hope of reaping the eternal harvest of heaven, especially the hope of a glorious resurrection. It is used in the offices and Masses of Ordinary Time.
The Holy Father's Intentions for the Month of June 2023
For the abolition of torture: We pray that the international community may commit in a concrete way to ensuring the abolition of torture and guarantee support to victims and their families. (See also Apostleship of Prayer)
Feasts for June 2023 1. Justin, Memorial
- Marcellinus & Peter; Ember Friday, Opt. Mem.
- Charles Lwanga & Companions, Memorial
- TRINITY SUNDAY, Solemnity
- Boniface, Memorial
- Norbert, Opt. Mem.
- Ephrem, Opt. Mem.
- CORPUS CHRISTI, Solemnity
- Anthony of Padua, Memorial
- SACRED HEART OF JESUS, Solemnity
- Immaculate Heart of Mary, Memorial
- ELEVENTH SUNDAY IN ORDINARY TIME, Sunday
- Romuald, Opt. Mem.
- Aloysius Gonzaga, Memorial
- Paulinus of Nola; John Fisher & Thomas More, Opt. Mem.
- NATIVITY OF ST. JOHN THE BAPTIST, Solemnity
- TWELFTH SUNDAY IN ORDINARY TIME, Sunday
- Josemaría Escrivá, Opt. Mem.
- Cyril of Alexandria, Opt. Mem.
- Irenaeus, Memorial
- STS PETER & PAUL, Solemnity
- First Martyrs of the Holy Roman Church, Opt. Mem.
Focus of the Liturgy
The Gospel readings for June are from St. Matthew. All Sunday readings are from Year A, and weekday readings are Cycle I.
June 4 Trinity Sunday
God sent his Son that the world might be saved through him. June 11th Corpus Christi
My flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. June 18th Eleventh Sunday in Ordinary Time
Jesus summoned his twelve disciples and sent them out. June 25th Twelfth Sunday in Ordinary Time
Do not be afraid of those who kill the body. Highlights of the Month
As we begin to feel the warmth of summer, we can reflect that we celebrate the feasts of Trinity Sunday (June 4), Corpus Christi (June 11), the Sacred Heart of Jesus (June 16) and the Immaculate Heart of Mary (June 17). God is Love and the Sacred Heart of Jesus — present on earth in the Blessed Sacrament — is the human manifestation of God's Love for men. Appropriately June is considered the month for weddings where human hearts join and cooperate with the Creator in bringing forth new life. The family they create is a human reflection of the Blessed Trinity. The saints that we will focus on this month are:
St. Justin (June 1),
Sts. Marcellinus and Peter (June 2),
St. Charles Lwanga & Companions (June 3),
St. Boniface (June 5),
St. Norbert (June 6),
St. Ephrem (June 9),
St. Anthony of Padua (June 13),
St. Romuald (June 19),
St. Aloysius Gonzaga (June 21),
Sts. John Fisher and Thomas More (June 22),
St. Paulinus (June 22),
the Nativity of St. John the Baptist (June 24),
St. Josemaría Escrivá (June 26),
St. Cyril of Alexandria (June 27),
St. Irenaeus (June 28),
the Solemnity of Sts. Peter and Paul (June 29)
and the First Martyrs of the Church of Rome (June 30).
The feast of St. Barnabas (June 11) is superseded by the Sunday liturgy.
A Time of Love
Following Pentecost, the Church begins her slow descent from the great peaks of the Easter Season to the verdant pastures of Ordinary Time, the longest of the liturgical seasons. She pauses briefly, to praise the Holy Trinity — Creator, Redeemer, and Sanctifier; and then the Sacrament of the Body and Blood of Christ, Corpus Christi. Like the lush June growth all around us, the green of the liturgical season points to the new life won for us by the Redemption of Jesus Christ, the new life of Charity. For Our Lord came to cast the fire of His love on the earth, and to that end, sent His Holy Spirit at Pentecost in the form of tongues of fire.
Therefore, the close of the Easter season marks not the cessation but rather the beginning of Ordinary Time is the commencement of the Church’s activity. Ordinary Time is the hour to “go out to all the world and tell the good news.” The feasts of June highlight this expansion of the Church. At least ten times, the Church vests in the red of the martyrs whose blood is the very seed of her growth. She also celebrates the feasts of the Apostles Peter and Paul, and the birth of St. John the Baptist, proto-disciple and prophet.
We, too, are called to be witnesses like the apostles and martyrs. May the Heart of Jesus inflame our hearts so that we may be worthy of our Baptismal call to holiness. Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.
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2023.06.03 05:40 Large-Definition6587 My girlfriend's multiple mental illnesses are starting to become draining
I can't sleep because of this right now and I frankly don't have the courage or patience to address this to her directly because I feel like it would not only break her heart but I also feel like I wouldn't even be understood.
My girlfriend has been professionally diagnosed with bipolar disorder, PTSD, ADHD, and OCD.
Talking to her is very often either frustrating or draining. I am often merely stressed out by the very idea of asking her how she is because I know that I am going to get a negative answer (tired, depressed, anxious, etc.) There are some days where I can be very patient with her, but there are other days where I get extremely frustrated. I like to believe that I try to help her as much as possible, but the reality of the situation is that I don't usually have the patience to really do as much as I need to.
She doesn't seem to be unintelligent, but I very frequently have to explain simple concepts to her repeatedly, which makes conversation very slow and sometimes frustrating. I can't really make jokes that often either without having to explain it to her in detail multiple times; to make matters worse, she gets anxious and depressed about the fact that she doesn't get these jokes. I think this may be linked to her focus issues related to ADHD, as she has told me she often has difficulty even reading my messages or understanding what I'm saying. A lot of my interests revolve around science, which she doesn't share interest in or really understand, so the frequency that we have any actually stimulating conversations is very rare. I was honestly willing to accept this at first and mostly entertain her interests, but its become very disheartening to try to have a conversation about my own interests only to be ignored or met with a one-worded response. It's also very clear that she is providing the majority of her attention to another activity or talking to someone else while we're interacting via call, which makes me lose interest in even talking to her.
She has absolutely horrendous anxiety, so real-time conversation with her can also be very exhausting. She's anxious about her own flaws, which is distressing to me but also reasonable. However, she gets anxious over very mundane things all the time. I can't have a normal conversation with her without having to worry about having to word everything I say carefully as to not set off her anxiety. I feel like I'm actively cutting wires in a bomb, anxiously hoping that I don't cut the wire that sets it off even though its guaranteed that I will eventually.
She has many poor habits which contribute negatively to her mood. If I try to give her any advice at all she pretty much just straight up tells me that I'm wrong, without any actual counter-argument. She's even gotten genuinely angry when I've tried to give her advice before, or said things like "I'm fine with the way I am," which seems to be a ridiculously false statement to me considering she very frequently complains about her own flaws. I completely understand. People don't want to change or accept facts that they haven't been conditioned to or be told that they're doing the wrong thing, but it really just makes me feel like she doesn't trust me enough to even take my advice into consideration, even for a moment. This is the case with certain general facts as well, and she seems to be a very stubborn person in general. This adds to the resentment further.
I really do love her, but I find myself frequently having the thought: "I can't take this anymore." I don't want her to suffer, but I also need to work on myself. I mistakenly and naively came into the relationship with the mindset that she would change and that with my help and the help of her therapy that she would get better. I have now realized that even if she does change, it will take years and that I will have to suffer through those years. I feel like I have made a horrible mistake and that I will soon have to break her heart.
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2023.06.03 05:40 Hakan_Flores So I'm writing a story that I guess could be considered Oi but maybe not really? And want advice on a science related aspect but don't know where to ask and get an answer
I have a boy from his home planet that reads stories everyday about the lives of sentient beings on other planets. Different people he reads about can be on the same planet. One day he gets transported to another planet called Ohiri while reading about a person he'll meet later on im my story (he is not able to finish the book btw). I was wondering about the food aspect since he's just teleported there by accident.
I really like to make stories that have some scientific basis and I love to theorize about the technicalities. Without a system, a new body already adapted to the food, plot convience, or whatever, how would a person safely learn (or as safely as possible) and figure out what foods they can eat without dying or almost dying? The worlds science level isnt as good as ours and doctors have no experience with this alien boy. So he's basically on his own in this aspect.
I asked on ask
already but by looking at how many people actually had replies I don't expect an answer or even a discussion. Anyone got ideas on ways to not die by being unintentionally poisioned or where I can ask?
If this post breaks the rules I have no issues taking it down, but I thought that it should be ok since the community is great here and even a few non-ois are discussed here like totcf.
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2023.06.03 05:40 L1CKx Struggling with jealousy towards my brother
My brother is honestly, (even though my parents deny it) the prodigy child. He’s great with money (just bought his first car, 36000 dollars) and he’s only one year younger than me; I’m 20 he’s 19. He knows everything there is to know about stocks, he’s great with sounds and speakers, and he’s extremely intelligent; he practically absorbs knowledge like I’ve never seen. My mom and dad think very fondly of him. And although he’s got some flaws: massively inflated ego, anger issues, lack of empathy, and desire for control, yet everyone loves him and looks to him for guidance.
The other day, driving in his new luxury sports car, we went to our place of work (my whole family works there) so my mom could see the brand new car and all our work friends came and went to see his luxurious piece, while my mom told not to cry and not to be upset about the thing in front of everyone. This is one of the many occasions where I genuinely feel outshined by him because two days before that I hiked my third 3000-footer and that seemed to be skimmed over.
I’ve done stuff I felt was worthy, I’ve successfully published two short stories on Amazon by myself and have written much much more not yet published but none of my family takes the time to read any of it (let alone ask) I spent $10000 last year on camera equipment and am now taking what I think are wonderful pictures of all my hikes and no one asks to see them. I meditate and try to become better to myself and my surroundings but my mom and dad still think I’m this deeply rooted depressed kid who cannot take care of himself, my dad still jokes with his friends that I play video games all day, I haven’t been on a gaming machine in about a year.
I feel as though the very people who I live with and are supposed to support me, don’t, and seeing my brother find his way makes me feel like my achievements are meaningless because if they weren’t wouldn’t people care? Or is it because a shiny car is easier to gawk at than a book or a story? How do you get over jealousy when it sits in the room next to you and is spoken over every family dinner? What do I do, to not feel like I am in a constant competition with my brother.
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2023.06.03 05:40 PM_ME_UR_MODEL_TRAIN Bad 3d Point and Click Suggestions?
I am a connoisseur of garbage, moon logicy, shitty 3d point and click games. I have played all of the "Art of Murder" games, which are a sort of fixed camera 3d point and click. The graphics are mediocre and the puzzles are nonsensical.
This is the kind of aesthetic I am looking for. I have also played Mystery of the Druids, which matches a similar terrible graphics/moon logic vibe.
The thing for me is that I really love that style. Just a shitty rendering from like 2003, that aesthetic just really vibes with me. I have Lost Horizon as well, which looks relatively less shitty than the previously mentioned 2 games, but I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions for these?
The issue is that this type of game has absolutely no presence online - nobody likes them, they aren't on any "Top 10 point and clicks you HAVE to play!" because they aren't. They're terrible. But I am nostalgic for just loading up a terrible game for an afternoon, reading a walkthrough to the letter because the puzzles are so confusing, and laughing at the terrible logic and appearance.
The reason I felt like I had to post this was because, unless you played them as a kid, or were around them when they first released, you don't ever hear about them. So does anyone have any recommendations?
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2023.06.03 05:39 agjjnf222 I loved this game and here’s why.
I know there are a lot of problems with this game don’t get me wrong.
I am a product of growing up with Harry Potter. I stood in line to get the books, saw the movies as soon as they came out, and I have read the books 15x over as I assume most of you are the same.
I haven’t played a video game in years due to college, grad school, and generally being busy with life.
I think the main thing to remember is that this is the beginning.
I truly believe that this is the start to an amazing journey with future games to come with significant improvements.
Things I love about the game:
- unpopular at best but the attention to detail. The immersion I felt when first watching the movies felt the same in the game. Hogwarts felt magical. HogsMeade felt charming, and the rest added to it.
- the sheer ability for a game to incorporate the details of the Harry Potter world in terms of combat.
-flying (just because)
Things I don’t like:
- the story line lacks depth. It doesn’t provide enough details that us Harry Potter lovers are used to.
- the redundancy is exhausting. At some point you realize how repetitive it can be.
Overall, I’m about 75% done and have enjoyed it. My gaming experience has been fairly lackluster in the last decade but this has been fun.
I am simply looking forward to the future installations they plan to make and will be the first to buy whatever sequel they come out it with.
I suppose I made this post to just keep in mind that I don’t think this is a mediocre game. It may be mediocre relative to the hype that surrounded it but 12 year old me is screaming with excitement inside. I look forward to finishing and definitely look forward to the fact that there is finally an open world Harry Potter game. Something I have wanted for a long time.
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2023.06.03 05:39 LinguisticMadness Let's be friends and hyperfixate together 😂
[This is a comment I copied of an introduction I've done, I feel it just fits so I'll post it in here, So if you saw it there you found me!🧚🏻♂️. Here is it.]
You know what, Hi! I want to be your friend, fuck social formalities.
As far as you're not a psychopath in disguise we are honestly good😂 .I'm 21 (an adult! If a minor and uncomfortable it's okay sweetie ), I hyperfixate in stuff (currently tmnt/rottmnt) and love reading fanfictions to hell and back, I enjoy drawing, animating, baking even if I suck, learning languages, talking about life is fine, or about ideals, seeing movies, things like that. I honestly just want someone to be comfortable with. I am very accepting in the general sense. I personally would like to know what you like as well.
I have to say that even when I like to have fun I'm pretty low in spirits lately due issues, and on the edge a bit with trusting people because I'll be honest with you, good people is hard to come by so my experience is pretty uh, interesting 😂😭. I won't expect much from you, we can see some series or draw a bit. I can give some advice if you'd like it. I'd also be nice talking in call because I think it may help make it more natural but up to anyone who decides to engage!.
Also, I'm in my finals right now and university is killing me now, I can't chat as much as I'd like buttt I will when I have more time. [Also, tidbit of info, it's hard for me to maintain constant interaction and need to recharge, but I'll tell you. You already know so there is no issue XD, you tell me as well tho don't feel bad about it.]
You can call me Nia because Welp this is seen by everyone yessir, and this account has some sensitive stuff letsago brother. I'd rather no one being able to recognize this shit 😂💃. My discord is here for anyone who'd like to chat just tell me who you are if you contact me on there as well, you know a bit of who I am ;>, or you can just chat in msg here ^ it works for me too.
We can message, do voice calls and stream movies from time to time, draw or simply chat // my discord tag is [lilie#2125].
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2023.06.03 05:39 Tsiatk0 Cricket life cycle in northern Midwest…?
So, it’s been super warm in the lately and my birthday is coming up - and I might be crazy, but I’m hearing crickets at night lately and I don’t think I’ve ever heard crickets this early in the warm season before. For reference, I’m in northern lower Michigan. Do our crickets all just die off and leave eggs behind for winter, or do they hibernate for a year as adults? I’m finding mixed info online and I’m very curious. I can’t tell if these temps woke them up early or incubated and hatched them early - and I’m also wondering if maybe I’m just remembering things wrong. But this heat is wild this year and I’d love to know if anyone can help shed some light on this for me. Thanks in advance 😃🦗
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2023.06.03 05:38 Western-Ad-2904 Char: From Shelter Dog to Adventure Extraordinaire
I recently (today lol) published an article about Char, a remarkable Siberian Husky, who has inspired many to make a difference any way possible. In the story, we discuss a dog who sits in a shelter waiting for her forever home. She was supposed to be euthanized due to her diagnosis of Juvenile Cataracts, but with the help of donations and a community, she is with us, living quite the life for a shelter dog. I take her out for adventures, socializing, training, hiking, and everything fun for her, which has allowed her to really flourish.
Read the full article here
Together, through even the minimalist of efforts, we can make a difference in the lives of shelter dogs and ethical practices. Please read and share, thank you! -it is my first post, i'd love for it to get some recognition so we can find her and other pups a home. it is a 4 min read, but just opening it would be incredibly helpful.
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2023.06.03 05:38 Itsmeee1998 25M - Looking for Friends to chat and hangout with
Hi I'm a 25 M Y3 Undergraduate studying life sciences and minoring in public health. I'm part of the first batch of students attending online orientation and having attended 2 yrs of online semester really restricted my social circle in NUS especially because I did not stay on campus and my CCA was OTOT>< Life has been kinda lonely this year in NUS esp seeing friends hanging out/eating/gg class tgt and studying tgt etc. As I do not have any plans this summer and my friends before uni are mostly working already, I am hoping to hopefully make some like-minded friends to chat and hopefully hangout with if we click.
About me: A geeky guy with many interests. Hobbies include watching films/tv series/anime/ read novels especially of superhero genre, watching YT videos (comedy) like team coco (conan o brien), huge foodie/ cafe hopping including finding cheap and good food from coffeeshop etc., visiting places/ walking ard SG, chatting, singing, playing boardgames esp social deduction games, playing table tennis, jogging long distance (more like habit to stay fit tho i like the runners high). May come across as introverted to ppl but friendly and chatty (prefer meaningful conversations 1-1 or in small grps than gg to parties/ being in large grps etc).
Strictly platonic friendship. I can promise that I won't ghost. I would make time to text and hangout regularly if we click.
Looking to hangout/explore SG/eat together:) Feel free to pm me.
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