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2023.05.31 17:00 ColdBoreShooter [Humor] Terrible Watch Pickup Lines
This is what happens when you get tipsy in the Breitling boutique with the boys, have too much time on your hands, and most importantly are a degenerate. Enjoy, and please add your own below.
“I see this watch has a date function… what about you?”
“Are you a piece unique? Cuz I think you’re one of a kind.”
“Are you a Tourbillon? Cuz you’ve got me spinning.”
“Are you from Glashutte? Cuz I’ll love you Lange time.”
“I dig your case thickness.”
“You can pull my crown all the way out if I can screw yours down.”
“If I could describe you in terms of horology, it would be Haute.”
“So are you an automatic, or do you like getting wound up by hand?”
“I have radium hands… you feelin dangerous?”
“You’re beautiful, but I’d love to see you in an openworked format.”
“Just so you know, I normally only have a 10-minute power reserve, but for you I can probably do 15.”
“How much can you store in your twin barrels?”
“Mind if I take a gander at your exhibition caseback?”
“Would you be willing to give me a hand with some overdue servicing and lubrication?”
“I hope you’re at least 100 meters water resistant, cuz you’re about to get drenched.”
“I’d say you’re the perfect size for my 40 millimeters. 42 on a good day.”
“I’d like to Grande Tapisserie all over your dial.”
“Are you a Hi-Beat? Cuz I’ll give you 36,000 vibrations an hour.”
“Would you mind engraving my balance cock?”
“What’s your return policy?”
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2023.05.31 17:00 HowToCook40Humans I'm a nursing student but I don't think I can work in the damaged system that's US healthcare...
I truly can't see myself doing anything outside of healthcare. My first job in a hospital was in Patient Access in the ER and I learned so much about not only how the ER worked, but the struggles people in my neighborhood had mentally and physically. I have a love/hate relationship with the ER but I enjoyed my jobs.
I'm in my 2nd semester of nursing school and was hospitalized almost my entire break. I had an epiphany about the healthcare system and how poor it is. I rarely saw my nurses (except a few) and I can't deduce if it's because of workload or just lack of care. I was on a unit where I was supposed to call to get up to use the bathroom but calling would have a 30+ min wait. My shortness of breath was shrugged off until I developed COVID pneumonia. Thinking about working in conditions like that where I can't fully attend to my patients depresses me.
What really made me write this was dealing with my dad yesterday. I convinced him to go to the ER due to his neighbors calling about his health declining. I called every few hours and when I finally got a nurse, they said he was being discharged. This was also said in the same conversation where they said his brain scans showed signs of stroke, my dad's speech was slurred and his cognition was worse than when I sent him to the ER (he didn't know he was in a hospital, didn't know about getting home, etc). The nurse even said that he was coherent when she last checked but now wasn't making any sense. That should pause the discharge right there. Luckily I gave more info and explained this wasn't normal and he was eventually admitted. But I can't help but think of all the patients that come through the ER alone who are discharged, taken home by ambulance, plopped on the couch and told to call if something gets worse. Obviously if my dad has dementia, they can't do anything about that, but my dad has other health issues that need to be addressed.
I'm not blaming nurses and doctors solely for what's going on in our system. But I'm always shocked at the lack of care some have. I don't think you need to be super empathetic to be a good healthcare provider, but you should see things like brain damage from a stroke and investigate what else the patient could be dealing with/signs of the damage the stroke did.
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2023.05.31 17:00 palpatinesballz I have truly wasted the best years of my life and I don't know how to stop
Throw away account because I dont want some people knowing how depressed I am. After turning 28 a few months ago, Its dawned on me how much i've been working for the past decade, and Im still in the same place when I was 18
For starters, I hate to use the term "wasted", but thats really what it feels like. I still live with my parents, and never moved away for college or anything like that. I have two jobs and a decent savings account because of it, but thats about the only good thing I have going for me. I also have two college degrees, but that really doesn't amount to much these days. I really fell for the whole "pull yourself up by the bootstraps" rhetoric, and I feel like I bet on the wrong horse. Whenever I think I get close to it all coming together, the goalposts move and I stay stuck. I really feel like I waited too long, and lost valuable years that I should have been progressing socially in favor of working extra hard so that (by now) I would have been in a more secure position. lol
This year, I finally gave up on my dream career after years of trying to get into it, so I'm still dealing with that. My backup job turned out the same way, so im on my back up-backup option. I've fallen so far down with my goals I struggle to see the point of even trying. I cant afford to move away, hell I cant even afford an apartment in my hometown unless I live with other people, so i'm stuck living with my parents. My two boomer parents who spend the majority of their day watching fox news indoors and yelling at the tv about conspiracy theories. One of them is on medical disability so i've been more or less strong armed into sticking around to help out. I hate to admit it, but its probably the best compromise I can get right now. Despite the money I do have saved, I've done the math out and I would lose almost all of it just trying to move around and secure a place to fucking rent. That's if I can even find a place, I responded to an add last month and the landlord said "I don't rent to anyone under the age of 45, kid" and hung up on me.
I don't date either, never have a girlfriend still holding me V card because I have no privacy at home. I've talked to them about this and both of parents told me to not treat their home like some motel and bring strangers over, and if I ever wanted privacy to rent an actual motel room somewhere. At the same time, they bring up when im planning on getting married. Don't ask me how that's supposed to work, because I don't know either
I really shouldn't complain, I know people have it way worse than I do and I have the luxury of a semi-stable home,albeit at the cost of everything else. My small circle of friends is in the same position. Most of us live at home, work multiple jobs, and get together once every few weeks to vent to one another. And no, none of them want to move in together, Three of them tried it last summer and it almost caused them to stop being friends, and frankly Id rather keep my friends than anything else right now.
My only plan of action at this point is to keep on this path, keep saving and hope for a this new job that I've been pursuing to come to fruition, so that way I can have the means to finally move out and make up for lost time. However, Ive been doing that for the past 10 years, and the definition of insanity is...well you know. Im looking for any input and advice on the subject, maybe another option I hadnt considered but I feel like Ive run down the list, as well as screaming into the void about how fucked we all are.
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2023.05.31 17:00 DoFuKtV Should I finish the rest of the Breath of the Wild or is it safe to just start ToTK?
I have played BoTW previously but later stopped it because of how fatigued I got at the time from open world exploration (the feeling of irritation one gets when you see an openworld way too big, it signifies an immense chore and OCD of missing stuff basically). Considering how I have heard this game more than makes up for the shortcomings of BoTW and the greatest piece of art ever created from the people who have played it, I was wondering if I should just start ToTK right now? Thank you.
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2023.05.31 17:00 Blueberrysweetener What can I do to gain hope again?
Hi! I've been following Dr. K for some time now and I've seen these reddit posts a few times, so maybe there could be someone with answers.
I'm 18 and after a few attempts at helping myself with mental health I've lost hope for better days. It feels like depression and anxiety is all I know and I'm not sure if it's just my brain or what, but I fail to see how anything can help me.
One of my huge problems is thinking, most of all trying to think rationally and basing on my experiences with the world. Which were usually negative or neutral, but nothing really felt like pure joy that I could give myself toward and let it lead my out of my dark spot. By that I mean that I don't know what I'd like to do in the future and I don't really see myself doing anything. I have a few hobbies, but they're all artistic and so far I've been more or less ignored by the world, even if most people tell me that what I do is good and I should try making money on it. I tried, several times actually, and all of my ideas and plans have failed tremendously, so I don't believe I could ever achieve something. Even if earlier in life I envied those artists that would live in an open apartment with their art scattered all over it and whenever they'd turn up somewhere where artists are recognized, I'd be one of the names. Wishful thinking of a kid and I don't even try thinking of how I could achieve it because nothing seems to work anyway.
On top of that I have a few physical illnesses that will lead me to have at least two separate surgeries if everything goes well, but one of them is postponed until I figure out my systemic issue that has caused the problem in the first place and appointments to find out what it could be are months apart. And this has dawned on me for a few reasons: I inherited autism and ADHD from one of my parents and the systemic issue probably from the other, so in my mind there's a thought "I inherited the worst parts of my parents.. great".
I've been in therapy for almost two years and I had group therapy mixed in as well. And before that i was better than now, though I've also been living in an abusive household from which I have PTSD (yes, during my stay at an outpatient mental health ward I've been basically getting only worse because of unsafe home situation, but now I live in a safe place and just have nightmares and more anxiety about simple things like cleaning the house). About autism, ADHD and the systemic issue I've found out in the last few months, so it hit me.
I went two times to a new therapist and I'm on meds, but a few days ago I had another appointment and I was too anxious to go. The whole day I cried and talked to people to try and convince myself to go, but I couldn't. I tried to rationalize it that maybe it's just social anxiety acting up or maybe it's my intuition saying "don't go there, ain't worth it and maybe you'll hurt yourself" either because of the therapist or me being too unstable to go outside and walk on the sidewalks next to busy streets...
I guess there is a glimmer of hope in me, hence I grab at the last straw of friends that know a bit about mental health or this reddit and Dr. K's videos to maybe build my hope enough to actually try. But I'm not sure if I'm lazy, depressed so much or what, but even going to sleep is a workout and getting up is harder and harder and I'm wondering "why am I still doing this? Because I'm surely not helping anybody (me or people around me). Maybe I should find a nice way to not hurt too much when I'm done", but then this glimmer tells me at the last moments "no, people are going to br upset, don't do this to them. And maybe you have something to live for". It just feels like the hope is squashed underneath all the bad emotion that it can only help me in the worst moments, so I keep fighting. But I'm getting tired of it, so maybe there is something I could try to convince my brain to help itself, not sabotage everything I'm trying to do.
I know this is long, but I felt like I needed to show the entirety of what's going on, and I still probably missed a lot of things..
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2023.05.31 16:59 Susim-the-Housecat Gaming laptop, £1200, England
Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase. Please do not use USD unless purchasing in the US:
£1,200.00 Though I’m hoping to get as low as I can.
Are you open to refurbs/used?
No
How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life?
Battery life is not important to me as I will always be using it near an outlet.
How important is weight and thinness to you?
Not at all.
Do you have a preferred screen size? If indifferent, put N/A.
N/A
Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run.
Mostly gaming, but also some art programs like photoshop.
If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want?
It’s less about specific games l want to play, and more that I want to be able to play new games for a long time. I know there’s no such thing as future proof, but I’m hoping I won’t have to upgrade for at least 5 years.
Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)?
Only that it has wireless connection and ok built in speakers.
Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion.
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2023.05.31 16:59 mardichew Boss regularly changing my rota on short notice
I work in hospitality at a music venue and cafe-bar. I have a part time contract with my employer for 15 hours every week as well as an additional zero hours contract.
My contracts (both of them) specifically say that the rota will be made available to me four weeks ahead of the shifts I work, this basically doesn't happen ever and I'm friendly enough with my boss to understand that it can be difficult to predict what's needed in a customer service role especially as the venue I work at will sometimes have smaller events happen with very short notice so my boss will make changes and adapt as that happens which I do know is often as frustrating to them as to us the staff.
The issues I'm having though are that while I used to be able to be pretty flexible and deal with the fact I often wouldn't know when I'd be working and couldn't plan my life ahead of time at all I've recently had a child and am going back to work now and do need my life to be more predictable so I can be helpful to my wife.
My contracted hours each week is only 15 hours (two 7.5 hour shifts) as I reduced my hours before the birth of my son knowing that with the mess of the rota working significantly less is the only way I can still be of use to my wife and then I can pick up extra shifts as and when suits with my additional zero hours contract (at this place of work the way they do zero hours is to list all the available shifts and then zero hours staff can basically write in for which ones suit so it suits me as I only have two shifts a week which they put me down for and any others I can make sure ahead of time will work around my needs)
However I haven't even started back to work yet (first shift is next Wednesday) and am already having issues where my boss put me down for Wednesday and Saturday and then the following week it was Tuesday and Saturday, but each time I've logged into teams at least one of those shifts has been swapped - the first Saturday shift was originally a late one, then it's become an early, then the Tuesday was originally a Friday but got moved, then the second Saturday I'm working was originally the Sunday early but became a Saturday late. I can see why they've been moved because looking at the rest of the rota I got shifted to where I was more needed because other zero hours staff had better availability and such, but all of these moves have happened in the last week and not one of them was accompanied by so much as a message explaining the change from my boss and this is happening to me and my colleagues A LOT but because our workplace is always touting how "flexibility" is important my boss seems to just think it's okay to change shifts as suits them without considering us - just before I started my statuary paternity leave I had a similar situation where I was phoned and told my next shift (at that point three days away) was being swapped to a day instead of an evening and when I said I couldn't do that due to having made plans my boss told me there was no longer any hours for me in the evening so I either swapped to the day or didn't work at all and would owe them a shift then.
It's reaching the point of just being impossible to predict when I'll be working as I can never trust the rota that comes out will even stay the same and I'm trying to be understanding to how difficult the rota is (I used to be management here so used to be in charge of the rota myself and can fully appreciate it's tricky to manage sometimes but I used to aim for a "rolling rota" as much as possible so staff could at least guess what shifts might be coming up and that's not even remotely the case anymore)
My contract does say I'll have the rota ahead of time which isn't happening most of the time but says nothing regarding things such as short notice changes so I'm wondering how much I can attempt to 'demand' a bit more stability or predictability?
I'm in Scotland
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2023.05.31 16:59 Sweetie_Pie1234 Instead of food...
Hello... new here. My Dr. suspects I have celiacs. I have a whole bunch of food allergies and I feel immeasurably better after stopping gluten consumption. I am not a candidate for a biopsy at this time but more than one doctor really strongly feel gluten is a no for me. They are really good doctors who work together. I tried adding it back in and sure enough - all the "usual" symptoms came back. So no gluten for me.
I'm kind of starting to go a little crazy. I really like food and the recipes and suggestions here are fantastic. Everyone seems really supportive. What do you all do instead of focusing on food all day? Do you just accept it and find hobbies? I'm struggling a bit. How do you encourage yourself to keep living an active and meaningful life instead of focusing on how hard this is? TIA
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2023.05.31 16:59 palpatinesballz I have truly wasted the best years of my life and I don't know how to stop
Throw away account because I dont want some people knowing how depressed I am. After turning 28 a few months ago, Its dawned on me how much i've been working for the past decade, and Im still in the same place when I was 18
For starters, I hate to use the term "wasted", but thats really what it feels like. I still live with my parents, and never moved away for college or anything like that. I have two jobs and a decent savings account because of it, but thats about the only good thing I have going for me. I also have two college degrees, but that really doesn't amount to much these days. I really fell for the whole "pull yourself up by the bootstraps" rhetoric, and I feel like I bet on the wrong horse. Whenever I think I get close to it all coming together, the goalposts move and I stay stuck. I really feel like I waited too long, and lost valuable years that I should have been progressing socially in favor of working extra hard so that (by now) I would have been in a more secure position. lol
This year, I finally gave up on my dream career after years of trying to get into it, so I'm still dealing with that. My backup job turned out the same way, so im on my back up-backup option. I've fallen so far down with my goals I struggle to see the point of even trying. I cant afford to move away, hell I cant even afford an apartment in my hometown unless I live with other people, so i'm stuck living with my parents. My two boomer parents who spend the majority of their day watching fox news indoors and yelling at the tv about conspiracy theories. One of them is on medical disability so i've been more or less strong armed into sticking around to help out. I hate to admit it, but its probably the best compromise I can get right now. Despite the money I do have saved, I've done the math out and I would lose almost all of it just trying to move around and secure a place to fucking rent. That's if I can even find a place, I responded to an add last month and the landlord said "I don't rent to anyone under the age of 45, kid" and hung up on me.
I don't date either, never have a girlfriend still holding me V card because I have no privacy at home. I've talked to them about this and both of parents told me to not treat their home like some motel and bring strangers over, and if I ever wanted privacy to rent an actual motel room somewhere. At the same time, they bring up when im planning on getting married. Don't ask me how that's supposed to work, because I don't know either
I really shouldn't complain, I know people have it way worse than I do and I have the luxury of a semi-stable home,albeit at the cost of everything else. My small circle of friends is in the same position. Most of us live at home, work multiple jobs, and get together once every few weeks to vent to one another. And no, none of them want to move in together, Three of them tried it last summer and it almost caused them to stop being friends, and frankly Id rather keep my friends than anything else right now.
My only plan of action at this point is to keep on this path, keep saving and hope for a this new job that I've been pursuing to come to fruition, so that way I can have the means to finally move out and make up for lost time. However, Ive been doing that for the past 10 years, and the definition of insanity is...well you know. Im looking for any input and advice on the subject, maybe another option I hadnt considered but I feel like Ive run down the list, as well as screaming into the void about how fucked we all are.
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2023.05.31 16:59 Unicorn_Tachanka A single player tip I want to share for late game farming metal on extinction
Farming metal the classic way by beating up nodes with ankys and transporting the raw metal with argys or gasbags is too long and monotonous, especially whenever you've drained the area around you from nodes
I've found a nice quicker way to gain metal, and a bit more fun way too
Complete a red OSD with pair of mate boosted imprinted gigas. Normal saddles and around 380% or more melee is enough, and the damage you will get is minor. It's preferable to turn on PVE so that you don't hurt your OSD whenever defending itp
Red OSDs drop metal foundations, walls and pillars in stacks of 60 (more or less), and also metal platforms. If you put all the buildables and other junk (like useless ascendant BPs or poly or 200x black pearl stacks) in a delivery crate and send them to your base location, grind them in an Industrial Grinder. You'll end up with minimum 700+ or maximum 2000+ metal depending on how many metal structures you get; not to mention the stacks of scrap/normal metal red OSDs like to drop, the hundreds of poly and black pearls, or the few junk ascendent gear or tek gear you get that are made of metal which are grindable for a bit more. In my case, the delivery crates always have enough room for the heaviest of the loot, so no need to be concerned about space/weight.
If your base is close to the red OSDs drops, that's even better because you can cycle between them faster and deliver more materials quicker to your base. You'll end up with thousands of metal, polymer and black pearls, and it helps immensely with crafting good quality tek stuff, meks or shells for MSCM for taming titans
It's a lot quicker and better than normal farming, and more exciting with all the corrupted killing you'll do.
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2023.05.31 16:58 Lost-Mathematician85 I'm not sure how I feel about this, but I keep saying WTF
The Backstory is that I (48f) have a tenuous relationship with my uncle/godfather (64, I think). I adored him when I was younger and was the flower girl at his 1st wedding, over 40 years ago. I was 4 or 5. My brother was the ring bearer. In my childhood, we were close. He took me and my friends to my first real concert. He used to take me to the mall if I asked. We were close until he started heavily using meth when I was in junior high and high school. So much so that I missed getting to see my Grandma (his mom) before she died. He was supposed to drive us to go see her earlier in the day. By the time we had a family friend drive us and we got there, it was too late and she passed an hour after I got to the hospice. I was closer to her than my own mom for reasons. He was too busy getting high. When I went to his house to try to see what the hold up was, he called me a see you next Tuesday. I was 15. Not to mention things in our house going missing. Him trashing my room while he was on a drug-fueled bender because he thought my room wasn't clean enough. He took my records out of their sleeves. I was PISSED. After those two things, I was done. I noticed that he'd show up around family right at Thanksgiving, make an attempt at seeming like he was clean, and disappear around December 26th. EVERY YEAR. I brought this up to the family and I was told to let it go. Ok, whatever. I was done. My uncle asked other family members why I didn't talk to him anymore and they at least told him he had to come talk to me about it. When I had my kid, I decided that I couldn't show him how to be healthy if I was holding on to anger and bitterness. So I let it go, but I still had boundaries. When my mom died, I called and told him. It was the first time I had ever called him as an adult and probably the first conversation since my kid's christening 7 years prior that I had a conversation with him. I just kept my distance during that time. I didn't engage with him unless he specifically asked me a question.
Three years ago, he wanted to have a heart-to-heart and apologize. I told him that I had forgiven him years ago, but I still had boundaries in place. I told him that I didn't want to be angry and bitter at him because that wasn't an example I wanted to set for my kid. He didn't remember calling me a c*&t and said he was high and he was hurting that his mom was dying. I said, "Fair enough, but drugs are a choice and you chose wrong. For all the shit I have gone through in my life, I made a choice to not go down that path. Own up to your mistakes and don't make excuses." He apologized, and then I dropped him off at his hotel. I've talked to him a few times since then.
Two days ago, I received a message from him. "Hey, I'm moving back to (my town). I am getting back together with (1st wife). We're getting married and she wants you to be her MOH and I'm going to ask (my brother) to be my best man." Keep in mind, they got married and divorced over 40 years ago. I haven't seen my former aunt since shortly after they married because we moved across the country and they divorced while we lived on the east coast. They were both on cocaine during their marriage, but I didn't know this until much later.
I am genuinely happy for them both. More power to them both. I've just said WTF to myself for 2 days. I feel like an asshole if I say "No, I won't be the MOH", but I also don't really want to. Like who asks someone they haven't seen or talked to in over 40 years to be their MOH? Let alone, the last time I saw her, I was 5 or 6 years old. It's not like I was even an adult or we ever had an adult relationship. My brother feels the same, but he said that he'd be our uncle's best man, so now I feel like I HAVE to be the MOH.
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2023.05.31 16:58 RighteousUnknown Advice??
My wife has BPD… I never really knew what this meant, and frankly.. i still dont. Ive been reading some posts on here and really it is pretty terrifying.
Together 3 years, married nearly two. She has always been very codependent on me.. her “anxiety” being the cause. Let me start off with i love this woman, to the depths of my soul.. but im terrified that by loving her, im allowing her to rip me to shreds, sadly i dont think she even knows she is doing it either.. or maybe i am just that naive. I am a transgender man, i came out inside of our relationship, she was SO supportive at first.. and still is, at times. She was SAed at a young age, her mother died in front of her, tossed around from house to house of who ever would take her at the time. her sister has told me that shes crazy and it all is made up (aside from her mothers death) at the same time her sister aint too great or trust worthy either, she 100% trauma dumped a week into our relationship.. which at the time i thought was just her being super open and trusting me to know these things. she love bombed the fuck out of me, like i was golden to her could do no wrong, i was everything she had been searching for, etc. and lately.. things have, changed. Shes in therapy on her own accord even. But Since starting my transition i can not tell you how many times i have heard “thats such a man thing to say” “there’s that toxic masculinity”…. And it makes me feel like transitioning, the one thing that has made me truly happy in my own being, is something i never should have done.. because it ‘triggers’ her. Used to we intimately cuddled.. (if you catch my drift)like rabbits… sometimes more than i even could handle and she would even get upset and pout until i gave in and gave it to her if i did not want it… now, since my transition.. i have to beg for it basically.. all while she has told me recently that she would never date a man or a transman ever. shes only okay with it now because it is me. She makes comments about missing b00bs, and a woman’s soft skin… and i feel like I’ve become something that is just terrible.. my happiness with myself is being robbed. I finally decided to talk to her about this today, and basically i was told that it isn’t my transition, that she is just bored and she constantly needs something new and exciting and i just need to keep it exciting… that shes.. bored. Those words..are terrifying. For months i have begged her to talk to me, asked what is wrong, questioned my own worth… just to be told “i mean once you get going im present in it and its good hell the best I’ve ever had.. but im just bored so even getting in the mood is hard.”.
Um.. what? Like you have got to be kidding me… I walk through hell for this woman, i deal with her 10 year old daughter CONSTANTLY fighting me, reminding me that im not her dad, punching me in the face, screaming at me, telling me im not welcome here and need to leave that this isn’t my house… I deal with the sly comments about my transition that slice me straight across the jugular.. i take every last one of her mood swings and do so without hesitancy.. she has broken my tv, allowed her daughter to tear me down, hit stuff, cut herself with my testosterone needles (yes i do believe this was a purposeful stab to my transition in her mind, as myhundreds of pocket knives were readily available as well), compared me to her abusers, down played my depression….. and then she turns right around and picks me up with the softest most gentle words, the ones i long to hear… that she knows i long to hear… she has even came into groups like these and screen captured posts and sent me out of nowhere and been like this must be how you feel and im so sorry.. i dont know how you deal with me…. I am the problem… then within hours, literally hours.. it is the opposite. She has had me 1000% convinced that we are the same person, that her pain is one with mine and she knows my struggles, that she is an understanding right down to the core type person…. But then turns around and in moments of stress tells me i gaslight her.. knowing i have been in many situations where i have been gaslit my whole life.. and to be told im doing that to her when i know i am not… and good god is she amazing at turning ANYTHING she has done wrong into somehow making me feel like the one at fault… shes like this heaven-sent devil that feels so fucking good to have, but so fucking painful at the same time.
What do i do..
Guys… i feel like toxic waste… like i am worthless…
Any advice?
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2023.05.31 16:58 chillcatcryptid How to explain to young kids?
I'm 17, ftm, and am starting a job as a YMCA art camp counselor in a few weeks. My job and town are very accepting, (although a few kids at school who dont like me are jerks) and I'm very lucky.
However, my ability to pass seems to depend on the person, and I can't bind every day. If some kid asks me what's up, how do I explain it to them without trouble? I know I have to explain it in an age appropriate way, and I think I should keep it simple. I'm working with kids from 6 and up, but I don't know the exact range yet.
Some general ideas, tell me if they work:
- 'I was born a girl, but I knew I'm a boy so I'm changing myself to reflect that.'
- 'I'm trans, which is when you were born a girl but know you're a boy, or vice versa. (Depending on the age of the kid explaining non binary identities might be outside of my qualifications)
- 'Sometimes your brain and body doesn't match up with each other, and that feels terrible, so I'm working on it.'
If they ask why I'll just tell them nobody knows yet.
Any other ideas?
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2023.05.31 16:58 beloved-all-together Sister troubles
Hey y’all!
So I grew up with a mother with a very abusive husband. So the fact my sister keeps going back to an abusive man really triggers me.
Long story short, my sister (22F) she told me her and her boyfriend are taking a break and won’t be seeing each other for awhile, and ask if she could stay with me, I told her that I’m not condoning their relationship and that she will have 2 months to find a place because I’m not support her while she goes and does whatever she wants. And spends her money.
She is a nurse and can save the money for a place.
Later that week she informed me that he just wanted the be FWB, still hangout but not technically be “together.” I told her I was not the person to talk about this, and I don’t agree. I told her to start looking for apartments.
She then said that she broke it off cause she didn’t want to be FWB and she didn’t want to jeopardize mine and hers relationship, I accepted, and said you deserve better anyways.
A couple days later she calls me and says “now that Tyler and I are really broken up I can be honest about something. Tyler pulled out my hair and chocked me and that’s why we broke up. “ I informed her that if they get back together she can go live in her car, I’m not supporting an abusive relationship.
About a week later from that, she started going out saying she made “friends at work” and I was so happy she was going out and making friends, but it turns out she’s really been going to her EX’s.
And how she told me was that she lied about everything her ex did to her to make me hate him more.
So now I just feel like I wanted her out of my house, but I don’t want to throw he on the street because we were constantly kicked growing up and I don’t want to repeat the past from our childhood. But I just feel so betrayed.
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2023.05.31 16:58 Shadow13Body Music
How can I turn off the music in TMN ESWC? I can't seem to find an option in the launcher nor the game, moving the mouse to the upper corner doesn't bring up any menus like in TMNF.
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2023.05.31 16:58 a-throwaway-acc111 Should I tell my friend what his abuser said about him last year?
To give some context: I (M17) used to be friends with someone who will just be referred to as G(F17) throughout this post. We got along really well, however, as I got to know her more I ended up finding out that she is a literal abuser who justifies her actions by saying that the people who alleged her of abuse are all bigger than her and should’ve have just ‘shut her up’ (she is specifically an emotional abuser who has admitted to using suicide to keep her exes around) We are not friends anymore, I began talking to one of the people who she abused probably the most and has basically stalked, harassed and made fake rumors about for almost 2 years now. He’ll be referred to as S (M17).
When I was friends with her she posted on her private story on Father’s Day about H’s father, and how she hoped he killed himself because he has a deadbeat father. She then went into detail about specific events that happened between S and his father through social media. At the time, I laughed at this as she has flipped the story and made S seem like the abuser (I know now that S is not the abuser because unlike G, he has evidence that shows her being manipulative and threatening to kill herself and he was extremely emotional when he told me she was ‘going to leave him like his father did’) but now that I have completely cut her off from my life i’m debating whether or not I should tell him about this. Me and S have gotten very close very fast over the past couple of months and have bonded over having absent fathers recently. I feel incredibly guilty for all ready knowing about his trauma invoking his father and I don’t wanna keep any secrets from him if it litterally involves him, but I’m worried about how I should go about it. I’m not sure if he would want me to tell him over text or in person. We usually have important conversations in person, but I know this is a sensitive topic for him and I don’t want to make him have an emotional breakdown whilst at school, it would be kinda awkward to tell while hanging out outside of school and he might just straight up get pissed at me, and over text feels cowardly.
What should I do? Should I even tell him at all??
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2023.05.31 16:58 Nervous_Mongoose_138 I have a close friend that eats with her mouth open loudly, but I'm afraid I'll make her feel bad if I confront her!
Hello everyone :) I don't post often on this sub, but today I'm just not sure what to do. My elective at school had an early event and my teacher bought breakfast tacos. It was silent other than her eating, and I couldn't handle it. I walked out of the room. I feel bad for avoiding her today, bit it was stressing me out.
How have you all handled friends like this? Any advice?
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2023.05.31 16:58 cometduke20 Calorie Tracking f
I joined levels last week and honestly struggling to understand the benefit of it. Certain foods do spike my glucose but as I understand it, food will do that it’s how quickly it recovers.
One issue I have is that in order to track calories and macros you have to enter food twice. Does anyone have a workaround or an app that integrates?
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2023.05.31 16:57 GorkaGames I made a tutorial on how to Create an Interactive Voxel World in Unreal Engine 5 in a couple of minutes. You can do so much with this free plugin. Check it out!
2023.05.31 16:57 BrilliantNegative488 Spotting during longterm bc
Disclaimer: I'm not taking a progesterone-only pill, where it's usual in the beginning to have spotting or bleeding.
Hi! Soo, I had my surgery at the end of October 2022, diagnosed with Endo + Adeno. I've been having some more flare-ups during the last few weeks and was wondering why I had period-like craps (very light ones compared to the ones I got when I wasn't on bc though) the last few days. Today I started spotting. I've been taking my levonorgestrel + ethinyl estradiol birth control (combination pill, 0,15mg + 0,03mg), not sure what the name is in the US, for ~6 months now. I didn't have any spotting issues with it until now, I had to switch to this one because it's the only bc I tolerate and the mild version (0,1mg + 0,02mg) made me spot and bleed all the time when taking it longer than 2 months without a break.
So my question is: How do you handle those situations? Do you take a break or just go on and wait for the spotting to be over? Does it stop in your case? Or does it turn in to a period? How do you deal with that?
I am just so unsure because, of course, my specialist told me to not even think about taking a break because if I felt pressure in my lower abdomen like my uterus wants to get a period, that's actually an adeno flare-up, and also that if I get spotting, taking a break would make things much worse. And that I should call if the spotting would turn into a period to see if I'd really need a break. The thing is, I know that 6 months until the first spotting on a non-typical endo bc is quite an achievement, but the last time I started spotting under the milder version, it just wouldn't stop and I should have taken a break. I am sooo uncertain of how I should handle this and would be really thankful to hear some of your experiences!
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2023.05.31 16:57 GorkaGames I made a tutorial on how to Create an Interactive Voxel World in Unreal Engine 5 in a couple of minutes. You can do so much with this free plugin. Check it out!