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2023.03.21 02:57 Affectionate_Arm5498 Unknown problem killing my saves.

Need help with a problem I've had for months now. I've lost save after save after save...including just now.
Common factors noticed: 1. NPC aging in the background 2. Time of Day within the game, in this case after 3pm Sim time. (Teens/ kids come home from school) I'm sure there are more than what's listed, just very frustrated right now. I've cleaned out mods, CC to test, problem still happens. I've
repaired the game, uninstalled everything and started fresh with a
new game, new everything and kept mods and CC out. Problem
still happens... Literally unable to salvage save when I experience
The best way to describe the issue is well... When sims age up, items stop loading in the fridge, the sims picture disappears from the gui and can't select them. Maybe the video and pictures I've got will better explain it over my own words... maybe I need some time to cool off but I'm uploading the video and pictures for those who check this out..please let me know if you experience the same or similar things and if you know how to fix whatever plagues my game
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2023.03.21 02:56 AugustLightsBlue Need some non bias pov on this latest episode…

On mobile sorry for format.
My nc 50 year old mum had an absolute meltdown on the phone the other day when I live 1.4k miles away. Most recent episode.
Mind you, I have had a low contact relationship with my folks for the past 4 years now. I figured I’d make an appearance back home.
So here is where the phone call comes in. My mom has this apparent big plan to fly my dad and sister to Florida for his 50th to e celebrate it down there. Normally this wouldn’t be a big deal, but she asked me on my opinon on the idea. Her plan was to stay with HER friends there and HER family on HIS birthday as a surprise. She asked what I thought about it. I said calmly, stupidly of course, said to a legendary narcissist: “Well, maybe dad wants to spend it at home with his dogs, his friends, and reminding family?”
She imploded. It was just a simple response.
She raises her tone significantly and I swear I could feel hear anger 1.4k miles away.
then I said “ma, I just implied that it’s his birthday what if he wants to stay home”
Then for 12 minutes straight I got various insults, while tone getting louder and louder, then saying how much of a pos I am.
I shouldn’t have stayed on that long but I was curious if she has changed at all like she says she has. She would have continued and I hung up.
The best part is she asked my brother that morning if he wants to go and he said he can’t cuz he just bought a new car and can’t miss work. She lied to him and said “I talked to ray already and he wants to go!” That was a lie.
Am I the asshole for not telling my dad about her big plan and staying far from it? Also, if anyone is interested I’ll tell more narcissistic parent stories cuz it gets juicy.
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2023.03.21 02:56 investigatingheretic On the Undefined/Open Spleen

On the Undefined/Open Spleen
Like all undefined centers, the undefined Spleen has its gifts and its handicaps. It has immense potential as a place of victimization, and a profound potential as a center of wisdom and sensitivity. There is nothing or no one more physically sensitive than an undefined spleen. Such people have an immune system that is essentially open, and like a sponge, they soak up the general level of physical health and well-being wherever they go. There is a Human Design joke about undefined spleens, which is that they make wonderful doctors but lousy nurses. The joke hides a profound truth about the nature of an undefined Spleen, because being so open, it is a natural barometer of health in others, thus its great potential is diagnostic rather than soothing (which, in turn, is a benefit of a healthy defined spleen). The other side of the undefined Spleen is that it soaks up ill health as well as good health, which means that eventually, it becomes ill itself if it remains in an environment that is unhealthy.


Whenever you see an undefined Spleen center, you know two things about these people. They do not consistently feel good, and they are deeply impacted by fear. The undefined Spleen is here to process and learn from fear. It would be true to say that their whole life process is tested by fear, and as long as they accept this, they can become wiser and stronger. A person with a defined Spleen is not without fear, but it is under control, because due to the frequency of the Spleen center, which is about being in the now, the fear is constantly counterbalanced. However, undefined Spleens have to learn to see fear as their ally rather than their enemy. They also have to understand that in addition, they take in and magnify other people's fear. Thus if they deal with fear in a healthy way, they have to confront every single fear they have, going through them one by one, so that they become less and less afraid until the fear is gone. Each fear that they mastered makes them stronger and they can reach a point, eventually, where they are absolutely fearless. But first, they have to honor their fear without trying to suppress or fix it.


One of the greatest places of conditioning in Human Design is the undefined Spleen and its inconsistent pattern of feeling good and feeling bad. Because of this vulnerability, people with undefined Spleens can spend a lifetime being conditioned to feel good and bad by the energetics of others. If you have an undefined Spleen this does not mean that you will never feel good. What it means is that you will have to go through all the things in life that do not feel good, in order that you then learn about all the things and people that do make you feel good. With an undefined Spleen, you can become very sensitive to your environment, because you gain a vast amount of experience by taking in the ill health of others – be it mental, emotional, or physical. One golden rule of Human Design is that all human beings always seek out what they are not. For the undefined Spleen, feeling good can be the greatest trap of all, because whoever or whatever makes you feel good may not be right for you.
Imagine for a moment a woman with an undefined Spleen. This woman grows up feeling uncertain and fearful about her environment. Her husband has a defined spleen and also happens to be an alcoholic. Thus, every time the husband comes back into the house, through conditioning, the woman immediately begins to feel safe and good about herself again. However, the husband is a drunk and over time becomes abusive. Naturally, this relationship is unhealthy for the woman, but because of the conditioning to her undefined Spleen, she cannot escape the vicious circle. The very person that abuses her also gives her the illusion of stability and feeling good. Life is filled with such examples of co-dependent relationships, and the majority of them are because one partner has an undefined Spleen and the other has a defined Spleen. In such cases, it is typically the partner with the undefined center that becomes the neediest.
All human beings seek out what they are not. There is nothing more attractive to someone with an undefined spleen than the idea of being spontaneous. And there is nothing more dangerous to their well-being than being spontaneous. This is a basic mechanical truth for the undefined spleen, and it is their Golden Rule. These people simply are not designed to be spontaneous. They can never trust the now. Undefined spleen people ignorant of their own mechanics are immensely attracted to spontaneity, always trying to find the feel-good factor and make the fear disappear. But they pay a high price for that. In order to decondition an undefined Spleen, first of all, you have to overcome the drive and temptation to be spontaneous in life.


People with undefined Spleen centers are invariably interested in their own health or the health of others. If you have an undefined Spleen, your immune system is by nature vulnerable. However, being vulnerable does not mean that it has to be unhealthy or that it is in any way weak. It is very important again to remember that undefined centers always carry within them a potential for wisdom; in this case, to be wise concerning one's health and wellbeing. If someone with an undefined Spleen is living according to their design, they will be naturally cautious about what they eat and about what kind of medicines they use. They may tend to be much more holistic in their approach than someone with a defined Spleen. For instance, they are far more likely to have a greater tendency towards being a vegetarian, or towards homeopathy or alternative medicine.


The great gift of the undefined Spleen is sensitivity. This is not emotional sensitivity, but sensitivity through the body. Because they are open, these people can eventually become very clear about what kind of energies they are filtering. Many professional healers have an undefined Spleen center. When they step into somebody's aura, there is a spontaneous recognition that takes place through the connection. They can actually experience another person's illness. The undefined Spleen has the sensitivity to tell whether someone is healthy or ill, thus they are a kind of barometer for ill health in others. However, such wisdom and clarity only come when they do not identify with what is not them. In other words, they have to understand that they are absorbing and experiencing the ill health of others, and by taking it in, they can read it and thus either offer help or learn to avoid those very same people.
If people with an undefined Spleen try to identify with whatever they are feeling, they can easily become hypochondriacs and end up being paranoid about being infected by others. They often tend to assume that they are constantly ill. People with undefined Spleen centers have to make sure that they stay in the aura of sick people for only a short time. If they spend too much time around sick people, they themselves are likely to become ill.


The splenic system can be compared to a washing machine. You may fill it with dirty clothes, but if you do not plug it in, it will not wash anything. It is very important to understand that the Spleen is not a motor and therefore it cannot behave like one. However, the moment it is connected to a motor, it is immediately energized and begins to clean the dirty laundry! Thus, if you have an undefined Spleen center and it is suddenly defined by a planetary transit moving through your design, instead of feeling good, what's more likely to happen is that you may get ill. As soon as the process has passed through your system and your Spleen has done its work, you will have access to the feel-good. It is because of such planetary transits that undefined Spleens have regular natural clean-outs, becoming sick at almost the same time each year.


Defined versus Undefined: An example
Below we can see two examples of different Spleen configurations in children. It is often by watching children that we can learn the most about these centers and how they work. Child B, with the undefined Spleen, begins life with a far more vulnerable immune system than child A, who has a manifested Spleen (the defined Root motor fuels the process manifested in the Throat). Child B will get most of the childhood diseases: mumps, measles, what have you. If there is anything going around, this child will catch t. These are the first children in the class that come home with a cold.
Assuming child B is fortunate enough to have good healthcare and proper shelter, love, and a proper diet, and if they are allowed to recuperate fully, their immune system will grow stronger from each experience. One of the most important things to remember about children with undefined Spleens is that they should not be sent back into the world, sent back to school for example, until they have really healed from sickness. The moment their nose stops running is too early. You always have to give them a couple of extra days.
From Left to Right: \"Child A\" and \"Child B\"
This is very important for these children. Only if they are allowed to heal properly, will they build up a healthy defense mechanism. For example, child B catches a cold. The cold is one week coming, one week staying and one week going. But the moment that the one week of staying is over and the basic symptoms are gone, this is not the time to send the child back to school. This advice drives many parents crazy because they don't want their children under their feet. They have to go to work. They are so glad that their children go to school so that they can have a quiet day at home and do their thing. They do not want to have their children running around the house when they seem to be okay. However, this advice of allowing their child a couple of extra recovery days is vital for their long-term health. If the parents send them to school again too early, they will only come back a few days later, even sicker with the next illness, and this will hurt their immune systems way more.
Once an undefined splenic system deals with a virus successfully, that virus never has a chance again. In going through the healing process, the immune system develops the memory and the capability to handle that same virus again. This is the same premise as vaccination. We infect children with the virus so that their immune system recognizes it and learns how to defend against it. Thus, child B has the potential to live deep into old age as long as they are allowed to develop their immune response properly. In fact, child B has the kind of system (being undefined) that can actually allow them to get more and more healthy as they grow older. The extent of this possibility of old age depends, of course, on not being spontaneous. It is dependent on honoring the mechanics of their design.
Now, Child A has a so-called manifested Spleen center. You can see that the Spleen is connected to two motors (the ego and the root), which are in turn connected to the Throat. This is a very strong immune system that can take a lot of punishment, but it is not sensitive at all. Child A is less likely to catch all those childhood diseases, or even get sick all that often... Which of course does not mean that they will never get sick. However, when they do get sick, they get *very* sick. This is the kind of child that, for example, will develop an extremely high fever. Since they already have a defined immune system that is consistently working, when they do get sick, it shows that their immune system has really been overwhelmed. It is quite common for somebody with a defined Spleen like this to go through their whole life eating and imbibing whatever they like, seemingly without any repercussions—until one day, out of the blue, their system reaches a point of overload, and they die on the spot of a heart attack. Their immune system carried the load all of those years, keeping their physical problems veiled, only to finally collapse under the pressure.
Child A will most likely need strong modern medication such as antibiotics if they get ill since their body is equipped to handle such things. Child B however, may be better off with homeopathic medicine or herbs, which are gentler on their system. This is not to say that defined spleens always need antibiotics and undefined spleens should never take such things. These are simply generalizations that may help the parents of each child attune to their specific configurations. Child B with their undefined Spleen may not be able to handle modern medication. Their parents should consider carefully what they put into their bodies. Undefined Spleens are usually very much concerned about their diet, their environment, and the quality of the water and the air. Thus, you can see that it’s often the people with the undefined Spleen centers that are the healthier people in the long run because they actually and consistently care about their health. By design, they can live a healthy life with enough sleep and exercise and with a low toxin intake.
Child A with their powerfully defined Spleen center may very well grow up with little interest in health education because they may take their health for granted and assume that it will always be like this. One thing is certain; they will never have the kind of empathy for a wide range of illnesses and/or diets that child B has.
The important thing to see from the above comparison is that there is no good or bad in Human Design. It is not better to have a defined Spleen or an undefined Spleen. They are simply two different journeys in life. The most important thing of all is to understand the nature of your own Spleen system so that you can take the appropriate measures to safeguard your health. Above all, however, health hinges upon us living out the correct strategy and inner authority in our individual design. It does not matter how much you know about health, if you don't follow your strategy and inner authority, you won't ever be truly healthy.


NATURAL STATE WHEN ALONE General well-being. Sensitivity to well-being in oneself & the environment.
HEALTHY STRATEGY OF THE AUTHENTIC SELF ("The Gifts") Has a reliable immune system that maintains the body's equilibrium throughout illness and health. Can trust hunches and intuition in the now, and can act spontaneously if the spleen is the authority. Has a fixed way of processing fear, leading to a deep inner sense of security. Accepts the inconsistency of physical well-being, knowing that it is what makes it sensitive and highly attuned to the body's needs. Adept at diagnosing ill health and disease in others or in the environment. Is not afraid of fear itself but learns to be wise as to its nature by not suddenly reacting to it or trying to fix it. Enjoys the aura of defined spleens without becoming dependent. ls never spontaneous.
UNHEALTHY STRATEGY OF THE NOT-SELF ("The Traps") A sense of invulnerability can lead to an overloading of the system and sudden, serious, and unforeseen health problems. Not listening to hunches when the spleen is the main authority or following hunches with a defined solar plexus can lead to physical problems, disease, and danger. Constantly chases after feeling good and tries to fix its own inconsistency through diet, therapy, relationships, or helping others. Gets caught up in how it feels physically, "becoming its own problem". Tries to be spontaneous in order to feel better and make the fear go away. Will sacrifice its own security for the sake of well-being. Becomes dependent and possessive in relationships.
John Martin on the Open Spleen


  • The Spleen center is our oldest awareness center, our body consciousness.
  • Its frequency is in the now and its fears are about survival.
  • The main themes of the Spleen center are health, well-being/”the feel-good”, survival, and fear.
  • Biologically, it relates to the lymphatic system, the spleen, and the splenic cells.
  • The function of the Spleen center is to keep us healthy and alive.
  • A defined Spleen has to honor its instincts to stay healthy.
  • An undefined Spleen has to pay attention to what it is holding on to because it tends to hold on to what is unhealthy.
  • The Golden Rule of the undefined Spleen is that Spontaneity can kill you!
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2023.03.21 02:56 BinaryRaincloud State of the Homelab 2023

State of the Homelab 2023

Homelab 2023
Just finished reorganizing and cleaning up the rack. I've been itching to share with the community as I have far too many hours into completely re-working the homelab since moving.
From top to bottom (looking at the back):
  • Juniper QFX5100-24q 40gbe switch (Core)
  • APC PDU (switched, network monitored version)
  • Panduit Cable Management
  • APC PDU (non switched/non monitored)
  • Juniper EX2300-48T (Gigabit access switch for back of rack)
  • Palo Alto PA-440 (small but mighty firewall!)
  • x5 HPE Simplivity DL380 Gen9 Nodes (specs below)
  • x2 HPE StoreOnce 5100 disk shelves connected via HBA to TrueNAS Core VM
  • APC 30a 3000VA UPS w/ network management
  • StarTech 48u open-frame rack
HPE Simplivity:
Only 3 of the 5 nodes are current hot. I condensed the SSDs from the bottom two to max out what is supported in deployment. I need to order about 15 more SSDs. Interestingly, they are just 1.92TB SATA (Samsung and Micron) SSDs.
For those of you who don't know much about Simplivity... It's a hyperconverged platform that HPE bought years back. There's an internal accelerator card and HBA that connect to a custom Ubuntu Linux VM. It groups your nodes together and presents the storage to VMware. It keeps 2 copies of your VMs unless you explicitly create single-copy datastores. It takes periodic snapshots of your VMs as backups at the storage level similar to NetApp WAFL filesystem (it seems). I can restore or duplicate VMs in seconds. It's nuts.
This cluster was a challenge to get running without an active support agreement. Thankfully the simplivity community was wonderful. See my what I learned post here:
Specs per node:
  • 2x E5-2640 v4 @ 2.40GHz
  • 768gb DDR4 RAM
  • 12 1.92TB SSDs
  • 40gbe FlexibleLOM Network Cards (not standard with Simplivity)
  • ESXi 7
I picked up two of these HPE StoreOnce disk shelves. Quieter than the NetApp DS' that I've used in the past and them matching appearance was a huge plus. I loaded them up with 12tb Seagate Exos drives and connected them via a 12gb SAS HBA to a TrueNAS VM (see imgur picture).
TrueNAS Core VM:
  • 8 cores
  • 128gb RAM
  • Boot disk on SSD and replicated through Simplivity on VMware
You might have guessed it, but the TrueNAS ZFS array holds uhhh.... Linux ISOs....
Power Consumption:
Seeing about 10a or 1134w @ 120v currently. I'm down from the 24-27a I'd be running constantly in the past. (many many many 4tb disks for storage) -- I have a dedicated 30a circuit ran to the rack.
Heat Dissipation:
Being the bulk of my storage is now SSD, I'm no longer heating the house with the rack. :)
What am I doing with all this gear?
I've been rebuilding after moving. I decided to mostly start over minus my AD domain and Exchange server. Here's where I'm at:
  • 2 domain controllers
  • Exchange 2019 Server + M365 Hybrid
  • AD Connect VM
  • PRTG for monitoring
  • 4 Docker hosts + Portainer
  • NetApp ONTAP VM for domain SMB shares
  • PFsense VM for VPN tunnels
  • Plex VM on Linux
    • 128gb of RAM for transcoding on ram
    • Quadro P2200
    • Metadata disk presented via SSD on Simplvity with compression/dedupe/replication
    • OTA tuners to deliver TV to my family members over VPN tunnel
  • Print server
  • Various other VMs primary just for messing around
Heavy AD environment for experience. I have VPN tunnels to all family members. They lean on some of the AD services and M365 integrations.
I also have VPN tunnels to a few friends to keep Plex as private as possible. With the recent YouTube TV rate increases, I am now delivering OTA TV to my family members via Plex.
Upcoming Projects:
  • Home assistant for my house and family members
  • VMware Horizon
  • Some other Plex supporting services

Hope you all enjoy a some clean cable management and homelab porn. As always, I appreciate everyone's support. :)
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2023.03.21 02:56 Same-Owl-5811 i wont be with my bf on our 1yr anniversary because im scared to go home, should i just suck it up and go?

i moved out last year for college. right now its the longest ive gone without seeing my family, about three months. it has been wonderful, the best year of my life in no small thanks to my boyfriend. my bf and i planned to go back for spring break, but during that break is our one year anniversary. i decided to go but in the days following that i was super anxious all the time, heart beating and that fluttery feeling in my chest. i was crying a lot too. i couldnt stop thinking about what home is like. i dont get physically abused but im used as a therapist, and theres always a lot of chaos and stress going on in my home. nobody really likes each other or is able to laugh with each other except me and my mom, but she uses me as a therapist and a best friend which for some reason hurts less over the phone than in person. in person it hurts so bad i can feel it in my chest. everybodys always complaining or angry or crying about something. i know ill wake up everyday to chaos, heart beating fast, and go to sleep with that same anxiety. i wont be verbally berated or anything cause im kind of a ghost, but its like im scared of the aura?energy? of that place. it wouldnt be much of a break.
i made the decision not to go, although i still need to cancel my flight. my boyfriend is really sad about this decision and i feel really bad. i want more than anything to be with him on our anniversary, but this anxiety became so bad. i was scared of something i couldnt explain, so much so that its more relieving to be without my boyfriend for nine days and miss our anniversary than it is to even think about going back home. i got so scared these nights that i needed magnesium, marijuana, and 2 benadryl to fall asleep. i had stress dreams that woke me up in the middle of the night breahtless when i already always wake up with tight shoulders and a tight jaw. ill be back for summer, but right now i am just very fragile and recovering from an eating disorder that i desperately want to relapse back into. the sick part of my brain is telling me i need to be alone forever and starve. i just need a little more time, i feel. my family makes my ED urges much worse.
i feel like im disappointing everyone. my family, my bfs family (who are the loveliest people i have ever had the pleasure of meeting) and my bf all want me to go home, and i want to acknowledge that kindness, but the thought is so terrifying and i feel so relieved that ive decided not to go.
am i a bad person for this? my boyfriend was really sad and im really sad to miss our anniversary. i love him so much, and he conpletely understands why i dont want to go and he supports me unconditionally, but i hate seeing his sadness and disappointment. i really really do want to see him on our 1 year, but this fear of home that i cant even explain well is overriding that desire. do i need to overcome this fear? how bad is it to miss our one year all over some baseless anxiety? should i just suck it up and go? i feel so guilty.
sorry for the long post. thank you if you read all this
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2023.03.21 02:56 elcapitan58 My friend cut me off out of nowhere and I’m completely heartbroken.

On mobile so apologies for formatting.
Title pretty much says it all.
I was having a rough week last week and a very good friend of mine invited me to visit her for a bit. It was a fun time, but some stuff happened near the end, and I ended up leaving in a very emotional state due to a panic attack without saying bye.
I got home to discover myself blocked on the app we primarily use to communicate. For whatever reason, I wasn’t blocked on a different one, but all that’s really doing is giving me false hope I can fix things later on.
I have no idea what truly happened and I’ve been racking my brain for the past 48 hours to no avail. I have so many theories and any of them could be true. The worst part is that there’s legitimately nothing I did that I believe warrants being cut off without explanation. It’s just stunning me. And it came literal hours after she talked about how much she trusted me.
I’m just heartbroken. Truly devastated. We didn’t even talk. I just apologized over text and asked if we could discuss what happened the next day. Never happened. Got this instead and it’s tearing me apart.
I’m not used to this feeling either. I’ve only lost 2 friends in the last 3 years, and I wasn’t this close with them. What a horrible feeling this is.
Life just sucks sometimes. Some people are telling me to give them some space and try to contact again in a week or two. But it might be over. My heart is legitimately in pieces.
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2023.03.21 02:56 Ded2All The emotional wave shifted…

I had my mind occupied for the better part of the day. Busy from the moment I got in till I got home. I didn’t think of you much in that time and it was nice. Your absence in my mind was a momentary relief though.
The solace of loneliness and nothing to do meant you came back. But it was a hard return. I barely stopped sobbing no more than a 1/2 hour ago. My chest is tight, lungs are raw, my eyes sting and feel puffy. I’m angry and confused and all I want is to scream your name till some cosmic force responds and either makes your memory fade or kills me.
I’m indifferent to which and honestly I’d favor the latter. This isn’t fair. I dont understand how it’s so easy for people to shut down so completely and walk out of someone’s life like they were never there. There should be some closure or something. Just because you were done and stopped loving me didn’t mean I could do the same. I have so many questions and I know I’ll never get an answer. What’s the trick? How did you shut it off? The emotions and concern for me? How? I need to know so I can do the same and move on!
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2023.03.21 02:55 Cpsango [USA-NC] [H] N64 games, Switch games, Switch Pokemon Oled NEW (PAL) console, used switch console, Lego Star Wars, PayPal, Venmo [W] PayPal FF, Nintendo Eshop giftcard

Hello everyone! I have some games/consoles for sale. I am buying some games as well. I am also interested in Nintedo Eshop giftcards!Please let me know if you have any questions.
I am looking for the following JP games (loose is okay but might be more inclined towards cib):

Let me know if you have any questions!
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2023.03.21 02:55 Material_Weight_7954 Feel like a monster but I’m losing my mind

My mother moved into my home when I was 35 and she was 65. It’s been seven years now and I’m a shell of the person I once was. I work full-time as a nurse and have a small child and I feel like my caregiving duties never end. My mother is a brittle Type 1 diabetic with rheumatoid arthritis and has had multiple falls. This past weekend she really pushed me to my limit and I completely blew up on her so now I’m feeling like a jerk. She’s super stubborn about caring for herself and admitting when she’s having health problems; she prefers to ignore them and wait for someone (me) to swoop in and fix things. Last year she began having chronic wounds that she didn’t tell me or my spouse about (a nurse and a doctor!)- until we noticed drainage seeping through her pants leg. That resulted in me ferrying her to appt after appt, managing her dressings at home after I got off a 12-16 hour shift, and finally a few nights in the hospital where she complained the entire time even though she was basically treated like a VIP thanks to my wife and my connections at the hospital. I thought we had finally turned a corner until this Friday when I went to an appt with her and she admitted to the doctor that her wounds were much worse…she had never even given me a heads up and lied when I asked her about them. Then we had planned a weekend away and she told me she had “just tested” for Covid and “it’s just a cough”….surprise! We all have Covid now. Then her continuous glucose monitor sensor stopped working and guess who didn’t bring a spare or her backup glucometer? The final straw was when I went to check on her blood sugar when we got back home and she told me that she hadn’t checked in 3 days because her glucometer battery was dead. I had just sent the non-sick family member to the drugstore and specifically asked if she needed diabetes supplies!! I completely lost it and ended up telling her to use her “f***ing brain”. Now I feel like the worst human ever even though I’ve apologized fr my language,etc. I just feel so sick and awful and I have to watch my daughter while trying not to get her sick too and I’m just so very tired. It’s putting strain on my marriage but my mother literally has no one else and next to no resources. Thanks for listening. I just needed to vent.
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2023.03.21 02:55 ajthth Items 4 Sale

Hi, everyone!
I have a couple items for sale: - Signed Lover - $500 obo - Lover (Live From Paris) Vinyl - $180 - Midnights (Lavender) Vinyl - $20 - TS Instax Camera - $300
I’m located in the US but can ship anywhere! :) pls send me a chat if you’re interested in anything!
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2023.03.21 02:55 The_ThrowawayChild Just found out that my "dad" isn't my dad…. & My biological father has been in contact with my mother my whole life but never reaches out. Just need to vent.. .

Hi all,
Thank you for taking the time to read if you so choose. I just need to get this off of my chest before I have another breakdown.
As the title states, I have been dealing with this situation all of my life & it has finally come to a head. I already silently struggle with an array of mental health issues and can feel myself spiraling with this new revelation. I have no one else to talk to & just need to get this out to help with my healing process.
I'll try my best to keep it short and sweet... but chances are this will be a bit of a long
Here goes:
All my life I have always felt like the odd one out in my family. I've always felt like something was off or missing about my place in the family dynamic & my parents notably treat me differently than my two younger siblings.
I'm a 31 year old female currently estranged from said family after putting up with lifelong physical, emotional, medical and most recently financial abuse from namely my mother who seems to have some sort of grudge against me.
I cut her off after the last round of abuse resulted in her and my stepfather verbally attacking me after I finally lashed out about the large lump sum of cash she stole from my bank account once when I was away for about a year. Luckily, the bedroom door was locked at the time. Otherwise, I was in deep fear of what they would physically do to me if that barrier wasn't there. I wouldn’t put it past them as I often feel like my mother wants me dead or at the very least homeless.
But I digress, that happened two years ago. Luckily my apartment lease wasn’t up like they thought it was and I has somewhere to return to. I have been no contact ever since and shunned from the family. Every time I've set a boundary with her, she slanders my name to my whole family and they stop talking to me too. All the while she’ll secretly harass me from various email accounts with sappy promises & “apologies” until the manipulation has me crawling back.
This time is different though. I took my power back and built a firm foundation by myself. I'm finally at the point where I don't care to maintain those relationships anymore and have come to terms with the fact that I will have to continue on my path to becoming successful alone in order to protect my mental health. And I'm okay with that.
Since then, I have slowly been making strides and getting better. In the meantime, I have gotten completely sober from all drugs and alcohol and I've developed a routine that makes me happy. I feel like I'm finally in a healthy mental space. But there's a problem that is bothering me, and the older I get it becomes more blatantly obvious.
I can't ignore this anymore.
Growing up, my mother would make "jokes" about an old childhood friend of hers that she used to date. His family is still very much so intertwined with my mother's and the way my mother gushes over the man, one can only assume he was her first love or something. She would frequently tell me when he was in town and show me his highschool yearbook pictures saying, "There goes your daddy," or whenever he was in the area , "I just talked to your daddy." As a kid, I kind of used to “laugh” it off but I can admit that it had made me very curious about him and I was always intrigued by photos she showed me of him.
My hometown is very small so everyone knows everyone. With all my mother’s side of the family being a grade school teacher, we were very well known around various schools. One time in the 6th grade, I had a substitute teacher with very long hair like mine and the same lighter-skinned complexion & mixed features greet me as I walked in class with, "Hey, Niece!". I later found out that this same woman is my bio dad's sister.
It's like everyone is in on this cruel joke except for me.
Anyway, when my mother conceived me she was in college in our hometown and chasing behind the man I thought was my father, but he was admittedly a player and she was admittedly “wild.” They both would frequently break up and "cheat" on each other during summer breaks when he would go back home.
Well. I traced the date of my conception back to 20~ June 1992. Summer break.
The glaring issue here is that my non-bio dad has very strong genes. Everyone on his side of the family looks alike. Both my little brother and sister look just like him, act like him & have a heftier body build where I'm more petite. They look more African American and have a tighter curl pattern whereas I often get mistaken for Puerto Rican or mixed. They even have a strong bond where as I can't seem to connect with my “dad” and I am often put off a bit whenever I have tried to spend time with him. He only talks to me about women like I’m some old college buddy & I’m just not interested in hearing about that. Especially if I’m supposed to be his child.
I'm also the only child he and my mother have physically put their hands on. I've been punched in the face, slapped and beat with belts, etc. My “dad” never speaks up or tries to protect me and often believes any rumor my mom tells him even though they are divorced and the “kids” are all grown. They also still financially provide for my grown siblings, but any time I've asked for help I'm given excuses. I've had to provide for myself my whole life and it's been a struggle but I maintain.
As I stated, my siblings look just like their dad and the only resemblance I kind of share is my hair texture, but even then my bio dad's family & I share a looser curl pattern and we very much have more "European" features whereas both of my "parents" clearly look African American. It’s a running joke that I’m “adopted”.
It’s always hit or miss when I ask people for advice & when I try to talk to my siblings about it they gaslight me out of believing that we don’t share the same father. But as I grow older and my face matures, the differences are too hard to miss & raise a lot of questions.
Recently, I found myself looking at my bio dad's facebook photos again, which I tend to do when I'm really stuck in my head. He's friends with my mom on Facebook & when we were in contact, she showed it to me. I was looking at some photos of myself, observing the changes due to aging and I noticed that me and this guy literally make the same exact face/pose when taking selfies. It's a face I do subconsciously & it's a detail that's easy to miss if you're not looking but once you see it you can't unsee it. If you compared side by side photos, I’m like the female version of him.
I compared our smiles, teeth, hairline, forehead, side profile, nose, eyes, etc. on the phone and in the mirror & we look like twins. One thing my mother always alluded to as well was that "I have my daddy's chin." Now that I've lost a significant amount of baby fat in my face and my cheekbones are more prominent, I see that we share the exact same prominent jawline and dimples. I found one of his sisters on his page as well, and we definitely favor one anothe share features as well. My gut just tells me that this is my family.
At first, I was excited as I came to the realization of this and felt like after a long time of feeling lost and out of place I was on the right track of figuring out who I am. Those feelings were immediately shut down when I realized, this man who is in constant contact with my mother and that I am positive has seen me and knows what I look like because all she does is flood facebook with pictures of us as a "perfect little happy blended family unit". If people only knew the truth about her ways. They would run from her as well. For this, I know he has seen me and knows about me. It just crushes me to think about everything I've had to endure from my parents growing up and about how life could've been. I was always a bright ambitious kid with big dreams, but after a lifetime of having my dreams shut down by both sides of my "family" I often struggle with finding motivation/ self-worth.
By the looks of it, my bio dad is a successful businessman & has a wife as well as 3 other children now. It's bittersweet knowing that I have other siblings, but I wander day to day all alone struggling to keep myself together. I find myself crying most nights pleading to the Universe for my father to please come get me, hoping that somewhere in his heart, our blood, & our connected DNA that he would hear my cries...
But the truth is, if he wanted to he would.
My mother went through a similar situation with her father who wouldn’t claim her because of my grandma’s “craziness” at the time. I was there when my mom finally met him in her later 30s. He ended up abandoning her again after his wife and kids disapproved of the relationship. WE never saw him again.
I can’t help but think that the same thing would happen if I were to reach out.
Also my sexual orientation & my physical appearance makes me doubt that he will accept me even more.
I know that these are my own assumptions, and a defense mechanism I use to mentally escape the fact that we are not in contact but after years of getting caught up in a cycle abusive relationships and various deep betrayals I just can’t handle anymore abandonment right now.
& I also can’t help but to think my mother did this to me intentionally to make me suffer like she does. She doesn’t have her real dad so I deserve the same pain. That that’s why she purposefully rubs salt in the wound by alluding to him & his absence in my life all the time.
But like I said, if he wanted to he would.
He knows who I am and where I'm at. He’s even lived 15 minutes down the road from me at one point. Not to be cliche, but I can't help but feel like that Fresh Prince episode where cried to Uncle Phil, "Why doesn't he want me?"
I'm slowly moving along with radical acceptance. I'm focusing on my Spirituality, and am on the brink of finally opening the business I’ve been dreaming about. But today was one of those days that I just couldn't hold it in anymore. & My kitten is looking at me like she's gonna call for a 5150 hold on me at any moment.
In conclusion, thanks again for listening. I'm open to advice if anyone so chooses, but it really just feels so much better to write this all down.
All I have left to say is, please hug your children and tell them you love them.
It really does matter in the long run.
Wishing you all the best.
TL:DR; Why does my father not want me?
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2023.03.21 02:54 RosePinkGoth should i move out? (slight update)

To sum up my original post. I(f18) wanna move out and live with my girlfriend and her family who live about 20 or so minutes away, and I'm planning to do this at the end of the school year when I go to college. My mentality abusive mom wants me to stay just cus and my dad wants me to stay because he doesn't want me to end up like him and my mom when they left home early (my mom going to an abuser and my dad being more or less homeless).
So some people in the comments told me I shouldn't let my parents know I'm planning to move, which I have more or less done. I agreed to stay and live at home and that I'll live in the basement so I have more of my own space.
Someone also brought up that I will be cut off financially, which my mom said she would do and that she would only help with college and I was on my own with car insurance, phone bills and gas. But now I have to help pay for my car insurance and gas.
The plan is more or less to get a job well still in school, somewhere close by. Then when I move with my girlfriend I'll go to my parents once or twice a week so they still think I live there and I'm just spending a lot of time with my girlfriend. I'll also leave my job and find one closer to my gf's house.
The only problem is this, my mom won't give me any of my papers, such as my birth certificate, social Security number, none of it. When I asked for it, she more or less told me. "Mom's hold onto their children's stuff until their 20 something" I don't remember what age she said, but it was somewhere in the 20's. So yeah, any ideas on how to do that would be sweet!
I know this isn't much of an update, but it's gonna be a while before I can post about me moving out and all that, and I just wanted to give some kind of update and get some advice and input on what is going on so far. Thank you for reading and hopefully commenting! All kinds of input is appreciated!
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2023.03.21 02:54 russellc6 Sharing my gear tunnel storage option

Sharing my gear tunnel storage option
MTM ACR8-72 Crate Utility Box
Can find on sale for about $20 if watch around. (Amazon, Midway, manuf site, etc)
I can fit 3 of these across. This is like their medium size the larger 12" tall can't fit through the opening. Can still fit more on top like folding chairs etc if needed.
I have used these for years in my Jeep to store stuff, they are lockable and stackable. Some I keep in there full of recovery gear and emergency water bottles and yes granola (in case adventure too much). I keep a few empties to load up with items I will need for the current adventure (sandwiches, specific gear I don't always take, etc) Nice to be able to take in house and quick load before go.
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2023.03.21 02:54 hondaru94 Is my Asian Wood scorpion fat, or gravid?

Routine trip to Petco a town over to get some Dogfood while I was out, and noticed this chubby scorp looking pretty lonely. I inquired about her and shed been in there quite awhile, how long they weren't sure. I had a black emperor years ago, and felt it was time to rescue another soul from its lonely retail prison.
Brought her home, filled the 10gal enclosure with 4inches of woodchips, and have attempted to entice her with small crickets throughout the day. Doesn't seem hungry, and shes barely moved . Temp is about 85f and humidity is 70.
And compared to my black emperor, way chubbier than any scorp I've ever seen. Seems almost bloated from the inside out. I'm curious as to if she may be pregnant. Attached are pics and the best underside pic I could get for sexing. Any observations or advice are appreciated. Thank you in advance.
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2023.03.21 02:54 amp107 Zak’s Tweets in Nick’s Video

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2023.03.21 02:54 j2pwjhdd Olivet College Baseball Player Shot After Game in Ohio: ‘Challenging Time for All Involved’

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2023.03.21 02:54 Alarmed-Skin-7964 Marriage after baby

We are new parents with a 7 months old, I’m definitely getting into a flow of things, which is constant changes and challenges. I would say I’m pretty happy and lucky with everything, I balance the cooking and cleaning and taking care of the baby all day and all night, and the dog we have.
He works very hard at work, and he hates the work so he finally quit, which I’m happy for him, just to see the relief on his face, we also worry about finances as he doesn’t know what to do next, but I always feel like we can and will figure things out. He has a lot on his shoulders, I get it.
We discussed that I would stay at home until at least our son is 4 years old, and I’m also thinking about changing career to work in a school my son would be going to, I just want to get involved, I want to know how the school system is because last I heard it wasn’t that great.
Anyways I find myself at times being short with my husband, I don’t like that, sometimes I know it’s the lack of sleep catching up to me and everything he seems to say annoys me… but it’s me. I don’t know what I can do to change this, I want to be nicer and more human like, I really do feel like I operate like a robot sometimes, like I just want to get things done, I’m on this schedule. Because I show my love thur food and him coming home to a clean place, but I’m just not affectionate enough, and yes we do have sex, I make sure of that, I know it’s important (3 times a week), just would like advice on maybe something I can change so I’m not a robot with a slight attitude at times.
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2023.03.21 02:54 lissaJazzy College student looking for summer housing, corporate housing vs. housing stipend/bonus

Hello all, I (20F) am a junior at a women’s college working in settle for three months. The housing stipend will be 10k before taxes and I wanted to get your opinion. )To be honest, I don’t really feel comfortable going through sub leading process just because I’m not really familiar with how that works)
So far I’ve been looking at apartments on “the blue ground” website. And I found like Junior one bedroom apartments/studios for about ~$7500 for the summer.
I’ve also looked at Airbnb’s for about $5000 for the summer.
I am in a serious relationship, 4 years) and I am hoping to have my partner visit for like weeks at a time. And explore Seattle with him (24M).
I’m also hoping to buy a car when I graduate from college and still be able to pocket the remaining ~$2000 would be really helpful for me.
I am apprehensive about corporate housing because I be placed with like an intern that I don’t know or don’t get to choose. I’m also apprehensive about having like friends from home and my boyfriend is it during the summer from out of state. I haven’t had the best luck with making friends at my college, so I think I could be a good opportunity to make friends, but I’m also apprehensive and have a bit of anxiety.
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2023.03.21 02:54 Less_Grade_9417 Diary of the guy who prints NHS ID badges

08:45 - Where am I?? I throw off the arms of the women I went home with last night and pull on my jeans. The whole weekend’s a blur and my head pounds. Better scarper before they wake up and start asking questions: the fewer people who know what I do, the better…..
09:00 - What city am I even in?? What day is it? I light a fag and head to maccy Ds for a sausage McMuffin.
09:10 - A grease-stained newspaper tells me it’s Wednesday! When I read my horoscope and it hits me like a sledge hammer: Surely not? Venus and Jupiter aligned following a blue moon on a Wednesday? That can only mean one thing - time to do my job.
10:00 - Hop on a train. Should get back to my base hospital just in time…..
12:00 - Paracetamol for lunch. I head to my office and fire up good ol’ betsy - the ID printer from 1983. Should be all warm and ready by 13:00. Sign on door says I start at 12:30, but let them eat cake I say!
13:00 - long queue of disgruntled personnel. First person says they’re Dr A. White, a consultant nephametologist or some shit. They’re upset they’ve worked at the trust for 3 weeks with no ID and they’ve had to disrupt “ward round” to see me. I consider throwing them out of my office but instead I just smile and decide ol’ Betsy’s going to make a nice little spelling mistake with this one!
13:30 - I printed off 5 ID badges and soon it’s time for a break. I flip a sign that says i’ll be back.
14:00 - more printing takes me to 14:15 - the end of my shift. Tiring work! Someone arrives desperate for a badge but I tell them they’ll have to wait for the next midweek inter-planetary conjunction.
14:45 - as I leave the hospital the police pile onto my floor. “Freeze! We’re looking to the ID guy! Hands above you’re head!” I show them an ID badge to prove I’m Dr A. Whipe, consultant nephrologist, and they let me go. Suckers.
15:00 - as I leave the hospital I pull off my fake moustache and stop limping. A Ferrari full of hot women pulls up and asks if I want to party. I guess I’ll be starting my weekend early again!
15:20 - as we drive off into the sunset my phone rings. Withheld number. I turn the music down and answer my phone: ‘hello, neurosurgical reg’.
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2023.03.21 02:53 j2pwjhdd Olivet College Baseball Player Shot After Game in Ohio: ‘Challenging Time for All Involved’

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