This is a bit of a wall of text, so apologies and thank you in advance for reading!
I picked up my first foster pup (6 months old, never had been in a home before) almost three weeks ago from the shelter, with the intention to foster to adopt. I've been wanting a dog for a long time, but wasn't quite ready to make the big decision. When she got home, she was really difficult with my cats and just generally was so much more work than I thought. I only had a week to make the adoption call, so I emailed the shelter that I'd prefer to just foster her and not keep her long term.
It's been almost two weeks since then and I'm really enjoying having her around, even though we have difficult moments. She has rough separation anxiety that we're working on, but it's prevented me from getting on with my normal routines which has been hard for me. She also has aggravated my cats quite a bit, and has been a bit too playful with my older cat who has asthma, which has been instigating asthma attacks. She's not great at being in her crate when I leave the house (thankfully i'm home all day as i work remote), and she's only now getting to a point where she doesn't need to be next to me every moment. She's getting better little by little with the separation anxiety, and with the cats, and her behavior is improving too. We're also working hard on training and socializing.
I've loved having a little bud to go with me everywhere - it's exactly what I had hoped for in a dog. We've gone on hikes, to coffee shops, friend's houses, my favorite trails, petco, etc, already! She loves riding in the car and is always down to explore. She's a weirdo and so sweet and innocent and fun. She's also a very strong and active pup already, which is really keeping me active. I have issues with anxiety and agoraphobia that have decreased significantly since she's been in the picture - she's getting me out of the house and i'm meeting other dog owners and she's having a great time. Most importantly, my mental health has improved pretty substantially with her around. I have no intentions of seeking out romantic relationships in my life and she seems to fill a lot of the needs that I have for companionship.
My main fears are ability to travel, finding freedom outside of the home to go back to my own routine of gym/yoga/etc, and complications in where I'd be able to live moving forward because I want to accommodate her. Even in my very small apartment, we're out and about all day every day, go to the dog park in my neighborhood, constantly exploring, and just generally on the move.
Two days ago, she got her first adoption application and it got me so worried that she'd be taken out from under me. The guy was nice, but it wasn't a fit thankfully, and the whole time she was meeting him she was looking at me and I kept thinking it would be so weird to see her go with anyone else. I think we've bonded pretty substantially and she really feels like my dog. It feels like we're a pair.
I think it's a bit obvious which way i'm leaning, but I could use some advice on if it's the right decision to keep her. Her adoption fees are waived this week through the shelter also, so i'm thinking about just putting in my adoption application this week and if things don't work out down the road, still seeking out a home for her, almost thinking of it as a long-term foster. I just worry about letting her go without having fully made this decision.
TLDR: Really love this dog, even though she is cramping my lifestyle a bit more than expected. Trying to decide whether foster failing is the right choice.

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The special counsel investigating Donald Trump's efforts to overturn the 2020 election has subpoenaed members of the former president's White House staff believed to be involved in the firing of the administration's top election security expert, The New York Times reported on Wednesday.
Trump fired former Cybersecurity and Infrastructure Security Agency Director Christopher Krebs via Tweet weeks after he - you guessed it - said the election was legitimate.
Sources who spoke to the Times said the special counsel is probing witnesses for information regarding "Loyalty" tests, and efforts within Trump's administration to root out officials whose devotion to Trump was deemed insufficient.
Trump fired Krebs less than two weeks after the 2020 election.
In addition to examining Trump's efforts to undermine the election, Smith has also been tasked with investigating the former president's handling of classified documents following his departure from office.
Rolling Stone reported on Tuesday that Trump has already informed advisers of his plans to purge federal law enforcement agencies of individuals involved in the investigations into his conduct.

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Okay, I'll try to make it short.
I live in pa, in a trailer park. The house next to mine was demolished before we move in. They're now digging up the pad and grass next to my property to put in the new house.
I already went to court with the park years ago over my lattice fence I have around my yard, the judge ruled in my favor to keep the fence up. The new house is going to go up the against my fence, and this isn't even including the shed! They're over trying to over take my lot that I already, and have been paying for for over 8 years. I agreed to take a 3 foot section of my fence back, but can they take away my whole yard for this new house coming in? I own the house, rent the pad, pay property taxes, and am responsible for my yard care! What can I do? I feel like they're going to try to bully me into giving up my yard..

Hey there! How are you doing this Hump Day? Is your name Mike? Cause if so some camel keeps saying your name. I'm lame and make corny puns/jokes but I embrace it. Maybe you can too?
Quick facts about myself: introverted, weird, morbid, weeb, plushie collector, gamer, bookworm, D&D player, and well basically still figuring out how I'm allowed to adult but also happy that i can buy all the nerdy things I couldnt before haha. Freshly turned 30, last month, and promised myself to do things I've always wanted to but never did for whatever reason.
The best kind of day is bookstores, thrift stores, coffee, food, and ending the evening with a movie or show marathon in a fort preferably. Blanket or pillow, don't want another Fort War like Troy and Abed right? I love having random deep conversations about everything and anything. I have the tendency to overshare and or apologize a lot. Yay adult autism. Sorry ahead of time!
I enjoy role-playing so D&D is a huge love of mine. Big fan of cosplaying and conventions whether it be for anime, games, or smutty books haha. I enjoy writing in my spare time too, anyone else addicted to fantasy or Sci fi?
As the title says, I am obviously an avid horror lover in all formats (books, movies, etc.). Though I try not to watch at night alone otherwise I scare myself haha. Big fan of haunted houses though I haven't been in a long time now. Oh and I play Xbox, PC, and the Switch mostly. Been addicted to modding my Sims 4 recently. We could share horrible Sim stories hahaha!
Just looking for some decent conversation at the least, even if only for a short time haha.
Pros for knowing me: Always supportive, Will always be honest, Will share food, Love sending and receiving memes, Willing to snuggle platonically
Cons: Anxious, Will want to talk often the closer we get, Will get sucked into a task and forget the world sometimes but I do respond asap (yay adhd). Roughly handles lifes' surprises and sometimes hermit myself so my brain can function. Which is crappy I know and I do try not to do so. Meh. You could probably find cooler to talk to 😆
Okay I'm done rambling. I look forward to maybe becoming best friends! I've always wanted to reenact Step Brothers lolol. I posted this before and then life decided to f**k me so I fell off the earth to process and handle it. I'm back and hoping to actually find someone. Fingers crossed for an Orc still haha!

TL;DR Hydro IPO, buy the owner exiting (US34460G1067) for the special dividend.
Listen here, regards. Are you tired of algo-saturated developed markets beating your ass? Why not invest in a slow-moving emerging market with sane valuation multiples that is almost taken seriously by serious investors with serious money?
In the next few weeks a $11B IPO is going live in Romania. It is going to be Romania’s biggest-ever listing and one of the biggest-ever listings of a European renewable energy company. Fondul Proprietatea SA, a Franklin Templeton-managed fund and the 20% minority owner of the majority state-owned Hidroelectrica is IPO-ing the entirety of its holding. In 3 months after receipt of the sale proceedings FP is issuing a special dividend, returning it to its shareholders. The exact valuation will be in the prospectus, but the minority holding has been valued at around $2.3B at the end of April.
Hidroelectrica is a 17 TWh hydropower producer, generating ~30% of Romania’s electricity consumption.
The IPO has the blessing of the Romanian state as the majority owner while keeping its shares. FP has been working with consultants and advisors on the IPO documentation for the last year.
The IPO is getting listed on the Romanian stock exchange (BVB), a relatively small Secondary Emerging Market and not served by a lot of retail brokerages. There is a concern that there is not enough liquidity to absorb such a big IPO. It is widely expected that the IPO is going to be snatched up by the local pension funds up to a maximum of 90% if the offer, made possible by a recent tailor-made legislation lifting a cap on these funds.
Participating in the IPO might have its merits, depending on the content of the prospectus. However, the play here is to buy FP pre-IPO for the special dividend. The fund is trading at a 23% discount to its NAV. The Hidroelectrica holding accounts for 75% of its NAV. Therefore the fund is priced right now at the value of the IPO proceedings. Sure, the share price will plummet after the special dividend, but it will not go to zero as it still has the rest of its portfolio of holdings. Romanian dividend withholding is a measly 8%.
If the IPO fails, you would be bagholding a fund which consistently pays dividends, buys back shares, has secondary offerings pushing the current share price discount to 44% of its Distribution Adjusted NAV.
The fund is listed on BVB (ticker FP), but a GDR is traded on the LSE, accessible to most of you. The ticker is FP. (with a dot), US34460G1067. Trading at $21.8, each GDR represents 50 ordinary FP shares.
Long 70,000 vanilla FP shares.
https://www.londonstockexchange.com/stock/FP./fondul-proprietatea-s-a/company-page
https://www.fondulproprietatea.ro/home/investor-relations/performance/monthly-nav-tracker.html
https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2023-05-30/chart-topping-romania-renewable-ipo-eyes-22-billion-pension-pot?utm_source=website&utm_medium=share&utm_campaign=copy

Hey y’all. Person of Vod here. I was listening to a recent-ish stream and was reminded of this old video:
https://youtu.be/ty62YzGryU4
In a house I lived in with a few others, everyone said milk differently and we used to all make fun of each other for it. I think saying “melk” is a more northeastern US thing. Can anyone confirm?

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I leave my house maybe once a fucking week, but apparently just wanting to go get fucking groceries without being harassed means I'm shoving my lifestyle in peoples faces.
I'm so fucking sorry that I exist and I don't want to be harassed when I walk down the street. I'm so fucking sorry that the fact I exist is so fucking intolerable to you that my very presence feels like it's being forced down your fucking throat.
Maybe if I had been able to kill myself properly you wouldn't be forced to have my lifestyle shoved down your throat. I know I try not to leave my house, I try not to interact with people, I don't have a relationship with my family, I don't make small talk at work. I never tell people about me, unless they ask me first, but still my very existence is being shoved down your fucking throat and so you have to protect the children from my wicked influence. So you make up stupid moral panic bullshit about chemical castration, which isn't fucking happening to kids.
Hey, maybe I don't want the next kid to end up with a fucking prejudice parent who beats the shit out of them on a regular basis for not being man enough, then kicking them onto the street at 16 when they find a fucking book. A FUCKING BOOK. Then use their power as a cop to make sure the kid can't finish school and has to live on the fucking street until they're 18, to "teach them a lesson".
How dare I fucking exist, how dare I fail at killing myself so many times that I'm still here to sit in my fucking little corner and just exist. I'm sorry my existence is so intolerable to all of you. I'm sorry I'm being shoved down your fucking throat by asking to not be harassed in public.
I just wish you fucking cowards had the fucking conviction to stand behind your prejudice. Instead of hiding behind moral panics and gaslighting.

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I'm looking to upgrade my really old pentium pc with a 1050ti gpu.
Saw this on sale at Costco for a limited time. The keyboard/mouse and rgb don't matter to me, but I'm curious if that's a good build or if I should go for something else? maybe a lower tier cpu and a bump up in gpu, like this
I'm targeting to stay right around $1k.
my gaming is 1080p because that's what I can handle, but I might be upgrading to 1440 monitors in a few months.
I appreciate any advice.

What comes around goes around. Was routinely the target of one particular bully in high school, never knew why. I minded my business and being middle class in a predominantly upper class school made me a target. Most of the time the fellow students backed off whenever I stood my ground physically. However, this particular gentleman specifically targeted vandalizing my vehicle, my house, locker, and anything who could to torment me while still have plausible deniability.
Anyways, shocker… scumbag dropped out senior year and I didn’t see him again for a while.
Fast forward to sophomore year of college. I’m 6ft 2 inch, 200lbs, single, enlisted in the Army, and going to school at Florida State University.
There’s a specific bar in Tallahassee near the capitol building, this bar is home to and frequented by cougars who work in the capitol. Most of them divorced.
Well, some Army buddies and I decide to partake in the activities at this bar. Being just about the only men in attendance we were definitely preyed upon.
Halfway through the evening, I chat up a gorgeous, 43 year old(twice my age at the time) brunette who worked in the DA office. We hit it off and I go home with her.
She showed me a great time and I can confidently say that I’ve never hunted a mountain lion but I have choked a cougar.
Following morning, after some additional activities with a mature, experienced, and dominant woman. I head downstairs to leave when I lock eyes with the very high school bully who tormented me for the better part of 3 years when I was younger.
I could not resist but start laughing, as the fat, unemployed, and balding scumbag (who probably heard the morning activities taking place) sat there, with his jaw on the floor.
Through my laughter I could hear him asking what I’m doing here and telling me to get out.
Now I never feared this guy, and always begged for the chance at revenge since he always got away with his antics
I turn to him as I head to the front door and state “heading out for a pack of cigarettes boy, look after your mother”
Days later while out at the strip on Tennessee street I bump into him at bulls…..needless he was not pleased by me introducing him as my stepson to my buddies.
He attempted to got to blows and was swiftly swept up by the bouncer.
Revenge is sweet, just like his mothers….uh well you know.

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Looks like it goes on sale at 2pm ET today.
Does this look like a good deal?

Wed May 31

grein+Jonathan Rodriguez, Variant State, Marie Carroll & Rihards Kolmanis, Sean Fennessy

Mayday 8pm $10 21+ bar opens 7pm, show at 8

Thu Jun 1

If These Walls Could Talk opening reception

Waterfire Arts Center 5pm “If These Walls Could Talk”, is month-long group exhibition by the 2022-2023 WaterFire Accelerate Artist Cohort: Denzel Amoah, Justin DeGraide, Savaree “Sav” Hazard-Chaney, Hannah Nahas, Rhue Nobre, and Elijah Trice. The exhibition is a mixed media art show that showcases a collection of captivating artworks based on the art of storytelling. Each piece explores the power of visual narratives and invites viewers to embark on a journey through the artist’s imagination.

Great Gale, North by North, The Callouts, Structure Sounds

Dusk 8:30 pm $10 music at 9

Fri Jun 2

Pride! Art Show

583 Charles St, Providence 6pm Gallerie Nomad is hosting its first Pride! Art Show. This free community event features local Artists as well as Drag Performers! The reception is Fri 6/2 from 6p-10p

Detroit Rebellion (fake news tour) / Gnarnia / Adapter Adapter / Balloon Thief

Askew 8pm $10 show at 9

Pons (NYC) / Amanita (PVD) / Neets (PVD)

AS220 8pm

Dead Reckoning / Mark of Wrath / Shapethrower / Endeavor

Dusk 8:30 pm $15 21+

Silver Dagger, Haunting Figure, Ritual Clearing, Sovnya

1911 9pm $10

Sat Jun 3

Thighs

Mayday

Push the Tempo: Amadeezy / Thiccboi Drewski B2B Sinhaus / ZP the Don / Josh Zen

Black BoxSlitty (MC)

Gallery Night! : TBA

AS220

RISD CRAFT: SPRING 2023 Sale

Benefit Street between Waterman and Hopkins Streets (on RISD campus) 11am RISD Craft features handmade fine art and design work by over 130 artists // 11am-5pm

Community Family West African Dance Celebration with Haus of Glitter

RISD Museum 11am Free EXPLORE, SUPPORT, PRESERVE & CELEBRATE Traditional West-African Dance from the Mande culture in Mali! Haus of Glitter Co-Directors, Assitan Coulibaly and Steven Choummalaithong are teaching this workshop accompanied by live Djembe and Djun Djun players Seydou Coulibaly and Moussa Traoré from The Yeredon Centre.

Scurvy Dog Parking Lot Mega Show I

Scürvy Dog 1pm Free 21+

art show closing night

Public 6pm till 8

Hysteria, SINK, Halo Bite, Jealous Mind

Al Dios No Conocido 8pm $10 Real guns, fake holsters night

StarBath / Coma Hole / The Sonce / Electric Paisan

Dusk 8pm 21+ THE LEGEND OF DUSK

Nova New Chorus / Sox Sux / Jake Wasson / FOLK

Red Ink Community Library 8pm $10 PWYC

Sun Jun 4

Books Through Bars Open House

St. Barnabas (Episcopalian) church in Warwick // Books through Bars has been operating for a year out of the vast ground/basement floor of St. Barnabas (Episcopalian) church in Warwick // All are welcome to come to an open house next Sunday if you want to see the space/ have a snack/learn more about volunteering.

The Tainsh Donahue Experiment

Lucky Enough 3pm no cover // till 6pm

edict / chained to the bottom of the ocean / life’s end / riverbed / Hate Still Burns / Opposition

Dusk 6pm $10 21+ PVD Booking Collective presents

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I'm gonna describe a few events over the course of like a year and please let me know what you think! We get to the meat a little further down but bare with me for the details! I genuinely want help with this and actually do not love sharing it this deeply.
I live in a house I really love with lots of yard, probably like 2 acres total. Its situated off the highway but the property itself is completely surrounded by pine trees 3 out of 4 sides. But the open side is where the yard stretches furthest out so there's still a sense of being enclosed when your by the house. I've lived her a little over a year. I enjoy being outside at night. I love the stars and glow of the dark sky and I like watching storms at night and I like listening to the frogs and crickets and whatnot. However. There IS like a little bird farm down the road. I've seen various ducks and geese and chickens and I definitely hear other things. When I first moved in the first night I chilled outside and heard the birds down the way was TERRIFYING. They make horrible sounds during the night if it's nice out because they get comfortable and chatter and move and so do their predators I imagine. I can understand that it's "just birds" to an extent but it is UNDENIABLE that some of the sounds I'm hearing are birds being mimicked. Okay.
I like being alone at night, outside .. it doesn't inherently bother me! My whole life I have always just kind of told myself "this world is my home and it's the same place just dark" and have gotten to enjoy the dark more than the average person I'd say lol. This has changed the last few months. In February my car was broken into late at night. I sat in my car smoking and watching a long movie until 2am then went in. Next morning I go out to a cracked open door and many things missing in the car. Obviously this bothers me! I truly feel like whoever it was WATCHED me that night before smoking and being up late out there the whole time...then saw me go in and to bed and went to my car. It's particularly disturbing because I like to park my car right in front of my house in the yard. They were a few meters away from where I slept in the living room that night.
So that day I go and buy new locks and a little camera. I'm particularly paranoid so I also put soup cans on all my house's like bedroom doors and back door...you know in case someone like fucking crawls through a window or jiggles the door... again, I was paranoid 😅. Anyways I lay down in the living room again that night and the SECOND I fall asleep I hear what can ONLY be described as someone taking a soup can and slamming it, bottom side down, onto the ground...like as if to make that particular sound...and just loud...and RIGHT the second I feel I was like drifting asleep. I wake up instantly afraid and like "noooo way". From the living room, I look down the hallway. The fucking soup can that was on my bedroom door (situated at the end of the hall) was sitting upright in the middle of the hallway on the ground, like 10 + feet away from the door, which was still closed. I froze in fear but IMMEDIATELY called 911. I was so shaken I remember feeling that I probably was "ghost white" like I felt to the bone afraid. I'm whispering to the 911 agent even. 2 cops show up and one treats me like I'm on drugs 😅 the other is on my same page like he looks genuinely spooked after I explain everything and agreed it was supernatural! I actually end up making them stay while I pack a bag and I leave to a friend's house like at 3 am that night.
So nothing really happens since then (early Feb.) except now at night I feel just... Afraid. I tried really digging my spiritual heels in and just not being fearful but it creeps in against my will. When I go out at night I.....KNOW something is watching me. It syncs with my fear if that makes sense? Like sometimes I go out and I smoke and I watched my couple videos and nothing...it's fine. Sometimes I'll just all of a sudden like "snap" into an awareness though.
Heres why I think it's a skinwalker okay... Finally lol
A little over a year ago I was at a turnpike travel station. I ended up driving around the building a few times looking for a spot. Slowly because there were lots of people and it was a busy lot. I noticed a man walking in the lot coming up from my flank (I'm in the car looking for spot, he's walking up to the store). People were still wearing masks I feel like significantly more than now... And he had a mask. It seemed like one of those flesh/face colored masks or one with a mouth printed on it ya know. Keep in mind I don't like interact with this man I just see him as a pedestrian as I'm watching out while a drive okay. So I noticed this guy and his mask right and I think to myself "hmm that's funny/weird" whatever right. I go to like turn my head and look at him again but my body like instinctually does not let me. Like my neck HALTS bruh like mid turn! And I feel afraid and like I definitely should not look at that guy. I don't know just a spiritual deep deep warning system went off and I felt it would harm me if I saw him again?!
I was there ya know getting gas and what not before continuing on to pick up my friend out of town. I head back onto the turnpike and continue just driving and thinking about seeing my friend. Then his face just pops in my head and I fucking realize.... HE DID NOT HAVE A FACE. Like I just got chills typing it. No eyes. Hollow sockets. No mouth. Like Neos mouth in the Matrix when the agent says "what mouth" !!!!!! Okay like just flesh colored smooth face shape. I basically throw er in the vault and think about something else right.
I pick up my friend. We head back on the road back to my house. She randomly says to me "you ever heard about skinwalker?" And proceeds to tell me like a summarized version and the couple different things she's heard of it. Y'all I immediately know in my fucking heart that the man I saw was that. I can't explain how random it was for her to say that about 2 hours after my encounter. And I did not tell her about it ya know like I VAULTED IT okay lmao. So she's looking at me like "what girl what's wrong" and I tell her about what happened on my way to her. We like collectively agree to not talk about it anymore.
This is important to me because like...it's TOO coincidental. And it's been awhile but that man is who I instantly think of when I feel this type of fear while outside at night. And not like "him" or even the face... It's the feeling of "I shouldn't be around this".
Last night I was outside again, having a smoke and watching my show. I've been stressed and what not lately .... No I've been deeply burdened okay. I'm burdened with guilt and fear and also anger at many things. Ive been actively seeking a spiritual means to an end with it and I'm blocked. It was late and nice out and I was just like crying and talking out loud my problems 😅 I stop. I be quiet because all of a sudden I just feel the fear again. The uncomfortableness of being afraid of the dark. So I try to be forthright and have conviction. I say out loud that "I don't know what I would do if there was just a monster or demon right there!" and something like "I'd fight it! Id protect my life or id fail i guess!" Like I'm just out loud speaking these things alone into the dark because it just has been feeling overwhelming to harbor it! ................... Then I hear a whistle. Clear and loud and directly from the tree in front of me. I keep talking out loud but kind of in that way how you pretend you are on a phone call when your uncomfortable walking alone or something, ya know? So that whoever might be thinking about harming you might be tricked into thinking your not alone type of thing.. I go inside like RIGHT AWAY. I don't smoke inside and it's even still lit and billowing inside while I anxiously check the doors and close the curtains.
I feel the urge to light a candle and I do so and walk it through the house while holding my little Cherokee rose rock. (I'm not Cherokee Indian, but I do have native blood as many do. I definitely feel a connection to the native way of life and many folklores. I don't claim to be native but I know I'm connected to the same plane.) I haven't touched or cared about that thing in YEARS and I opened my little cabinet of curiosities to get a candle and saw it laying there. When I held it I instantly felt safer.
I'm not the type who enjoys wallowing in fear. It eventually angers me. Im confrontational 🤷🏻‍♀️. When I feel this outside at night, at first, it feels DEEPLY scary. I feel cold and like I could be grabbed. But a few moments later I feel stupid. I feel angry for being so afraid in my own home. I pay a lot in rent! I take care of my home and enjoy the solitude the property itself offers. I want whatever entity is haunting my to GO AWAY. What should I do? Is it dangerous to challenge something like this? I don't want to submit or "not acknowledge" it. I don't want to run in my house and shut all my curtains!!!

Hey yall!
Quick question about how ambient light might affect the growing process. I am concerned about how ambient light from ceiling and wall lights either in my grow room or adjacent rooms at night might affect the growing process for my microgreens.
I live in a small living space so I don't have a lot of options. I will have LED lights set up over my trays on a timer that will provide the dedicated light, but I'm worried about the impact of the other lights in the house that might be on outside that specified time.
Any input is appreciated. I'm still very "green" to this :D

I really don't know why I'm making this post, but the walls are closing in, I should see if there's advice out there that can help me. Throwaway account, no particular reason, I guess I just don't want too many serious personal subjects attachted to my main account.
I'll give some context for my life/current situation that'll make things a bit easier to understand, I'll attempt to be as brief as possible. I(21M) was born to teenage parents. My mother, who had long standing, unaddressed mental health issues, committed suicide when I was a few weeks old. My father wasn't in the picture until I reached out to him when I was sixteen or seventeen. I was raised by my mother's mother and my uncles. I do not remember most of my childhood, a few scant happy memories that I can't forget, but mostly this nihilisitc feeling of dread which was a shadow over my younger years, we lived below the poverty line. I didn't grow up celebrating very many holidays.
We were forced to move when I was twelve years old or so, housing authority removed us because one of my uncle's had three children who were all living with us in a two bedroom home, which wasn't allowed. My grandmother and I lived with my aunt for two years or so, but we were kicked out when I was fourteen when my grandmother was laid off. I was homeless for a few months or so, until my girlfriends family asked me to move in so I had some chance of finishing school. When you're young and suddenly have the responsibilites of taking care of yourself, begging, and finding a dry place to sleep, you tend not to give two shits about your education. I wasn't living day to day, I was living hour to hour. I managed to struggle through school and did finish high school, not long after, I was kicked out of my girlfriend's family's home a month or so after my 19th birthday after I discovered she'd been cheating on my with one of her friends. The whole world crumbled for me, all of the work I'd put in, that feeling of having some sort of family stability (even though they weren't my blood relatives), was all washed away in a few minutes. I attemtped suicide, obviously didn't work, got instituionalized for two weeks, which helped my address my SH issues, and I've been clean from that since. An old friend of my mother's who'd been around my whole life offered a place to stay while I was in there.
I lived there for a year. Got my driver's license, got a job that would open up a solid career path that I am on now, and things seemed much more stable, but it was a lot of weight on my shoulders. Twenty years old, not much real world expierence, and my entire future depended on me at what feels like an unfair young age, but who am I to tell anyone what is and isn't unfair. This is the deck of cards I was handed. A year or so into this, I was in another relationship and rent was getting higher and I was trying to buy a car, all while my hours got cut in half. I went from making $3000 a month to $1000 a month. Once again, my girlfriend's family asked me to move in with them to give me better prospects of achieving my goals. That all collapsed after about nine months or so, my girlfriend cheated on me and moved out, her family didn't want to ask me to move, but some things occured which forced me to. I did manage to buy a car in that time, though.
I slept on my friend's living room floor for a month, an hour away from work, and one day I called up my dad, explained what had happened (He never checked in on me or reached out unless I did first, even though we had finally been in touch for four years at this point) and he told me to move in with him. It was even further away from my job, so I quit my job, moved to the middle of nowhere almost a year ago, and this is where I live now. My father and my step mother were under the presumtion that I am a carbon copy of my mother, a woman who is alien to me and that I do not know, and do not want to know. They were disappointed to say the least, and they cannot stand me. If they knew I had a place to go (I don't) they'd kick me out the instant they knew, and really, I do not know why. I keep to myself, I keep my living space ordily and clean, even though they've put me into a half insulated garage, same place they put the trash, leave the doors wide open so the bugs get in, and where a half centry old smell of cleaning supplies and gasoline stays with me. A few months ago, my father would get drunk and harass or assault me.
I'm in a relationship that is far more healthy, stable, and balanced than any of my other shitty, toxic relationships that I had in the past. It's the only thing that can keep me motivated and sane right now. I have a great job in a field that I excel in, and I am loving it, but my car is unrepairable, I'm in an upside down loan on it, and I depend on my parents and coworkers to just get to work and get home after work. I feel lost and hopeless. I feel stuck. I don't know what to do, I feel like there isn't anyone that can help me anymore.If you read the whole thing, sorry I didn't keep it brief, I felt that all of this was necessary to explain the context of my situation. Thank you, if you read it all. I hope you're having a good week, and a good rest of your day. Sorry for any spelling or grammar errors. By the way, the folks that raised my are on good terms but are still homeless. I help them more than they could ever help me, they sorta depend on me right now.

Got an email sent to our former Network Administrator from a CDW email address over the holiday weekend that sounded like a catch up / sales call request for a phone meeting. I responded politely to advise that the former Administrator was no longer with the company in our IT department and that we were perfectly happy with our current adobe creative suite licensing in the portal and had no plans to add additional licenses or remove any currently allocated licenses. Thought that was the end of it, I periodically get this type of email from current or former vendors we do or have done business with in the past. I got a response with another email that had been CCed telling me to refer to the linked items for our licensing agreement and that this was not a sales email and the meeting and Audit are required.
Apparently they haven't been doing audits the past seven years and now they're doing them again.
We only have a small number of licensed users with the full adobe creative suite which is licensed through their portal user accounts, and each user has a single activated computer or laptop (marketing team members who do graphics or video editing).
Has anyone been able to professionally and politely tell these guys to go pound sand?
I didn't care much for the prickly response from them. Had they worded their original email different and told me it was time for a mandatory audit to begin with I would have responded accordingly. The times they requested for possible dates for the meeting fall during my vacation cruise and I handed it off to our IT director to schedule and have the meeting.
I am pretty sure this isn't a scam, but it sure feels that way.